Just a quick note, I want to think everyone one who reviewed the first chapter! J

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Finally I am at home now! Shit I almost forgot I have dinner with John! I am nervous as hell right now, I guess as nervous as hell can be. Ugg what am I saying! I don't even understand myself anymore. I just wish I could fast-forward through all of this and be happily in his arms but that isn't gonna happen. This is real life and things like that take time. I can't just say hey I love him and boom we are together forever. No, its gonna take time. Okay he just knocked. What do I say! Damit Abby you need to calm down, it's not like he is asking you to move or anything. He is jut here to talk.

"Hi, how are you?" God I sound like such a teenager but I guess that's what love does to you sometimes.

"Hi Abby. I'm good. You look like you've had a long day." She is so damn beautiful. Her pouty face and scratchy voice, it's enough to make the worst day of my life seem like the best.

"Yeah I have had a long day. Do you want some coffee?" Do you want coffee! Am I a complete idiot. It's right then I notice how he is staring at me. It's the exact same way he looked at me in the hospital during the lockdown. When he told me we were gonna be okay. I believed it then but now, I am having a harder and harder time believe it. How does he know we're gonna be okay, I mean really. But that look tells me. He knows I know. It's all just a matter of time.

"So…umm…Abby there is something I need to tell you." Okay I know I should tell her how I feel but I just don't think it's time. If I tell her she could just jump in my arms and we would end up the same way as when I went to Africa.

"John please don't tell me your in love with me. I mean I know you do but not yet okay. Not yet." Why did I just say that. That's exactly what I want him to say. I want him to say he loves me. God I need a beer right now. I shouldn't be drinking but right now I just really want to.

"That's not what I was going to say. I am not even sure of what my feelings for you are right now. How can you just jump to conclusions." Don't tell me she is getting a beer. The last thing she needs right now is alcohol! Damn how could she do this to herself! After working so hard to quite drinking she starts again! What the hell is that!

"YOU think I was jumping to a conclusion! If I am so wrong then why don't you just tell me what you were going to say!" Damn why do I always jump to conclusions! I know its what sets him off most more than anything else. I set my beer down knowing I shouldn't be drinking it. God it hurts so much to be fighting with him. But after the fight, that always seems to be the best part. Making up.

"Abby I was just gonna tell you that your mother called me today,!" Why do I have to yell. It seems like forever before she finally answers in a calm voice, one I don't hear often, one that is almost worrisome.

"What did she call for?" I take my beer and poor it down the sink. His face seems to be a little brighter now at the sight of this. His face is also comforting me right now. I know what he is about to tell must not be good.

"She just couldn't get a hold of you the past couple of days since you have been working so much. She wanted to tell you that your brother has been doing well and she wanted to see how you are doing." I wonder if she is really doing as good as she says she always is. Her face calms and the anger leaves. She walks toward me.

"Oh. I'm sorry I jumped to a conclusion and I'm sorry I yelled and…" he is leaning towards me. I want him to kiss me so bad. He is so close I can smell his aftershave and I can feel him breathing on me. Only he doesn't kiss me, not yet anyways. He just pulls me into an warm embrace and holds on. I think this may be better than kissing him, at least right now it is. This is exactly what I needed tonight. I didn't need the beer or anything else, I just needed to be in his arms.

"Hey, it's okay. We're gonna be okay." There it is. That line. That one line seems to mean everything to us. I think this is the beginning of a new start for us. I don't mention the beer. If I did right now it would only set her off again and I know that she saw in my face that I was happy she poured it out."

"Are you sure?" I look up into his big puppy dog brown eyes and he just stares into mine for while. When he finally moves I don't want to let go but he we don't. He just takes my hand and leads me over to the couch and we sit. He against the corner of the couch and me right next to him and he puts his arm around me.

"yeah I'm sure, just like I was last time I said it." I take my hand and wipe a whispy piece of hair away from her face and tuck it behind her ear. I think this is good…actually I know its good.

"John?" Our fingers are intwined together as we sit.

"Hmm." Yep I love her, I just can't tell her yet. I have to wait for that perfect moment.

"Thanks for being here. This is exactly what I needed." He just stares at me and I know just by looking into his eyes that he is saying anytime. Yes, time I what we need and I think that time has started.

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Okay that's chapter 2! Now review people review! I don't know when I will be able to get out the third chapter but be assured it is coming within in the next week.