A/N: Wow, thanks to everyone who reviewed! I mean really I wasn't expecting
so many. Sorry that there were a few grammar errors in the story, I don't
have a beta and spell check does not get everything I guess. Please keep on
R/R it really makes my day! Oh and I know it's a little short but with
these first few chapters I'm just trying to set up the plot lines.
Lyrics: Sarah McLachlan "Stupid"
"Love has made me a fool
It set me on fire and watched as I floundered
Unable to speak
Except to cry out and wait for your answer
But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places
Create an oasis
Dries up as soon as you're gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you"
Silence can be deafening. Haley had never really thought much about that statement until now. She felt her heart beating though her shirt as Nathan looked down on the floor, refusing to look at her.
He doesn't love me back. She told herself. Letting all the embarrassment, seep though her. The heartbreak too. She got up from the floor just determined to make it past the door. Get the hell out of there, she told herself and then you can cry. But for the life of her she wouldn't let him see her cry. 'I've gotta go.' She said to him her voice shaking just like her hands, and legs where.
'Haley...' He started, trying to search for words, but there were no words to say really. What can you tell someone after they say they love you but that you love them back? And Nathan, he just wasn't ready to say them. But he didn't want to hurt Haley either. God he didn't want to hurt her.
Grabbing her coat off a chair she looked over at him. 'I'll see you later.....alright....I mean if you want too see me. But I have to go right now...'
'Haley, please don't leave.' Nathan pleaded standing up and walking over to her. He could see her slowly falling apart and it tore him up inside to see her like this. Just tell her you love her, a voice told him.
'Bye Nathan.' She whispered and walked out the door. Making a note to slam it.
Nathan starred at the door for a long time, his whole life running though his mind. The good times, the bad. Every emotion he had ever felt came back to him in those moments, anger, fear, happiness, those came around a lot. But love, love only came to mind when he thought of Haley. It was in that moment he realized.
'I love you too.' He whispered to the door.
"It's all I can do to hang on
To keep me from falling
Into old familiar shoes....
Everything changes
Everything falls apart
Can't stop to feel myself losing control
But deep in my senses I know"
Brooke was hungry; the eating for two thing must be true. She thought half bitterly as she scanned over her pantry. Lucas was upstairs taking a shower and she knew that she must have been really upset because the urge to jump in there with him hadn't stuck her yet. In fact the thought of doing so repulsed her. I just want food, she thought.
She took out a box of pop tarts and stuck two in the toaster. She heard footsteps coming from the living room. Shower must be done. Sure enough there emerged Lucas.
'I knew my brother's clothes would fit you.' She said to him.
'Yeah they'll do for now. Look Brooke I should be getting home. I called my Mom last night and told her I was crashing at Haley's. She gonna call over there if I don't get home soon.'
Brooke nodded. 'I already told you, go when you want.'
'You gonna be ok?' He began to walk closer to her and Brooke felt herself winch.
'I'll be fine....' She smiled despite herself as she saw the concerned look on his face. 'God Lucas, I'm ok. No more crying. I just......I'm scared you know?'
'Yeah, I'm going to tell my Mom tonight. Have you.....'
'Told my parents? No. I know I'm going to have to but...well when I see them I'll make sure to say something.'
Lucas looked unsure of what to do next. 'I'll come by later on today.'
'Well don't do me any favors.' She responded.
Lucas walked closer to her and softly kissed her on the side of her head. What the hell is he thinking? She thought angrily. And what the hell am I thinking for letting him touch me?
'We're not alright.' She whispered to him again.
'I know, but we're going to be.' He looked at her for a few more moments and then left.
Brooke looked around the house as she heard the door slam. There she was, one girl all alone in a big lonely house. As always. She put her hand on her stomach. Well maybe not all alone.
Turning back to the toaster she saw that her pop tarts were done.
"How stupid could I be?
A simpleton can see
That you're not good for me
But you're the only one I see"
'You wanna get back to work?' Karen asked, her voice wasn't mad and there was a slight smile on her face. Jake smiled and got back behind the counter. Amazed that he wasn't being fired or a least yelled at. After all he had just spent the last hour or so telling Peyton his whole story with Nikki.
Peyton. She was even more amazing then the not being fired. Time had flown by for him as he told her what happened but it must have seemed longer for her. But she didn't complain, or judge, hell she didn't even talk much. But she listened. That's all she really needed to do.
He had been thinking of her a lot more lately. Which was strange, Peyton Sawyer wasn't a person he had ever thought much about. She was always kinda just there. Nathan's girl or later on Lucas's girl. But she was never really in his life. Until now. There friendship had kinda sprung up on him, he was not even really sure how to started or even when, but it had. And he was glad for it Peyton was a great person. She was kind, funny, creative, and beautiful. He stopped himself there. Beautiful was bad, beautiful gets you into trouble. Beautiful led to feelings, feelings led to actions and actions led to more bad stuff. Most of beautiful led to complicated. And the last thing Jake needed was more complications. He already had too much to deal with. And the last thing he needed was feelings for an already very complicated girl.
Looking up he saw Peyton's car go by the window. It was going faster then a bat out of hell, as always. He felt a small smile come to his face.
