"What's up?" asked Buffy
"I don't want to sound all selfish and all but it's hard for
me to think about bringing Spike back without thinking about bringing
Anya back" he anwerd
I don't know where you left off at so tell me if u need more.
Buffy knew that this would happen, but hadn't had time to think about
it.
"Xander, if you want we can try but I don't kow if it'll work"
"Why? because it's Anya, oh, but it'll work for a vampire" he
answerd angerly
"I never said that"
"But it's what you meant right?"
"Listen, I don't even know if it's going to work for Spike let
alone work at all, put we'll try, okay?"
"Yeah, whatever" Xander said leaving the bathroom.
Buffy walked out of the bathroom just as the bedroom door was closing.
"Whats wrong with him?" asked Willow, looking at Buffy
"Anya", she simply replied
"Oh yeah, you should of seen him earlier, he was a reck!"
"I believe it"
"So about the spell whos going to do it?" asked Giles
"Well I just happen to know a very powerful witch" she looked
at Willow
"How come I knew you were going to say that?" Willow smiled
"Do you think your up to it? 'cause if you aren't, it's cool
we can find someone else" Buffy said sitting down next to her on the bed
"No, I think I can do it, plus I really want to help Xander"
"Me too", Buffy smiled and hugged Willow
"Well I guess I should go and get everything ready with Angel"
suggested Giles, standing up from the bed.
"Okay, call us when your ready?" said Buffy
Giles noded.
"I hope we're doing the right thing Buffy" said Willow
"We are"
*Later That Night*
Willow went back to her room shortly after her and Buffy got done
talking.
"So what was Buffy's big meeting about?" asked Kennedy as soon
as Willow walked in the room
"Nothing much, she just wanted to say how proud of us she was"
Willow said after Buffy told her not to tell the others.
"Then how come she invited only you guys? We all faught, not
just you", Kennedy started to get a little angry
"I never said that"
"Then why did she only want to talk to you and Giles and
Xander?"
"Kennedy, listen. She just needed some help wit something,
thats all" she said, making it up
"Then why didn't you just say that?"
"I don't know"
"You don't have to lie to me, Will. Next time just tell
me,okay?" said Kennedy calming down, alittle
"Yeah, I'm sorry"
Kennedy gave her a hug.
*Back in Buffy's room*
Buffy sat on her bed, thinking about what Willow said earlier. What if
they weren't doing the right thing?, but she knew she was. She thought
Spike was probably in a hell demention being tortured, because even
though Buffy knew he was a good vampire,but she knew he wasn't in
heaven.
The phone rang. Buffy looked at the phone, then picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Buffy?", it was Angel
"Hey"
"Giles came down earlier to check on everything and said that
you wanted Willow to do the spell"
"Yeah, if thats okay with you?"
"Sure, if thats what you want"
"It is..... so when are you guys going to be ready?"
"Uh..... let me check"
Buffy heard Angel talking to someone, but couldn't make out who it
was.
"Uh....right now" he said
"Good I'll get Willow and we'll be down in five" Buffy said
happly
"Okay, we'll be in the white room"
"The what room?" she asked
"The white room, we use it for spells and stuff, basicaly
because theres more room in there then in my office"
"Oh, okay, I'll see you in a few" Buffy said, smiling
"Okay, bye"
"Bye"
Buffy hung up then phone then picked it back up and dialed Will's
number.
"Hey, Will?"
"Yeah?"
"They're ready for us"
*The White Room*
Fred, Wesley, Gunn, Angel, Buffy, Xander, and Giles all stood against
the walls, watching Will start to light the candles, forming a cirlce
around a large bowl, placed in the middle. Buffy could see that Angel
wasn't to happy about bringing Spike back, because not once did her look
or talk to her since she and Willow had walked into the room.
"Okay I think we're ready" said Willow standing up, from
lighting the candles.
