People like Snape pissed me off to no end. If Snape wanted me to get
detention, I will just have to earn my detention. I was sitting in the
common room trying to come up with all the different ways that I could make
Snape's life a living hell. When Jordan walked into the common room and sat
down next to me.
"Hi." He said and I was pulled out of my deep thought. He seemed a little nervous to me but I didn't know why.
"Hey, how are you?" I asked him. I had a pad of paper in front of me and I had written down 3 ideas to get back at Snape.
"Can we talk? You see I find the fact that you told me that you didn't want to go out with me because you were still crazy about your ex and then. funny enough you end up with Sirius. Sirius Black of all people. The biggest womanizer that both of us know." Jordan said. I closed my eyes, I thought watching Sirius be surrounded by girls was going to be hard to stand but to sit here in front of someone that I dated and to be confronted on my choice was torturing.
"Jordan, you don't know him. He is a different person around me." I said trying to justify Sirius' actions and behavior.
"I know enough to understand that you are going to get hurt. You better get out of it now. Remember I have been here 3 years longer than you. But if your not going to listen then at least know that I will be here for you after all this." Jordan said. He left after that and I was alone again. Everyone was in the Great Hall for supper. I didn't want to show my face because I was mad at Dumbledore and when I get mad I hold a grudge for a long time. Dumbledore had no right to punish her without criminating evidence.
Sirius came in with a plateful of food. He handed it to me.
"Here, you really need to start coming to supper, I get questioned by McGonagall every time I try to leave." Sirius said as I was eating my dinner.
"I know I need to but I don't want to. I'm mad at him. He was wrong and I was right. It's as simple as that." I said I had made up my mind already.
"I hope I never make you made." Sirius said joking.
"I seem to be more harsh with boyfriends." I said. I pulled him in close and kissed him. He smelled so good that it make me drowsy and dizzy.
"Mmmm, is that harsh? Cause if it is then I guess I'll have to make you mad every single day." He said. I laughed at him and pushed him away, that's when he caught a glimpse of my paper.
"Thinking of ways to get back a Snape huh?" Sirius said. "Yeah, I'm trying to think of things that you haven't done." I said.
"Maybe you should pull the thong thing again." Sirius said.
"I don't know about you babe but I REALLY don't want to see his bony pale ass. Do you?" I asked him. He gave an extremely bad expression. I'm guessing he had a visual.
"You're right. That would be VERY traumatizing." Sirius said. People then started to flow into the room and it seemed to get very crowded. Remus and Peter sat down next to Sirius.
"Well guys I would love to sit and chat but I have detention to attend to." I said leaving the common room. Lily and Alyssa were chatting loudly; we were the only ones in the particular hallway.
"Hey guys! Do me a favor, keep an eye on Courtney and Jezebel please." I said.
"No problem Ash." Alyssa said and I headed toward Professor McGonagall's office.
"Miss. Cox, come in." She said I walked in cautiously.
"Good evening Professor." I said. I may get into a lot of trouble now and then but I learned early on that a little butt kissing goes a long way with professionals.
"Sit down please." The Professor said. I sat down in the chair opposite of her. And she stared at me.
"Dumbledore has informed me of your actions. He has also noticed that you haven't come to one meal since then. Are you starving yourself?" She asked.
"No Professor." I said. She eyed me as if she wanted to make sure that I wasn't lying.
"You have definitely had a very different and eventful life. Wouldn't you say?" She asked. I knew she was setting a trap and I was about to take the bait.
"I guess it all depends on what you call eventful." I shrugged.
"Well considering your past and not to mention that trouble seems to follow you around. Either that or you create trouble for yourself." She said.
"With all do respect Professor, I didn't do what Dumbledore accused me of. And I didn't choose to be the one who Voldermort is after. And I especially didn't mean to hurt that boy last year; he was just in the wrong place and made enemies with the wrong people. And I may regret the fact that I didn't stop the joke from happening but I cant change that now and I accepted my punishment and everything." I said.
"Are you saying that you think Dumbledore is a liar?" Professor McGonagall asked.
