Disclaimer: I don't own anything except the Bombus plant. My last chapter's
title is a line from the lyrics to the song Dead on Arrival by Fall Out
Boy. This chapter's title is from the Goo Goo Doll's song "Iris."
Chapter 7: You Bleed Just to Know your Alive
"Ok Blaise, I'll see you tomorrow!" Draco called out to Blaise as he entered his dormitory. Draco flopped onto his bed lined with green and silver sheets and he grabbed the nearest magazine and flipped through it. After about 10 minutes of reading the magazine Draco got up and went to the bathroom. The marble tiled glinted as he walked up to the mirror to examine his face to make sure he didn't have any zits or anything of the sort. He inspected every inch and smiled at himself.
"I'm such a sexy beast," he thought as he glanced around the bathroom counter. There wasn't much on it besides some shampoo, hair gel, a comb, and a can of shaving cream with a razor. A razor. All of a sudden memories of Evie's hate for him came whirling into his mind. I hate you, leave me alone, don't fall in love with me. All of Evie's loathsome words toward him. Draco carefully picked up the glinting silver razor blade and looked at it so closely that the silver acted as a mirror showing Draco's reflection. He caressed the blade in his hand and flipped his wrist over to let out all of the emotions that burdened him and made his life the living hell it was.
[A/n: Cutting is a serious issue and I didn't want to expose it so much in detail. Use your imagination. ]
Draco woke up the next morning and grimaced in pain as he stared at his scarred wrist. Noticing the time and that he was going to be late for breakfast, he grabbed a long sleeved hoodie that said "Shorty's" and pulled on a pair of pants and trudged to the Great Hall. Draco looked around at the happy faces of all the students and his eyes were brought down on Evie sitting alone at an empty corner of the Slytherin table.
"Serves her right,"Draco thought as he made his way to Blaise only to be stopped by a mass of flowing brown hair. Draco looked at the person obstructing his view and saw that it was a flourished and angered Hermione Granger.
"DRACO YOU DEMON!" Hermione shrieked and with a strong swift movement of her hand she slapped him in front of everyone. Looking satisfied she returned to the Gryffindor table and the whole Great Hall was quiet. Soon murmurs and whispers were heard.
"Pussy,wuss,hes so whipped," the words chorused in Draco's head as he heard people talking about him as he walked to the Slytherin table. Glancing at Blaise he saw Blaise shift down a few seats being embarrassed to be seen with Draco.
Just Pleasant.
Evie drank her pumpkin juice and brushed a few strands of hair away from her face. She was wearing black and pink capris with a Vans hoodie that was black with a pink checkered logo across the front. Draco eyed her carefully trying not to seem obvious.
"Just don't fall in love with me," again those words haunted Draco's mind. He decided to leave the Great Hall and return to his corridors. Once in his room; he ran to the bathroom and once again continued his routine that was the only way to get rid of the pain.
When everyday seems like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.
When Draco came out of the bathroom with a cloth over his arm he did something he never did before in his life. He sat on his bed and cried.
He cried out all of the tears that stung his eyes for seven years. He cried away the pain that Evie brought to him when he looked into her eyes. He cried away the pain that his father burdened him with when he screamed and beat him. He cried away the looks that he received from every student in the Great Hall. He cried away every bit of love he had. He cried away Evie.
* * *
When Draco finally emerged from his room he ran straight to his Potions Class only to find that the students were milling out of the dungeon as a result of the class being over. He saw Evie walking slowly away from everyone else with her gray eyes cast down. Draco stiffened and walked right by her without a word or a glance. Evie's head flipped up as she saw Draco with a glimmer of hope in her eyes. But she knew he was only obeying her. He was finally leaving her alone. Something about it felt odd. Evie looked at Draco and his skateboard appearance as he walked by. She looked down at his arm as the sleeve rose up a few inches revealing a red canvas. Evie was puzzled at it but decided it wasn't a big deal. She continued on her way to Charms as she stared down at her black Etnies sneakers. Draco was a few feet in front of her acting as if she ever existed. Something had to be done. When Draco was rounding the corner she grabbed his shoulders and pulled him into the nearest door.
"What the bloody hell-EVIE?" Draco said bewildered as he looked at the person who dragged him into what it seemed to be the Room of Requirement. Evie's eyes were soft and she looked as if she would cry.
"Draco...I'm sorry," she whispered. Draco was outraged.
"WHAT THE HELL EVIE? You tell me to basically never speak to you for the rest of my life and you practically kill me by burning me to a crisp and you think its perfectly ok just to say you sorry and its all better?" Draco screamed throwing his hands up in the air revealing a small portion of his scarred wrist.
"What is that Draco," Evie said raising an eyebrow.
"Nothing,"Draco shot back. That wasn't good enough for Evie. She grabbed his sleeve and jerked it up. Tears came to her eyes as she ran her fragile hands over his wrist,
"Draco.......how could you do this to yourself!" she screamed as a rush of tears splurged from her eyes. Draco banged his fist against the wall and slid down as he grimaced. He buried his face in his hands while Evie sat down next to him crying silently.
"Evie....Do you know how HORRIBLE you treated me and how bad you and everyone else mad me feel? There was no other way...I'm just not worth living," Draco said and got up to leave.
