A/N : Oh gosh, I about near fainted right before I posted this lol. This is my first fanfic… please be nice about it and I understand some people's need for flames, but I'm more open to constructive criticism. Please enjoy it, it kinda just 'spurted' (pardon my slaughter of the English Language) out. Next fic is in the works already
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The Reason
It was over. Finally it was over. Naraku was no more, vanished into the dust of his final fortress. It had been a long battle physically and mentally grueling. But in the long run, how much did that matter when the final result had been to their liking?
The exhausted hanyou with silver hair and puppy dog ears leaned against the tree in front of the fire many hours into the dark night, but still unable to catch what little sleep he normally granted himself. The only thing Inuyasha had to get used to was the fact that Kikyo was gone, but over the years since her reappearance he had come to accept that she had never been revived completely … that the Kikyo he had known had never really come back to him. And since he knew she wasn't the Kikyo of his past he felt no more obligation to give the possibility for a life with Kagome, the woman he truly loves, for Kikyo. He knew the past was better left there-in the past and the only way to finally let her rest in the peace she deserved.
Inyasha sat against the tree trunk, staring into the embers of the dying fire his face betraying his tumbling emotions. The sun had set below the forested horizon hours ago and the humans of the campsite were supposedly asleep, with Miroku sleeping dangerously close to Sango on the other side of the fire … so close it suggested that the monk would be receiving a slap for breakfast in the morning. Kirara was nestled down behind Kagome to bestow some warmth on the obviously exhausted girl.
Kagome. She'd had the hardest time in the final battle, using every bit of miko powers she possessed in the arrow that ended up falling Naraku's minnion. Kagura had fallen to the miko's purer powers after having been assaulted by Kouga and Inuyasha in one might have described as a tag team- the first time the two had worked together. The exhausted human had collasped to the ground after the arrow had drawn to end Kagura's excuse of a life. Too tired to continue in the fight, but desperately wanting to she whispered one last word before the dark had claimed her," Inu-yash-a…."
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The next morning came too soon for the hanyou
And then the next day
And the one after that.
And before he knew it, they were at Kaede's village and Kagome was in the elder miko's hut, purifying the jewel with the wise woman. He had been outside in the night, counting the stars in order to occupy time…Shouldn't they be done now… how long can it take? When the tired young miko emerged from the hut with her bang shielding her eyes and her shoulders slumped in fatigue, Inuyasha had no time to stop her before she collected her belongings and went back in. Later when he sat in front of the glowing fire, talking to Kaede, she insisted that the grueling part of purifying the jewel had been hard on Kagome, and that after a nights rest she would soon feel better. We'll talk tomorrow… tomorrow has to be soon enough. He thought to himself before deciding to go sit on the tree and count the stars again and hope for dreams to come. Instead he thought more about her, much to his dismay.
They had all received wounds in the final battle, Inuyasha the most because of his one on one duel with the youkai Naraku. But he had healed faster than the Kagome, barely feeling a twinge every time he moved. He could tell from her scent that she was in pain, but even though she was he knew she would leave once the jewel "problem" was solved.
Away from him.
This thought enraged him. How could she not see, the stupid human girl.
Leaning against the hard bark of the tree he let out a disgruntled sigh, one obviously full of annoyance and even some sorrow. How could she not know? Everytime I look at her I feel like I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve and only one clear look from her would reveal my every emotion; and even then she can't see. Everytime I look up from a task and see her staring at me with such concentration I can almost feel her inside of me, seeing all of my faults, my tragic past, and worse of all my love for her.
How can she not know?
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
So I have to say before you go
That I just want you to know
She had to leave tomorrow. Kagome laid on her makeshift futon on the floor of Kaede's house, pretending to be asleep though her thoughts inside were nothing like her calm exterior. There was no choice in it for her. She knew if she stayed any longer it would only be much more harder to say goodbye. Its better to leave like this. After two years of searching and being together we've said everything we need to say. Nothing else to be said… But in her heart she knew that wasn't true… she hadn't said goodbye. Or that you love him. Damn that little voice in her head. "How could he not know," she whispered out loud barely noticing she was voicing her heart, "how can he not see it every time he looks at me? In my eyes, in the way I act around him… how can he not see?" she whispered in a broken voice.
How can he not know?
