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A/N: Ok, so, I'm posting two parts in one day, you know why? Because U Maine Hockey is the best, and kick amazing amounts of BC ass tonight, to therefore will be playing in the NCAA Championship game this Saturday! As you might have noticed, I'm very excited about this. I can't help it. Hockey is a very big thing here, and this is the NCAA championship, it's a big deal, there will be few sober people on this campus this weekend. Seriously, you should see it when we play our rivals, hundreds of students stand outside, for hours, in below freezing weather, just to get tickets to those games… it's kind of crazy actually. Well, here goes. Because I'm so excited about this, you get another chapter today!

Once again, for the U Maine Hockey team! May your skates be sharp and the ice clear! May Jimmy Howard ascend to an even higher level of ass kickingness! And may Denver fall to their knees in recognition of your greatness!

Sorry, I got a bit carried away there…

Tiramisu

Chapter Seven: In which Remus decides.

Lily waved a hand in front of Remus' face, trying to draw his attention.

"Remus, are you ok? Remus!" He blinked and looked at her, really seeing her for the first time in several minutes.

"I meant it Lily. I meant it more than anything else I've ever said. And I had to bloody think about it this morning! Now he must think I don't care, that I was just drunk that it was the tequila talking, not me, but it was me! It was! I swear!"

"Remus!" she yelled at him, "Calm down. Go slowly, what are you talking about?"

"Last night. I kissed Sirius, it was all my idea. Sirius told me I was drunk, that we shouldn't do it then. He said we should wait until morning, if I still wanted to then he would love to, but he said he wanted to make sure it was completely my decision, that Jose[i] had nothing to do with it. He wanted me to be sure that I wanted it, and I…I said…" He looked up at her, a plethora of emotions on his face. "I told him that I did want it, that I was sure, that I wanted it more than anything else, ever. And I don't know if it was what I said, or if the way I looked, but Lily, he believed me! And….oh, god…It was amazing! Absolutely fucking amazing…" he started staring again, then shook his head snapping himself back to the present. "But Lily, more important than that…I meant it…" She looked at him curiously.

"Meant what?"

"Meant what I said to him. Meant that I wanted it, wanted him, more than anything else. I'd never thought of it before Lily, but I…I… I love Sirius. At least, I think I do. I know that last night felt like nothing I'd known before, it felt right, it felt like I'd been waiting for something my whole life, never knowing what it was until last night, when I finally got it. It felt like coming home. How could I have missed this? Have I always felt this way and just didn't realize?"

"You know, Rem, you've admitted yourself that you've always pushed that part of you away, never allowed yourself to feel that way for anyone. Maybe you did it too well. Perhaps you did such a good job suppressing your feelings that you didn't even realize they were ever there."

"I don't know, you may be right, Lil. I haven't had time to really think any of this through, but I guess it makes sense. And thinking about it, I guess there may have been some signs I could have picked up on, if I wasn't so dense."

"Oh, Remy!" Lily hugged him tightly. "This is wonderful! You and Sirius will be so sweet together!" Remus smiled.

"You really think so? You really think he'll want to?"

"Oh course he'll want to, dopey! He's wanted you for years!"

"Wanted me? Or wanted me?" he placed emphasis on his words in such a way as to leave no doubt as to what the difference between the two was.

"He wanted, wants you, Remy. Would he have suggested a relationship if he didn't? Would he have tried to stop you last night, tried to make you wait, to be sure it was him you wanted? He may not even realize it yet, but he loves you." Remus looked at her, trying to absorb and process what she had just said.

"Hey, does Lily get to tell me all the sordid details now?" James asked as he sauntered up to them. Remus looked up at him, somewhat blankly.

"Where's Sirius?" he asked.

"He went upstairs to get his shit together before he leaves." James answered. Remus nodded stood up and looked at Lily.

"Thank you." He smiled at her, "I have to go talk to him."

"Yes," she replied, "you do." Remus hugged her, turned to face the elevator, took a deep breath, and set off.

James looked down at his wife.

"You know what he's going to say?"

"Yup. Come sit down, I'll fill you in." They sat down on the couch and Lily recounted her conversation with Remus, while they waited for their best friends.

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The next chapter should be the last, unless something changes…


[i] Meaning Jose Cuervo