Once again, I must explain that I do not own Magic Knight Rayearth,
and that Clamp owns it; yet the only thing I own is this measly computer,
and a couple of randomly changing thoughts moving around in my messed up
mind.
I also do not own the song Tourniquet; this is owned my Evanescence.
The Curse of Love: Chapter 3
I woke up in a room that I didn't recognize, my arm was covered in bandages, I had an I.V. in my hand, It was obviously blood pumping into my arm. I looked around the room, everyone was there looking at me, Clef especially, he looked the most worried, though I didn't notice, I was too busy crying, I think that the others thought that I was happy because the moment that I yelled, "Why!? Why didn't you let me die!? I want to die!" they recoiled, as though they were afraid of me; of what I had become.
I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more
I lay dieing and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal,
I'm dieing, praying, pleading and screaming,
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
I tried to get up, but Clef stopped me, "Caldina, you are not to leave this room, am I clear on that factor?" I didn't answer, I glared at him intently, I didn't care, what he didn't know was that this needle in my arm was good use to rip through the bandages on my arm, I was going to die, I didn't want to see Ascot look at her that way anymore, no I couldn't. "Caldina?" Clef said warningly, I sighed and nodded solemnly, "good, you won't always be alone, if you want some company then you can just call, I'll be sure that they will come."
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
After everyone had gone, I called Ascot in to tell him, "Hi, Ascot, I don't expect you to feel the same, after all, I know that you are in love with Umi, so I'd like to tell you before you tell her your feelings, it probably won't change your mind, but I had to tell you. Ascot," I took a deep breath, getting ready for rejection, "I love you, and I have for a little over a year."
Do you remember me, lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side?
Will you forget me?
I'm dieing, praying pleading, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved, am I too lost?
Well, here it was the one thing that I dreaded, "Caldina, I—I'm sorry, I'm in love with—" I cut him off, "Umi, I know, I said that I didn't expect any returned feelings, it doesn't matter," I shooed him out.
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
~~~~~~~
Later on that night, I heard a voice at the door, it was Ascot's; he was talking to someone, I listened closely, "Umi, I umm, I'd like to tell you that—that I uh, I—I am in lo—love with you, so..." he faded off, while I sat up in bed, crying of my woes. I never heard Umi's answer, I forgot to listen, I was busy, busy pulling out the needle, I got it out, and I jabbed it into my arm dragging it down once again. Once finished I lay down to receive death.
I want to die!
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
~~~~~~~
Death came slowly, I knew that I could not turn around, even Clef could not bring me back after this much blood loss, I understood, I wanted to die, I liked the pain.
My wounds cry for the grave, my soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied? CHRIST! Tourniquet, my suicide.
~~~~~~~~~
So what did you think? Well, thanks to the reviewers. I will have another chapter up ASAP
I also do not own the song Tourniquet; this is owned my Evanescence.
The Curse of Love: Chapter 3
I woke up in a room that I didn't recognize, my arm was covered in bandages, I had an I.V. in my hand, It was obviously blood pumping into my arm. I looked around the room, everyone was there looking at me, Clef especially, he looked the most worried, though I didn't notice, I was too busy crying, I think that the others thought that I was happy because the moment that I yelled, "Why!? Why didn't you let me die!? I want to die!" they recoiled, as though they were afraid of me; of what I had become.
I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more
I lay dieing and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal,
I'm dieing, praying, pleading and screaming,
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
I tried to get up, but Clef stopped me, "Caldina, you are not to leave this room, am I clear on that factor?" I didn't answer, I glared at him intently, I didn't care, what he didn't know was that this needle in my arm was good use to rip through the bandages on my arm, I was going to die, I didn't want to see Ascot look at her that way anymore, no I couldn't. "Caldina?" Clef said warningly, I sighed and nodded solemnly, "good, you won't always be alone, if you want some company then you can just call, I'll be sure that they will come."
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
After everyone had gone, I called Ascot in to tell him, "Hi, Ascot, I don't expect you to feel the same, after all, I know that you are in love with Umi, so I'd like to tell you before you tell her your feelings, it probably won't change your mind, but I had to tell you. Ascot," I took a deep breath, getting ready for rejection, "I love you, and I have for a little over a year."
Do you remember me, lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side?
Will you forget me?
I'm dieing, praying pleading, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved, am I too lost?
Well, here it was the one thing that I dreaded, "Caldina, I—I'm sorry, I'm in love with—" I cut him off, "Umi, I know, I said that I didn't expect any returned feelings, it doesn't matter," I shooed him out.
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
~~~~~~~
Later on that night, I heard a voice at the door, it was Ascot's; he was talking to someone, I listened closely, "Umi, I umm, I'd like to tell you that—that I uh, I—I am in lo—love with you, so..." he faded off, while I sat up in bed, crying of my woes. I never heard Umi's answer, I forgot to listen, I was busy, busy pulling out the needle, I got it out, and I jabbed it into my arm dragging it down once again. Once finished I lay down to receive death.
I want to die!
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
~~~~~~~
Death came slowly, I knew that I could not turn around, even Clef could not bring me back after this much blood loss, I understood, I wanted to die, I liked the pain.
My wounds cry for the grave, my soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied? CHRIST! Tourniquet, my suicide.
~~~~~~~~~
So what did you think? Well, thanks to the reviewers. I will have another chapter up ASAP