Content: Mature subject matter, het situations, mentions of abuse, language.
Character/s: Hunter, Chyna (Joanie Laurer), Stephanie McMahon.
Disclaimer: I own NO ONE depicted in these fics. I am not endorsed by any person, corporation, federation, promotion, etc., nor do I receive any monies for writing sick and twisted tales of their imagined goings-on. Lyrics from "Tenderness (For Women Only)" by Steppenwolf. Lyrics, quotations, etc. used without permission. No infringement or disrespect to the various artisans is intended, so please don't sue me.
Notes: A leadup to Hunter & Stephanie's RL wedding in October of 2003.
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What an incredibly fucked up situation this is. I can't even fall in love without finding some way to complicate the issue. Now I've gotta worry about how the hell I'm going to settle this. You'd think after all this time I would know better than to get caught up in this kind of mess, right? I guess some things never change. My insatiable appetite for something new and exciting is no exception.
Joanie's no fool. There's no way in hell she can't know about Stephanie. Of course, Steph knew about Jo from the beginning. She was all for coming out in the open about me seeing her, but I didn't think that was the best way to handle things. I figured I could keep Steph on the side and nobody would be any wiser. Just shows that she doesn't know Jo too well, does she?
I hadn't even planned on finding someone else. I was actually content for a long damn time. Jo was so many things I'd been seeking for so fucking long, you'd think she'd be enough for me. Shows how well I know myself, huh? She was the sweetest, tenderest lover I'd ever had. The only one who didn't come to me looking to be 'mastered by the Game,' but simply to be with me. Not my persona, just me. She was so fucking good to me and all I did was treat her like shit. I knew she was tough, so if I'd had a bad day, I'd take it out on her, knowing it wouldn't scare her off.
She tried to show me how to love
I bit her lip and bruised her arms
No, I hadn't learned tenderness
I don't know how many times we had that same old conversation about what each of us really wanted in a lifelong partner. How she wanted stability, intelligence, and stamina. Someone who could keep up with her mentally as well as physically. I thought that's all I wanted and needed, too, but I was so fucking wrong. Why the hell did I think one woman could ever be enough for me?
Even Jo, as amazing as she was, wasn't enough to keep me satisfied. Maybe it was because I knew I could take advantage of her love that led me to do so. Maybe it was because I knew that no matter how badly I treated her, she'd still stick by my side and love me. So willing and naive in so many ways. She had this totally idealistic view of what true love was, because she'd never really been IN love before. It was just so fucking easy to use it against her to get what I wanted.
She asked, "what does love mean to you?"
I grabbed her hair and pulled her down
I looked in her eyes and I laughed
I guess the chase really IS better than the catch, because once I knew I had her, my eye started wandering elsewhere. And found Stephanie. The last person I ever thought I'd fall for. Like me, her on-screen character wasn't too far off the mark from who she was away from the public eye. Behind the shrieking voice and the fake tits was someone every bit as ambitious and egotistical as me. Almost a mirror image of myself.
It was such a thrill in the beginning, sneaking around behind Joanie's back. Taking business lunches with "McMahon." Little did Jo know it was the daughter and not the father I was seeing. I turned lies and double-talk into an art form. We actually managed to pull it off pretty good for several months. Then little by little, I started to fuck up. I'd either stay out too late and forget to call, or I'd do something stupid like call Steph while I thought Joanie was in the shower. Just simple little shit like that.
But Joanie, man, she could get a job with the FBI. It didn't take too long for her to start to suspect she wasn't the only woman in my life. She started putting all the pieces together and finally confronted not me but Stephanie with the proof. Steph of course tried to cover for me, made up all kinds of excuses about how she was a writer and needed to meet with me regularly to go over storylines and other business-related topics. I have a feeling that explanation didn't go over too well. Joanie hasn't mentioned it to me yet, but one day she will. And I'll give her the cold, hard truth. Every damn bit of it.
The love I feel is hard and fast
It's for a face and for one night
I don't need to own anyone
Fact of the matter is, I don't want the kind of almost hero-worship that Joanie offers anymore. I'm not the slightly insecure person I was when we met. I know what I'm good at, and that happens to be fucking around. I like knowing I can go to damn near any city in any state and know there'll be women lined up around the corner for the chance to carry my bags, drive me to my hotel, suck my dick, or just be seen in my presence. I LIKE having that kind of power over people, but I don't want to feel like I owe them any more than I'm willing to give. I don't need mindless followers, just people who respect me for who I am.
