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Mirage of the Midnight Sun
A skywalker family fic.Slightly AU, follows the plot of the series but has a few tweeks here and there. Starts with Vader capturing Leia on EP IV. I cant remember much of the dialogue and some names of the officers and stuff, so forgive me if i have to improvise.
Chapter 7: The Death of Me
Obi-Wan Kenobi,former Jedi Knight of the long dismantled Republic, and Anakin's...former...master, who now goes by the name Ben Kenobi, crazy old hermit to many, lives in the Dune Sea, avoids people most of the time and rumored to have strange powers of some sort or the other, watched the Tatooine skyline, it was still noon, but something akin to a meteorite pierced the usually clear blue sky. "Strange..."...he had been on Tatooine for almost sixteen years, after the Fall of the Republic he and a handful of other Jedi Knights who managed to survive The Purge, instigated by Senator Palpatine, now of course, calling himself Emperor, to remove all opposition to his claim to power and ultimate control...and yes, Palpatine's right hand man had done most of the job...his former Padawan, the once kind and selfless little boy, who helped them with all his heart,even though they were complete strangers, the young man, whom he considered his son, who gave him more than a dozen headaches and equally joyous moments, who would undoubtedly die a thousand times to save the ones he cared about, and he did, from a certin point of view...Obi-Wan winced as he remembered their last moments together, not as Master and Padawan, but as Jedi Knight and Sith Apprentice, duelling to the death in the fiery heart of Sullust...Anakin's eyes burning with pure hatred...Obi-Wan's mind filled with questions, what had happened? what had gone wrong?...he was desperate...desperate to save Anakin, to explain everything, to make all the wrongs right, before it became too late...but it was too late...Anakin had Fallen...both figuratively and literally...Obi-wan won their battle...the Sith had lost...but, Obi-wan could not it see that way, he was choking with regrets, how could have he missed the changes?! how could he be so blind?! "Master, please save me..master.." Obi-wan had heard Anakin's last thoughts before the lava enveloped him...Anakin's mind screaming in pain...Obi-Wan almost jumped into the pit himself, Anakin was drowning in the Dark...but realized it was too late...he had to accept the truth, he lost Anakin...he failed two people that day...Anakin and Qui-Gon...he had promised Qui-Gon...now he failed his Master too...he was miserable...but he knew that there are many things to be done...Obi-wan forced himself to leave Sullust. He had no idea that the worst was to come. And that the galaxy would pay for HIS mistake...that millions would suffer, including those he ever cared about...
Ben Kenobi buried Obi-wan's memory once again...he sometimes thought himself separate from himself...that Obi-wan was not Ben, that Ben was merely a keeper of Obi-wan's memories..his life, his guilt, his pain and agony, that was how Ben Kenobi survived for sixteen years, knowing what he knew,without that pretense, he would have dwelled on the thought that he was a failure and a coward...he somehow knew he had to survive...a small part of him hoped that he could still save Anakin...one way or another, he owed Anakin, Qui-Gon and all the beings who became unwilling consequences of his actions, that effort, the only question was when and how...for now,Obi-wan was not here...only his memories are left and there would be another time to relieve them...an eternity, even.
Obi-wan watched the skyline for a few moments more, before walking back to the house...if you could call it that...he thought with a small ironic smile...without meaning to, he remembered his days in the Jedi Temple back there in distant Coruscant, now called Imperial Center..he had always been the rigid and sometimes cynical one, he often failed to notice beauty around him...even if it smacked him in the face...to him everything must either be useful or they must make sense...in layman's terms he was indeed a workaholic...missions always came first before anything else...so the ornate designs of the Jedi Temple remained unnoticed and unappreciated.."Obi-wan try to smell the flowers, look at the trees, admire your surroundings, for they are part of the Force"..his Master Qui-Gon Jinn would often say, but still Obi-wan remained as "dedicated" as he was..at least that's what he would like to think of himself as, but had Qui-Gon called him a "stiff walking stick" and though the old man admired him in many ways as a Padawan, Qui-gon still wished that Obi-wan "follow-the-rules-is-my middle-name" would stop,look and listen...and loosen up a bit, rather than treat life as if it was one big problem to be solved and analized and to be worried about...he wondered if that was something he had in common with Anakin...only they practiced it in different ways...ways that made them stand in each others light...ways that tore them apart...
