Title: Me, Mac and Sarah
Author: Chris
Rating: PG
Summary: Mac thinks about her relationships with Clay and Harm then takes
action.
Spoilers: set right after 'take it like a man'
Disclaimer: Not mine, don't sue.
Feedback: appreciated but not required
Chapter 5
Mac's POV
When he hands me my sea bag I notice he's brought up my extra uniform too. I know he must of figured out why it was in my trunk but he doesn't say a word just hangs it up in the closet next to his.
I drain the rest of my tea and head to the bathroom to change. When I come back out Harm has turned off all the lights and is already in bed. He holds the covers up for me. I slide into the bed next to him and cuddle into his chest. I'm so exhausted I fall asleep almost immediately but not before I feel him kiss my hair and whisper, "good night ninja girl."
"'night Harm," I mumble half asleep.
The nest morning I awake to a familiar smell. That is it's familiar until I realize where I am. Harm's cooking bacon? Oh right, he has meat in the apartment for Mattie and Jen.
Mattie and Jen! What are we going to tell them when I show up at the breakfast table? I guess we'll deal with it when it happens, right now I need a shower. I shower with marine efficiency and am ready to go within 15 minutes. Before heading down the stairs I peek out to see if Mattie and Jen are here yet. They aren't.
"Morning Flyboy," I say cheerfully. For once I really am, last night was the best night's sleep I've had since Paraguay.
"Morning Mac," He says and he hands me a plate of bacon, eggs and toast.
"Harm what are we going to tell Mattie and Jen when they come for breakfast?" I ask.
"The truth," Harm replies, "that you were upset last night and that you came over."
"But what about why I stayed?" I ask.
"We can say that I wouldn't let you because of the rain," Harm says. He pauses for a moment before asking the question I've been dreading, "why did you stay last night Mac. What happened with Clay that you couldn't face him?"
"It's kind of a long story," I say, "but the short version is he tried to rationalize killing Sadik when all I wanted was to be held. And then when I got here and you were doing just that I realized how much my relationship with Clay is a sham. He said something to me the other day, and last night I realised it was true."
"What did he say?" Harm asks gently.
"He said that the only reason I was with him was because you weren't available," I tell him, "he was right, I was with him because you weren't available and he was the anti Harm."
Harm seemed a little taken aback by the bluntness of the statement. It took him a few seconds to regain his voice, "I'm available Sarah, I just come with a little more baggage now."
"I realize that now," I say, "And I want to take back what I said in Paraguay. I want to take back all of it but especially when I said never. There's still this thing between us, there always will be, I want to try to make it work between us."
"What about Clay?" Harm asks. He's got disbelief in his voice like his thinks this might all be a dream.
"I'll have lunch with him today," I say, "I'll break things off with him. It never would have worked with him anyways, even if you weren't in the picture."
"Can I just do one thing before the girls get here?" Harm asks me as gets out of his chair to come closer to me.
"What's that?" I ask. I have an idea but I just want to be sure.
"This," he says before he softly kisses my lips.
It's that exact moment that I hear the sound of the door knob being turned. Harm quickly pulls away and turns to the kitchen before the girls can catch us kissing and assume something totally different about last night.
Chapter 5
Mac's POV
When he hands me my sea bag I notice he's brought up my extra uniform too. I know he must of figured out why it was in my trunk but he doesn't say a word just hangs it up in the closet next to his.
I drain the rest of my tea and head to the bathroom to change. When I come back out Harm has turned off all the lights and is already in bed. He holds the covers up for me. I slide into the bed next to him and cuddle into his chest. I'm so exhausted I fall asleep almost immediately but not before I feel him kiss my hair and whisper, "good night ninja girl."
"'night Harm," I mumble half asleep.
The nest morning I awake to a familiar smell. That is it's familiar until I realize where I am. Harm's cooking bacon? Oh right, he has meat in the apartment for Mattie and Jen.
Mattie and Jen! What are we going to tell them when I show up at the breakfast table? I guess we'll deal with it when it happens, right now I need a shower. I shower with marine efficiency and am ready to go within 15 minutes. Before heading down the stairs I peek out to see if Mattie and Jen are here yet. They aren't.
"Morning Flyboy," I say cheerfully. For once I really am, last night was the best night's sleep I've had since Paraguay.
"Morning Mac," He says and he hands me a plate of bacon, eggs and toast.
"Harm what are we going to tell Mattie and Jen when they come for breakfast?" I ask.
"The truth," Harm replies, "that you were upset last night and that you came over."
"But what about why I stayed?" I ask.
"We can say that I wouldn't let you because of the rain," Harm says. He pauses for a moment before asking the question I've been dreading, "why did you stay last night Mac. What happened with Clay that you couldn't face him?"
"It's kind of a long story," I say, "but the short version is he tried to rationalize killing Sadik when all I wanted was to be held. And then when I got here and you were doing just that I realized how much my relationship with Clay is a sham. He said something to me the other day, and last night I realised it was true."
"What did he say?" Harm asks gently.
"He said that the only reason I was with him was because you weren't available," I tell him, "he was right, I was with him because you weren't available and he was the anti Harm."
Harm seemed a little taken aback by the bluntness of the statement. It took him a few seconds to regain his voice, "I'm available Sarah, I just come with a little more baggage now."
"I realize that now," I say, "And I want to take back what I said in Paraguay. I want to take back all of it but especially when I said never. There's still this thing between us, there always will be, I want to try to make it work between us."
"What about Clay?" Harm asks. He's got disbelief in his voice like his thinks this might all be a dream.
"I'll have lunch with him today," I say, "I'll break things off with him. It never would have worked with him anyways, even if you weren't in the picture."
"Can I just do one thing before the girls get here?" Harm asks me as gets out of his chair to come closer to me.
"What's that?" I ask. I have an idea but I just want to be sure.
"This," he says before he softly kisses my lips.
It's that exact moment that I hear the sound of the door knob being turned. Harm quickly pulls away and turns to the kitchen before the girls can catch us kissing and assume something totally different about last night.