"Anything you need us to do?" asked Wesley, standing up from
the wall
"Well I read that who is in the room whilet the spell is being
cast, they have to have some kind of connection to the one they are
rising" said Willow
"Which means me, Gunn, Wesley and Angel have to leave?" asked
Fred
"Well I don't know about Angel, because in a way he sired
Spike" answerd Willow
"Angel if you want to stay you can, no ones making you go"
said Buffy
"I think I'll go and check on Dawn, make sure shes not making
any long distance calls" Angel said, sarcasticly
"Okay" Buffy said, shly
Everyone but Willow and Buffy left the room, but before Giles left he
turned to Buffy and smiled, signaling his faith in her. Willow looked at
Buffy before kneeling outside the circle and opening a small black bag
filled with, what seemed to be blue sand. Willow started to speak but
Buffy couldn't understand what she was saying. As she spoke she poored
the sand into her right hand and made a circle around the bowl with it.
Further into the spell the sand began to glow and the ground started to
shack. A gust of wind blew throught the room as the glow of the sand
formed a blue wall around the bowl. Willow was still on her knees but
was shouting over the wind, with her arms streacthed out, be her sides.
The blue walls fell, Willow was breathing hard and in place of the large
bowl was Spike.
Buffy just stood there, not moving, not blinking, maybe not even
breathing. She knew what they were doing, but didn't think about what
they were going to do after. He lay there, breathing herd, but not
trying to get up or even to look around.
Buffy looked at Willow, questioning if it was okay. Willow noded and
walked over to the door, Buffy's eye followed her. Willow smiled to her
before leaving the room.
~Thanks Willow, I owe you a lot~
She walked over to Spike, as slowly as she could, trying not to make as
little noise as possible. She knelt next to him and raised her hand over
is bare back ( note he is wearing pants) and slowly lowerd it to his
skin, he flinched alittle but made no big movements.
"Spike?" she said, quitely
Spike didn't know where is was, but he knew who was next to him.
"B-Buffy?"
He lifted his head, to see her beautiful face. She smiled.
"What happend?" he asked trying to sit up.
Buffy helped him, noticing that he was very weak.
"You don't remeber?" she said, looking into his eyes
"No"
~God I missed you~
Buffy had so much happyness in her now that Spike was back, but she knew
things would be different between them, but wasn't sure how.
"Lets get you a room" Buffy said, helping him stand up.
He put his arm around her shoulders, for support, as they walked towards
the door.
"Buffy?"
She looked at him.
He smiled "I missed you"
Buffy smiled, again and opened the door.
Everyone, except Angel, were sitting down at tables, talking. When she
opened the door all the way, every turned their heads towards her and
Spike. No one said anything, but just stared at them. Willow was the
first to rush over and help Buffy with Spike, they walked over to the
elevator, still not talking, stepped in. As the doors slid shut Buffy
looked at Giles who seemed to be a happy?
Buffy didn't know what to say to either Willow or Spike.
"Is everyone in their rooms, Will?" she asked as they were 3
floors away, now.
"I didn't have to double check, but yeah they should be"
The doors slid open. Buffy looked at Spike, who seemed strong enough to
hold his head up, to make sure he was okay. Willow stepped out of the
elevator first to make sure the hallways were clear. She noded to Buffy
signaling it was clear.Buffy looed up at Spike, again.
"You ready?"
"As I'll ever be"
They took off from the elevator with a run, and were halfway to Buffy's
room when:
"Oh Buffy there you are, I've-" Dawn saw Spike, hanging on
Buffy as she came out of her bedroom.
Buffy slowly turned around to face her. She saw the shock in her eyes,
the same kind of look Buffy saw when Willow had brought her back with
out Dawn's knowledge.
"Dawn, before you say anything, I ju-" Buffy
"Spike?"
Spike looked at Dawn and smiled.
"Hey Dawny"
Willow now stood at Buffy's door watching thr conversation.
"Willow?" Buffy called, still facing Dawn
"Yeah?"Willow said walking up next to Buffy and Spike.
"Can you take Spike to my room, I need to talk to Dawn"
"Sure"
Spike took his arm from around Buffy's sholder and put it over Willow's
as they walked towards Buffy's room. Dawn seemed to be uncomfortable
now.
"Dawn, I hope your not mad at me, for doing wh-"
"You didn't even tell me!" Dawn said through gritted teeth.
