Title: "I Plead The Fifth"
Authoress: Invader Nence, formally: Give the World for Mr. Black
Fandom: Harry Potter
Chapter Info: 2/13
Rating: PG-13, just b/c slash should be supervised… ^.^ (A bit of language, though! haha!)
Warning: Slash. M/M. ^_______^ It's harsh. ^_____^
Pairing(s): JP/SB, RL/SB, LM/JP, and SS/RL.
Year: WMMP+L, Seventh Year
Spoiler(s): Uuuuuuuuuh? ::Shrug:: Nodda, I guess!
Dedication: This is for you, Amandi!!!!!!!! ::Hugs:: You r0x!
Disclaimer: I don't 0w/\/z it… ::Sob::
Summary: "I plead the fifth!" is the cheater's way out of answering a question. But what if that's the only answer?
A/N: I love this. So, that probably means I'll ACTUALLY update sooner than usual! (Which could mean 3-4 times a week or ever, cause that'd be more than now… haha. ^__________________^ j/k. It'll be pretty good, tho!) Always--Ms. Snuffles.
Chapter Two: Surprises Cause Heartaches
*Thursday, October 24th*
-Sirius' PoV
I fished through the chest, looking for my quill. I needed to write a SERIOUS apology to James.
'Something's come up?' I thought, still trying to locate a writing utensil. 'No… too see-through…Ouch! Found my quill!' I pulled it out, as I continued to search for an excuse, making my way back to the common room, heading out into the hallway.
"Dog ate my confidence," I said aloud.
"Guess it must've been hungry," came a smooth reply.
"Lucius," I greeted, facing the slimy Slytherin.
"Black," he countered. He loved to use my last name. Remind me where I came from. Where I was destined to go. My dark past. "Love to stay and chat, but I've got to meet Severus and Narcissa for brunch… see you around…" I dismissed his comment with a nod, but found it odd that at 3 o'clock he'd be having brunch.
'Back to excuses,' I reminded myself. 'Divination homework due, gotta stay and do it? No…………… Remus wants to play Wizard's Chess… no………………… I have a stomach ache… maybe… nah… WHY IS THIS SO DAMN HARD?!'
"Ah, well, best be off to meet him then…" I dug my quill into my pocket along with my sweaty hands and made my way back to the common room and up to our dormitories. "No time like the present," I chided.
-James' PoV
I waited not-so-patiently in the bathroom for Sirius. He should've been here by now and I was beginning to get worried. Yes, he likes to be fashionably late, but he knows how important this is. Right?
As the hidden door slid open and clear blue eyes met mine, I nodded a greeting to Padfoot. He smiled and I saw the left side of his mouth twitching.
"I guess… well, I guess I'd better get this over with…" I began. 'Great opening, James!' I scolded myself. "What I mean is… I want to know why you've been avoiding me…"
"You know… you can't tell me it's not awkward for you too… any human being within a mile of us could feel the…" I waited as Sirius searched for the right word, "discomfort!"
"Is that all it was to you? A bit of 'discomfort'?!" When I said the last word, I did it in a tone made only to mock him.
I think this caught him off-guard, because he stuttered for quite a long time, before saying, "Do you know why I did it?"
"I thought," I said carefully, "it was because you liked me, mate!"
"And what if I did? Wouldn't that disgust you?" The question seemed to be meant more for him than for me, but I answered anyway,
"What do you think?" I asked, completely afraid of his answer.
"I hoped not. But after you left in such a hurry… I didn't know…" Now, Sirius seemed to get uneasy. He started to shift weight between his feet and scratch the back of his head nervously.
"I can tell you," I said, moving nearer to him, "it's all I've thought about for two weeks…"
"Really?" He sounded hopeful. I took this as my chance. I leaned close and pressed my lips gently against his. He responded quickly, deepening the kiss. It wasn't soft and sweet like the first one. It was intense and passionate. Before I knew what we were doing, I had pulled him on top of me and he was ripping off his shirt. Leaning on the counter for support, I flicked my tongue into his mouth, which he willingly accepted, moaning loudly.
-Remus' PoV
I heard the sounds from up in our dormitory. They scared me. Being half-human, my instincts told me to get closer, to listen more intently. Following the smell of desire, I leaned against the wall that led to the unknown bathroom. The sounds were coming from there.
Moving my hands along a seam, I found a switch and quickly pressed it. The wall slid open and I peered inside, not ready for what I was about to see.
My eyes popped open and my jaw dropped. Sirius and James were snogging. On the bathroom counter. James' shirt was on the floor and Sirius' pants were unzipped, robes long-since been torn off. I gasped and pulled my clothes closer, afraid mine would want to join the ones scattered on the floor.
"Sirius?! JAMES?!" I couldn't help myself. The words just came out. Out of nowhere. (Besides my mouth, of course.) Both bodies became rigid and they both stared at me, mouths agape.
