Things never turn out the way that you want them to. People perceive what you say in a skewed manner and never let you explain. Well, at least not if they don't want to hear it.

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"Heero! Let me explain!" Duo ran towards the retreating figure.

"No! Leave me alone!" Heero paused and reminded himself to breathe. "We have to get ready for this mission. We'll discuss this later."

"Promise me, Heero." Duo toyed with the end of his braid as he trailed behind the other boy.

Heero spun and glared. "Later, Duo."

Duo threw his hands up, "Fine, fine!" He then stalked towards Deathsythe, grumbling all the while.

The mission was very easy, only the two of them were needed- Duo for his stealth abilities to infiltrate the base and get a pass-code, and Heero to use that pass-code to get into their main database system and find the layout plans of a larger, more important base that they would have to sneak into in a few days' time. It went without a hitch.

But when the returned, Heero was in a very bad mood.

"Heero! You pro~mised!"

"I did no such thing. Go away, Duo. I said, 'Later!'" Heero walked calmly past the braided boy and shut himself into his assigned room that was devoid of any personal affects beyond his state-of-the-art laptop computer.

Duo, however, was unaffected by this false show of apathy. He had been around Heero long enough to know that he was hiding something- especially after what happened this morning.

*Flashback*

Duo rummaged around in Heero's room, wondering if the boy could truly be such a "Perfect Soldier." Everyone had something that they treasured, someway to give their feelings an outlet. And under the mattress, 'Classic place,' Duo thought, he found a journal. He opened it to a random page and began to read.

***He haunts my dreams, now. Why can't he just let me be? I've paid my due, and nothing should be so hard as not being able to reach back in my dreams to comfort him, but something is- not being able to do it in the waking world. He never shows us the true him, but I know that deep down, he is hurting. I know it sounds silly, but I want to help him.***

"What the fuck are you doing in my bedroom?" Heero stood in the doorway, and Duo berated himself for getting absorbed in reading the journal- ah, shit! The journal!

"Ah, nothing important, Heero!" He tried to hide it behind his back, but failed miserably as Heero quickly called his bluff.

"Nothing important, but it was so interesting that you of all people didn't hear me approach?" Heero glanced around the room, checking for anything out of place, but nothing was, except… "Give it here." He held out his hand. "How much did you read?" His voice was soft, almost frightened.

"Huh?" Duo studied his companion's face momentarily before the Perfect Soldier's mask was quickly slid back into place.

"You couldn't leave it alone, could you? And now you know…" Heero took the journal back and held it to his chest protectively. The he spun on the ball of his foot and dashed out of the room.

"Heero?" Duo scrambled up from his place on the floor and ran after him.

*End Flashback*

It was so not like Heero that Duo was both alarmed and intrigued at the same time. What was it that Heero was so afraid that he had read? Who was Heero writing about? Duo grinned. He'd just have to read more to find out!