Chapter 10
So for two days I was without Kurama,wondering if he was going to come back at all. I knew that he wasn't going to get hurt. I was just wondering if he was mad at me because he didn't write me at all. But I knew that would seem stupid. He wasn't going to be gone for too long.
I was relieved to see him when he came back again. But I knew that he had talked to Genkai,because that was the only other person he needed to talk to. I was wanting to tell him about my training with her. I just never got around to it.
"How long did you train with her?"he asked.
"For about three years. Some times I did it to get away from the hardships. She really helped me too. And it was probably her technique that helped me learn this new 'power.'
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I sighed. "I was going to Kurama. But then you left..." I wanted to hit myself because I left so stupid that hadn't told him before.
"When were you going to tell me?"
"During the Dark Tournament. But then Sakyou saved me and I thought it would be a whole lot better if I had waited to talk about it. But then you left me."
"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault."
"I'm just glad I know now."
"Do you still think that was the reason why I...?"
"Tried to hurt yourself? I'm still not positive."
"I just wish I knew how to control. I still have memories of him every now and then."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't...I didn't want you to get mad at me Kurama. Because the day you left me I got really scared. I thought you really didn't care."
He hugged me and kissed me. "I was never mad at you. You know that."
I sighed. "I know. And then you leave me for two days. And now the memories keep coming back."
"What happened the last time?"
"I had a memory of when I left him...but that's all I can remember. Kurama,sometimes I get the feeling that someone's trying to hurt me or something. And these memories are trying to tell me that."
"Like someone's trying to kill you?"
I nodded. "Yes."
"Oh god."
"But it's like I can't do anything to stop the memories."
"Do you think trying to control this power of yours will help?"
"I don't know Kurama. I really don't know."
"Then we need to talk to Genkai. She can help."
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Going to Genkai's helped...a lot. I guess since I had been gone for sometime that I had forgotten about the power. I was supposed to stay with her for one week(without Kurama)so I could try to increase my power again. It was a bitter parting from my love. I didn't want to think what would happen if he left me again.
"Are you going to be all right?"I asked before he left me.
"I should be asking you that."
I sighed. "I'll be fine."
"It's only going to be for a week."
"I know. But this just seems so stupid."
He put his hand on my face and kissed me. I didn't want him to leave me. This just seemed so stupid without him being here. But I knew what I had to do. "You're going to be fine."
I wanted to say something as he walked off,but I just didn't have the heart. I knew that he was going to come back. He was going to be ok. I just needed to trust myself.
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So for two days I was without Kurama,wondering if he was going to come back at all. I knew that he wasn't going to get hurt. I was just wondering if he was mad at me because he didn't write me at all. But I knew that would seem stupid. He wasn't going to be gone for too long.
I was relieved to see him when he came back again. But I knew that he had talked to Genkai,because that was the only other person he needed to talk to. I was wanting to tell him about my training with her. I just never got around to it.
"How long did you train with her?"he asked.
"For about three years. Some times I did it to get away from the hardships. She really helped me too. And it was probably her technique that helped me learn this new 'power.'
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I sighed. "I was going to Kurama. But then you left..." I wanted to hit myself because I left so stupid that hadn't told him before.
"When were you going to tell me?"
"During the Dark Tournament. But then Sakyou saved me and I thought it would be a whole lot better if I had waited to talk about it. But then you left me."
"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault."
"I'm just glad I know now."
"Do you still think that was the reason why I...?"
"Tried to hurt yourself? I'm still not positive."
"I just wish I knew how to control. I still have memories of him every now and then."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't...I didn't want you to get mad at me Kurama. Because the day you left me I got really scared. I thought you really didn't care."
He hugged me and kissed me. "I was never mad at you. You know that."
I sighed. "I know. And then you leave me for two days. And now the memories keep coming back."
"What happened the last time?"
"I had a memory of when I left him...but that's all I can remember. Kurama,sometimes I get the feeling that someone's trying to hurt me or something. And these memories are trying to tell me that."
"Like someone's trying to kill you?"
I nodded. "Yes."
"Oh god."
"But it's like I can't do anything to stop the memories."
"Do you think trying to control this power of yours will help?"
"I don't know Kurama. I really don't know."
"Then we need to talk to Genkai. She can help."
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Going to Genkai's helped...a lot. I guess since I had been gone for sometime that I had forgotten about the power. I was supposed to stay with her for one week(without Kurama)so I could try to increase my power again. It was a bitter parting from my love. I didn't want to think what would happen if he left me again.
"Are you going to be all right?"I asked before he left me.
"I should be asking you that."
I sighed. "I'll be fine."
"It's only going to be for a week."
"I know. But this just seems so stupid."
He put his hand on my face and kissed me. I didn't want him to leave me. This just seemed so stupid without him being here. But I knew what I had to do. "You're going to be fine."
I wanted to say something as he walked off,but I just didn't have the heart. I knew that he was going to come back. He was going to be ok. I just needed to trust myself.
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