Author: Maeve
E-mail address: docfraiser8@hotmail.com
Title: And I Know I Am Deathless
Character: Toby
Category: mild angst
Pairing: CJ/Toby, CJ/Ben, Toby/Andi, and an itty bitty Toby/Rena
Rating: G
Summary: Introspection, Toby Spoilers: Season 5
Author's Notes: (optional): More of the Toby/Whitman group. For Angie and Kells. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------
Scattered memories of life with her.
Dark recollections of the moments without her.
CJ laughs across the bar, her Ranger tucked close. He contemplates them all in the watery ring the scotch bottomed glass leaves on the bar.
No ring on his finger but she's wrapped around another man.
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He considers sleeping with his new secretary because it's what everyone expects of her.
She's cried for them and he's heard them say 'slut' behind open doors. She means well and he gives her the chance they all should have given her. She's different and he wonders how much change it would take to shatter the administration.
As if their morality, their passion, isn't already in pieces on the floor.
He considers fucking his new secretary because it's what no one expects of him.
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Trapped in an office wide square, facing his ex-wife and the death of their anger. The death of an age.
Their children have become an argument, a tool for guilt.
He wonders if that is the sole(soul) trait that he passes to them - the recognition of their guilt. Not Jewish guilt with their mother's looming Christianity, but the very breath and death and air of mea culpa.
She speaks of Gaza and he forgets his Judaism, remembering only her words of sadness. 'Sad Toby'.
Sadness and guilt passed on to his children, because he doesn't know what else to give...so he does not die.
E-mail address: docfraiser8@hotmail.com
Title: And I Know I Am Deathless
Character: Toby
Category: mild angst
Pairing: CJ/Toby, CJ/Ben, Toby/Andi, and an itty bitty Toby/Rena
Rating: G
Summary: Introspection, Toby Spoilers: Season 5
Author's Notes: (optional): More of the Toby/Whitman group. For Angie and Kells. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------
Scattered memories of life with her.
Dark recollections of the moments without her.
CJ laughs across the bar, her Ranger tucked close. He contemplates them all in the watery ring the scotch bottomed glass leaves on the bar.
No ring on his finger but she's wrapped around another man.
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He considers sleeping with his new secretary because it's what everyone expects of her.
She's cried for them and he's heard them say 'slut' behind open doors. She means well and he gives her the chance they all should have given her. She's different and he wonders how much change it would take to shatter the administration.
As if their morality, their passion, isn't already in pieces on the floor.
He considers fucking his new secretary because it's what no one expects of him.
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Trapped in an office wide square, facing his ex-wife and the death of their anger. The death of an age.
Their children have become an argument, a tool for guilt.
He wonders if that is the sole(soul) trait that he passes to them - the recognition of their guilt. Not Jewish guilt with their mother's looming Christianity, but the very breath and death and air of mea culpa.
She speaks of Gaza and he forgets his Judaism, remembering only her words of sadness. 'Sad Toby'.
Sadness and guilt passed on to his children, because he doesn't know what else to give...so he does not die.