//Anakin liked taking risks...at least to Obi-wan's opinion, that is, prone to letting his feelings and curiosity runaway with him,..."Anakin,sneaking around in the temple grounds at night is strictly forbidden, you of all people should know that!"...that what an incident that happened when Ani was barely ten years old, he was as mischievous as any boy his age..."I'm sorry Master, I just wanted to explore."..."Then, why don't you explore it during the day, when you won't be in danger of getting caught, you are careless, do you happen to know that?!" Obi-wan warned his young apprentice sternly.."Sorry, Master, won't happen next time"..."Better not, or I will go directly to Yoda."...of course Ani knew deep down that his Master won't do that, he had a promise to Qui-gon after all, that no matter what Anakin Skywalker would become a Jedi, yes no matter what, sneaking in the temple grounds included, maybe that's the reason the incident kept happening in a span of years, or maybe because the younger one was aware that Obi-wan wasnt as stern as he'd like to pretend, he did cover Ani many times...too many times...until finally, the day came when Ani outgrew the habit, it was worse than sleep walking, Obi-wan thought exasperatedly..but of course, one habit was replaced by another, like being very impetous and questionning every decision he or the Jedi Council made..."Master, why did we have to leave them, they'll kill each other!" Anakin had said, referring to their mission to gather information regarding the Rhodian Civil War,Anakin had been fifteen years old then, Obi-wan knew how well meaning the young man was, as much as they want to help...their orders were to observe, not engage..."We were not here to stop the civil war,Anakin, we're here, so we could provide some information required by the Chancellor, to strengthen the negotiations, in that way, we could help."...the young Jedi was disappointed...Obi-wan could see it clearly...Anakin had a notion that somehow he could make everything right, just because he was Anakin Skywalker..."I'm good at fixing things..."...he would say, as if reality was something of a pod racing equipment...if only that was the case...Anakin was also constantly tormented by dreams about his mother Shmi, perhaps he felt guilty about leaving her...which is understandable because Obi-wan himself had been forced to leave his family at an early age...what wasn't understandable was Anakin's reaction to such feelings...of course he was young and everybody feels that way once in a while, especially in Ani's case, that was his mother, but at times he would either isolate himself or be very temperamental...make no mistake Anakin was very kind but when his anger is aroused, it could be compared to that of an exploding volcano, destructive and all consuming made worse by the fact that he had a very short temper...that seemed to hint some dark prophecy to Obi-wan..."Anakin, I feel as if someday you will be the death of me..."..."No, master, don't say that."...i certainly hoped not...//
Obi-wan had finally reached his house, one made of stone and hardened sand, he doesnt have to worry about it being corroded by the rain since it never rained on Tatooine...the planet was a perfect contrast to Kamino, where rain lashed out in torrents everyday...He sighed..."I wonder how the Luke and Leia were doing right now." he wondered out aloud, while preparing a meal for the afternoon, he noticed that some of his supplies were already running low...perhaps i need to drop by Mos Espa, tomorrow...he thought...for now he settled on Corellian noodles and Parka Bread...Luke...well he knew what Luke was likely to be doing right now, helping in his uncle's farm, even though the young boy totally detested it, but being a Skywalker, he was most likely destined for greater things...and he wasn't young anymore, he's 18 years old already, even though they were living on the same planet, Obi-wan rarely saw Luke, he either spied him from a distance or did not see him at all, Obi-wan decided it was for the best, and besides Owen would have a heart attack if he went closer than four miles near Luke...he chuckled...the closest he had been with Luke was in Mos Eisley, Luke had gotten separated from Owen at that time and was nearly ran over by a Huttese ship..Obi-wan smiled at the memory...Luke had behaved very much like his father, and Obi-wan was sure Owen had suffered headaches, especially now that Luke was a grown up young man, and most likely trying to claim his freedom....very much like his father indeed, but i do hope Luke won't turn out like Anakin, otherwise my failure would be complete, he thought sadly...ahhh...time passes by so quickly, he thought, taking a bite of Parka Bread...and Leia, she was in many ways more blessed than her twin brother, adopted by Bail Organa from the Royal House of Alderaan, she was raised as a princess, had all the luxuries in life, but Obi-wan doubted that Leia had been totally happy...the last time he visited Alderaan was when Leia was seven years old, he knew that as Anakin's daughter, she had an exceptionally strong intutition, and he sensed an unnamed sadness in her being...somehow deep down Leia had known that Alderaan was not where she belonged...she looked so much like Padme...Padme...from what Bail had told him, Padme had asked if she could be Leia's babysitter, and he inclined, that was the least he could do for her...Padme was equally sad, her children...her family...had been separated by the galaxy's enmity, as she often said..."You know, I wish, I had not been a Queen or a Senator and Ani was not a Jedi...I wish we had been one of those ordinary families...like my sister Sola's family...unknown to the galaxy but perfectly content..."