And then he realized that the last time he had smiled like that was when he met Nikki.
Complications. You don't need anymore of those, Jake said to himself.
Lyrics: Sarah McLachlan "Stupid"
"Love has made me a fool
It set me on fire and watched as I floundered
Unable to speak
Except to cry out and wait for your answer
But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places
Create an oasis
Dries up as soon as you're gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you"
Silence can be deafening. Haley had never really thought much about that statement until now. She felt her heart beating though her shirt as Nathan looked down on the floor, refusing to look at her.
He doesn't love me back. She told herself. Letting all the embarrassment, seep though her. The heartbreak too. She got up from the floor just determined to make it past the door. Get the hell out of there, she told herself and then you can cry. But for the life of her she wouldn't let him see her cry. 'I've gotta go.' She said to him her voice shaking just like her hands, and legs where.
'Haley...' He started, trying to search for words, but there were no words to say really. What can you tell someone after they say they love you but that you love them back? And Nathan, he just wasn't ready to say them. But he didn't want to hurt Haley either. God he didn't want to hurt her.
Grabbing her coat off a chair she looked over at him. 'I'll see you later.....alright....I mean if you want too see me. But I have to go right now...'
'Haley, please don't leave.' Nathan pleaded standing up and walking over to her. He could see her slowly falling apart and it tore him up inside to see her like this. Just tell her you love her, a voice told him.
'Bye Nathan.' She whispered and walked out the door. Making a note to slam it.
Nathan starred at the door for a long time, his whole life running though his mind. The good times, the bad. Every emotion he had ever felt came back to him in those moments, anger, fear, happiness, those came around a lot. But love, love only came to mind when he thought of Haley. It was in that moment he realized.
'I love you too.' He whispered to the door.
"It's all I can do to hang on
To keep me from falling
Into old familiar shoes....
Everything changes
Everything falls apart
Can't stop to feel myself losing control
But deep in my senses I know"
Brooke was hungry; the eating for two thing must be true. She thought half bitterly as she scanned over her pantry. Lucas was upstairs taking a shower and she knew that she must have been really upset because the urge to jump in there with him hadn't stuck her yet. In fact the thought of doing so repulsed her. I just want food, she thought.
She took out a box of pop tarts and stuck two in the toaster. She heard footsteps coming from the living room. Shower must be done. Sure enough there emerged Lucas.
'I knew my brother's clothes would fit you.' She said to him.
'Yeah they'll do for now. Look Brooke I should be getting home. I called my Mom last night and told her I was crashing at Haley's. She gonna call over there if I don't get home soon.'
Brooke nodded. 'I already told you, go when you want.'
'You gonna be ok?' He began to walk closer to her and Brooke felt herself winch.
'I'll be fine....' She smiled despite herself as she saw the concerned look on his face. 'God Lucas, I'm ok. No more crying. I just......I'm scared you know?'
'Yeah, I'm going to tell my Mom tonight. Have you.....'
'Told my parents? No. I know I'm going to have to but...well when I see them I'll make sure to say something.'
Lucas looked unsure of what to do next. 'I'll come by later on today.'
'Well don't do me any favors.' She responded.
Lucas walked closer to her and softly kissed her on the side of her head. What the hell is he thinking? She thought angrily. And what the hell am I thinking for letting him touch me?
'We're not alright.' She whispered to him again.
'I know, but we're going to be.' He looked at her for a few more moments and then left.
Brooke looked around the house as she heard the door slam. There she was, one girl all alone in a big lonely house. As always. She put her hand on her stomach. Well maybe not all alone.
Turning back to the toaster she saw that her pop tarts were done.
"How stupid could I be?
A simpleton can see
That you're not good for me
But you're the only one I see"
'You wanna get back to work?' Karen asked, her voice wasn't mad and there was a slight smile on her face. Jake smiled and got back behind the counter. Amazed that he wasn't being fired or a least yelled at. After all he had just spent the last hour or so telling Peyton his whole story with Nikki.
Peyton. She was even more amazing then the not being fired. Time had flown by for him as he told her what happened but it must have seemed longer for her. But she didn't complain, or judge, hell she didn't even talk much. But she listened. That's all she really needed to do.
He had been thinking of her a lot more lately. Which was strange, Peyton Sawyer wasn't a person he had ever thought much about. She was always kinda just there. Nathan's girl or later on Lucas's girl. But she was never really in his life. Until now. There friendship had kinda sprung up on him, he was not even really sure how to started or even when, but it had. And he was glad for it Peyton was a great person. She was kind, funny, creative, and beautiful. He stopped himself there. Beautiful was bad, beautiful gets you into trouble. Beautiful led to feelings, feelings led to actions and actions led to more bad stuff. Most of beautiful led to complicated. And the last thing Jake needed was more complications. He already had too much to deal with. And the last thing he needed was feelings for an already very complicated girl.
Looking up he saw Peyton's car go by the window. It was going faster then a bat out of hell, as always. He felt a small smile come to his face.
And then he realized that the last time he had smiled like that was when he met Nikki.
Complications. You don't need anymore of those, Jake said to himself.