I can't have that kind of a life with Jo. There's always going to be something of the awestruck fan with her. Not so with Stephanie. She's used to things being handed to her on a silver platter. And if she doesn't get what she wants, she'll find a way to get it. She's completely ruthless and that's one of the main things I love about her. I like someone who's not afraid to play dirty to get what she wants
Jo thinks she knows me so well. She thinks if we ever broke up that I'd spend my days missing her, asking myself what she's up to, wondering if she's thinking about me. And hell, I probably would for a little while, but people like me always move on in search of the next best thing. The fact that I've already got someone waiting in the wings just makes the transition that much easier this time.
She said all your women burn in your flame
But as it dies, they'll leave you and seek revenge
Steph thinks Jo's going to do something drastic when that inevitable day comes, that she'll find some way to get back at me. I really don't see it happening. I'm sure as shit not scared of Joanie. Let's get real, people. When the time comes, I'll snap my fingers and she'll have no other choice but to do as I say. Because that's how things are with us. She may THINK she has some say in the matter, but in the end it all comes down to what I want.
That's the only acceptable solution, after all. And Steph at least respects that. She knows ours will be a give-and-take relationship, with me winning most of the battles. She won't just roll over and give in, though, which makes the game a little more interesting. Not like with Joanie, where her fear of losing me governs her every thought, action, and feeling. She thinks she can predict what I'll say or do, but she's got another thing coming. And I'll have no problems showing her the error of her ways when the time comes.
She laughed and said "You'll go through hell
You'll live in lonely rooms unknown
And watch for my lost tenderness"
If Jo thinks I'm going to spend my days pining for her, she's fucking deluding herself. I've had plenty of other women before her, and I'll probably have countless others after her. I need variety in my sex life. That's just how things are. People like me don't settle down. We need constant stimulation, new avenues to explore, unpredictable encounters. Sheltered people like Jo will never get that.
That's another thing Steph has going for her. She knows how the real world operates. She knows that we may last a few weeks or a few months or even a few years. There's no telling and we're not deluding ourselves by promising ourselves a forever together. We're taking things one day at a time and keeping things as real as possible. It's a nice, refreshing break from the starry-eyed puppy love I get from Jo. She probably thinks we'll be together until the end of time, that I'll marry her, and we'll have a whole litter of gym babies. I think not. Why the fuck would I want to tie myself down by helping create an army of 'mini-me's? Someone's gotta look after Number One, and that someone is me.
I went from her to someone else and someone else
No, I couldn't be satisfied
Like me, Steph's had her share of random partners. She'll use people for whatever they're worth and then move on to something new. How many times have we all seen someone get a huge push only to be dropped from the air a few short weeks later? That's Stephanie's influence right there. As soon as she starts to lose interest, they're through. I'm sure it sucks from their perspective, but this is a business, after all, and that's how things work.
Maybe I'll stick around with Steph for a while and maybe I won't. It certainly can't hurt my career any, fucking the boss' daughter. Maybe I'll even cement myself a spot as a main-eventer again, get a nice, long title run, have some say in the storylines I get put in. Point is, I have nothing to lose by dumping Joanie for Stephanie. I know that sounds cold and heartless, but I don't give a shit. My own needs and wants have to come first. They always have and they always will.
She said all your women burn in your flame
And as it dies, they'll leave you and seek revenge
No matter what anyone else might say, I didn't set out to break Joanie's heart. I really didn't. I honestly do love her. She's just not what I need right now. Things may change somewhere down the road and I may need to return to the shelter of her forgiving heart, but I honestly don't see that happening. All I can do right now is focus on my career and Stephanie and hope that it takes just a little longer for Joanie to figure out what's really going on between us. I'd hate to leave one relationship without having another one already set up.
I said it before and I'll say it again. I'm insatiable. Stephanie is no different. I'm sure she'll continue to see whomever she wants on the side while we're together, and she won't give a shit if I do the same to her. Of course, I really don't see either of us needing to have other partners since we're already so well-matched, but I'm not ruling out the possibility, either. We'll just take it step by step and see what happens.
