Chapter 9
She looked at the guys and at Catherine. "I'm pregnant."
Catherine stood up and hugged Sara. She knew this was going to be hard for her. "I'm really happy for you... and i know it's gonna be tough, but I'm here for you when ever you need me ok?" Cath whispered to her.
Sara nodded, turned and ran out to Nick's room,
Catherine felt her eyes start to water and walked back over to the guys. "God... I can't imgaine what she's going through"
"What can we do?" Warrick asked.
"Nothing..." Grissom frowned and left.
Catherine looked over at Warrick. "We can only be there for her... no matter what happens."
Sara looked at Nick. "Please Nicky wake up... for us..." She said holding his hand.The monitor by Nick's bedside just gave it's steady beep, along with the hiss of the oxygen tank next to it, doing nothing to comfort Sara. She kissed his forehead. She walked out and to the hallway.
Catherine stood up. "I'm gonna go visit Nick for a minute ok?" She said to the group and headed down the hallway, passing Sara. Catherine opened the door and walked over to Nick's bedside and took a seat, just sitting silently next to him for a few minutes.
"Catherine."
Catherine turned around to see Grissom in the doorway. She stood up and headed out of the room.
"Cath, wait." Grissom took her hand.
"What is it?" Cath asked,
"I'm Scared." He confessed for the first time in his life.
Cath was taken aback by Grissom's confession. "Of what?"
"Our family falling apart."
"It won't... they're strong..." Cath tried to convince Grissom.
"Who are you trying to convince, me or yourself?"
"both i guess... " Cath shook her head and felt the tears start to come. "I tried to be strong Gil... for them, for you..."
"Come here." He hugged her. "Shhh."
Cath rested against his chest and buried her face in his shirt. "It's not fair..." She mumbled.
"I know."
Cath pulled back and looked at Gil. "are you ok?" She asked. She was concerned about him to say the least. Gil hadn't said or done anything since they had been on the parking lot after Nick was shot, he was as calm as ever, like nothing had happened at all.
"I'll be fine... I need to be strong and give you a rest... Go home, we'll find Chad in the morning. Go to you family... remember that little girl, about yay height, calls you mom..." Grissom forced a smile.
"You guys are my family too... it wouldn't be right for me to leave you guys now... and I've already made arrangements with my sister for Lynsey to stay over for the night..." Catherine persisted.
"Besides... I don't I'll be able to get a good night's sleep knowing that Chad is out there somewhere and Nick's lying in a hospital bed..."
"Ok, but please talk Sara into going home... I'm going to the lab... I have tests to do." He turned and walked off. *I have to get out of here.* Grissom thought to himself.
Catherine shook her head as Grissom walked off. She never could tell what was going through his mind, and decided now wasn't the time to try and figure him out. She headed back to the waiting room where Sara, Warrick and Greg still sat. "Sara? Can I talk to you for a minute?" Sara stood up and walked out. She was tired and hurt.... and pregnant. "Sara... listen. Your tired and its been a long night, so I really think it'd be best for you, and you baby, if you went home and got some rest... you need it.." Catherine said softly.
"No, I need to be here, with Nick... for Nick..." She wlked forward so she could see in the small window. "I have to be here incase Chad comes back."
"Sara... I know you want to be here... but you need your rest, you have to start taking care of yourself. Besides, I'll be here all night and I'm sure warrick or greg will too." Cath frowned.
"I miss him Catherine... I really do... I need him to wake up and be happy..." Sara broke down, what was going to happen to Nick, to her... to their family?
~*~ Two Months Later ~*~
It had been two months since that night. The night Everthing changed. Nick was shot and lapsed into a coma, Sara found out she was pregnant with Nick's baby, and Chad got away. He still hadn't been found and no one was going to give up. Sara sat in the small room Nick was in now. She was starting to show and was at the hospital everyday before work. Catherine told her it was bad for her, Grissom told her he was 'concerned', Warrick was saying it was bad for the baby but he understood why she done. And Greg didn't really say much anymore. She was around two to three months pregnant and was living in Nick's house after she got thrown out of her place for not paying the rent. Sara sat and held Nick's hand, "I love you Nick." Sara sat and read, watched TV and spoke to Nick. She told him about everything, then smiled at something Greg gave her, a baby name book.