"I didn't know you wanted me to, otherwise I would've" Buffy
said, steping closer to her. "Just forget it!". she stomped
back into her room and slamed the door shut.
Buffy looked up towards the ceiling and shook her head.
"Why me?"
She walked to her room door, waited to gather herself together, then
opened the door. Willow was standing on the left side of the bed, as
Spike lay on it. Before she moved any closer Buffy let out a big
breath, she walked up next to Willow, looking down at Spike.
"How is he?" Buffy
"I'm fine" answerd Spike, sitting up.
"Well thats good" said Buffy, smiling
"You know what? I have to go and talk to Kennedy about
something, um Buffy if you need me I'll be in my room" said Willow,
backing towards the bedroom door.
"O-okay, thanks again Willow"
"No problem" Willow said smiling
Willow left.
Buffy walked to the other side of the bed and sat on the very edge. She
didn't know whether to not say anything or to let him rest. She wanted
to be with him, yeah, that was part of the reason she brought him back
but the other was to give him another chance at life.
~What if Willow was right, what if I didn't do the right thing, What if
Spike was somewhere happy, but he couldn't be because he's a vampire,
vampires can't go to heaven......can they?~
The same question ran through Buffy's mind about 20 times before she
finally let it go, she thought Giles might know.
"So are we just going to sit here and not say anything?" asked
Spike, watching Buffy think.
"I didn't know if you wanted to rest or not, you've probably
been through a lot"
"Nothing alittle quite time won't fix" he said smiling
"O-oh okay, I can go and check on Dawn anyway it yo-"
"Your included"
Spike knew that it was to soon to try and do anything, but he just
wanted her beside him, just incase anything happend. Buffy seemed to
think the same thing as far as the touching thing goes, to much had
happend between the time Spike died to now, like she told the others
"time is all we have". She slid over next to Spike, gentaly laying her
head on his bare stomach, Spike let out a small "ow" and Buffy let up
quickly. She hadn't noticed the cuts on his stomach, some deep, some
shalow.
"It's okay, they don' hurt all of sudden" he said, looking in
to her eyes
Buffy smiled and layed her head down again. Spike began to stroke her
hair, as she closed her eyes, finally having the one thing that was
missing. It seemed like only minutes had passed but when Buffy looked at
the clock on the table it showed that 2 hours had passed. She sat up to
see that Spike had fallen alseep. She got up from the bedand smiled at
the sight of him resting.
Just then Angel walked in the room, about to say something but Buffy put
a single finger to her lips, signling to be quite. Buffy usherd him
outside the room, shutting the door behind
them.
"What is it?" she asked him
"I think you should talk to Xander"
"Why? whats wrong?"
"He's alittle mad" said Angel, crossing his arms
"About what?", but Buffy knew what.
*Xander's Room*
"Why haven't you done anything!" said Xander, sitting on his bed, the
broken lamp still on the ground.
"I had to make sure Spike-"
"Right, of course, Spike, it's always about Spike, never about
anyone else" said Xander
Angel stood by the door, with his arms crossed, leaning against the
wall.
"Xander, thats not fair" said Buffy
"Well you of all people should know by now that life isn't
fair, Buffy" yelled Xander
"You think I don't know that, Xander? you think that I don't
know what your going through?, I know ex-"
"See, no you don't! When Angel died you ran away from
Sunnydale,didn't say anything to us or anything, Me loosing Anya is
nothing like what happend between you and Angel"
"Your right," a tear ran down Buffy's cheek," what happend
between me and Angel was nothing like what happend between you and Anya,
"I KILLED Angel, to save the world!, Anya DEID trying to save the world"
yelled Buffy
"Maybe I should go" said Angel, inturupting her and Xander.
Buffy didn't say anything but noded a yes.
"Look, Xander if it makes you feel any better, I have Willow
do the spell now" said Buffy calming down
"Fine, but I wanna be there"
"Fine"
Buffy had called Willow and asked her to come to her room, with the same
things she used for Spike' spell.
After Spike woke up, Buffy asked him weather he wanted to say and watch
or do something else.
"I think I might go hang out with Dawny alittle, seeing as she
seemed a little surprised to see me" he said putting on one off Angel's
white T-shirts.
