…….=Telepathic speech
Italics = Thoughts
~……~ = Dreams
*……* = Emphasis
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After breakfast Scott called the team together. Sabretooth was attacking a group of FOH members. Normally the X-men would have just let it happen, but this time there were innocent people in the same building. They had to get the two enemies out of each other's hair and save the others.
After Scott had told them the strategy, the X-men jumped in the Blackbird and flew to the scene. Once there they worked according the plan and everything went well till Logan went feral. The X-men knew he hated Sabretooth, but he would never endanger the team or other people. This time, however, he was dangerously close to a mother with her two children.
'Logan snap out of it!' Yelled Scott. 'Jean, can you calm him down with your telepathy?'
'I'm sorry Scott I tried but I can't break through his walls!'
'Damn! Ok, Storm, Gambit, Angel and Rogue keep Sabretooth busy, while Jean, Beast and I try to calm Wolverine.'
Logan tried to get to Sabretooth but the mother and children still stood in his way. He growled and lashed at the woman. But just before he really slashed her, a blue, furry paw grabbed his wrist. This angered him even more and he tried to pull loose and succeeded.
'Logan my friend, please calm down, I do not intend to harm you…' Hank pleaded.
All he got was another roar from Logan.
'Scott, I'm afraid this is not going to work! Shall I get a sedative?'
'I'm afraid we haven't got a choice Hank, go get it.'
While Hank ran to the Blackbird he saw Sabretooth was now unconscious and Storm and the others were helping the last people out of the building. He rummaged in his medical bag and took out a syringe with a sedative strong enough to knock out a horse.
When he returned, all the X-men were surrounding Logan and pleading him to get in control again.
'Alright my friends, if some one will be kind enough to lead his attention from me, I will be able to inject him.'
Once Hank injected him, Logan growled one last time and fell on the ground.
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Logan groaned as he woke up.
Where the hell am I? What happened?
He opened his eyes and realized he was in the medlab. He tried to get up but he discovered he was tied to the bed.
What the…?! Great…Well better wait for someone to release me.
He closed his eyes again, but after a few seconds he suddenly opened them again.
Oh shit! I went feral! Damn, hope the others are ok…Damn! I didn't want to lose control…Shit Logan you could've killed someone… Did I kill someone? Maybe that's why I'm fixed?
He heard footsteps approaching, the door opened and Hank followed by the professor came in.
'Hello my feral friend, did you sleep well?'
'Yeah…' Logan grunted, not looking up to them. 'Can you release me?'
'Of course we can Logan.' Hank released Logan and gave him room to sit up. Logan rubbed his wrists and looked down.
'Thanks. I'm sorry didn't want to lose control.' Logan said still not looking at them.
'Logan, we know that you didn't want to, but unfortunately it did happen and you seriously endangered innocent people.'
'Hell, I know Chuck and I hate myself for it, ok? I couldn't help it!' Logan jumped out the bed angrily and stormed out of the medlab.
He met Jean in the hallway.
'Hello Logan, feeling better?'
'Fine.'
'Look, I know that you hate Sabretooth, but what you did back there was very irresponsible. Violence doesn't solve anything, quite the opposite, it makes things only worse. Like hurting an innocent mother and her children. I think you don't work hard enough on your self-control.'
'Sure, Jean…' I'm already doing the best I can…
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When he came in the rec-room the only people there were Warren and Rogue. Warren, who was bandaging his hand, just glared at him.
Logan wanted to turn and go away, but Rogue saw him.
'Hey, look it's mister 'let's endanger the mission'! How you doing Sugah?' Rogue drawled with heavy sarcasm.
And this time Logan did turn around and went away.
When he ran towards his room, he once more ran into Scott.
'Logan, you're just the person I was looking for! Why the hell did you do that back in that building? You could have killed someone! Are you nuts?!?!' Scott glared at him.
'Yeah, well maybe I am! Get outta my way!'
'I'm not going "outta" your way! You're going to stay here and listen to me! If something like that happens once more, you're off duty until I say you're on duty again! Do you understand?'
'Yeah, understand. Can I go now!?!?' And with that Logan changed direction and went to the garden.
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Why are they mad at me? It wasn't my fault. Sabretooth provoked me…I can't help it I have nightmares and insomnia…It wasn't my fault…I tried to beat it, to make it stop…I couldn't help it, it wasn't my fault…nightmares…lack of sleep…lack of self-control…it wasn't my fault…not my fault. They're always mad at me. Why? I can't help it. Can't they see I try so hard to control it? I try so hard…It's not fair…Does someone blame Rogue when she accidentally touches someone? And Cyclops when someone grabs his glasses away and he isn't fast enough to close his eyes? I try so hard… and still…why? And the nightmares, they only make it worse…like it's fun to have nightmares…they just don't understand…It wasn't my fault…why me, it's not fair…
He fought to keep the tears at bay.But as always his self-control was lousy, and a single tear rolled slowly down his face.
He didn't feel the rain that fell down from the gray clouds that covered the sky above him. He didn't feel the cold wind that made his clothes cling to his body. He didn't hear the footsteps approaching him.
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So what do you think????? Next chap…plenty of Gumbo….