Disclaimer- I do not own any the characters of Buffy or Angel
This is a few days after Damage
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Thanks for the super reviews. You know they are the fuel any writer, don't you?? They are all wonderful. Just like the names. I'll make a list of nominations. Names are still welcome, it will take some time before the baby gets born.
Hi Horsefly. Yes, I know, but the baby immediately being a Slayer would be just to weird. I think she would turn into a a full Slayer when she is somewhere at the age of 14 or 15. hat is if that's what you meant :)
Hi Lilmamaday. Normally he would. But concern for the baby would win it.
Hi Zanthinegirl. Yes, officially he is working for W&H. But that's only officially
Hi Cordelia-lollie: Elliot? Isn't that a name for a boy. I remember an Elliot Carter from the James Bond movie, tomorrow never dies.
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Hey Buff,
It's me, Cyclops calling from Africa. How's it going? How are you doing? How's the baby? How's Dawnie? She getting along with all those hot Italian school boys? I guess she has a hard time to keep them away. See my jealous but proud grin?
I found some Newbie Slayers and they are heading to central command.
But that's not why I write this letter. I spoke with Andrew. He'd news from the LA front. Like we all thought he's confirmed that he doesn't trust Angel and his W & H. He completed the mission succesfully and got Dana back, save. She's doing fine. But there is more. It's kind of hard to explain. So, I'll just say it. A few months after the sealing of the Hellmouth, that Amulet got back to W&H. And, hold on, Spike returned along with it. It's a long story, but in short: he's back.
Buffy eyes widened. //Spike's back!??\\ She looked up. //He must be joking. This can't be. He is joking.\\ "Ha ha, not funny, Xander." //He is joking, right?\\
"Buffy?" Dawn asked.
"Oh, nothing, Dawn. Just one of Xander's lame jokes."
She saw Dawnie grinning. "Hey, his jokes are never lame. What's the catch?"
Buffy found herself wound up in thoughts and didn't hear hear her sister anymore.
"Buffy? What's the joke? . . . Buffy?"
"Huh? Oh, sorry," she responded as she wiped a tear away. "It's silly, really."
She continued reading the letter while ignoring Dawn's questioning look.
"I'm not joking, Buff. Never with Spike and you know it. And never with your heart. Okay, now you think I'm going to say why or how that jerk is back. But I'm not going to say he is a jerk. I honestly don't hate him anymore, so you truly have to believe me.
Buffy felt stunned, shocked, whammied. She had many questions. How? How could he have be back and not know about it? How long was he back? She felt her body stiffening and suddenly felt like she'd been given too much air to breathe. Primal emotions out-shadowed all her questions.
"Buffy?" Dawn asked very worried.
She felt Dawn's supporting hand. "Is there something wrong with the baby? Does Xander have bad news?"
Buffy snapped out of her shock back to reality. Her mouth twitched as she tried to find the words to express the overwhelming emotions that were welling up inside of her. "Dawn-" she said softly, swallowing and trying to wipe her eyes dry. "Xander, he…." Again, she paused, The beautiful young woman looked up at her little sister, her eyes brimming over with tears. "I can't . . ."
She pressed the letter in Dawn's hands and ran away, leaving a stunned sister alone.
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Dawn read the first few sentences as well. Her mouth opened in amazement as she read Xander's words about Spike being alive. But she read further there where Buffy had stopped. Her eyes widened as Xander had changed his attention to her instead to Buffy:
Dawn, please go after her, she needs your support. Give her some time and let her read the rest of this letter. You too. I know you don't like Spike, but it's important.
The teenager read the rest while she ran after Buffy to their apartment, where she found her older sister crying on bed.
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Most women would cry out with joy when they found out about hearing that there loved one had returned. But with Buffy it was different. Spike wasn't missed or any other case from the 'maybe alive, somewhere out in the world' collection. She was there when he died. She had seen it with her own eyes, felt it with her own skin and with the deep pain cutting through her heart. She knew he was dead, because she had sacrified him . . .
She has had nightmares about it. She was scared.
Dawn sat next to her, saying nothing. The silence hang over the like a blanket, before only soft sobbings gently broke it as Dawn had her arm wrapped around her..
Finally Buffy spoke and it came out a croak. She cleared her voice and chuckled a little. "Sorry."
"Buff, it's no problem. And you might want to have a friend around for this."
Buffy's eyes caught her's and held them. "I'm so afraid," she opened her heart to her.
"I know, Buff."
"Dawn, he's alive. What's he gonna say? How is he going to react when he knows I'm pregnant. I can barely believe it myself, how can I expect that he would? Does he still love me . . ." She swallowed and looked Dawn straight in the eyes seeing her own in the reflection, filled with terror. "Why didn't he call?"
"Buff, it's alright. You don't have to be afraid. He's not mad at you." Buffy knew she couldn't just waltz in and expect Spike to welcome him with open arms after what had happened. "C'mon, Buff. Shake off whatever worries you have and please finish reading the letter. I'll be there when you need me."
Buffy stared at her sister's resolvent face - but filled with care and support - as Dawn handed her the letter, which she took with trembling hands.
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Needing a cigarette very badly, the vampire walked outside. The moon hung brilliantly in the sky and stars were clearly visible as he was taking a long drag on his fag. He looked up at them and it made him wonder about the mysteries in the universe. About the mystery of life.
He finished his smoke and flipped rest to the ground as he saw Fred coming through the door. The young woman stared at him as she came closer. "H-hey, is everything alright?" she asked.
Spike smiled at her. "Couldn't be better, luv."
"W-what was that about that letter?" she asked to his surprise.
"Letter?"
"C'mon, Spike, H-Harmony told me. Please, you can trust me."
The blond vampire stared in her serious and worried face and finally nodded. He sighed and pulled out another cigarette . . .