"Okay, I'm here if you need anything"
"I know you are", he smiled then left the room
Buffy turned towards Willow who was making the sand circle, again,
around another bowl, similar to the other one.
"Okay I think we're set" Willow said standing up and rubbing her hands
on her black pants
"Shouldn't Buffy leave?" asked Xander, leaning against a wall.
Buffy was alittle thrown back by what Xander said then remember that
only people who related to the victim could be in the room.
"No, I think it's okay" Willow said,smiling
Buffy could tell Xander wasn't happy to hear that.
Willow started to resite the spell, but instead of a wall rising around
the bowl, the bowl burst into peices. Strong winds blew threw thw room.
A loud voice bounced off the walls.
"The one you seek to return, has went on to another world. A
world where she will be tormented for the pain she has caused others!"
Willow stood up, with her head arched back, yelling at the ceiling.
"Let her return to us! She has caused no harm to anyone! Let
her return!"
The winds stopped, the voice was gone and Xander had fallen to the
floor,mad at what he just heard. Buffy didn't know what to do, or say
for that matter. Part of her wanted to take Xander in her arms and
comfort him but the other thought nothing she did would take away the
pain, which she knew from exspearince.
Willow looked over at Buffy, a sad look upon her face.
"I tryed" She told Buffy
"And trying is all you can do, Will" whisperd Buffy
Xander started to cry, but refused to let the girls hear him.
~Anya, I need you! Come back to me, you belong with me. What a hell you
must be in. I'll find away to bring you back, I promise!~
Xander stood up, wiped his face and walked out of the room as if nothing
ever happend.
*Dawn's room*
Spike walked down the hallway, confused, as to where Dawn's room was. So
he picked a random door and knocked on it.It was Faith's room. She
answerd the door with a towel rapped around her and wet hair.
She looked at who was standing at her door.
"Oh my god!"
"Didn't tell you either, I take it"
"You're supposed to be dead" said Faith, drying her hair with
another towel
"Well techinally I still am, seeing as I'm still a vampire"
said Spike
"Faith! whos at the door?" called Wood's voice from the
bathroom
Faith looked at Spike.
"Wood?" he asked
"He's different plus he does this thing we he can put his
hand-"
"I really don't want to know," he smiled "uh do you know where
Dawn's room is?"
"Oh Dawny? yea, two doors down" answerd Faith
"Thanks" Spike said,
walking down the hall.
Faith stuck her head outside the door, watching Spike. After 2 minutes
she shut the door.
Spike walked up to a wooden door with the number 213 on it, in golden
letters. He raised his hand to the door, hasitated, then knocked three
times.
"Who is it?"
"It's me"
"What do you want!?!" Dawn yelled from inside the room.
"We need to talk"
Dawn walked over to the door and opened it.
"Says who?"
"Dawn, listen I'm sorry Buffy didn't tell you about me"
"Whatever" she said crossing her arms
"Can I come in?"
"Why?"
"Whyare you mad at me?"
"I'm not mad at you, who said I was?"
"No ont its just you seemed like"
"Well I'm not"
"Fine. Can I come in?"
Dawn thinks for a minute then gives in.
"Okay", she steps to the side letting him come inside.
"Thank you"
Danw shut the door once Spike was in the room then walked over to her
bed and sat down, while Spike stood up.
"I doubt you know the answer to the question I'm about to a-"
"Try me you'd be suprised at how much I know"
"Yea I'm sure. Anyway I was wondering if you could tell me
what you know about why Buffy wanted to bring me back"
"Well she never really told me she was brining you back so....
but she did tell me that she told Angel, when he came to Sunnydale that
you were in her heart, whatever that means."
"And thats all she told you?"
Dawn noded.
"That helps me alittle. I wanted to get as much information
about this before talking to her about it"
"Glad I could help" Dawn smiled.
"Yea, thanks"
Spike walked over to the door, put his hand on the door nob but then
turned around to face Dawn again.
"I missed you nit-bit" Spike said
"Missed you too"
He turned the door knob and pulled it open, then closed it behind him.
"Having fun are we?", said a familar voice, standing behind
Spike who was still facing Dawn's door. Spike smiled.
