AN: sorry, I don't have the time to answer to all the reviews individually, so I'm answering them in general. Sorry about going too fast, ill try to slow it down. It's just that I have all these ideas, and I want to get them all out at once. I'll try to do more L/J action, but it's hard since they're kinda at a break at the moment. Thank you so much for the reviews. Da changes in point of view is wen u see the "~*~*~*~*~*" so you know that if it was lily b4, then it changes to james, and vice versa (I only do point of view for L/J) I'll type the next chapter when I get… hmn… 35 reviews, ok? That's only 13 more I think. And about lily ending up with james… well, you'll just have to read and see, won't you?! Have fun!

CHAPTER SIX

"Your assigned groups are on the notice board. I expect all members of each group to cooperate and put in their biggest effort. Reports are due in two week's time. Class dismissed."

The class races towards the notice board to find out their groups.

"Aw, we're not together," I hear Courtney whine, no doubt to James.

I finally manage to squeeze my way into the mob of annoyed students. I scan the list for my name. God no. I'm in group 3. With James.

"Lily!"

I turn to find Martin behind me.

"Oh, hi," I say, pausing for him to catch up.

"Hi."

"Um, I already said hi."

"Um… the next Hogsmeade trip is this weekend," Martin says.

"Um, yeah."

"So I was wondering, if you, um wanted you to go with me," Martin blushes and looks at his feet.

"Oh, I, um…"

"Well, I…"

"I don't know…" I try to think of a good excuse, "I have a lot of work to do."

"Oh, ok."

"Sorry."

"No, it's fine."

"Sorry."

"No, s'alright."

Martin turns and walks away, deflated by an invisible sledgehammer.

"Where's my diary?" Bertha says.

"Huh?"

"I can't find it!"

"Look for it tomorrow," I say.

"I'm going down to the common room to look for it."

"Ok."

I slump onto my bed, exhausted. Something stabs me in the back. I roll over to find Bertha's diary corner jabbing up at me. It's open, and her messy writing is scrawled across the page. I move to close the diary, but the word 'Sirius' catches my eye. I know I shouldn't, but I look down and start reading.

He is so cute. I can't believe Shana's going to get him. Out of all the people he could choose from! Shana! He's so gorgeously cute! Sirius forever!

Now what do I do? I debate with myself for a while.

'Just tell her. She's your friend.'

'But you read her diary.'

'Honesty makes up a good friendship. She'll understand.'

'But if she finds out that you know she likes Sirius, she'll be so annoyed!'

'But she'll get over it.'

Go away, I tell the voices. I'll just pretend I never accidentally read her diary, and I'll just give it back. I make my way down to the common room, but halfway down the stairs I stop.

"-and she said no just like that!" I hear Martin yell.

"I'm sure Lily really is busy," Bertha says.

"You don't know what it's like! I've had to be just her friend for so long, it's irritating! I don't want her to see me as just a friend anymore!"

"Martin, calm down…"

"Four years! I've had to be a good friend for four years! I can't stop thinking about her! It's not fair!"

I don't need to hear any more of this conversation. I walk back up to my dormitory, place Bertha's diary in the middle of her bad, and collapse onto my bed.

~*~*~*~*~*

"James?"

"Yep?"

"Do you love me?"

I'm completely caught by surprise.

"Courtney, um…"

"Sorry," Courtney lowers her head.

I hate to see her upset. I reach out and tip her chin back up at me.

"I like you a lot," I say.

Courtney smiles.

"The next Hogsmeade trip is this weekend," I say, "So, do you want to go with me?"

Courtney hugs me," Of course I do."

Then, after pausing, she asks, "Do you like me more than Lily?"

I know the answer to this one.

"Of course I do."

~*~*~*~*~*

Lily's diary

Whenever I'm confused about my life, I try to go and fix someone else's problems. It makes me feel better. At the moment, I don't think I would be able to find anyone else with worse problems than me. Still, no harm in trying to take my mind off my disastrous situation. I think I'll go talk to Sirius. 

"Sirius."

"Hey. What's up?"

"Oh not much. How's it going with Shana?"

"It's not going."

"And why's that?"

"I tried to talk to her, but she pretty much completely ignored me."

"Oh."

"I don't know how to get her attention. It was always so easy to get other girls' attention, but Shana's a tough one."

"Need any help?"

"Do you know her?"

"Yeah."

"Like personally?"

"Kind of. I talked to her once."

"It doesn't sound like you're any further than me," Sirius says, unconvinced.

"I played quidditch against her once," I say unhelpfully.

"She good?"

"Oh, alright I guess. Not bad."

"You can help if you want to. Look what you did for Courtney and James."

I pause hesitantly.

"Sorry," Sirius grins, "Sorry, that was really tight of me to say that."

"It's ok," I say, "Wait. How do you know?"

Sirius looks at the ground.

"C'mon Lily. He's liked you ever since first year and now he's with Courtney. It's a bit hard not for everyone to know."

I think for a moment. He is right.

"Ok, whatever, I don't care. Hey, um… you know Bertha?" I try to pick my words carefully, something that I'm not really much good at.

"Yeah."

"She in any of your classes?"

"A few. Why?"

"Oh, nothing. Just wondering." I guess I shouldn't push too deep on this subject.

~*~*~*~*~*

!QUIDDITCH GAME!

GRYFFINDOR VS SLYTHERIN

Come see an exciting game between Gryffindor and Slytherin next weekend! Come one, come all! Cheer us on (the Gryffindors). Watch us kick the Slytherins' butts! You can place your bets in the common room each night. Go Gryffindors!

Winning team members: James, Sirius, Lily, Boberta, Miriam, Chris, Ri