Misunderstood
By wordsiwanttosay
Cold, careless and cruel. That is what they call me. . . Never seen me bleed or cry. . . That's only talk. I have bled one hundred times and cried one thousand tears. I am Rufus Shinra. I own everything yet I have nothing. I don't have a shoulder to cry on nor a friend to joke with. Sure, they say they care. . . Why would they? They don't care, they only fear. I know my life will end soon, I see those yellow jets of light. In a few moments I will leave this troubled planet whose pain was caused by me. Death is a mystery, I know not what awaits. . . I know I will pay dearly though. Pay for the pain I have caused, I know I deserve it. You would agree. Of all the people I have hurt, emotionally or physically, you are probably one of them. If you aren't, you are blessed. I. . . Wasn't always like this. In childhood years I laughed and played. I even loved. But was doomed, too lost to be saved. I have no regrets, not one.
That was a lie, I have more regrets than any person on this rotten world. I killed the planet, at least tried. . . If you are a supporter of Avalanche, ask yourself this. This world you're trying to protect, is it really worth saving? What are you fighting for. . . For yourself or for others? You hate Shinra, but if that is the only reason you're fighting, you won't succeed. I tried to run this company with the pure hatred for my father. As you can see, I failed. I ran my life with hate, that was my downfall. . .
You're no better than me, you just don't realize it yet. You have hurt. I know it. Not one person has ever gone without hurting another. Wether with words or actions. Time was all I had. I didn't truly own anything I bought. I only controlled it. I was ripped from the bases of love, I filled in the blanks with hate. You would do the same.
Hate is better than loneliness. At least when you hate you have a reason for living. You don't know how easy it is to get lost in a sea of pain. Hate washes the tears away. Yes, I hate. But to hate something, you must first love it. I loved life with its sunshine and beauty of Junon. But I also hate life for the rain and the horrid, unattractive landscape of Midgar. I loved my mother, yet I hated my father. You can probably see that to hate something, you must first love what the thing you hate goes against. I would not hate rain if I did not love the sunshine. Neither would you. . .
The light comes closer now, threatening to destroy this building and me along with it. I wish I could have changed, If only for a while. I wish I could have said I was sorry. But as the light speeds closer, I know that is one thing I will never get. I want to live. I cling to life like a child to its mother. I am afraid of death. Yes, afraid. The fearless, cold-hearted Shinra afraid? Yes, afraid. Could you ever understand? I beg for life, yet I know it will leave me. Do you know what its like to watch and know that in a few moments, you will dead. I will never get a chance to heal the wounds I have inflicted. Please forgive me. ..
By wordsiwanttosay
Cold, careless and cruel. That is what they call me. . . Never seen me bleed or cry. . . That's only talk. I have bled one hundred times and cried one thousand tears. I am Rufus Shinra. I own everything yet I have nothing. I don't have a shoulder to cry on nor a friend to joke with. Sure, they say they care. . . Why would they? They don't care, they only fear. I know my life will end soon, I see those yellow jets of light. In a few moments I will leave this troubled planet whose pain was caused by me. Death is a mystery, I know not what awaits. . . I know I will pay dearly though. Pay for the pain I have caused, I know I deserve it. You would agree. Of all the people I have hurt, emotionally or physically, you are probably one of them. If you aren't, you are blessed. I. . . Wasn't always like this. In childhood years I laughed and played. I even loved. But was doomed, too lost to be saved. I have no regrets, not one.
That was a lie, I have more regrets than any person on this rotten world. I killed the planet, at least tried. . . If you are a supporter of Avalanche, ask yourself this. This world you're trying to protect, is it really worth saving? What are you fighting for. . . For yourself or for others? You hate Shinra, but if that is the only reason you're fighting, you won't succeed. I tried to run this company with the pure hatred for my father. As you can see, I failed. I ran my life with hate, that was my downfall. . .
You're no better than me, you just don't realize it yet. You have hurt. I know it. Not one person has ever gone without hurting another. Wether with words or actions. Time was all I had. I didn't truly own anything I bought. I only controlled it. I was ripped from the bases of love, I filled in the blanks with hate. You would do the same.
Hate is better than loneliness. At least when you hate you have a reason for living. You don't know how easy it is to get lost in a sea of pain. Hate washes the tears away. Yes, I hate. But to hate something, you must first love it. I loved life with its sunshine and beauty of Junon. But I also hate life for the rain and the horrid, unattractive landscape of Midgar. I loved my mother, yet I hated my father. You can probably see that to hate something, you must first love what the thing you hate goes against. I would not hate rain if I did not love the sunshine. Neither would you. . .
The light comes closer now, threatening to destroy this building and me along with it. I wish I could have changed, If only for a while. I wish I could have said I was sorry. But as the light speeds closer, I know that is one thing I will never get. I want to live. I cling to life like a child to its mother. I am afraid of death. Yes, afraid. The fearless, cold-hearted Shinra afraid? Yes, afraid. Could you ever understand? I beg for life, yet I know it will leave me. Do you know what its like to watch and know that in a few moments, you will dead. I will never get a chance to heal the wounds I have inflicted. Please forgive me. ..