"No Professor. I love my uncle but I didn't do it. And I believe that he is bound by school rules to punish someone, but I also believe that he could have made more of an effort to find the person responsible for it rather than accuse me of something I didn't do." I said.
"Miss Cox, You have criminating evidence against you. A Gryffindor saw you do it not to mention Mr. Snape himself had said it was you." She said.
"A Gryffindor? Why would a Gryffindor say that I did it? I didn't do it." I said.
"You also know how to do it, from what I know you have knowledge of very complicated and very extensive spells. Ashleigh, right now you are in a rough spot. It seems that everything is against you and unless you come up with some real evidence than have to take the consequences." She said folding her hands. I knew I wasn't going to get anywhere and no one was going to believe me.
"I can see that no one is going to believe me or hear my case but I can tell you this, I'll suck it up and I'll pay for someone else's crime but when I find out who really did it. you're going to feel real stupid." I said. I knew that I had crossed a boundary but threatening the Professor in a way but dammit I was mad. I saw Professor McGonagall stiffen.
"Very well. Tonight I want you to go back to your common room and think about this. and I want a foot of parchment apologizing to Mr. Snape." She said. I nodded and got up.
"Good night Professor." I said to her and left. I was to go straight to the common room and I needed time to think about the Gryffindor who lied about me. I went back to the common room.
"So that went quick." Sirius said. I nodded I was in another world thinking about who it could have been. I made a short list of all my enemies. There was Courtney and Jezebel. And that would pretty much it. Although, it could have been any girl that had gone out with Sirius.
Sometimes I felt out of place. All of these people have known each other for a long time and I came in late. They were all chatting as if nothing in the world mattered. And I felt as if the would was closing in on me. There were so many things that were against me and I felt as if I was running out of breath.
"I'm going to go for a walk." I said suddenly. Sirius got up and held my hand.
"Need some company?" he asked.
"No, not tonight, I really just want to be alone and not think. You know what I mean?" I said. He looked a little hurt but he understood and let me go. I left the common room just as quietly as I had entered.
I slipped out of the castle; the air in there was so stale that I felt like I was choking. I walked along the edge of the forest. I thought the world was so against me. No way would anyone help me out of anything, I always had to do it myself. Me, the all-powerful. If I was so powerful then why did I have such a giving heart? Why did so many people step all over me and get away with it?
"Why why why?" I asked myself as I sat at the edge of the lake and forest.
"Because you let them." A voice hissed from within the forest. I pulled out my wand and jumped to my feet. If someone were going to attack me then I would fight back.
"Who is there?" I asked and my voice squeaked. It showed my fear.
"Someone who respects you. Someone who wouldn't dare step all over you." The voice said again. I caught some familiarity in it but not much.
"Who are you?" I asked looking for a name or a face to match the voice of his. A head slowly came out and I saw Voldermort standing there towering over me. And yet I didn't move or run, I stayed where I was.
"What do you want?" I asked him. He gave a soft smile that one wouldn't expect from a man who had murdered thousands of innocent people.
"I'm here to be your friend. You feel lonely." He said. Anger boiled within me, he didn't know what I felt.
"You don't know what I feel. And you never will." I said there was no way that I could be TOO harsh to this guy.
"I know that you feel lonely, this is your second year, people are ganging up on you and you feel helpless. I've been there. I just decided to take matters into my own hands." He said.
"Yeah, and you killed thousands of innocent people too." I said bitterly two of them being close to me.
"You call them people? I call them pathetic." Voldermort said.
"So you're saying that my mother was pathetic?" I asked him. He laughed.
"No, you're mother was dedicated, she was lovely and she didn't deserve to die." He said looking away and then back at me. I had detected a bit of love within his voice.
"Then why did you kill her?" I asked him.
"'Cause things didn't go the way I planned." He said.
"Why are you acting so. different?" I asked him. He wasn't acting at all as how I had pictured him to be.
"I don't know what you mean." He said.
"Well, last time we came face to face you wanted to kill me. Now you want to be my friend? What's the catch?" I asked him. I was right. He was acting a little strange but it felt comforting some how.
"I didn't want to kill you. but I would have had to if you defied me." He said. I got up.
