Chapter 7: Try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby....
Nathan looked up as Haley walked into Brooke's room, Lucas right behind her. He had to suppress the twinge of jealousy he felt; the pain of seeing the woman he loved with another man. It was too soon. He smiled awkwardly and gave Brooke an apologetic look as he fled the room. Haley looked helplessly at Lucas before she ran after him. "Nathan, wait!" she called, catching up to him. Wow he walks fast she thought to herself, searching for the right words. She looked away; she couldn't stand to see the pain in his eyes, the pain she had knowingly caused. She couldn't take back what had happened but she couldn't leave him like this. "What do you want, Haley, haven't you hurt me enough already? I let you in and you left me, for Lucas nonetheless. I can't forget that." He told her.
"But I love you, Nathan," Lucas heard Haley tell his brother. He turned away, not waiting to hear the rest.
"You love Lucas more."
"That doesn't mean I love you less," Haley pleaded with him.
Nathan shook his head. "You have to choose," he told her. "And I think you already have." He walked away from her, refusing to look back. Haley stood there for a moment that seemed like eternity before she composed herself and walked back to Brooke's room.
"Hey Tutor Girl," Brook smiled weakly as she saw Haley in the doorway. Lucas turned his head towards her and the expression in his eyes spoke volumes. She had the feeling that she'd lost both the men she loved. It only took five minutes.
"What was that for?" Jake asked Peyton after she kissed him. "Not that I minded, of course." He smiles at her.
"For everything," she told him. "You should get back to Jenny thought," she added reluctantly.
"Yea, I suppose I should," he admitted. Peyton disentangled herself from Jake's arms so he could leave although she wished he didn't have to go.
"Bye," he said at the door, kissing her.
"What was that?" Her dad asked, coming up behind her. She jumped.
"Dad, you scared me. Make some noise next time," she told him, avoiding the question by launching into an explanation of Brooke's condition.
Lucas watched as Nathan threw shot after shot across the court, not even aiming at both men watched the basketball slam repeatedly against the backboard.
"I thought this was my refuge," Lucas told Nathan as he moved forward to observe from the sidelines.
"What would you need refuge from? You've got it all, don't you? Perfect life, right? Basketball, family, Haley. Everything. It's not enough that you're trying to take basketball from me, but why did you have to take Haley too?" Nathan slammed the ball into Lucas's arms after it rebounded back for what seemed like the thousandth time that day.
"She loves you, you heard it yourself," Lucas pointed out to his angry younger brother, sending the ball smoothly through the hoop. He suppressed the wince of pain that movement caused, not wanting to show any weakness in front of Nathan.
"Eavesdropping, brother? And here I was thinking you were too good for the rest of us." Nathan spat back.
"Better than some," Lucas told him and both knew he was referring to their father. "She's yours." Lucas walked away. Nathan stared at his retreating back, stunned. What just happened, he thought, I should explain about the rest of the conversation...But he made no move.
Haley stared into the sunset as she sat on the rooftop mini-golf course. Where did I go so wrong, she wondered. Lucas's eyes haunted her; the way he'd looked at her had hurt her more than words ever could. She didn't think she could say anything to make things better, but she could at least try. As Haley stood up to leave she saw Lucas watching her from the shadows. "Lucas..." Haley needed answers, needed to know that he still loved her. He just looked at her for a long moment before he turned and walked away.
*I'm almost done with Chapter 8, and I'm still not quite sure who Haley will end up with. It's tough, I love Haley and Lucas but Nathan loves her so much...*
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby....
Nathan looked up as Haley walked into Brooke's room, Lucas right behind her. He had to suppress the twinge of jealousy he felt; the pain of seeing the woman he loved with another man. It was too soon. He smiled awkwardly and gave Brooke an apologetic look as he fled the room. Haley looked helplessly at Lucas before she ran after him. "Nathan, wait!" she called, catching up to him. Wow he walks fast she thought to herself, searching for the right words. She looked away; she couldn't stand to see the pain in his eyes, the pain she had knowingly caused. She couldn't take back what had happened but she couldn't leave him like this. "What do you want, Haley, haven't you hurt me enough already? I let you in and you left me, for Lucas nonetheless. I can't forget that." He told her.
"But I love you, Nathan," Lucas heard Haley tell his brother. He turned away, not waiting to hear the rest.
"You love Lucas more."
"That doesn't mean I love you less," Haley pleaded with him.
Nathan shook his head. "You have to choose," he told her. "And I think you already have." He walked away from her, refusing to look back. Haley stood there for a moment that seemed like eternity before she composed herself and walked back to Brooke's room.
"Hey Tutor Girl," Brook smiled weakly as she saw Haley in the doorway. Lucas turned his head towards her and the expression in his eyes spoke volumes. She had the feeling that she'd lost both the men she loved. It only took five minutes.
"What was that for?" Jake asked Peyton after she kissed him. "Not that I minded, of course." He smiles at her.
"For everything," she told him. "You should get back to Jenny thought," she added reluctantly.
"Yea, I suppose I should," he admitted. Peyton disentangled herself from Jake's arms so he could leave although she wished he didn't have to go.
"Bye," he said at the door, kissing her.
"What was that?" Her dad asked, coming up behind her. She jumped.
"Dad, you scared me. Make some noise next time," she told him, avoiding the question by launching into an explanation of Brooke's condition.
Lucas watched as Nathan threw shot after shot across the court, not even aiming at both men watched the basketball slam repeatedly against the backboard.
"I thought this was my refuge," Lucas told Nathan as he moved forward to observe from the sidelines.
"What would you need refuge from? You've got it all, don't you? Perfect life, right? Basketball, family, Haley. Everything. It's not enough that you're trying to take basketball from me, but why did you have to take Haley too?" Nathan slammed the ball into Lucas's arms after it rebounded back for what seemed like the thousandth time that day.
"She loves you, you heard it yourself," Lucas pointed out to his angry younger brother, sending the ball smoothly through the hoop. He suppressed the wince of pain that movement caused, not wanting to show any weakness in front of Nathan.
"Eavesdropping, brother? And here I was thinking you were too good for the rest of us." Nathan spat back.
"Better than some," Lucas told him and both knew he was referring to their father. "She's yours." Lucas walked away. Nathan stared at his retreating back, stunned. What just happened, he thought, I should explain about the rest of the conversation...But he made no move.
Haley stared into the sunset as she sat on the rooftop mini-golf course. Where did I go so wrong, she wondered. Lucas's eyes haunted her; the way he'd looked at her had hurt her more than words ever could. She didn't think she could say anything to make things better, but she could at least try. As Haley stood up to leave she saw Lucas watching her from the shadows. "Lucas..." Haley needed answers, needed to know that he still loved her. He just looked at her for a long moment before he turned and walked away.
*I'm almost done with Chapter 8, and I'm still not quite sure who Haley will end up with. It's tough, I love Haley and Lucas but Nathan loves her so much...*