I just have to figure out a way to let Joanie down easy. She'll probably give me that same tired old line about how she can never love again, never trust a man again after I hurt her so badly. Fuckever. I don't need anyone's drama thrown in my face. If she can't handle the truth, too fucking bad. She'll have no choice but to deal with it however she feels she has to.
I wish that I could find her now
My love is soft, my love is warm
I'd take her to bed tenderly
Oh yes, I'd take her to bed tenderly
You know? I almost regret the pain I'm going to put her through once I finally end things between us. Almost. She really is a great kid with a good heart. She means well, at least. It's not entirely her fault that she can't be what I need her to be. And in all honesty, I wouldn't want her to change for me. She gave me a lot of what I needed at a time when I needed it most. She taught me that people really can love me for WHO I am, and not what they THINK I am. Most importantly, she taught me what true love is. And now that I have no more need for her, I feel like the worst kind of criminal for taking her love and using it and then turning my back on her.
But what the fuck else am I supposed to do? I'm in this for me, remember? Not anybody else. Just me.
Character/s: Hunter, Chyna (Joanie Laurer), Stephanie McMahon.
Disclaimer: I own NO ONE depicted in these fics. I am not endorsed by any person, corporation, federation, promotion, etc., nor do I receive any monies for writing sick and twisted tales of their imagined goings-on. Lyrics from "Tenderness (For Women Only)" by Steppenwolf. Lyrics, quotations, etc. used without permission. No infringement or disrespect to the various artisans is intended, so please don't sue me.
Notes: A leadup to Hunter & Stephanie's RL wedding in October of 2003.
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What an incredibly fucked up situation this is. I can't even fall in love without finding some way to complicate the issue. Now I've gotta worry about how the hell I'm going to settle this. You'd think after all this time I would know better than to get caught up in this kind of mess, right? I guess some things never change. My insatiable appetite for something new and exciting is no exception.
Joanie's no fool. There's no way in hell she can't know about Stephanie. Of course, Steph knew about Jo from the beginning. She was all for coming out in the open about me seeing her, but I didn't think that was the best way to handle things. I figured I could keep Steph on the side and nobody would be any wiser. Just shows that she doesn't know Jo too well, does she?
I hadn't even planned on finding someone else. I was actually content for a long damn time. Jo was so many things I'd been seeking for so fucking long, you'd think she'd be enough for me. Shows how well I know myself, huh? She was the sweetest, tenderest lover I'd ever had. The only one who didn't come to me looking to be 'mastered by the Game,' but simply to be with me. Not my persona, just me. She was so fucking good to me and all I did was treat her like shit. I knew she was tough, so if I'd had a bad day, I'd take it out on her, knowing it wouldn't scare her off.
She tried to show me how to love
I bit her lip and bruised her arms
No, I hadn't learned tenderness
I don't know how many times we had that same old conversation about what each of us really wanted in a lifelong partner. How she wanted stability, intelligence, and stamina. Someone who could keep up with her mentally as well as physically. I thought that's all I wanted and needed, too, but I was so fucking wrong. Why the hell did I think one woman could ever be enough for me?
Even Jo, as amazing as she was, wasn't enough to keep me satisfied. Maybe it was because I knew I could take advantage of her love that led me to do so. Maybe it was because I knew that no matter how badly I treated her, she'd still stick by my side and love me. So willing and naive in so many ways. She had this totally idealistic view of what true love was, because she'd never really been IN love before. It was just so fucking easy to use it against her to get what I wanted.
She asked, "what does love mean to you?"
I grabbed her hair and pulled her down
I looked in her eyes and I laughed
I guess the chase really IS better than the catch, because once I knew I had her, my eye started wandering elsewhere. And found Stephanie. The last person I ever thought I'd fall for. Like me, her on-screen character wasn't too far off the mark from who she was away from the public eye. Behind the shrieking voice and the fake tits was someone every bit as ambitious and egotistical as me. Almost a mirror image of myself.
