CHAPTER (UH… WHAT CHAPTER AM I UP TO?) TWENTY-SIX (I THINK)
"Hey Lily."
Just as I am about to open the note, Martin comes up behind me.
"Oh, hi," I turn around and shove the note randomly into my stack of textbooks, "Let's go to lunch."
"Sure."
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At the moment I am thinking oh sh*t, oh sh*t, oh sh*t! I can't find the note anywhere. I know I put it into my diary, but now it's gone. I went back to the classroom but it wasn't there. Right then, other possible places it could be:
Maybe it's up in my dormitory, safe and sound. Some thing tells me it's not though.
Maybe I accidentally dropped it in the bin and the elves emptied the bin, my note to be found in a dump hundreds of years later.
Maybe Sirius took it as a practical joke to scare me. That's definitely possible.
Maybe I'm slightly delusional and never even wrote the note in the first place and I'm just imagining things.
Maybe an invisible parchment-eating monster came up and ate it without me knowing.
Maybe I should just get to the most obvious explanation: Lily picked it up when I dropped my books. Great, just great…
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I dump my books on a table and start the twelve-inch essay for History of Magic. It's midnight and I'm still working on the essay, racking my brains for ideas. Martin comes and kisses me goodnight and heads up to his dormitory.
One thirty and I have four inches to go… two fifteen and I have two inches to go…
Someone slams something on the table and I jerk awake, blinking my tired eyes. I don't know how late I stayed up last night. I force my eyes to focus on the person on the other side of the table. Martin.
"Martin? What's up?"
He doesn't say anything, but just turns and walks out the portrait hole. There's a piece of parchment Martin left on the table. I pick it up and start reading.
Love hurts, yes it kills. I love you Lily, I love you…
James' green scrawl etches itself into my memory as I sit in shock for a while. This cannot be happening. People are gradually waking up and heading down into the common room. Someone stops at my table. I look up at James, whose eyes fill with a horrified expression before staggering away.
"Caitlin, you were right."
"About what?"
"About everything," I show Caitlin the note and explain everything.
"How's Martin about this?"
"Well I wouldn't know, would I?"
Caitlin frowns.
"I haven't seen him all day," I mumble.
"And James?"
"I don't know. I haven't talked to him all day either."
"But you'll have to at quidditch training," Caitlin points out.
"No I won't," I say stubbornly.
"Well that's going to be hard. Anyway, you still haven't told me."
"Told you what?"
"Oh come on Lily, you know what I mean. Who do you like?"
"I like them both."
"Who do you love?"
"Neither."
"Fine, who do you think you would best love?"
I turn away, too scared to answer the question.
"Lily?"
"Yes, you were right, it's James. I can't put up with Martin, I can't pretend to like him anymore."
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Why is it my worst fears are always confirmed? Lily read the note. LILY READ THE NOTE! Wait, Lily is walking towards me. Lily just dropped a note on my lap.
I'm really sorry James. I had no idea until I read your note. If I hadn't picked it up you weren't ever going to give it to me, were you? I remember what it was like when we were pretending. Only that now I realize that neither of us needed to pretend. I don't love you right now, but I think that I could love you if I let myself. I'm sorry. I don't deserve you.
–Lily-
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Martin left this morning. He's traveling to Russia right now. We never even said goodbye.
**END OF YEAR BALL** Years four to seven only. Food, drinks, music and more!Student performances please sign up with your house head.
Tickets sold by walking suits of armor in all corridors.
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AN: sorry you had to wait so long for the update. I was in Queensland for a while with no Internet. Anyways, I bet you can all guess what happens next. Sort of a predictable chapter. 250+ reviews! You guys rock! You would rock more if you went on fictionpress.com and reviewed archeima's stuff. (That's not a threat or anything) Replies:
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