Sunlight seeped through the cracks between the blinds in my room. They were
advancing upon my bed. I stirred in my bed.
***
"Ashleigh?" It was Conner's sweet voice. I turned to see him standing in front of me. "Conner." I said with surprise in my voice. "Hey, you scraped by death yesterday." Conner said. He reminded me of the thing I was trying to forget. "Lets not talk about that." I said. He nodded. "Fine, but I need to talk to you about that guy." Conner said. Which guy? "Which one?" I asked him. "The one you kissed." Conner said. I turned beet red. He knew about the kiss. "Ash, I am glad you are moving on." Conner said. "Don't worry about it Conner, there wont be anymore kissing." I said. "No, Ash, you need him, just as much as he needs you." But Conner vanished and I was shaken awake by two hands.
***
"Ashleigh, wake up. we need to talk." My dad said shaking me out of bed. I groggily got up and faced him. My hair was all over the place. It was almost time for me to cut it again. I figured that long hair was a symbol of childishness and I was growing up. My dad sat on the edge of my bed; he was just staring at me as if I was a precious gift that he didn't want out of his sight.
"What's up dad?" I asked him wiping the remaining hair out of my face. I always hated to have my hair in my face.
"About yesterday, I know what you must be feeling but it wasn't your fault." My dad said. It was like he was reading my mind. He didn't know how I felt. No one did.
"Dad, I wasn't." I was going to say that I wasn't feeling that but I couldn't lie.
"I know it was. Ashleigh, if it hadn't been for you, they would have died. You would have died. They all told me what you did when Lily got hit. You took charge and made sure that she was safe." My dad said. I had a tear in my eye but I wasn't going to let it fall.
"Dad, I was so scared. I didn't know what to do. I used my "extra" powers to help us out. They all know that I can freeze things and. God dad, they are going to look at me differently now." I said. My whole life I had just wanted to fit in or be accepted but once school started again I would once again be different.
"I don't want to go back to school. please don't make me go back." I said pleading as if it was my life. My dad hugged me tight and held onto me. And we just stayed like that. Holding each other, he was my dad, he was there for me, and he would never leave me.
"Sweetheart, I don't know. You have to go to school. You know you do. and maybe it's for the best. Maybe them knowing is a good thing." My dad said. No, it can't be a good thing.
"You have school tomorrow morning, I want you packed. you need to go." My dad said to me. I felt as if I was being pushed out of the house. As if he didn't want me there anymore.
"Don't you want me? Don't you love me?" I asked him. I know that was a guilt trip but that's how I felt. As if he didn't love me.
The following afternoon I was in the dorm room. The guilt trip didn't even faze him. I threw a tantrum, I cried, I pleaded, and yet here I am. At school again, just waiting for. Lily and Alyssa walked in. Just what I was waiting for. I didn't know why I was; I mean I really didn't want to be close to them anymore. It would only cause them pain.
"Ashawee!" Lily yelped coming up to me and hugging me. I stood there with my arms to my side. They were both hugging me and all I could do was try and wiggle out.
"I have to go and see Dumbledore." I said without emotion. I slipped from their grasp and left the room. I really did have to meet him. This wasn't going to be a great meeting. My dad probably told him all about me and what we had talked about. I knocked on Dumbledore's chamber door and heard her say come in.
"Hello Professor Dumbledore." I touched the handle and another vision was coming to me. All the breath was sucked out of me and I heard ear-splitting screams. It sounded as if a girl was being tortured and killed. The scream was so sharp in my ear that I stumbled into his office. Dumbledore straightened up right away. He was doing something behind his desk.
"Are you ok Miss Cox?" He asked me.
"Yeah, I just tripped walking in." I said. I couldn't get the screaming out of my ear. Dumbledore was staring at me; he was probably expecting me to say something. But I refused to. After a long time of silence he excused me to leave. I left, but instead of going down to the great hall I went to my room. I wasn't hungry anyway.
My room still had some things that were unpacked scattered all over my bed. I tried to busy myself with organizing all my clothes. During Easter Break I will have to go visit Izzy and go shopping. I pulled out my new orange shirt with long white sleeves. On the orange shirt it said 'California' in yellow letters. I looked deeper in my trunk; I found some of my mom's clothes; a sweater that she used to wear all the time, but then I took it over, and a dress, the one that I found absolutely breathtaking on her. I pulled out some of the things that my dad had packed, He packed me some new books that he had picked up while I was in school, a pair of flannel pajamas, some new CD's that Izzy had sent to the house and a box of pop tarts. I smiled when I pulled out the pop tarts. My dad was unusual and very sweet, he would never stop loving me.
Lily and Alyssa walked in. They both sat on my bed looking at all my things.
"Ashleigh what's wrong?" Lily asked. I shook my head as if nothing was wrong.
"Is it your mom again?" Alyssa asked.
"You guys, nothing is wrong." I stated.
"Something is, you were very reluctant today and you didn't come to supper." Lily said.
"Yeah, you usually eat a lot." Alyssa said. I gave her a 'yeah right' look.
"Ok, so I usually eat a lot." Alyssa said. We all busted out laughing.
"I just wasn't hungry. I wanted to finish this." I said pointing to my trunk.
"You know, Sirius was asking about you." Alyssa said acting innocent. My heart skipped a beat. He was asking about me? I didn't know what to say or do. Why would he be asking about me?
"Really?" I asked acting as if I didn't care.
"Oh come on. Don't act as if you don't care." Lily said. I gave her a sharp look to tell her to shut it but she took no notice.
"Ash, he likes you a whole lot. You guys should become a couple." Alyssa said, lately she had become very aware that she had nails and she loved taking care of them.
"I don't think so." I said.
A/N: Sorry its taken me so long to update, school has been very hectic you know. so anyway, hopefully I can get back on it and crank these chapters out fast right?