"More then you know"
"I don't want to sound all selfish and all but it's hard for
me to think about bringing Spike back without thinking about bringing
Anya back" he anwerd
I don't know where you left off at so tell me if u need more.
Buffy knew that this would happen, but hadn't had time to think about
it.
"Xander, if you want we can try but I don't kow if it'll work"
"Why? because it's Anya, oh, but it'll work for a vampire" he
answerd angerly
"I never said that"
"But it's what you meant right?"
"Listen, I don't even know if it's going to work for Spike let
alone work at all, put we'll try, okay?"
"Yeah, whatever" Xander said leaving the bathroom.
Buffy walked out of the bathroom just as the bedroom door was closing.
"Whats wrong with him?" asked Willow, looking at Buffy
"Anya", she simply replied
"Oh yeah, you should of seen him earlier, he was a reck!"
"I believe it"
"So about the spell whos going to do it?" asked Giles
"Well I just happen to know a very powerful witch" she looked
at Willow
"How come I knew you were going to say that?" Willow smiled
"Do you think your up to it? 'cause if you aren't, it's cool
we can find someone else" Buffy said sitting down next to her on the bed
"No, I think I can do it, plus I really want to help Xander"
"Me too", Buffy smiled and hugged Willow
"Well I guess I should go and get everything ready with Angel"
suggested Giles, standing up from the bed.
"Okay, call us when your ready?" said Buffy
Giles noded.
"I hope we're doing the right thing Buffy" said Willow
"We are"
*Later That Night*
Willow went back to her room shortly after her and Buffy got done
talking.
"So what was Buffy's big meeting about?" asked Kennedy as soon
as Willow walked in the room
"Nothing much, she just wanted to say how proud of us she was"
Willow said after Buffy told her not to tell the others.
"Then how come she invited only you guys? We all faught, not
just you", Kennedy started to get a little angry
"I never said that"
"Then why did she only want to talk to you and Giles and
Xander?"
"Kennedy, listen. She just needed some help wit something,
thats all" she said, making it up
"Then why didn't you just say that?"
"I don't know"
"You don't have to lie to me, Will. Next time just tell
me,okay?" said Kennedy calming down, alittle
"Yeah, I'm sorry"
Kennedy gave her a hug.
*Back in Buffy's room*
Buffy sat on her bed, thinking about what Willow said earlier. What if
they weren't doing the right thing?, but she knew she was. She thought
Spike was probably in a hell demention being tortured, because even
though Buffy knew he was a good vampire,but she knew he wasn't in
heaven.
The phone rang. Buffy looked at the phone, then picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Buffy?", it was Angel
"Hey"
"Giles came down earlier to check on everything and said that
you wanted Willow to do the spell"
"Yeah, if thats okay with you?"
"Sure, if thats what you want"
"It is..... so when are you guys going to be ready?"
"Uh..... let me check"
Buffy heard Angel talking to someone, but couldn't make out who it
was.
"Uh....right now" he said
"Good I'll get Willow and we'll be down in five" Buffy said
happly
"Okay, we'll be in the white room"
"The what room?" she asked
"The white room, we use it for spells and stuff, basicaly
because theres more room in there then in my office"
"Oh, okay, I'll see you in a few" Buffy said, smiling
"Okay, bye"
"Bye"
Buffy hung up then phone then picked it back up and dialed Will's
number.
"Hey, Will?"
"Yeah?"
"They're ready for us"
*The White Room*
Fred, Wesley, Gunn, Angel, Buffy, Xander, and Giles all stood against
the walls, watching Will start to light the candles, forming a cirlce
around a large bowl, placed in the middle. Buffy could see that Angel
wasn't to happy about bringing Spike back, because not once did her look
or talk to her since she and Willow had walked into the room.
"Okay I think we're ready" said Willow standing up, from
lighting the candles.
