A/n: Holy Hogwarts! Once again, I'm so proud of you guys. All of your reviews are wonderful. I have 40 now! At the bottom of this chapter I'm ganna do some review responses. I also took some time out of my Algebra II class (hehe!) the other day to plot out the rest of the story. So I think I know where I'm going with this. So anyways on with the story!
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Disclaimer: I do NOT own Harry Potter! No matter how hard I kick and scream I still can't get Harry to be mine (and trust me I've tried!)
Rating: G (lots of fluff here!)
Dedicated to: erm…Kristen! My loverly beta, for dedicating her No Longer Alone to me! *huggles*
Title: Self Confessions
Ginny entered her room in a slight daze. She was sick with worry, but Harry Potter had just kissed her! Suddenly she had feelings she hadn't has since her 4th year at Hogwarts. The feeling she used to get when she thought about him, she smiled to herself as she lay on her bed. She put a hand on her still flat stomach thinking about what Harry had said. He wanted to 'be the father of her baby' so to speak. Why would Harry Potter of all people want to help her? She had no idea.
Ginny felt comforted by the thought of Harry. It seemed he could make her spill ever thing she kept hidden inside her. She lifted her shirt up to revile her stomach, and rubbed her palm over it. She felt sick at the thought of some strange muggle man's baby growing insider her, and that he had been 'her first'. A tear trickled down her face.
She was angry. She was sick of crying. She wasn't going to cry over this anymore. She wasn't going to make herself suffer any more than she already had. She thought to herself that, she was starting over. She had a child on the way, and she had Harry. Ginny then had a sinking in her stomach. No, she didn't have Harry. This was a fake relationship. He did it because he felt sorry for her. She didn't want anyone to feel sorry for her. But all the same, she felt happy with him, and safe. She always had. He was the last one she would have thought to turn to though.
Hermione would have been her first choice but Hermione would have made her report it, and Ginny just wanted to forget it, pretend it hadn't happened. She knew this was a mistake, but it was to late now. She would never have told Ron. He would have gone nuts, tried to hunt him down, and hex him, probably landing him in Azkaban. In fact, she was surprised Harry hadn't tried to do the same. However, he had always had more common sense and control over his temper (excluding 5th year of course) than Ron did.
The last thought she had before drifting of to sleep was how good a pineapple, banana, and anchovy pizza sounded.
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Harry walked to his room, not fully aware of what he had just done. He had kissed Ginny Weasley. As he entered his bedroom he sat of the sofa at the end of the bed. Apparently the houself's had been into tidy up, his clothes that were once strewn upon the floor were now laundered and folded neatly on the end of his, now immaculately made bed, the fire was blazing in its grate.
He couldn't believe what he had just suggested to her. Him? Be a father. What was he thinking.
Suddenly he realized what he couldn't for the first part of the year. He like Ginny. As far more than a friend. But he didn't now know to tell her. She had been through so much already in such a short amount of time, could she take finding out Harry had fallen for her?
Harry sat back against the sofa and thought about how right that kiss felt, and that she thought it was only a fake kiss. That he was only pretending for her sake. But really he tried to put as much reality behind it was possible, with out scaring her off. She needs time, he told himself.
Maybe she doesn't even feel the same way, mused his inner monolog. He knew when she was younger she like him quite a bit, but this was almost 10 years later. Plus he knew she lost interest, (or hope) during his 5th year. This got him down a bit, but decided to see where things went with this. He pulled himself up off the sofa and undressed. He put his clean clothes away, and climbed into bed. That night he had an awful dream about Ginny in the Chamber of Secrets.
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Harry was on his way to breakfast the next morning. He met Ginny as she came out of her little piece of Hogwarts.
" 'Morning Gin." Harry said sleepily.
"Good morning Harry." She said cheerily but obviously tired.
Harry placed a hand on her shoulder and slid it down her sleeveless arm to intertwine his fingers with hers.
"Sleep well?" He asked stupidly.
"Honestly, not really. Nightmares. You?" She replied trying to avoid the subject.
"The same. What were yours about, if you don't mind me asking Miss Weasley." He asked taking his hand out of hers and draping it around her shoulder.
This gesture pained her. She knew he was faking this display of affection, but it felt so right, that she couldn't help but lean her head on his shoulder. "Tom." She said simply. "You?"
"Surprisingly enough, I dreamt about the Chamber as well, only it was me not being in time to save you." He said, his heart sinking. He really loved walking with her like this, but he knew it was only show.
Harry heard voiced down the all they had just passed, and pulled Ginny into an empty classroom nearby.
"Harry what are we doing?" Ginny protested.