"I wish you would wake up Nick... you could see my bump..." She laughed as a tear fell down her face. "I need you..."
One of the nurses on the floor passed by Nick's room. They had grown accustom to the groups of people that were always around now. She looked in and frowned. She couldn't imagine being pregnant and alone, because in all reality she was. The possiblity of Nick waking up, was getting smaller as each day passed. She carried her juice tray in the room, lightly knocking on the door. "Hi.. would you like some juice? I woman in your condition needs her vitamins..." She gave her a light smile.
"Thank you..." Sara smiled wiping her cheeks.
The nurse handed her a few containers of juice and excused herself from the room, almost crashing into someone. "sorry... excuse me" she turned and left.
Sara turned and frowned at Nick, she went over and whispered softly, "You have to wake up for our baby Nick, he needs a father... and everyone misses you... and I can't do this anymore..." She said crying harder as she kissed his hand.
Greg knocked lightly on the door, before stepping inside the room. He walked over to where Sara was and wrapped and arm around her, pulling her into a gentle hug. "Shhh... it's ok..."
"What am I gonna do Greg? I need Nick back... all of him, not just a body..."
Greg swallowed hard. His eyes were bloodshot and red-rimmed. "Sara... you just got to be strong. We all need him back... and all of us are behind you too... So no matter what happens..." Greg trailed off\
"He's not coming back is he." Sara looked at Greg. It wasn't a question but more of a statement.
Greg looked down. "I - i dunno Sara... I wish I knew, but.." he choked back a sob.
~*~
Grissom sat at his office reading. The book was about bugs, worms to be exact, but thats not what he was reading. Like a kid in class reading a dictionary upside down while reading a comic book, had a piece of paper that was covered by the book... only this wasn't a comic, no this was Nick's case file.
Catherine brewed some coffee and poured herself a cup. She walked to grissom's office, lightly knocking on the door. "Hey..." Cath stepped inside and took a seat. "Whatcha readin'?"
"A book... a book on worms, a book on worms and their mating habits." He asnwered answering all of her next three questions. "What do you need?"
"nothing really... Just was wondering what your plans are now that shifts over..." Cath replied, leaning back in her seat.
"Working."
"Working doing what exactly?"
"Doing work... have lose ends, need tied, you?"
"Grissom, stop avoiding the question... what work? what case? can't you just tell me?" Cath looked at grissom.
"Private... about worms, you wouldn't understand."
Catherine huffed. "Whatever..." She knew grissom was hiding something. She stood up and headed for the door. "If you wanna talk or anything... call me ok?" Catherine added and was out of the room.
"sure.." he said and wrote something down.
Catherine walked back to the breakroom and tossed the styrofoam cup in the waste basket, and grabbed her jacket the was left on the chair. She headed back out of the room and out of the lab, passing Warrick and smiling slightly at him.
"Hey Catherine! I'm going up to see Nick, you wanna come? Bring Lynsey, she was telling me she was dying to see him..." Warrick smiled.
"Sure... ok, I'll pick her up and I'll meet you over there?" Catherine nodded.
"Ok." Warrick walked off, "You wanna ask Griss?" He shouted back.
"Don't bother... " Catherine Called back. "He busy working..." she rolled her eyes slightly.
"Ok."
~*~
Sara had fallen asleep at Nick's side like she had done so often. She felt safe here and didn't want to leave.
Catherine picked up Lynsey and met Warrick in the porch, then started up the stairs to nick's floor.
Warrick opened the door to Nick's room and saw Sara, he pointed her out to catherine, "well we know where she went once she was off."]
Catherine frowned. "She's been doing this every day since... She gonna wear herself out." Catherine worried.
"What can we do?" Warrick frowned.
"I dunno... it's not like we can really stop her..."