"Remus?" James' response was all I got for about thirty seconds.
"Moony? That you?" was what I got next, this time from Sirius.
"Yeah… what the hell are you two doing?!" I couldn't control myself anymore. Desire and anger had put me in autopilot and the werewolf in me wanted to rip out James' internal organs and eat them for dinner.
"Er…" James being OH-so intelligent again.
"Erm… y'see…" Sirius right behind in the intelligence contest.
I was too upset to hear what they said next. I ran. Far. Fast. I could feel the tears. I kept up pace and soon I was near the doors. When I reach the outside air, I still didn't stop. I kept going. Edge of the forest. I had never been in there outside of my wolf form. I didn't care. The salty drops were streaking my face now. As I passed the first row of trees, the darkness engulfed me. This was where I belonged. With the unwanted. The uncared-for.
-Lucius' PoV
Lucky for me, Longbottom is a complete and total git. I found the Gryffindor passwords no problem. Passwords that could allow me to watch him sleep. To watch him. Everywhere. Anytime. Supplying the correct word ("gargoyle"), the Fat Lady granted me entrance with a weary eye. I smiled, recognizing James' scent everywhere.
The strongest scent seemed to be coming from upstairs. I quickly found it in the dormitories, but James was nowhere to be found. I dismissed it with a wave of my hand, realizing he must've been here last. I found the trunk that had the letters "JP" etched into it. 'Just like it's etched into my heart…' I opened it quietly, rummaging through his belongings.
First, I found an interesting, multicolored cloak and some extra socks, but then I found the book. The book that I knew would let me into his life. His Journal. I flipped to the first page and read the entry.
Journal.
I'm not quite sure how to write in this, but Remus suggested that to relieve stress with the N.E.W.T.'s coming up this year, I should get a journal and write down what I'm feeling. So here goes.
Lily turned me down again. It hurts. I care about her. Hell, I might even love her. But, life goes on. I'll get her. I swear it!
I groaned a turned a few more pages, looking for my name. Finding an entry on January 14th of this year, I read on…
Lucius is acting SO weird around me lately. He keeps acting all buddy-buddy. But! He's friends with Snivillus! I can't be friendly to him! Plus, Sirius hates him! Nope, can't like him. No-no!
'Yuck! Keep going!' I scanned a few months later, stopping on July 28th of this year.
I think I like Sirius. As in, I wanna snog him senseless! I think about it all the time. Even when we're in our secret bathroom alone, plotting evil stuff! I want to kiss'm so bad, it hurts. Maybe it's just a physical attraction. I'm leaving it alone for now, mate! Don't wanna lose our dear Padfoot now, do we?
-JP
I glared at the page and turned to October 10th, where Sirius' name showed up again.
Sirius kissed me, dammit! He kissed me! Short and sweet and simple, but it was a kiss! I ran out! I'm such a git! But I loved it and I'm talking to him tomorrow. Do you think it'd be weird between us if we dated? I really, truly think I could spend the rest of my life with him.
Bad news. I never thought I'd say this, but Lily asked me out. I agreed. Nothing to worry about, just a little date. Hopefully she doesn't try to kiss me. I KNOW it'd be nothing like Sirius. He's the best kisser. Ever.
'NO!' This was all I could handle. Yet, I continued to read. There were no entries until October 14th, where I read intently. I hated to admit it, but I was hooked.
I tried to talk to him. He ignored me. This is pointless. He obviously regrets it. Now I do too. I loved it. I'd love to do it again, but I'll never force him. I'm leaving it all alone. When Sirius is ready, he'll talk to me. I hope I can wait.
-JP
There was one last entry from this morning. I let my eyes drift over the page as I skimmed it, suddenly aware of how deep I was in this situation. James loved Sirius. They'd kissed. This could end everything in Hogwarts for them if anyone found out. This could be the end.
'Could I do this to James,' was the only question, really, in my mind. The answer? 'Yeah… most definitely…' I'd probably regret it later, but now, it was the only solution for me. I needed James to hurt. Needed him to hurt like I hurt now. I grabbed the small book, leaving without a sound. This was the beginning of an end for me. The end of a beginning for James.
-Snape's PoV
:Snape's Journal Entry:
Today was most DEFINATLY the worst day of my life.
I tried to help Remus in Potions. He told me to 'go away and never talk tot him again… he knew what I was up to and it wasn't going to work'… does he really know? Am I that obvious with my feelings? I'm not good at this whole emotion-thing. I hate it actually. But, the thing with Remus has evolved into a bit of a lusting now. Desire only. I think I can overcome this. It's more predictable than the crush-thing.
Lucius should be here soon.
-Severus
A/N: Yeah, I'm too lazy to actually write Sev-chan into the plot and I realize he's only had journal entries up 'til now, and if I continue at this rate, he'll never appear. ^____^
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