CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Lily is peacefully asleep (a normal sleep, not in a coma like previously). A bunch of old doctors are whispering in the corner of the room.

"I is not understanding… how did it happened?" one of the doctors mutters, frowning.

"Strange, very strange," another doctor agrees.

"Perhaps we should check the dream monitor," Dr. Wartick suggests, flicking his wand and materializing a small screen on the hospital wing wall. The doctors crowd around the screen with their notebooks. The screen is blank for a few minutes, and then an image appears, with the word 'unconscious' written on the bottom of the screen. Sirius and I lean forward to get a better look. They are playing Lily's dream. There's a cliff, and hanging over the edge is Martin, and… me…? Lily is lying on the ground covered in dirt, and crying. A low voice says something that I can't quite make out, and then Lily is blown over the edge of the cliff. The screen flickers, and the word 'semi-conscious' appears. My voice drifts out from the speakers.

When most I wink, then do mine eyes best see,

For all the day they view things unrespected;

But when I sleep, in dreams they look on thee,

And, darkly bright, are bright in dark directed.

Then thou whose shadow shadows doth make bright,

How would thy shadow's form form happy show

To the clear day with thy much clearer light,

When to unseeing eyes thy shade shines so!

How would, I say, mine eyes be blessed made

By looking on thee in the living day,

When in dead night thy fair imperfect shade

Through heavy sleep on sightless us doth stay!

All days are night to see till I see thee,

And nights bright days when dreams do show thee me.

Meanwhile on the screen, I have fallen from the cliff too. As the end of the sonnet nears, I (the me on the screen) grab Lily around the waist and we fall together. As we hit the water, the screen flickers to 'conscious' and the image of me kissing Lily appears for a second, then an image of my eyes appear. Sirius stares at the screen unblinkingly, mouth open slightly. I hear a gasp from behind me, and I turn to find Lily staring at the screen.

"Lily, you're awake," I say, moving to her.

"I don't want to see you," she hisses, and slaps me across the face.

"Lily, I-"

"You think you can waltz in here and take advantage of me while I'm practically dying and unaware of what's happening? Well, you think again, go!" Lily screams.

"Do you really want me to leave?" I ask timidly.

"Yes," she answers simply.

"Fine," I turn and walk out the door, with Sirius following me.

We walk in silence for a while.

"Hey James, where are we going?" Sirius asks eventually.

"I don't know," I say.

"Now there's a good destination," Sirius mutters. I glance at Sirius. He's looking somewhat confused about something.

"Hey, dude, what's up?" I ask.

"I just think it's really weird how you kissed her and she woke up," Sirius says.

"I really don't want to talk about it," I say bluntly.

"But I don't get it. Wartick was talking about how when Lily got hurt in her dreams, the cuts appeared in real life. When she fell in her dream, she was supposed to die, but she didn't, because you caught her and fell with her. And since in real life you couldn't die with her, then she had to live with you. It's all so weird. I mean, why was it you?" Sirius blabs.

"Hey, Sirius, I don't care, alright? So just shut up."

"But you like her."

"Yeah, and she hates me, so what's the point?"

"Right."

We walk past the common room and past nearly headless Nick.

"You know, I was just thinking, Lily doesn't know that you kind of saved her, so maybe if I-" Sirius begins.

"-if you told her, then maybe she wouldn't hate me so much," I finish the sentence for him, "Sirius, you're a genius!"

"It seems fairly obvious really."

"Whatever, and while you're at it, you can apologize for me," I add hopefully.

"Or not. I said I wasn't going to do that for you, and I'm still not going to," Sirius says stubbornly, "You're going to have to say it yourself," Sirius pauses, and then adds, "After I tell her you saved her."

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Lily's Diary

Argh! I hate James. I can't believe he kissed me while I was asleep! Bastard! He thinks he's so good and that he can just waltz right in and take advantage of me! I'll show him! Argh! I am so annoyed. Being so annoyed is tiring. According to the doctors I should get 16 hours of sleep each day… what a waste of time. I hope I get back to classes soon. Oh, I have a visitor, well, better go.

"Shana, Courtney, hi!"

"Hey gal, how are you doing?" Shana says, approaching my bed with a box of chocolates.

"Oh, yeah, you know, the usual, being saved by miracles and stuff," I laugh. "Courtney, hi."

Courtney looks at the floor uncomfortably.

"I thought you were angry at me," I add.

Courtney looks up, "Well, I was, but then I thought about it, and well, it seems stupid really. So, um, I'm really sorry!!"

Courtney runs forward and suffocates me with a hug.

"It's ok Courtney, it's ok." I just almost died, yet I'm the one comforting others. Weird.

"I'm so glad you're ok," Courtney wipes a tear from her eye.

"Lily, to update you on the latest muggle goss with home comforts at school, I bring you," Shana pauses for effect, "Girlfriend!" Shana whips out my favourite magazine while we both squeal in delight. Courtney, who definitely doesn't understand muggles, just frowns.

"Eeee! Isn't he like so hot?!" Shana squeals as she sees her favourite actor.

"So not! He's hotter!" I reply, pointing to another picture.

Courtney eventually joins in, reading horoscopes and taking quizzes.

"Oh, I'm a cat. I wanted to be a squirrel," Courtney pouts.

"I'm a butterfly," Shana announces happily. I can definitely see the butterfly in her.

I lean over and follow the flow chart. "I'm a firefly," I moan.

"Oh my god, fireflies are totally compatible with dragons! James is a dragon!" Courtney states.

"Quizzes are stupid," I say, shutting the magazine promptly.

"Oh, right, I forgot that, you know… I'm sorry Lily," Courtney says.

Shana checks her watch. "We'd better go anyway. Enjoy the chocolates."

"I will, thanks guys," I lie back down in my bed, but not for long, because Sirius and Martin come in right after Courtney and Shana leave.

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AN: I hope this chapter was a little bit longer than the previous one. It's not much of a cliffhanger, but then again I don't want too many people to tell me to die. ;) So, here again are my wonderful replies:

To all my reviewers: READ FICTION PRESS!!! PLEEEAAASSSEEE…!!! (if you are clueless about what I'm talking about, read my bio)

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Angelbud2233 – aw, thanks. I try to make it sweet…

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Tori – you hate martin, so what do you plan to do about it?

Megan – ah, another martin hater. He seems quite unpopular. I shall get rid of him, soon.

Alison – thank you for the mega long review. It makes up for the fact that the 'informed one' didn't review my other chapters! The answer to your question is yes I have read it (kinda, not really, shut up ok?) and yes, I will say "an idea just came to me, and I had to write it up, and I just couldn't leave it on my computer for a couple of weeks before I uploaded it" can you believe it, I stayed up til like 12 last night writing poetry that I just had to get out of my head, but when I read all the poems this morning, I decided I didn't like them anymore and threw them in the bin. What a waste of my efforts last night. Ah well, I'll cope. My throat really hurts. Like really-really. Like really-really-really. Anyways, this is a very long reply. I am so proud to have been the recipient of your longest ever review. Also, Capture21 keeps putting up so much stuff! I hate her/him/it/whatever.

Unwell – yay! Another reviewer! :) Thanks

Firewalker – ah, sacrifices, love, hatred… I promise it gets happier, eventually.

That's all my reviewers so far, I hope I didn't miss anyone, sorry if I did. Now, let's all go read wonderful fiction press…! :)