"I guess." Warrick smiled, I'm gonna go get her some juice..." He turned and walkeddown the corridor.
Catherine walked in the room and shook Sara's shoulder slightly. "Sara?"
"Nick!" Sara shouted and sat up. "Ohh hi Cath, I'm sorry, what time is it?"
"It's almost 8..."
"Ohh."
Catherine felt someone tugging on her jacket and quickly remembered that Lynsey wanted to see Nick. "I brought a little visitor for Nick.." She smiled, and let Lynsey come around in front of her.
"Hi Lysney! Long time no see! How are you?" She smiled and sat up.
Lynsey smiled shyly. "I'm okay..." She fiddled with the hem of her shirt and looked up at her mom.
Cath nodded. "Go on.."
Lynsey crawled up on the edge of the bed, next to Nick and just listened.
"How is everyone?" Sara asked watching Lynsey.
Catherine sighed. "They're as good as can be expected... dealing in their own way I guess... "
"I was looking at baby names."
"Oh really... so you find any good ones yet?" Cath asked, taking a seat next to Sara.
"I don't know... I mean I remember once I was talking to Nick bout it and he liked the name Ben cause that was his granda's name and I said the name Chiara... we talked about that all night... I think it was like two weeks into our relationship..." Sara's face lite up talking about her and nick, she loved that day.
"So... have you decided to find out the gender before birth? or are you gonna make it a surprise? and remember, i wanna help with the baby shower and everything..." Cath smiled.
"Yeah! Well I don't know, Nick always said he'd want to so he'd know what to decorate the nursery like but I don't know..." Sara frowned. "But Nick won't know I guess."
"Sara... c'mon... don't think like that... It's just gonna take time..." Cath tried reassuring her
"The longer it takes the less likely he is to wake... I can't do this alone, I need Nick." Sara looked at him.
"You aren't alone Sara..."
"yeah I am... you can't be there all the time, meither can Warrick or Grissom..."
"Sara... maybe we can't, but, we can be there for you when you need us to be..." Cath paused.
"But you can't, no one can hold me like he does..."
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She looked at the guys and at Catherine. "I'm pregnant."
Catherine stood up and hugged Sara. She knew this was going to be hard for her. "I'm really happy for you... and i know it's gonna be tough, but I'm here for you when ever you need me ok?" Cath whispered to her.
Sara nodded, turned and ran out to Nick's room,
Catherine felt her eyes start to water and walked back over to the guys. "God... I can't imgaine what she's going through"
"What can we do?" Warrick asked.
"Nothing..." Grissom frowned and left.
Catherine looked over at Warrick. "We can only be there for her... no matter what happens."
Sara looked at Nick. "Please Nicky wake up... for us..." She said holding his hand.The monitor by Nick's bedside just gave it's steady beep, along with the hiss of the oxygen tank next to it, doing nothing to comfort Sara. She kissed his forehead. She walked out and to the hallway.
Catherine stood up. "I'm gonna go visit Nick for a minute ok?" She said to the group and headed down the hallway, passing Sara. Catherine opened the door and walked over to Nick's bedside and took a seat, just sitting silently next to him for a few minutes.
"Catherine."
Catherine turned around to see Grissom in the doorway. She stood up and headed out of the room.
"Cath, wait." Grissom took her hand.
"What is it?" Cath asked,
"I'm Scared." He confessed for the first time in his life.
Cath was taken aback by Grissom's confession. "Of what?"
"Our family falling apart."
"It won't... they're strong..." Cath tried to convince Grissom.
"Who are you trying to convince, me or yourself?"
"both i guess... " Cath shook her head and felt the tears start to come. "I tried to be strong Gil... for them, for you..."
"Come here." He hugged her. "Shhh."
Cath rested against his chest and buried her face in his shirt. "It's not fair..." She mumbled.
"I know."
Cath pulled back and looked at Gil. "are you ok?" She asked. She was concerned about him to say the least. Gil hadn't said or done anything since they had been on the parking lot after Nick was shot, he was as calm as ever, like nothing had happened at all.
