Chapter 16

"It's alright, brother, human," I said. "You can come from the shadows."

How did you know I was here?

"I know a lot," I replied. "More than I would want to."

The hawk flew in and perched on my bed post. I had been reading when I had sensed his presence.

How did you really know I was here? Tobias asked.

I closed my book and set it aside. "Every living being has an energy called 'Ki'," I replied. "Some are more stronger than others because of their abilities. Ki energy is used to create most powers. Except magic and sorcery. That come from your persona. Ki is similar to it, but different. Sorcery is stronger than ki, but only a chosen few have it. You have to be born with it. It's usually by the eye color you can tell. It's the color of the gods."

There's only one God, he replied in correction.

I laughed. "Correction, there is one creator. His decendents are gods as well because they are him. Christ was a mortal but a god because he was God. The dragons are creations of Christ's counter part out of her own persona, thus they are Gods. The decendant's of Christ and his counter part are Gods and the generations after that."

How would you know this? he asked.

"God and I have had our run ins," I replied. "I had to research on it. I found these ancient scrolls in Trium's libraries. I fear what I read and do not except some of the things in."

I thought you weren't afraid of anything.

I looked to the side. "I fear myself," I replied. "I fear the entity inside of my soul. I fear the lonely virus with in that eats me away from the inside out, slowly killing me."

You're not like you were earlier, he pointed out. Why act that way?

I shrugged. "So tell me human, why come to spy on me?"

He stayed silent.

"Understandable," I smiled. "Jake does not trust me, I don't blame him. I don't trust anyone either. I don't trust Andalites for sure. They tend to use others for their own whim."

And you don't?

"And don't have say so in my life, Tobias Fangor," I replied. "Son of Elfangor. I am deprived of all freedoms of all emotions, by a military that wants nothing but be just as powerful as Yeerks themselves. Sense I was 12 I was trained to kill. It was better than what I had. A drunken father, pregnant sister and a little brother. I had nothing to live for. I still don't . I live for my glory. As soon as I kill Visser Three I'm leaving the service before it causes me to kill myself. I do not want live the life I have any more. I plan on creating one for myself when this is all over. I'm a kid, Tobias, like you. I'm 16 years old. We're not supposed to fighting a war made for adults, but we are, and we have to live with it. We have to it over with and live our lives."

I understand, he said. I think, I can tell Jake, that we are can trust you.

I felt the smile on his heart. "Glad to here it brother human."

He flew off.

"That's some plan Rip Raptor." I snapped around. "I didn't know you had such a soft spot for humans." He was teasing me. His arms were folded across his chest. A teasing grin across his face.

I narrowed my eyes and gave this odd smirk. "Come in Sir Ookami, close the door if you please."

I walked all the way in and closed the door. Then came sit on me. "He was nosey. How did you know he was Elfangor's son?"

"I just did."

"So you found anything new on you 'powers'?"

"I think I am a sorceress."

"No way," he replied. "You have to like a decendent of God to be that or something."

"That's what I'm afraid of," I replied. "But look at my eyes Copper."

He stared strait into mine and vise versa.

"Do you know any raptor that has these color eyes, or any Everstin or even any other creature?"

"Well, now that you mention it, no," he replied. I saw his eyes go into deep thought. Then back to normal. "But hey, don't worry about something like that. Try not to think about it."

"Try not to think about it? Copper how can I not?!" I demanded. "I'm a freak as it is. To be a sorceress will only add on to the problems I do now. Do you know what they did to a sorceress back then?"

"There hasn't been one on Everstin for over a thousand years," he pointed. "People are more civilized than that now."

"Civilized?!" I demanded. "Copper, do you have any idea what our people or doing? Well, more like the our government. When the Yeerks are out the way, what's going to stop our people from taking control of what they want. Most likely when Visser Three is killed the was here on Earth will be over. Trium is going to claim hat it was their forces that ended the war, and as a repayment, they'll most likely take this as territory. Then what next? Every planet we start to "liberate" the government is going to come and take that planet as there's. They're not much better than the Yeerks. Then what happens when they have no more use for us? They through us away like garbage. We're nothing but tools for their plan for universal domination, Copper."

He looked away for me. "Then we'll fight them."

"Nani?"

"Rip, you're like the most powerful thing next to God himself," Copper replied. "You can kill them all just by looking at them. I don't see why you haven't yet. Oh, wait you're waiting to kill the Visser, I see."

I nodded.

"I have to admit, I wouldn't mind getting rid of him," Copper said. "Either way though, the future does not look bright for us. We just lucked out, we end up the most powerful ever and we're forced to live like emotionless animals. For what though? Why can't we just say, we have enough and live lives of some type of normality."

"Because we're not normal," I replied. "Besides don't you feel it though? When you fight? That hunger that you have to feed?"

He looked down and nodded. "Yea, I deny it most of the time," he replied. "But I do feel it. It's a thrill almost. I mean, it's nothing compared to yours. A thrill all the same though."

"When this so called 'war' is over then we have no purpose," I said.