...she had said forlornly when Obi-wan came to talk to her, as a friend and Anakin's mentor, Padme valued his opinions greatly and agreed to his suggestion that the twins be separated, even though it was against her feelings as a mother, but if the Palpatine were to find them...Obi-wan knew Padme deemed herself responsible for Palpatine's rise to power..." I never saw through him, I was so naive!"...nobody saw through him, until it was too late...it had been years since he received communication from Alderaan, the last he heard was that Bail was involved in the Rebellion...and that Padme had left Alderaan shortly after his visit, to return to Naboo and perhaps to "die" in Leia's eyes...Bail's wife was ill-at ease with Padme's prescence..Padme must have thought that she ought to make things less complicated, for Leia's sake...Leia must have been very upset...but she will understand when the time comes...they all hoped that the twins would somehow understand... and that every decision they made was indeed for the best...as Anakin did...the time will come when they will find out which of them had really decided for the best...and that time is fast approaching...
After cleaning up, Obi-wan scanned the horizon once more..the stars were shining brighter than usual, as if rejoicing for some unknown triumph...night was falling fast...a new day will replace it, a new day and a new hope...or was this a nightmare without an end...he sighed and proceeded to lock the doors, when he was assaulted by a very familiar Force signature...Anakin?...it couldn't be...when Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader, his Force signature had also changed drastically, you could hardly tell Darth Vader was Anakin, his aura had been touched deeply by the Dark Side...but now...he felt as if Anakin was back...and his former Padawan was tormented by something...Obi-wan shook his head in disbelief...he was indeed getting old...
---------------short one, just want to make an update.Thanks to all who read and reviewed the fic, i really appreciate it.--------------
Mirage of the Midnight Sun
A skywalker family fic.Slightly AU, follows the plot of the series but has a few tweeks here and there. Starts with Vader capturing Leia on EP IV. I cant remember much of the dialogue and some names of the officers and stuff, so forgive me if i have to improvise.
Chapter 7: The Death of Me
Obi-Wan Kenobi,former Jedi Knight of the long dismantled Republic, and Anakin's...former...master, who now goes by the name Ben Kenobi, crazy old hermit to many, lives in the Dune Sea, avoids people most of the time and rumored to have strange powers of some sort or the other, watched the Tatooine skyline, it was still noon, but something akin to a meteorite pierced the usually clear blue sky. "Strange..."...he had been on Tatooine for almost sixteen years, after the Fall of the Republic he and a handful of other Jedi Knights who managed to survive The Purge, instigated by Senator Palpatine, now of course, calling himself Emperor, to remove all opposition to his claim to power and ultimate control...and yes, Palpatine's right hand man had done most of the job...his former Padawan, the once kind and selfless little boy, who helped them with all his heart,even though they were complete strangers, the young man, whom he considered his son, who gave him more than a dozen headaches and equally joyous moments, who would undoubtedly die a thousand times to save the ones he cared about, and he did, from a certin point of view...Obi-Wan winced as he remembered their last moments together, not as Master and Padawan, but as Jedi Knight and Sith Apprentice, duelling to the death in the fiery heart of Sullust...Anakin's eyes burning with pure hatred...Obi-Wan's mind filled with questions, what had happened? what had gone wrong?...he was desperate...desperate to save Anakin, to explain everything, to make all the wrongs right, before it became too late...but it was too late...Anakin had Fallen...both figuratively and literally...Obi-wan won their battle...the Sith had lost...but, Obi-wan could not it see that way, he was choking with regrets, how could have he missed the changes?! how could he be so blind?! "Master, please save me..master.." Obi-wan had heard Anakin's last thoughts before the lava enveloped him...Anakin's mind screaming in pain...Obi-Wan almost jumped into the pit himself, Anakin was drowning in the Dark...but realized it was too late...he had to accept the truth, he lost Anakin...he failed two people that day...Anakin and Qui-Gon...he had promised Qui-Gon...now he failed his Master too...he was miserable...but he knew that there are many things to be done...Obi-wan forced himself to leave Sullust. He had no idea that the worst was to come. And that the galaxy would pay for HIS mistake...that millions would suffer, including those he ever cared about...
