A/n: Hey all! Wow. I'm sooo happy yesterday is over! Sheesh. (lots 'o work, and tests, junior year sucks ass. Its sorta like Hogwarts 5th year!) I'm just batting a thousand when it comes to bad days. Anywayz, I wanna say how completely blessed I am to have my beta! I was bugging her so much the other day! Lol. I kept asking how to spell things, and how things should happened, and if this or that makes sense. But since she is the wonderful person she is, the next few chapters will be sooooo good! and for those of you how are antsy this chapter you find out what's wrong with Ginny! Ok, I've teased you enough for the time being…on to the story. REVIEW PLEASE!
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Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter….Yet. ;)
Dedicated to: Umm…I can't remember her ff.net name, but I stole my disclaimer from her. Cuz it was funny.
Rating: PG. You'll find out.
Title: Reliving the Horror.
Harry followed her quietly into her room. As they entered Ginny's room she set her bag on the floor, but the sofa, that sat at the end of her four poster. Ginny turned around and looked suddenly angry.
"Wait a minute. I don't have to tell you anything, Harry! Go! Leave me alone!" she had apparently changed her mind. "Get out of my room!" She finished.
"Ginny please! I just want to help you." Harry pleaded.
"I already told you, you can't!" She half yelled half cried.
"I want the old Ginny back." Harry said back.
"She's gone! F-forever!" Ginny started to sob.
"But why Ginny?!? Where did she go? I… We all want you back Ginny!" Harry shouted, just now realizing he was shouting. "What happened Gin.?" He asked more gently this time.
"I w-was r-raped Harry! Raped. Are you h-happy now? I was raped my a M-muggle, he took the most p-precious thing I h-had Harry! My virginity!" Ginny yelled between huge sobs. She Flopped down on her bed in a sitting position, with her face in her hands, still sobbing.
Harry was shocked. He didn't know what he had expected, but not this. How could anyone do this to beautiful, sweet, innocent Ginny? He wondered aloud. A soft "Oh Ginny.", Was all he could muster, with the lump in his throat growing considerably larger, as he put a hand on her shoulder.
"Don't t-touch me!" she sobbed shrugging her shoulder out of his grip.
"Please Ginny, don't push me away. I want to help you." Harry said softly looking at her, she refused to look him in the eye, she was totally silent.
"When did this happen?" He asked gently.
"What d-does it m-matter, you can't change it, n-no one can. Please d-don't make me relive it." She pleaded.
"It will help to talk about it. To
share your pain."
"How the bloody hell do you
know!?!" She shouted still sobbing.
"Because, Ginny, I talked to Lupin about loosing Sirius after 5th year. And it really helped. Lupin being his only best friend left, and Sirius being my only family left."
Ginny had forgotten this. She sniffed as Harry said, "I just want so badly to help you."
Ginny sniffed again. "Why?" She asked wiping her tear stained cheeks, in vain.
"Because" he started "I care about you, as does everyone else." He said softly. Ginny had been looking at her hands in her lap. Harry took her small chin in his hand and making her look at him to see the sincerity in his eyes. But once again she jerked her head away.
"Ginny, you can trust me. Look me in the eye please." He did it again, and this time she looked into her eyes. Her cold distant brown eyes, softened as she looked into his deep emerald.
Ginny started weeping again. "It w-was horrible Harry! J-just horrible!" She leaned her head against his chest and cried, for a few seconds. Harry just wrapped his arms around her cautiously, so as not to startle her, or upset her more. She took a deep breath, so she could talk coherently, and began again, "It was two, no three weeks ago. I went to London for some shopping. After I finished I ran into some friends in a restaurant. We ended up talking for a really long time, and when I left it was dark. A man came up to me and gun to my back. He pulled me into an ally and… and…he… HE R-RAPED ME!!!" With those last three words she sobbed uncontrollably into Harry's chest again. All Harry could do was comfort her. He began to rock slowly on the spot, trying to calm her. Ginny sniffed, and spoke again.
"He took it Harry. I was saving myself for the right one. And it hurt Harry. It hurt so badly. But I told myself I'd never cry." She said looking up into his eyes. Harry's heart broke when he saw the hurt there. She laid her head back on his chest, and wailed as he continued to rock slowly back and forth. This was a good thing, other wise Ginny would have seen a small tear or two trickle down his cheek as well.
Harry didn't was to speak, his mouth just moved. "Did they ever catch him?" He asked lightly.
She shook her head. "No, I never reported it." She continued to cry, though not quite as violently.
Harry left it at that. He was sure she had her reasons, and didn't want to upset her more.
She spoke once again. "I know what you're thinking. 'She's so dumb for not reporting it.' But first I don't know who I was suppose to report it to. And I just…oh. I don't know!" She started sobbing again as violently as before. "maybe it's my fault, I did something to provoke him, maybe I deserve it." She said trying to dry her eyes.
Harry had to say something, he couldn't make her think that. "Virginia Weasley! How dare you say that. No one, let alone you deserve that!" He said looking into her eyes as she looked up at him again, seeing the truth behind what he was about to say, "And you're not stupid. You're brilliant." He kissed her forehead. "you're beautiful" he kissed her forehead again. "you're wonderful, and strong." He did it again. "And I know we'll get through this. Together. And you'll be better for it. He was scum, Ginny. Don't let him ruin your life." He said with so much passion that he didn't know he could feel this way.
They were silent for a long while, as he let her weep softly into him.
"Thank you." She said weakly.
"You're welcome Ginny." He replied tightening his grip on her, placing his chin lightly on the top of her head. They sat there a long while. Harry not sure if he should leave, and not entirely wanting to either. She fit so well into his arms, and she felt so right, being there. He looked at her again. She was asleep. Harry looked at his watch. It was 1:34 am. Harry didn't want to disturb her, but tired to get up and leave. She stirred. He stopped and she slept again. Instead Harry slowly lowered himself onto the bed, Ginny's sleeping head still on his chest. He felt very content as he drifted off to sleep.
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A/n: Yay! You all found out! I hope you liked this chapter, well I hope you don't like what happened…well…um…..you know what I mean. So, I think this chapter might have been kinda short. Its 3 ½ pages in word, and 6 ½ pages on paper. I promise to get chapter 11 up by next week. There is more good stuff in there. Well I'm off to send this to my beta to well…beta. Lol!
Beta Note: I have a name you know :P Lol It's Kneh13 or Kristen. You should know that by now. :D You're spelling is improving. I changed hardly anything. Then again you ask me spelling on Msn so I already helped :P Good Job!