And the troubled girl didn't notice a pair of golden eyes peaking through the window that belonged to a curious hanyou who was at the present time troubled with his own doubts quite similar to hers. And when he saw her huddled form on the futon, he thought once again the question that had been in his mind for many weeks now-
How can she not know?
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And that reason is you
The next day came with the coolness that the early spring gave, the birds happily chirping and the dew newly formed on the fresh, green grass. And the village folk awakening to begin their daily routines, unknowing that the fate of a hanyou and human's heart rested in the events of that day. A mother parted with her unruly boy, off to play with his friends down the road and when they gave each other hugs, Inuyasha looked down on them from his perch on the nearest tree at the edge of the forest with what would have been considered a 'feh'.
I need to talk to her today there's no way around it… I WANT to be with her. Before I know it she could be gone forever and then what would I do? Nothing… I can't even stand the thought of a life without her.
When he heard the old miko calling him from the hut for breakfast he broke into an eager run; damned if he didn't smell ramen (A/N I have no way of knowing whether ramen is a breakfast food in Japan or not, but I couldn't make it lunch or he'd be too late. Forgive the ignorance of this author) - maybe this day wouldn't be so bad after all.
Kagome had her pack with her, her silly pink bicycle wheeling daintily along next to her the familiar sounds of the chain rattling and the tires squeaking came to her ears. But this time there was no one walking with her, no quartet of friends to keep her company. She paused along the familiar path to the well, while a lone tear made its journey down her face.
She hadn't known how to begin and when she had woken up from her troubled sleep and had seen Shippo, the tears had just started coming without her control. The kit had taken it better than expected and had barely said anything about her leaving, just given her a rib crushing hug and gently reminding her in her ear that Inuyasha would never let her go. Mistaking his sincerity for joking, Kagome had stifled her tears and hugged the little kit with all the strength she had. Sango had also shed a few tears during their good-bye and the final hug she gave Kagome had sent the younger girl for more tissues. The only solace for her was that Sango had Miroku and Kagome knew that they would certainly build a happy and loving life together. The thought of the monk brought her first smile of the day to her pale face, remembering how for the first time he had hugged her with only the intent comforting her.
Little did she know that the monk and the demon slayer stood by the hut door, knowing Inuyasha would never let her leave.
When he leaped from the forest and saw the demon slayer and monk standing looking the opposite direction, their arms around each other and their faces showing equal amounts of sadness and hope, he knew…
She was gone.
He immediately changed direction, knowing which way she was heading. If he hadn't already known where she would be heading he would have known just by following her scent.
He knew that scent anywhere.
I can't be too late
I never got to tell her
She has to know
No more of this tough exterior… the only way I'll get her to stay is if I let her know how I feel.
That's the only way she'll know.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
Alone in the woods, Kagome was left to her own thoughts, when suddenly the little brown well appeared through the foliage that had grown on the familiar path. This was where it had all happened that fateful day. The place from where she had first emerged, both scared and in some ways excited. Excited to see where this new place was and if she would meet some new people or have some new experiences so she wasn't an ordinary school girl anymore- little did she know.
When I first saw this place I had no idea what it would do to me. How much the different people I met would have an affect on me and the way I thought, acted, and lived. I had no idea I would fall in love.
As she turned around to survey the beautiful scenery that she knew did not accompany her time or era she thought about all the time she had spent in the feudal area. And while the young miko stood with her hip braced upon the aged wood of the sacred well, the young hanyou who dominated most of those memories appeared out of the very foliage she had walked through only minutes ago. She saw those golden eyes she loved so much and the expressive face that at this moment showed the aftershocks of panic. He was afraid I'd leave? He came running after me? And looking again at the man she was deeply in love with, she knew he wouldn't let her go.
And that was just fine with her.
Inuyasha saw her against the well and his heart stopped. At first her big beautiful eyes had been so full of sorrow he had stopped in stride to her. And then that gaze… the stare that could see right through his tough exterior and straight to what he hadn't wanted her to see. And he knew-
He wanted her to see it.
He wanted a future with her.
She was enough reason to change everything he knew and loved.
He would go anywhere she asked of him to without a seconds hesitation
But he knew she wouldn't ask that of him.
And that's one more reason he loved her.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And that reason is you
A/N : Finite!
Hoped you like it. Please be nice with the reviews, none are too mean or too brutally honest but I'm only open to constructive criticism. Thanks ^_^