"Anything you need us to do?" asked Wesley, standing up from
the wall
"Well I read that who is in the room whilet the spell is being
cast, they have to have some kind of connection to the one they are
rising" said Willow
"Which means me, Gunn, Wesley and Angel have to leave?" asked
Fred
"Well I don't know about Angel, because in a way he sired
Spike" answerd Willow
"Angel if you want to stay you can, no ones making you go"
said Buffy
"I think I'll go and check on Dawn, make sure shes not making
any long distance calls" Angel said, sarcasticly
"Okay" Buffy said, shly
Everyone but Willow and Buffy left the room, but before Giles left he
turned to Buffy and smiled, signaling his faith in her. Willow looked at
Buffy before kneeling outside the circle and opening a small black bag
filled with, what seemed to be blue sand. Willow started to speak but
Buffy couldn't understand what she was saying. As she spoke she poored
the sand into her right hand and made a circle around the bowl with it.
Further into the spell the sand began to glow and the ground started to
shack. A gust of wind blew throught the room as the glow of the sand
formed a blue wall around the bowl. Willow was still on her knees but
was shouting over the wind, with her arms streacthed out, be her sides.
The blue walls fell, Willow was breathing hard and in place of the large
bowl was Spike.
Buffy just stood there, not moving, not blinking, maybe not even
breathing. She knew what they were doing, but didn't think about what
they were going to do after. He lay there, breathing herd, but not
trying to get up or even to look around.
Buffy looked at Willow, questioning if it was okay. Willow noded and
walked over to the door, Buffy's eye followed her. Willow smiled to her
before leaving the room.
~Thanks Willow, I owe you a lot~
She walked over to Spike, as slowly as she could, trying not to make as
little noise as possible. She knelt next to him and raised her hand over
is bare back ( note he is wearing pants) and slowly lowerd it to his
skin, he flinched alittle but made no big movements.
"Spike?" she said, quitely
Spike didn't know where is was, but he knew who was next to him.
"B-Buffy?"
He lifted his head, to see her beautiful face. She smiled.
"What happend?" he asked trying to sit up.
Buffy helped him, noticing that he was very weak.
"You don't remeber?" she said, looking into his eyes
"No"
~God I missed you~
Buffy had so much happyness in her now that Spike was back, but she knew
things would be different between them, but wasn't sure how.
"Lets get you a room" Buffy said, helping him stand up.
He put his arm around her shoulders, for support, as they walked towards
the door.
"Buffy?"
She looked at him.
He smiled "I missed you"
Buffy smiled, again and opened the door.
Everyone, except Angel, were sitting down at tables, talking. When she
opened the door all the way, every turned their heads towards her and
Spike. No one said anything, but just stared at them. Willow was the
first to rush over and help Buffy with Spike, they walked over to the
elevator, still not talking, stepped in. As the doors slid shut Buffy
looked at Giles who seemed to be a happy?
Buffy didn't know what to say to either Willow or Spike.
"Is everyone in their rooms, Will?" she asked as they were 3
floors away, now.
"I didn't have to double check, but yeah they should be"
The doors slid open. Buffy looked at Spike, who seemed strong enough to
hold his head up, to make sure he was okay. Willow stepped out of the
elevator first to make sure the hallways were clear. She noded to Buffy
signaling it was clear.Buffy looed up at Spike, again.
"You ready?"
"As I'll ever be"
They took off from the elevator with a run, and were halfway to Buffy's
room when:
"Oh Buffy there you are, I've-" Dawn saw Spike, hanging on
Buffy as she came out of her bedroom.
Buffy slowly turned around to face her. She saw the shock in her eyes,
the same kind of look Buffy saw when Willow had brought her back with
out Dawn's knowledge.
"Dawn, before you say anything, I ju-" Buffy
"Spike?"
Spike looked at Dawn and smiled.
"Hey Dawny"
Willow now stood at Buffy's door watching thr conversation.
"Willow?" Buffy called, still facing Dawn
"Yeah?"Willow said walking up next to Buffy and Spike.
"Can you take Spike to my room, I need to talk to Dawn"
"Sure"
Spike took his arm from around Buffy's sholder and put it over Willow's
as they walked towards Buffy's room. Dawn seemed to be uncomfortable
now.
"Dawn, I hope your not mad at me, for doing wh-"
"You didn't even tell me!" Dawn said through gritted teeth.
"I didn't know you wanted me to, otherwise I would've" Buffy
said, steping closer to her. "Just forget it!". she stomped
back into her room and slamed the door shut.