"I got to go. Around this time Hagrid comes around here to check things out." I said giving him the heads up to leave in case someone did come. He nodded and let me go. I had to admit, that was NOT how I had pictured our next encounter at all.
"Hi." He said and I was pulled out of my deep thought. He seemed a little nervous to me but I didn't know why.
"Hey, how are you?" I asked him. I had a pad of paper in front of me and I had written down 3 ideas to get back at Snape.
"Can we talk? You see I find the fact that you told me that you didn't want to go out with me because you were still crazy about your ex and then. funny enough you end up with Sirius. Sirius Black of all people. The biggest womanizer that both of us know." Jordan said. I closed my eyes, I thought watching Sirius be surrounded by girls was going to be hard to stand but to sit here in front of someone that I dated and to be confronted on my choice was torturing.
"Jordan, you don't know him. He is a different person around me." I said trying to justify Sirius' actions and behavior.
"I know enough to understand that you are going to get hurt. You better get out of it now. Remember I have been here 3 years longer than you. But if your not going to listen then at least know that I will be here for you after all this." Jordan said. He left after that and I was alone again. Everyone was in the Great Hall for supper. I didn't want to show my face because I was mad at Dumbledore and when I get mad I hold a grudge for a long time. Dumbledore had no right to punish her without criminating evidence.
Sirius came in with a plateful of food. He handed it to me.
"Here, you really need to start coming to supper, I get questioned by McGonagall every time I try to leave." Sirius said as I was eating my dinner.
"I know I need to but I don't want to. I'm mad at him. He was wrong and I was right. It's as simple as that." I said I had made up my mind already.
"I hope I never make you made." Sirius said joking.
"I seem to be more harsh with boyfriends." I said. I pulled him in close and kissed him. He smelled so good that it make me drowsy and dizzy.
"Mmmm, is that harsh? Cause if it is then I guess I'll have to make you mad every single day." He said. I laughed at him and pushed him away, that's when he caught a glimpse of my paper.
"Thinking of ways to get back a Snape huh?" Sirius said. "Yeah, I'm trying to think of things that you haven't done." I said.
"Maybe you should pull the thong thing again." Sirius said.
"I don't know about you babe but I REALLY don't want to see his bony pale ass. Do you?" I asked him. He gave an extremely bad expression. I'm guessing he had a visual.
"You're right. That would be VERY traumatizing." Sirius said. People then started to flow into the room and it seemed to get very crowded. Remus and Peter sat down next to Sirius.
"Well guys I would love to sit and chat but I have detention to attend to." I said leaving the common room. Lily and Alyssa were chatting loudly; we were the only ones in the particular hallway.
"Hey guys! Do me a favor, keep an eye on Courtney and Jezebel please." I said.
"No problem Ash." Alyssa said and I headed toward Professor McGonagall's office.
"Miss. Cox, come in." She said I walked in cautiously.
"Good evening Professor." I said. I may get into a lot of trouble now and then but I learned early on that a little butt kissing goes a long way with professionals.
"Sit down please." The Professor said. I sat down in the chair opposite of her. And she stared at me.
"Dumbledore has informed me of your actions. He has also noticed that you haven't come to one meal since then. Are you starving yourself?" She asked.
"No Professor." I said. She eyed me as if she wanted to make sure that I wasn't lying.
"You have definitely had a very different and eventful life. Wouldn't you say?" She asked. I knew she was setting a trap and I was about to take the bait.
"I guess it all depends on what you call eventful." I shrugged.
"Well considering your past and not to mention that trouble seems to follow you around. Either that or you create trouble for yourself." She said.
"With all do respect Professor, I didn't do what Dumbledore accused me of. And I didn't choose to be the one who Voldermort is after. And I especially didn't mean to hurt that boy last year; he was just in the wrong place and made enemies with the wrong people. And I may regret the fact that I didn't stop the joke from happening but I cant change that now and I accepted my punishment and everything." I said.
"Are you saying that you think Dumbledore is a liar?" Professor McGonagall asked.
"No Professor. I love my uncle but I didn't do it. And I believe that he is bound by school rules to punish someone, but I also believe that he could have made more of an effort to find the person responsible for it rather than accuse me of something I didn't do." I said.