"Draco Don't leave please?" Evie requested quietly and grabbed his arm. Draco reluctantly sat back down with Evie and they both cried..in each others arms.
Chapter 7: You Bleed Just to Know your Alive
"Ok Blaise, I'll see you tomorrow!" Draco called out to Blaise as he entered his dormitory. Draco flopped onto his bed lined with green and silver sheets and he grabbed the nearest magazine and flipped through it. After about 10 minutes of reading the magazine Draco got up and went to the bathroom. The marble tiled glinted as he walked up to the mirror to examine his face to make sure he didn't have any zits or anything of the sort. He inspected every inch and smiled at himself.
"I'm such a sexy beast," he thought as he glanced around the bathroom counter. There wasn't much on it besides some shampoo, hair gel, a comb, and a can of shaving cream with a razor. A razor. All of a sudden memories of Evie's hate for him came whirling into his mind. I hate you, leave me alone, don't fall in love with me. All of Evie's loathsome words toward him. Draco carefully picked up the glinting silver razor blade and looked at it so closely that the silver acted as a mirror showing Draco's reflection. He caressed the blade in his hand and flipped his wrist over to let out all of the emotions that burdened him and made his life the living hell it was.
[A/n: Cutting is a serious issue and I didn't want to expose it so much in detail. Use your imagination. ]
Draco woke up the next morning and grimaced in pain as he stared at his scarred wrist. Noticing the time and that he was going to be late for breakfast, he grabbed a long sleeved hoodie that said "Shorty's" and pulled on a pair of pants and trudged to the Great Hall. Draco looked around at the happy faces of all the students and his eyes were brought down on Evie sitting alone at an empty corner of the Slytherin table.
"Serves her right,"Draco thought as he made his way to Blaise only to be stopped by a mass of flowing brown hair. Draco looked at the person obstructing his view and saw that it was a flourished and angered Hermione Granger.
"DRACO YOU DEMON!" Hermione shrieked and with a strong swift movement of her hand she slapped him in front of everyone. Looking satisfied she returned to the Gryffindor table and the whole Great Hall was quiet. Soon murmurs and whispers were heard.
"Pussy,wuss,hes so whipped," the words chorused in Draco's head as he heard people talking about him as he walked to the Slytherin table. Glancing at Blaise he saw Blaise shift down a few seats being embarrassed to be seen with Draco.
Just Pleasant.
Evie drank her pumpkin juice and brushed a few strands of hair away from her face. She was wearing black and pink capris with a Vans hoodie that was black with a pink checkered logo across the front. Draco eyed her carefully trying not to seem obvious.
"Just don't fall in love with me," again those words haunted Draco's mind. He decided to leave the Great Hall and return to his corridors. Once in his room; he ran to the bathroom and once again continued his routine that was the only way to get rid of the pain.
When everyday seems like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.
When Draco came out of the bathroom with a cloth over his arm he did something he never did before in his life. He sat on his bed and cried.
He cried out all of the tears that stung his eyes for seven years. He cried away the pain that Evie brought to him when he looked into her eyes. He cried away the pain that his father burdened him with when he screamed and beat him. He cried away the looks that he received from every student in the Great Hall. He cried away every bit of love he had. He cried away Evie.
* * *
When Draco finally emerged from his room he ran straight to his Potions Class only to find that the students were milling out of the dungeon as a result of the class being over. He saw Evie walking slowly away from everyone else with her gray eyes cast down. Draco stiffened and walked right by her without a word or a glance. Evie's head flipped up as she saw Draco with a glimmer of hope in her eyes. But she knew he was only obeying her. He was finally leaving her alone. Something about it felt odd. Evie looked at Draco and his skateboard appearance as he walked by. She looked down at his arm as the sleeve rose up a few inches revealing a red canvas. Evie was puzzled at it but decided it wasn't a big deal. She continued on her way to Charms as she stared down at her black Etnies sneakers. Draco was a few feet in front of her acting as if she ever existed. Something had to be done. When Draco was rounding the corner she grabbed his shoulders and pulled him into the nearest door.
"What the bloody hell-EVIE?" Draco said bewildered as he looked at the person who dragged him into what it seemed to be the Room of Requirement. Evie's eyes were soft and she looked as if she would cry.
"Draco...I'm sorry," she whispered. Draco was outraged.
"WHAT THE HELL EVIE? You tell me to basically never speak to you for the rest of my life and you practically kill me by burning me to a crisp and you think its perfectly ok just to say you sorry and its all better?" Draco screamed throwing his hands up in the air revealing a small portion of his scarred wrist.
"What is that Draco," Evie said raising an eyebrow.
"Nothing,"Draco shot back. That wasn't good enough for Evie. She grabbed his sleeve and jerked it up. Tears came to her eyes as she ran her fragile hands over his wrist,
"Draco.......how could you do this to yourself!" she screamed as a rush of tears splurged from her eyes. Draco banged his fist against the wall and slid down as he grimaced. He buried his face in his hands while Evie sat down next to him crying silently.
"Evie....Do you know how HORRIBLE you treated me and how bad you and everyone else mad me feel? There was no other way...I'm just not worth living," Draco said and got up to leave.
"Draco Don't leave please?" Evie requested quietly and grabbed his arm. Draco reluctantly sat back down with Evie and they both cried..in each others arms.