Buffy looked up towards the ceiling and shook her head.
"Why me?"
She walked to her room door, waited to gather herself together, then
opened the door. Willow was standing on the left side of the bed, as
Spike lay on it. Before she moved any closer Buffy let out a big
breath, she walked up next to Willow, looking down at Spike.
"How is he?" Buffy
"I'm fine" answerd Spike, sitting up.
"Well thats good" said Buffy, smiling
"You know what? I have to go and talk to Kennedy about
something, um Buffy if you need me I'll be in my room" said Willow,
backing towards the bedroom door.
"O-okay, thanks again Willow"
"No problem" Willow said smiling
Willow left.
Buffy walked to the other side of the bed and sat on the very edge. She
didn't know whether to not say anything or to let him rest. She wanted
to be with him, yeah, that was part of the reason she brought him back
but the other was to give him another chance at life.
~What if Willow was right, what if I didn't do the right thing, What if
Spike was somewhere happy, but he couldn't be because he's a vampire,
vampires can't go to heaven......can they?~
The same question ran through Buffy's mind about 20 times before she
finally let it go, she thought Giles might know.
"So are we just going to sit here and not say anything?" asked
Spike, watching Buffy think.
"I didn't know if you wanted to rest or not, you've probably
been through a lot"
"Nothing alittle quite time won't fix" he said smiling
"O-oh okay, I can go and check on Dawn anyway it yo-"
"Your included"
Spike knew that it was to soon to try and do anything, but he just
wanted her beside him, just incase anything happend. Buffy seemed to
think the same thing as far as the touching thing goes, to much had
happend between the time Spike died to now, like she told the others
"time is all we have". She slid over next to Spike, gentaly laying her
head on his bare stomach, Spike let out a small "ow" and Buffy let up
quickly. She hadn't noticed the cuts on his stomach, some deep, some
shalow.
"It's okay, they don' hurt all of sudden" he said, looking in
to her eyes
Buffy smiled and layed her head down again. Spike began to stroke her
hair, as she closed her eyes, finally having the one thing that was
missing. It seemed like only minutes had passed but when Buffy looked at
the clock on the table it showed that 2 hours had passed. She sat up to
see that Spike had fallen alseep. She got up from the bedand smiled at
the sight of him resting.
Just then Angel walked in the room, about to say something but Buffy put
a single finger to her lips, signling to be quite. Buffy usherd him
outside the room, shutting the door behind
them.
"What is it?" she asked him
"I think you should talk to Xander"
"Why? whats wrong?"
"He's alittle mad" said Angel, crossing his arms
"About what?", but Buffy knew what.
*Xander's Room*
"Why haven't you done anything!" said Xander, sitting on his bed, the
broken lamp still on the ground.
"I had to make sure Spike-"
"Right, of course, Spike, it's always about Spike, never about
anyone else" said Xander
Angel stood by the door, with his arms crossed, leaning against the
wall.
"Xander, thats not fair" said Buffy
"Well you of all people should know by now that life isn't
fair, Buffy" yelled Xander
"You think I don't know that, Xander? you think that I don't
know what your going through?, I know ex-"
"See, no you don't! When Angel died you ran away from
Sunnydale,didn't say anything to us or anything, Me loosing Anya is
nothing like what happend between you and Angel"
"Your right," a tear ran down Buffy's cheek," what happend
between me and Angel was nothing like what happend between you and Anya,
"I KILLED Angel, to save the world!, Anya DEID trying to save the world"
yelled Buffy
"Maybe I should go" said Angel, inturupting her and Xander.
Buffy didn't say anything but noded a yes.
"Look, Xander if it makes you feel any better, I have Willow
do the spell now" said Buffy calming down
"Fine, but I wanna be there"
"Fine"
Buffy had called Willow and asked her to come to her room, with the same
things she used for Spike' spell.
After Spike woke up, Buffy asked him weather he wanted to say and watch
or do something else.
"I think I might go hang out with Dawny alittle, seeing as she
seemed a little surprised to see me" he said putting on one off Angel's
white T-shirts.