"Miss Cox, You have criminating evidence against you. A Gryffindor saw you do it not to mention Mr. Snape himself had said it was you." She said.
"A Gryffindor? Why would a Gryffindor say that I did it? I didn't do it." I said.
"You also know how to do it, from what I know you have knowledge of very complicated and very extensive spells. Ashleigh, right now you are in a rough spot. It seems that everything is against you and unless you come up with some real evidence than have to take the consequences." She said folding her hands. I knew I wasn't going to get anywhere and no one was going to believe me.
"I can see that no one is going to believe me or hear my case but I can tell you this, I'll suck it up and I'll pay for someone else's crime but when I find out who really did it. you're going to feel real stupid." I said. I knew that I had crossed a boundary but threatening the Professor in a way but dammit I was mad. I saw Professor McGonagall stiffen.
"Very well. Tonight I want you to go back to your common room and think about this. and I want a foot of parchment apologizing to Mr. Snape." She said. I nodded and got up.
"Good night Professor." I said to her and left. I was to go straight to the common room and I needed time to think about the Gryffindor who lied about me. I went back to the common room.
"So that went quick." Sirius said. I nodded I was in another world thinking about who it could have been. I made a short list of all my enemies. There was Courtney and Jezebel. And that would pretty much it. Although, it could have been any girl that had gone out with Sirius.
Sometimes I felt out of place. All of these people have known each other for a long time and I came in late. They were all chatting as if nothing in the world mattered. And I felt as if the would was closing in on me. There were so many things that were against me and I felt as if I was running out of breath.
"I'm going to go for a walk." I said suddenly. Sirius got up and held my hand.
"Need some company?" he asked.
"No, not tonight, I really just want to be alone and not think. You know what I mean?" I said. He looked a little hurt but he understood and let me go. I left the common room just as quietly as I had entered.
I slipped out of the castle; the air in there was so stale that I felt like I was choking. I walked along the edge of the forest. I thought the world was so against me. No way would anyone help me out of anything, I always had to do it myself. Me, the all-powerful. If I was so powerful then why did I have such a giving heart? Why did so many people step all over me and get away with it?
"Why why why?" I asked myself as I sat at the edge of the lake and forest.
"Because you let them." A voice hissed from within the forest. I pulled out my wand and jumped to my feet. If someone were going to attack me then I would fight back.
"Who is there?" I asked and my voice squeaked. It showed my fear.
"Someone who respects you. Someone who wouldn't dare step all over you." The voice said again. I caught some familiarity in it but not much.
"Who are you?" I asked looking for a name or a face to match the voice of his. A head slowly came out and I saw Voldermort standing there towering over me. And yet I didn't move or run, I stayed where I was.
"What do you want?" I asked him. He gave a soft smile that one wouldn't expect from a man who had murdered thousands of innocent people.
"I'm here to be your friend. You feel lonely." He said. Anger boiled within me, he didn't know what I felt.
"You don't know what I feel. And you never will." I said there was no way that I could be TOO harsh to this guy.
"I know that you feel lonely, this is your second year, people are ganging up on you and you feel helpless. I've been there. I just decided to take matters into my own hands." He said.
"Yeah, and you killed thousands of innocent people too." I said bitterly two of them being close to me.
"You call them people? I call them pathetic." Voldermort said.
"So you're saying that my mother was pathetic?" I asked him. He laughed.
"No, you're mother was dedicated, she was lovely and she didn't deserve to die." He said looking away and then back at me. I had detected a bit of love within his voice.
"Then why did you kill her?" I asked him.
"'Cause things didn't go the way I planned." He said.
"Why are you acting so. different?" I asked him. He wasn't acting at all as how I had pictured him to be.
"I don't know what you mean." He said.
"Well, last time we came face to face you wanted to kill me. Now you want to be my friend? What's the catch?" I asked him. I was right. He was acting a little strange but it felt comforting some how.
"I didn't want to kill you. but I would have had to if you defied me." He said. I got up.
"I got to go. Around this time Hagrid comes around here to check things out." I said giving him the heads up to leave in case someone did come. He nodded and let me go. I had to admit, that was NOT how I had pictured our next encounter at all.