Ben Kenobi buried Obi-wan's memory once again...he sometimes thought himself separate from himself...that Obi-wan was not Ben, that Ben was merely a keeper of Obi-wan's memories..his life, his guilt, his pain and agony, that was how Ben Kenobi survived for sixteen years, knowing what he knew,without that pretense, he would have dwelled on the thought that he was a failure and a coward...he somehow knew he had to survive...a small part of him hoped that he could still save Anakin...one way or another, he owed Anakin, Qui-Gon and all the beings who became unwilling consequences of his actions, that effort, the only question was when and how...for now,Obi-wan was not here...only his memories are left and there would be another time to relieve them...an eternity, even.
Obi-wan watched the skyline for a few moments more, before walking back to the house...if you could call it that...he thought with a small ironic smile...without meaning to, he remembered his days in the Jedi Temple back there in distant Coruscant, now called Imperial Center..he had always been the rigid and sometimes cynical one, he often failed to notice beauty around him...even if it smacked him in the face...to him everything must either be useful or they must make sense...in layman's terms he was indeed a workaholic...missions always came first before anything else...so the ornate designs of the Jedi Temple remained unnoticed and unappreciated.."Obi-wan try to smell the flowers, look at the trees, admire your surroundings, for they are part of the Force"..his Master Qui-Gon Jinn would often say, but still Obi-wan remained as "dedicated" as he was..at least that's what he would like to think of himself as, but had Qui-Gon called him a "stiff walking stick" and though the old man admired him in many ways as a Padawan, Qui-gon still wished that Obi-wan "follow-the-rules-is-my middle-name" would stop,look and listen...and loosen up a bit, rather than treat life as if it was one big problem to be solved and analized and to be worried about...he wondered if that was something he had in common with Anakin...only they practiced it in different ways...ways that made them stand in each others light...ways that tore them apart...
//Anakin liked taking risks...at least to Obi-wan's opinion, that is, prone to letting his feelings and curiosity runaway with him,..."Anakin,sneaking around in the temple grounds at night is strictly forbidden, you of all people should know that!"...that what an incident that happened when Ani was barely ten years old, he was as mischievous as any boy his age..."I'm sorry Master, I just wanted to explore."..."Then, why don't you explore it during the day, when you won't be in danger of getting caught, you are careless, do you happen to know that?!" Obi-wan warned his young apprentice sternly.."Sorry, Master, won't happen next time"..."Better not, or I will go directly to Yoda."...of course Ani knew deep down that his Master won't do that, he had a promise to Qui-gon after all, that no matter what Anakin Skywalker would become a Jedi, yes no matter what, sneaking in the temple grounds included, maybe that's the reason the incident kept happening in a span of years, or maybe because the younger one was aware that Obi-wan wasnt as stern as he'd like to pretend, he did cover Ani many times...too many times...until finally, the day came when Ani outgrew the habit, it was worse than sleep walking, Obi-wan thought exasperatedly..but of course, one habit was replaced by another, like being very impetous and questionning every decision he or the Jedi Council made..."Master, why did we have to leave them, they'll kill each other!" Anakin had said, referring to their mission to gather information regarding the Rhodian Civil War,Anakin had been fifteen years old then, Obi-wan knew how well meaning the young man was, as much as they want to help...their orders were to observe, not engage..."We were not here to stop the civil war,Anakin, we're here, so we could provide some information required by the Chancellor, to strengthen the negotiations, in that way, we could help."...the young Jedi was disappointed...Obi-wan could see it clearly...Anakin had a notion that somehow he could make everything right, just because he was Anakin Skywalker..."I'm good at fixing things..."...he would say, as if reality was something of a pod racing equipment...if only that was the case...Anakin was also constantly tormented by dreams about his mother Shmi, perhaps he felt guilty about leaving her...which is understandable because Obi-wan himself had been forced to leave his family at an early age...what wasn't understandable was Anakin's reaction to such feelings...of course he was young and everybody feels that way once in a while, especially in Ani's case, that was his mother, but at times he would either isolate himself or be very temperamental...make no mistake Anakin was very kind but when his anger is aroused, it could be compared to that of an exploding volcano, destructive and all consuming made worse by the fact that he had a very short temper...that seemed to hint some dark prophecy to Obi-wan..."Anakin, I feel as if someday you will be the death of me..."..."No, master, don't say that."...i certainly hoped not...//