"Okay, I'm here if you need anything"
"I know you are", he smiled then left the room
Buffy turned towards Willow who was making the sand circle, again,
around another bowl, similar to the other one.
"Okay I think we're set" Willow said standing up and rubbing her hands
on her black pants
"Shouldn't Buffy leave?" asked Xander, leaning against a wall.
Buffy was alittle thrown back by what Xander said then remember that
only people who related to the victim could be in the room.
"No, I think it's okay" Willow said,smiling
Buffy could tell Xander wasn't happy to hear that.
Willow started to resite the spell, but instead of a wall rising around
the bowl, the bowl burst into peices. Strong winds blew threw thw room.
A loud voice bounced off the walls.
"The one you seek to return, has went on to another world. A
world where she will be tormented for the pain she has caused others!"
Willow stood up, with her head arched back, yelling at the ceiling.
"Let her return to us! She has caused no harm to anyone! Let
her return!"
The winds stopped, the voice was gone and Xander had fallen to the
floor,mad at what he just heard. Buffy didn't know what to do, or say
for that matter. Part of her wanted to take Xander in her arms and
comfort him but the other thought nothing she did would take away the
pain, which she knew from exspearince.
Willow looked over at Buffy, a sad look upon her face.
"I tryed" She told Buffy
"And trying is all you can do, Will" whisperd Buffy
Xander started to cry, but refused to let the girls hear him.
~Anya, I need you! Come back to me, you belong with me. What a hell you
must be in. I'll find away to bring you back, I promise!~
Xander stood up, wiped his face and walked out of the room as if nothing
ever happend.
*Dawn's room*
Spike walked down the hallway, confused, as to where Dawn's room was. So
he picked a random door and knocked on it.It was Faith's room. She
answerd the door with a towel rapped around her and wet hair.
She looked at who was standing at her door.
"Oh my god!"
"Didn't tell you either, I take it"
"You're supposed to be dead" said Faith, drying her hair with
another towel
"Well techinally I still am, seeing as I'm still a vampire"
said Spike
"Faith! whos at the door?" called Wood's voice from the
bathroom
Faith looked at Spike.
"Wood?" he asked
"He's different plus he does this thing we he can put his
hand-"
"I really don't want to know," he smiled "uh do you know where
Dawn's room is?"
"Oh Dawny? yea, two doors down" answerd Faith
"Thanks" Spike said,
walking down the hall.
Faith stuck her head outside the door, watching Spike. After 2 minutes
she shut the door.
Spike walked up to a wooden door with the number 213 on it, in golden
letters. He raised his hand to the door, hasitated, then knocked three
times.
"Who is it?"
"It's me"
"What do you want!?!" Dawn yelled from inside the room.
"We need to talk"
Dawn walked over to the door and opened it.
"Says who?"
"Dawn, listen I'm sorry Buffy didn't tell you about me"
"Whatever" she said crossing her arms
"Can I come in?"
"Why?"
"Whyare you mad at me?"
"I'm not mad at you, who said I was?"
"No ont its just you seemed like"
"Well I'm not"
"Fine. Can I come in?"
Dawn thinks for a minute then gives in.
"Okay", she steps to the side letting him come inside.
"Thank you"
Danw shut the door once Spike was in the room then walked over to her
bed and sat down, while Spike stood up.
"I doubt you know the answer to the question I'm about to a-"
"Try me you'd be suprised at how much I know"
"Yea I'm sure. Anyway I was wondering if you could tell me
what you know about why Buffy wanted to bring me back"
"Well she never really told me she was brining you back so....
but she did tell me that she told Angel, when he came to Sunnydale that
you were in her heart, whatever that means."
"And thats all she told you?"
Dawn noded.
"That helps me alittle. I wanted to get as much information
about this before talking to her about it"
"Glad I could help" Dawn smiled.
"Yea, thanks"
Spike walked over to the door, put his hand on the door nob but then
turned around to face Dawn again.
"I missed you nit-bit" Spike said
"Missed you too"
He turned the door knob and pulled it open, then closed it behind him.
"Having fun are we?", said a familar voice, standing behind
Spike who was still facing Dawn's door. Spike smiled.
"More then you know"