Feedback please..
This is a few days after Damage
*****
Thanks for the super reviews. You know they are the fuel any writer, don't you?? They are all wonderful. Just like the names. I'll make a list of nominations. Names are still welcome, it will take some time before the baby gets born.
Hi Horsefly. Yes, I know, but the baby immediately being a Slayer would be just to weird. I think she would turn into a a full Slayer when she is somewhere at the age of 14 or 15. hat is if that's what you meant :)
Hi Lilmamaday. Normally he would. But concern for the baby would win it.
Hi Zanthinegirl. Yes, officially he is working for W&H. But that's only officially
Hi Cordelia-lollie: Elliot? Isn't that a name for a boy. I remember an Elliot Carter from the James Bond movie, tomorrow never dies.
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Hey Buff,
It's me, Cyclops calling from Africa. How's it going? How are you doing? How's the baby? How's Dawnie? She getting along with all those hot Italian school boys? I guess she has a hard time to keep them away. See my jealous but proud grin?
I found some Newbie Slayers and they are heading to central command.
But that's not why I write this letter. I spoke with Andrew. He'd news from the LA front. Like we all thought he's confirmed that he doesn't trust Angel and his W & H. He completed the mission succesfully and got Dana back, save. She's doing fine. But there is more. It's kind of hard to explain. So, I'll just say it. A few months after the sealing of the Hellmouth, that Amulet got back to W&H. And, hold on, Spike returned along with it. It's a long story, but in short: he's back.
Buffy eyes widened. //Spike's back!??\\ She looked up. //He must be joking. This can't be. He is joking.\\ "Ha ha, not funny, Xander." //He is joking, right?\\
"Buffy?" Dawn asked.
"Oh, nothing, Dawn. Just one of Xander's lame jokes."
She saw Dawnie grinning. "Hey, his jokes are never lame. What's the catch?"
Buffy found herself wound up in thoughts and didn't hear hear her sister anymore.
"Buffy? What's the joke? . . . Buffy?"
"Huh? Oh, sorry," she responded as she wiped a tear away. "It's silly, really."
She continued reading the letter while ignoring Dawn's questioning look.
"I'm not joking, Buff. Never with Spike and you know it. And never with your heart. Okay, now you think I'm going to say why or how that jerk is back. But I'm not going to say he is a jerk. I honestly don't hate him anymore, so you truly have to believe me.
Buffy felt stunned, shocked, whammied. She had many questions. How? How could he have be back and not know about it? How long was he back? She felt her body stiffening and suddenly felt like she'd been given too much air to breathe. Primal emotions out-shadowed all her questions.
"Buffy?" Dawn asked very worried.
She felt Dawn's supporting hand. "Is there something wrong with the baby? Does Xander have bad news?"
Buffy snapped out of her shock back to reality. Her mouth twitched as she tried to find the words to express the overwhelming emotions that were welling up inside of her. "Dawn-" she said softly, swallowing and trying to wipe her eyes dry. "Xander, he…." Again, she paused, The beautiful young woman looked up at her little sister, her eyes brimming over with tears. "I can't . . ."
She pressed the letter in Dawn's hands and ran away, leaving a stunned sister alone.
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Dawn read the first few sentences as well. Her mouth opened in amazement as she read Xander's words about Spike being alive. But she read further there where Buffy had stopped. Her eyes widened as Xander had changed his attention to her instead to Buffy:
Dawn, please go after her, she needs your support. Give her some time and let her read the rest of this letter. You too. I know you don't like Spike, but it's important.
The teenager read the rest while she ran after Buffy to their apartment, where she found her older sister crying on bed.
*****
Most women would cry out with joy when they found out about hearing that there loved one had returned. But with Buffy it was different. Spike wasn't missed or any other case from the 'maybe alive, somewhere out in the world' collection. She was there when he died. She had seen it with her own eyes, felt it with her own skin and with the deep pain cutting through her heart. She knew he was dead, because she had sacrified him . . .
She has had nightmares about it. She was scared.
Dawn sat next to her, saying nothing. The silence hang over the like a blanket, before only soft sobbings gently broke it as Dawn had her arm wrapped around her..
Finally Buffy spoke and it came out a croak. She cleared her voice and chuckled a little. "Sorry."
"Buff, it's no problem. And you might want to have a friend around for this."
Buffy's eyes caught her's and held them. "I'm so afraid," she opened her heart to her.
"I know, Buff."
"Dawn, he's alive. What's he gonna say? How is he going to react when he knows I'm pregnant. I can barely believe it myself, how can I expect that he would? Does he still love me . . ." She swallowed and looked Dawn straight in the eyes seeing her own in the reflection, filled with terror. "Why didn't he call?"
"Buff, it's alright. You don't have to be afraid. He's not mad at you." Buffy knew she couldn't just waltz in and expect Spike to welcome him with open arms after what had happened. "C'mon, Buff. Shake off whatever worries you have and please finish reading the letter. I'll be there when you need me."
Buffy stared at her sister's resolvent face - but filled with care and support - as Dawn handed her the letter, which she took with trembling hands.
*****
Needing a cigarette very badly, the vampire walked outside. The moon hung brilliantly in the sky and stars were clearly visible as he was taking a long drag on his fag. He looked up at them and it made him wonder about the mysteries in the universe. About the mystery of life.
He finished his smoke and flipped rest to the ground as he saw Fred coming through the door. The young woman stared at him as she came closer. "H-hey, is everything alright?" she asked.
Spike smiled at her. "Couldn't be better, luv."
"W-what was that about that letter?" she asked to his surprise.
"Letter?"
"C'mon, Spike, H-Harmony told me. Please, you can trust me."
The blond vampire stared in her serious and worried face and finally nodded. He sighed and pulled out another cigarette . . .
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