"It's Ron. Just play along, I think Hermione's with him too." He said hushing her inquires with a deep kiss that at first she didn't return. Then Harry positioned them so Ron and Hermione were sure to see them. Finally Ginny understood what was going one, knowing what Ron's reaction would be and melted into Harry's all-to-real kiss, and returning it. She wrapped a leg around Harry's waist as she heard the voices getting louder and the footsteps closer. Harry prayed he could control himself, the chamber wasn't the only thing he dreamt about.
Harry cautiously slid one hand under her shirt and touched her stomach. She flinched, having a slight flash back to that ally in London, then remembering this was Harry and he would never hurt her. He rubbed his hand up her side, when they both heard the voices, and foot steps stop abruptly out side the door, it opened.
"What the bloody hell do you think you're doing to my sister!" Ron said shocked.
"RON!" was all Hermione said, smacking his arm.
They pulled apart. Harry was very relieved he kept his cool. He was about to speak when Ginny spoke instead.
"like it's any of your business Ronald!" she said heatedly, her hair a little disheveled.
"It bloody well is my business if my best mate is trying to get into my sisters knickers!" Ron retorted, Hermione was quite.
"Ronald Weasley! I am 21 years old! I can handle myself! Plus, did you ever think I, your sweet, innocent little sister, might be trying to get into his knickers!" she said gesturing toward Harry.
Ron was dumbfounded. He still looked murderous, but then is face softened. "Sorry Gin. Harry." He said nodding to each of them. "It's just I didn't expect to find out you guys were seeing each other this way." He continued, suddenly very interested in his shoes. "you guys are together right? You'd never break her heart, would you mate?" He asked looking Harry in the eye.
"Never." Harry said, once again draping an arm around Ginny.
"Ron what do you think I am, some scarlet woman? I don't go around just snogging guys I'm not with." She said rather offended, but touched deeply by what Harry had said.
"Sorry Gin. It's just it was kind of a shocker to walk passed an empty room and see my little sister, and best mate practically shagging in plain view." Ron said apologetically.
At this both Harry and Ginny blushed.
"Well, I guess 'Moine and I will see you at breakfast in a few?" He asked smiling.
"Sure thing bro." Ginny replied at the same time Harry said "definitely."
Ron left the room, hand in hand with Hermione.
When they were out of earshot both Harry, and Ginny burst out laughing. Suddenly Harry thought he ought to apologizes.
"Um..Sorry Ginny." He said looking at the floor
"What for?" she asked cocking her head to one side.
"For kissing you like that, I shouldn't have done that until I knew you were ready." He said.
"Oh. Well, I thought about that, while I was yelling at Ron. Maybe that's what I needed. You know, to know not ever guy that touches me is ganna hurt me." She said taking his hand.
Harry understood. "So you were trying to get into my kickers, eh Red?" he said jokingly.
"Oh you be quite." She said lightly slapping his arm.
Harry could definitely get used to this, and he would have to tell her how he really felt. The thought that her feelings might not be real hurt him immensely. But how?
Ginny was thinking the same thing.
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A/n: ok well, this chapter even surprised me. I was ganna write what I had in my notebook but my fingers wouldn't listen! so this was the result of my disobedient fingers. Umm…chapter 14 should be up soon. Its probably ganna be my written chapter 13 and 14 combined so as not to through me off. I also have to tell you the whole Ginny getting into Harry's kickers inst my idea, I wish it was, but its JillyWillyBean's idea. In hers story The Very Secret Diary of Virginia A Weasley, that line (or something like it) comes up. So thanks bunches to her! So anyway….Here is Kristen' beta note, and some review replies:
Beta note: I wonder who will say they like the other first. Even I don't know and I know the plot. Cool Chapter Jayme. I for one can't wait for more.
PonyLuvrGirl- you are my most loyal reviewer (other than my beta but she doesn't count, lol) and your encouragement has really kept me going. Thanks soooo much!
saima (too lazy to log in)- yes I am evil. Thank you. Lol. Are you happy you found out what is wrong with Ginny? I know its bad but obviously she gets over it….or does she. IM NOT TELLING!
Kelly- I thought about her having a total mental break down, but its in cannon. You know with the whole slitting wrists attempts. I just didn't feel like writing that, do depressing. And yes, my beta is the best! I don't deserve her!
SummerRaven- yes. I know I should have gone more, but then I wouldn't be evil! Lol. I'm glad my writing had you so excited.
Mirengard- yes. I do realize a lot of fics are all fluff. And it sorta bothers me, but I still like and read those, and my next one my be all fluff, to make up for the stress of this on. Although rape is a VERY serious thing I don't think I handled it enough, but I didn't wanna dwell on it.
Darcy16- 11th grad isn't that bad. Just the last few weeks have been. I compared it to the 5th year at Hogwarts, because I have the MEAP (Michigan education assessment program) coming up (it's a test to test the teachers, that the students take, go figure) and its sorta like the OWLs.