"I'll be fine... I need to be strong and give you a rest... Go home, we'll find Chad in the morning. Go to you family... remember that little girl, about yay height, calls you mom..." Grissom forced a smile.
"You guys are my family too... it wouldn't be right for me to leave you guys now... and I've already made arrangements with my sister for Lynsey to stay over for the night..." Catherine persisted.
"Besides... I don't I'll be able to get a good night's sleep knowing that Chad is out there somewhere and Nick's lying in a hospital bed..."
"Ok, but please talk Sara into going home... I'm going to the lab... I have tests to do." He turned and walked off. *I have to get out of here.* Grissom thought to himself.
Catherine shook her head as Grissom walked off. She never could tell what was going through his mind, and decided now wasn't the time to try and figure him out. She headed back to the waiting room where Sara, Warrick and Greg still sat. "Sara? Can I talk to you for a minute?" Sara stood up and walked out. She was tired and hurt.... and pregnant. "Sara... listen. Your tired and its been a long night, so I really think it'd be best for you, and you baby, if you went home and got some rest... you need it.." Catherine said softly.
"No, I need to be here, with Nick... for Nick..." She wlked forward so she could see in the small window. "I have to be here incase Chad comes back."
"Sara... I know you want to be here... but you need your rest, you have to start taking care of yourself. Besides, I'll be here all night and I'm sure warrick or greg will too." Cath frowned.
"I miss him Catherine... I really do... I need him to wake up and be happy..." Sara broke down, what was going to happen to Nick, to her... to their family?
~*~ Two Months Later ~*~
It had been two months since that night. The night Everthing changed. Nick was shot and lapsed into a coma, Sara found out she was pregnant with Nick's baby, and Chad got away. He still hadn't been found and no one was going to give up. Sara sat in the small room Nick was in now. She was starting to show and was at the hospital everyday before work. Catherine told her it was bad for her, Grissom told her he was 'concerned', Warrick was saying it was bad for the baby but he understood why she done. And Greg didn't really say much anymore. She was around two to three months pregnant and was living in Nick's house after she got thrown out of her place for not paying the rent. Sara sat and held Nick's hand, "I love you Nick." Sara sat and read, watched TV and spoke to Nick. She told him about everything, then smiled at something Greg gave her, a baby name book.
"I wish you would wake up Nick... you could see my bump..." She laughed as a tear fell down her face. "I need you..."
One of the nurses on the floor passed by Nick's room. They had grown accustom to the groups of people that were always around now. She looked in and frowned. She couldn't imagine being pregnant and alone, because in all reality she was. The possiblity of Nick waking up, was getting smaller as each day passed. She carried her juice tray in the room, lightly knocking on the door. "Hi.. would you like some juice? I woman in your condition needs her vitamins..." She gave her a light smile.
"Thank you..." Sara smiled wiping her cheeks.
The nurse handed her a few containers of juice and excused herself from the room, almost crashing into someone. "sorry... excuse me" she turned and left.
Sara turned and frowned at Nick, she went over and whispered softly, "You have to wake up for our baby Nick, he needs a father... and everyone misses you... and I can't do this anymore..." She said crying harder as she kissed his hand.
Greg knocked lightly on the door, before stepping inside the room. He walked over to where Sara was and wrapped and arm around her, pulling her into a gentle hug. "Shhh... it's ok..."
"What am I gonna do Greg? I need Nick back... all of him, not just a body..."
Greg swallowed hard. His eyes were bloodshot and red-rimmed. "Sara... you just got to be strong. We all need him back... and all of us are behind you too... So no matter what happens..." Greg trailed off\
"He's not coming back is he." Sara looked at Greg. It wasn't a question but more of a statement.
Greg looked down. "I - i dunno Sara... I wish I knew, but.." he choked back a sob.
~*~
Grissom sat at his office reading. The book was about bugs, worms to be exact, but thats not what he was reading. Like a kid in class reading a dictionary upside down while reading a comic book, had a piece of paper that was covered by the book... only this wasn't a comic, no this was Nick's case file.
