Authors Note: Again I am really sorry that I haven't been able to update. I am a very busy person and its really hard to update between school, and softball, and rehearsal for a school play. Also I would like all of you to know that I have the rest of this story already written down in one of my notebooks and the first 3 chapters of my sequel to this story. I have been writing as much as possible whenever I can at school, it's just a matter of having time to type it up and post it on the website. And now that you have read that boring note I will let you read the rest of the story.
I know I said there would be no mention of Kem but I thought the way I am working this story I had to include something about her.
Rating: PG-13
Also this chapter will all be in Abby's pov.
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"Abby don't talk just listen. Okay"
"Okay." I say this in a low tone. Almost inaudible. I'm not really in the mood to do this but I guess I have to, I really don't have a choice. He starts to speak but I'm too scared to look in his eyes, afraid of what they'd say.
"I'm not sure if I'm ready for this, or even if you are. But I guess I have to, for myself, for you, but mostly for us."
I realize I'm not listening to him rambling on and I know I should. I look in his eyes and there is so much going on in his mind that his eyes just look hurt. I think this is the first time I can't tell what's going on his mind by looking in his eyes.
"I don't…It's just…Ya know sometimes how things change…Or no…I mean…You know how you finally realize something and…" I cut him off.
"John just say it."
"Okay." He looks down at the floor searching for words, I think. I wish I could see what is going on in his mind.
"John you alright?" I ask.
"Yeah I just…" He sighed then continued. "Abby I love you."
Everything, at that moment, just disappeared. It was like we were standing in black emptiness. Jkust him and me and nothing. I didn't know what to say or do. It hit me then what his eyes were saying all this time. He wasn't hurt, he was in love. And he didn't love just any woman, he loved me. I didn't say anything. I just stood on my tiptoes, reached up to his face and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my tine waist and pulled me close.
When we finally pulled apart he looked down at me and asked "So does that mean you love me too?"
"yeah it does." I smiled. It felt like a ton of bricks had just been lifted off my shoulders. I giggled.
"What." he asked grinning back at me.
"It's nothing." I stare into his eyes almost reading him like a book, I then saw the love, the passion, and the desire that he had to of been feeling this whole time.
"No it isn't. Now what are you laughing at?" He stares right back into my eyes.
"I don't know…I just…It feels like…I just feel better now. Ya know, after finally admitting how I fell about you." Finally, I think we can move on now. Get past it all, since there are no feelings getting in the way. Nothing from the past can get in our way. Not Maggie, not my brother, not Richard, not my abortion, not even Kem or the baby. Well maybe the baby but that's it. Lord knows John loved that baby more than anything, problem was he didn't love Kem, he loved me. He loves me and I love him. I guess we were just meant to be.
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Okay now review people review! I decided to change the way I was writing the story because I really didn't know how to write Carter's part anymore. It took me so long to do It in the past and this time I really didn't have time, plus I wanted to kind of go in a different direction. Also I realize this chapter was short but I couldn't really find a way to put in anymore and the next chapter really didn't fit in with the timeline but I promise the next chapter is longer.
There will be one more chapter to this story and then the sequel so please stay tuned. And please, please, please be patient because I know it takes weeks, sometimes even months to update but I promise it will be worth it.