"We have to make our purpose," he told me. "It's the only way."

"That's easier said than done."

"No," he said. "I had already my purpose. I decided on it right when I joined this hell house."

"You did?" I questioned. "What is it?" I looked at him and he looked straight back.

"My best friend," he smiled.

I blinked a few times. I understand what he meant. Why was still a mystery. "Why?" I asked. "Why make me a purpose to live on?"

"Because you're what I have," he said. "Other than the clothes on my back, you're what I have. You're all I have."

I hugged him. So, I was his purpose. "I have three."

"Three?"

"My sister, my brother, and you."

"I can live with that," he chuckled. "I am not going to let some government take you, or prevented us to live our lives."

"Me neither!" I cheered.

"Ssshh," she said. "You don't want to wake everyone."

"Oh, right," I laughed in a whisper.

"You know, you can be kinda ditzy when you're not trying to kill anyone."

"Don't push it, wolfy," I sneered, hitting him with my pillow.

"Oh, so that's how it's going to be?" he teased. "Well okay. Ra!" He pulled the covers over my head. He prevented me from escaping with him holding down the edge to him with his arms around me.

"Hey," I muffled. "Let me go! C'mon Cops, this isn't funny."

"Except me and I will," he replied.

"Nani???"

"You heard except, me and I will."

I stopped struggling at all. He slowly moved the blanket from my head to see the shocked look on my face. Did he have any idea what he was asking me? Of course he did, I saw it in his eyes. He knew exactly what he was saying. "Did you come in here with the intention on asking me that?"

"Not really," he replied. "It came long before that. I mean, ok, I can't hide it anymore, but Rip I love you. I want you to except me. I can't loose you again."

"Now?" I questioned. "I mean, Copper, first off, if they ever found out we did something we weren't...." I came to me. It could be our first step to declaring our own freedoms. Did he think that as well? "Ok."

"Really....ok," he said. He stopped for a few seconds. It looks like now that he had the chance, he really didn't know what to do.

"Confused?"

"No," he replied in a horse whisper getting close to my face. "I was just concinplating on where I should start." He kissed me. It was so different than the ways he kissed me before. It was filled with such passion and love. I felt love through those lips. He parted from me and gently pushed me down to my back. He looked at me with his golden eyes, smiling and bent over to kiss me again.

FLASH!

I could see his eyes again. My hair? My head felt so light, it was cute so short. He, he looked much older...Copper? NO!

"Accept me."

"You just said that."

"I am saying it now."

No, this was not right! I was not here!

FLASH!

I was falling in pain. I could feel the blood seep from me. Strong arms grabbed my wrists and pulled me up.

"I have you M'Lady," the horse voice said. "Snap out of it please." He slapped me.

"B-begita?"

"No, time, M'Lady," he said. "Michael is disrupting your system. I will repair your wings so that you may fly. Or do you want me to call Leviathan to fly you there?"

"Wings? Leviathan? I do not understand."

"Snap out of it before heavens forces destroys everything! M'Lady we need you!"

I had no idea what was going on. "I ...I..."

The stranger who's name I knew kissed me.

FLASH!

Foolish, girl. Do you honestly think you can get away with this and I not know about it?

What was going on. I was somewhere, but no where.

I see everything that you do. You are merely my puppet. A pawn on my chess board. You are nothing. You never were nothing. You never will me nothing.

I could see a light begin to open before me. As if someone was opening their eyes.

All you are and all you'll ever be...

is...

MINE!

The eyelid opened completely. The red eye so blood shot it was on fire. Stared at me, and it laughed. It laughed with tainted joy! I had to get away from that eye. I backed up, I wanted to run. I spun to around.

Angels?!

The poked at me. They laughed. One side, the eye, the other the army of angry angels. I had no where to go. I was trapped. I had to choose a one path or the other. To die, or to live controlled. I fell to my knees and shot in the middle of the two paths. I wasn't me, I was my entiny. I shook with fear and confusion holding myself. I was incapable of decisions.

WAKE ME! It called. I need to awaken! You are me, and I am you! Don't fight me. I am the only way you can live either one. Let me wake up!

I could feel the sharp pains in my back. I saw my own shadow from the eye's red light. I was there, it was there. The wings spread out across the empty space floor I was kneeling on. The eyes of the shadow glowed blue. Furious to awaken. Longing to be free again. NO!

FLASH!

"NO!"

I pushed Copper off so fast it wasn't even noticed until he was on the ground. I sat up with cold sweat, and breathing so hard you'd swear I was choking.

"Rip?" he asked, concerned. He got up and reached out for me. "Are you alright?"

"NO!" I screamed. "Don't touch me!" I held myself defensively.

He back away surprised. His face filled with confusion. "What's wrong?"

"Just, let me be alone, please."

He nodded. "Okay." He left.

I held myself for the longest. My fate was being written for me. I saw pieces of it. I would have to make a decsion soon. It wouldn't be long before I had to free my crying soul. It was ready now, but I wasn't. I still had something I needed to do here. I was not going to let it out until I had my own fate written for myself.