Catherine brewed some coffee and poured herself a cup. She walked to grissom's office, lightly knocking on the door. "Hey..." Cath stepped inside and took a seat. "Whatcha readin'?"
"A book... a book on worms, a book on worms and their mating habits." He asnwered answering all of her next three questions. "What do you need?"
"nothing really... Just was wondering what your plans are now that shifts over..." Cath replied, leaning back in her seat.
"Working."
"Working doing what exactly?"
"Doing work... have lose ends, need tied, you?"
"Grissom, stop avoiding the question... what work? what case? can't you just tell me?" Cath looked at grissom.
"Private... about worms, you wouldn't understand."
Catherine huffed. "Whatever..." She knew grissom was hiding something. She stood up and headed for the door. "If you wanna talk or anything... call me ok?" Catherine added and was out of the room.
"sure.." he said and wrote something down.
Catherine walked back to the breakroom and tossed the styrofoam cup in the waste basket, and grabbed her jacket the was left on the chair. She headed back out of the room and out of the lab, passing Warrick and smiling slightly at him.
"Hey Catherine! I'm going up to see Nick, you wanna come? Bring Lynsey, she was telling me she was dying to see him..." Warrick smiled.
"Sure... ok, I'll pick her up and I'll meet you over there?" Catherine nodded.
"Ok." Warrick walked off, "You wanna ask Griss?" He shouted back.
"Don't bother... " Catherine Called back. "He busy working..." she rolled her eyes slightly.
"Ok."
~*~
Sara had fallen asleep at Nick's side like she had done so often. She felt safe here and didn't want to leave.
Catherine picked up Lynsey and met Warrick in the porch, then started up the stairs to nick's floor.
Warrick opened the door to Nick's room and saw Sara, he pointed her out to catherine, "well we know where she went once she was off."]
Catherine frowned. "She's been doing this every day since... She gonna wear herself out." Catherine worried.
"What can we do?" Warrick frowned.
"I dunno... it's not like we can really stop her..."
"I guess." Warrick smiled, I'm gonna go get her some juice..." He turned and walkeddown the corridor.
Catherine walked in the room and shook Sara's shoulder slightly. "Sara?"
"Nick!" Sara shouted and sat up. "Ohh hi Cath, I'm sorry, what time is it?"
"It's almost 8..."
"Ohh."
Catherine felt someone tugging on her jacket and quickly remembered that Lynsey wanted to see Nick. "I brought a little visitor for Nick.." She smiled, and let Lynsey come around in front of her.
"Hi Lysney! Long time no see! How are you?" She smiled and sat up.
Lynsey smiled shyly. "I'm okay..." She fiddled with the hem of her shirt and looked up at her mom.
Cath nodded. "Go on.."
Lynsey crawled up on the edge of the bed, next to Nick and just listened.
"How is everyone?" Sara asked watching Lynsey.
Catherine sighed. "They're as good as can be expected... dealing in their own way I guess... "
"I was looking at baby names."
"Oh really... so you find any good ones yet?" Cath asked, taking a seat next to Sara.
"I don't know... I mean I remember once I was talking to Nick bout it and he liked the name Ben cause that was his granda's name and I said the name Chiara... we talked about that all night... I think it was like two weeks into our relationship..." Sara's face lite up talking about her and nick, she loved that day.
"So... have you decided to find out the gender before birth? or are you gonna make it a surprise? and remember, i wanna help with the baby shower and everything..." Cath smiled.
"Yeah! Well I don't know, Nick always said he'd want to so he'd know what to decorate the nursery like but I don't know..." Sara frowned. "But Nick won't know I guess."
"Sara... c'mon... don't think like that... It's just gonna take time..." Cath tried reassuring her
"The longer it takes the less likely he is to wake... I can't do this alone, I need Nick." Sara looked at him.
"You aren't alone Sara..."
"yeah I am... you can't be there all the time, meither can Warrick or Grissom..."
"Sara... maybe we can't, but, we can be there for you when you need us to be..." Cath paused.
"But you can't, no one can hold me like he does..."
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