***
"Ashleigh?" It was Conner's sweet voice. I turned to see him standing in front of me. "Conner." I said with surprise in my voice. "Hey, you scraped by death yesterday." Conner said. He reminded me of the thing I was trying to forget. "Lets not talk about that." I said. He nodded. "Fine, but I need to talk to you about that guy." Conner said. Which guy? "Which one?" I asked him. "The one you kissed." Conner said. I turned beet red. He knew about the kiss. "Ash, I am glad you are moving on." Conner said. "Don't worry about it Conner, there wont be anymore kissing." I said. "No, Ash, you need him, just as much as he needs you." But Conner vanished and I was shaken awake by two hands.
***
"Ashleigh, wake up. we need to talk." My dad said shaking me out of bed. I groggily got up and faced him. My hair was all over the place. It was almost time for me to cut it again. I figured that long hair was a symbol of childishness and I was growing up. My dad sat on the edge of my bed; he was just staring at me as if I was a precious gift that he didn't want out of his sight.
"What's up dad?" I asked him wiping the remaining hair out of my face. I always hated to have my hair in my face.
"About yesterday, I know what you must be feeling but it wasn't your fault." My dad said. It was like he was reading my mind. He didn't know how I felt. No one did.
"Dad, I wasn't." I was going to say that I wasn't feeling that but I couldn't lie.
"I know it was. Ashleigh, if it hadn't been for you, they would have died. You would have died. They all told me what you did when Lily got hit. You took charge and made sure that she was safe." My dad said. I had a tear in my eye but I wasn't going to let it fall.
"Dad, I was so scared. I didn't know what to do. I used my "extra" powers to help us out. They all know that I can freeze things and. God dad, they are going to look at me differently now." I said. My whole life I had just wanted to fit in or be accepted but once school started again I would once again be different.
"I don't want to go back to school. please don't make me go back." I said pleading as if it was my life. My dad hugged me tight and held onto me. And we just stayed like that. Holding each other, he was my dad, he was there for me, and he would never leave me.
"Sweetheart, I don't know. You have to go to school. You know you do. and maybe it's for the best. Maybe them knowing is a good thing." My dad said. No, it can't be a good thing.
"You have school tomorrow morning, I want you packed. you need to go." My dad said to me. I felt as if I was being pushed out of the house. As if he didn't want me there anymore.
"Don't you want me? Don't you love me?" I asked him. I know that was a guilt trip but that's how I felt. As if he didn't love me.
The following afternoon I was in the dorm room. The guilt trip didn't even faze him. I threw a tantrum, I cried, I pleaded, and yet here I am. At school again, just waiting for. Lily and Alyssa walked in. Just what I was waiting for. I didn't know why I was; I mean I really didn't want to be close to them anymore. It would only cause them pain.
"Ashawee!" Lily yelped coming up to me and hugging me. I stood there with my arms to my side. They were both hugging me and all I could do was try and wiggle out.
"I have to go and see Dumbledore." I said without emotion. I slipped from their grasp and left the room. I really did have to meet him. This wasn't going to be a great meeting. My dad probably told him all about me and what we had talked about. I knocked on Dumbledore's chamber door and heard her say come in.
"Hello Professor Dumbledore." I touched the handle and another vision was coming to me. All the breath was sucked out of me and I heard ear-splitting screams. It sounded as if a girl was being tortured and killed. The scream was so sharp in my ear that I stumbled into his office. Dumbledore straightened up right away. He was doing something behind his desk.
"Are you ok Miss Cox?" He asked me.
"Yeah, I just tripped walking in." I said. I couldn't get the screaming out of my ear. Dumbledore was staring at me; he was probably expecting me to say something. But I refused to. After a long time of silence he excused me to leave. I left, but instead of going down to the great hall I went to my room. I wasn't hungry anyway.
My room still had some things that were unpacked scattered all over my bed. I tried to busy myself with organizing all my clothes. During Easter Break I will have to go visit Izzy and go shopping. I pulled out my new orange shirt with long white sleeves. On the orange shirt it said 'California' in yellow letters. I looked deeper in my trunk; I found some of my mom's clothes; a sweater that she used to wear all the time, but then I took it over, and a dress, the one that I found absolutely breathtaking on her. I pulled out some of the things that my dad had packed, He packed me some new books that he had picked up while I was in school, a pair of flannel pajamas, some new CD's that Izzy had sent to the house and a box of pop tarts. I smiled when I pulled out the pop tarts. My dad was unusual and very sweet, he would never stop loving me.
Lily and Alyssa walked in. They both sat on my bed looking at all my things.
"Ashleigh what's wrong?" Lily asked. I shook my head as if nothing was wrong.
"Is it your mom again?" Alyssa asked.
"You guys, nothing is wrong." I stated.
"Something is, you were very reluctant today and you didn't come to supper." Lily said.
"Yeah, you usually eat a lot." Alyssa said. I gave her a 'yeah right' look.
"Ok, so I usually eat a lot." Alyssa said. We all busted out laughing.
"I just wasn't hungry. I wanted to finish this." I said pointing to my trunk.
"You know, Sirius was asking about you." Alyssa said acting innocent. My heart skipped a beat. He was asking about me? I didn't know what to say or do. Why would he be asking about me?
"Really?" I asked acting as if I didn't care.
"Oh come on. Don't act as if you don't care." Lily said. I gave her a sharp look to tell her to shut it but she took no notice.
"Ash, he likes you a whole lot. You guys should become a couple." Alyssa said, lately she had become very aware that she had nails and she loved taking care of them.
"I don't think so." I said.
A/N: Sorry its taken me so long to update, school has been very hectic you know. so anyway, hopefully I can get back on it and crank these chapters out fast right?