Obi-wan had finally reached his house, one made of stone and hardened sand, he doesnt have to worry about it being corroded by the rain since it never rained on Tatooine...the planet was a perfect contrast to Kamino, where rain lashed out in torrents everyday...He sighed..."I wonder how the Luke and Leia were doing right now." he wondered out aloud, while preparing a meal for the afternoon, he noticed that some of his supplies were already running low...perhaps i need to drop by Mos Espa, tomorrow...he thought...for now he settled on Corellian noodles and Parka Bread...Luke...well he knew what Luke was likely to be doing right now, helping in his uncle's farm, even though the young boy totally detested it, but being a Skywalker, he was most likely destined for greater things...and he wasn't young anymore, he's 18 years old already, even though they were living on the same planet, Obi-wan rarely saw Luke, he either spied him from a distance or did not see him at all, Obi-wan decided it was for the best, and besides Owen would have a heart attack if he went closer than four miles near Luke...he chuckled...the closest he had been with Luke was in Mos Eisley, Luke had gotten separated from Owen at that time and was nearly ran over by a Huttese ship..Obi-wan smiled at the memory...Luke had behaved very much like his father, and Obi-wan was sure Owen had suffered headaches, especially now that Luke was a grown up young man, and most likely trying to claim his freedom....very much like his father indeed, but i do hope Luke won't turn out like Anakin, otherwise my failure would be complete, he thought sadly...ahhh...time passes by so quickly, he thought, taking a bite of Parka Bread...and Leia, she was in many ways more blessed than her twin brother, adopted by Bail Organa from the Royal House of Alderaan, she was raised as a princess, had all the luxuries in life, but Obi-wan doubted that Leia had been totally happy...the last time he visited Alderaan was when Leia was seven years old, he knew that as Anakin's daughter, she had an exceptionally strong intutition, and he sensed an unnamed sadness in her being...somehow deep down Leia had known that Alderaan was not where she belonged...she looked so much like Padme...Padme...from what Bail had told him, Padme had asked if she could be Leia's babysitter, and he inclined, that was the least he could do for her...Padme was equally sad, her children...her family...had been separated by the galaxy's enmity, as she often said..."You know, I wish, I had not been a Queen or a Senator and Ani was not a Jedi...I wish we had been one of those ordinary families...like my sister Sola's family...unknown to the galaxy but perfectly content..."...she had said forlornly when Obi-wan came to talk to her, as a friend and Anakin's mentor, Padme valued his opinions greatly and agreed to his suggestion that the twins be separated, even though it was against her feelings as a mother, but if the Palpatine were to find them...Obi-wan knew Padme deemed herself responsible for Palpatine's rise to power..." I never saw through him, I was so naive!"...nobody saw through him, until it was too late...it had been years since he received communication from Alderaan, the last he heard was that Bail was involved in the Rebellion...and that Padme had left Alderaan shortly after his visit, to return to Naboo and perhaps to "die" in Leia's eyes...Bail's wife was ill-at ease with Padme's prescence..Padme must have thought that she ought to make things less complicated, for Leia's sake...Leia must have been very upset...but she will understand when the time comes...they all hoped that the twins would somehow understand... and that every decision they made was indeed for the best...as Anakin did...the time will come when they will find out which of them had really decided for the best...and that time is fast approaching...
After cleaning up, Obi-wan scanned the horizon once more..the stars were shining brighter than usual, as if rejoicing for some unknown triumph...night was falling fast...a new day will replace it, a new day and a new hope...or was this a nightmare without an end...he sighed and proceeded to lock the doors, when he was assaulted by a very familiar Force signature...Anakin?...it couldn't be...when Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader, his Force signature had also changed drastically, you could hardly tell Darth Vader was Anakin, his aura had been touched deeply by the Dark Side...but now...he felt as if Anakin was back...and his former Padawan was tormented by something...Obi-wan shook his head in disbelief...he was indeed getting old...
---------------short one, just want to make an update.Thanks to all who read and reviewed the fic, i really appreciate it.--------------