It was such a thrill in the beginning, sneaking around behind Joanie's back. Taking business lunches with "McMahon." Little did Jo know it was the daughter and not the father I was seeing. I turned lies and double-talk into an art form. We actually managed to pull it off pretty good for several months. Then little by little, I started to fuck up. I'd either stay out too late and forget to call, or I'd do something stupid like call Steph while I thought Joanie was in the shower. Just simple little shit like that.
But Joanie, man, she could get a job with the FBI. It didn't take too long for her to start to suspect she wasn't the only woman in my life. She started putting all the pieces together and finally confronted not me but Stephanie with the proof. Steph of course tried to cover for me, made up all kinds of excuses about how she was a writer and needed to meet with me regularly to go over storylines and other business-related topics. I have a feeling that explanation didn't go over too well. Joanie hasn't mentioned it to me yet, but one day she will. And I'll give her the cold, hard truth. Every damn bit of it.
The love I feel is hard and fast
It's for a face and for one night
I don't need to own anyone
Fact of the matter is, I don't want the kind of almost hero-worship that Joanie offers anymore. I'm not the slightly insecure person I was when we met. I know what I'm good at, and that happens to be fucking around. I like knowing I can go to damn near any city in any state and know there'll be women lined up around the corner for the chance to carry my bags, drive me to my hotel, suck my dick, or just be seen in my presence. I LIKE having that kind of power over people, but I don't want to feel like I owe them any more than I'm willing to give. I don't need mindless followers, just people who respect me for who I am.
I can't have that kind of a life with Jo. There's always going to be something of the awestruck fan with her. Not so with Stephanie. She's used to things being handed to her on a silver platter. And if she doesn't get what she wants, she'll find a way to get it. She's completely ruthless and that's one of the main things I love about her. I like someone who's not afraid to play dirty to get what she wants
Jo thinks she knows me so well. She thinks if we ever broke up that I'd spend my days missing her, asking myself what she's up to, wondering if she's thinking about me. And hell, I probably would for a little while, but people like me always move on in search of the next best thing. The fact that I've already got someone waiting in the wings just makes the transition that much easier this time.
She said all your women burn in your flame
But as it dies, they'll leave you and seek revenge
Steph thinks Jo's going to do something drastic when that inevitable day comes, that she'll find some way to get back at me. I really don't see it happening. I'm sure as shit not scared of Joanie. Let's get real, people. When the time comes, I'll snap my fingers and she'll have no other choice but to do as I say. Because that's how things are with us. She may THINK she has some say in the matter, but in the end it all comes down to what I want.
That's the only acceptable solution, after all. And Steph at least respects that. She knows ours will be a give-and-take relationship, with me winning most of the battles. She won't just roll over and give in, though, which makes the game a little more interesting. Not like with Joanie, where her fear of losing me governs her every thought, action, and feeling. She thinks she can predict what I'll say or do, but she's got another thing coming. And I'll have no problems showing her the error of her ways when the time comes.
She laughed and said "You'll go through hell
You'll live in lonely rooms unknown
And watch for my lost tenderness"
If Jo thinks I'm going to spend my days pining for her, she's fucking deluding herself. I've had plenty of other women before her, and I'll probably have countless others after her. I need variety in my sex life. That's just how things are. People like me don't settle down. We need constant stimulation, new avenues to explore, unpredictable encounters. Sheltered people like Jo will never get that.
That's another thing Steph has going for her. She knows how the real world operates. She knows that we may last a few weeks or a few months or even a few years. There's no telling and we're not deluding ourselves by promising ourselves a forever together. We're taking things one day at a time and keeping things as real as possible. It's a nice, refreshing break from the starry-eyed puppy love I get from Jo. She probably thinks we'll be together until the end of time, that I'll marry her, and we'll have a whole litter of gym babies. I think not. Why the fuck would I want to tie myself down by helping create an army of 'mini-me's? Someone's gotta look after Number One, and that someone is me.
I went from her to someone else and someone else
No, I couldn't be satisfied
Like me, Steph's had her share of random partners. She'll use people for whatever they're worth and then move on to something new. How many times have we all seen someone get a huge push only to be dropped from the air a few short weeks later? That's Stephanie's influence right there. As soon as she starts to lose interest, they're through. I'm sure it sucks from their perspective, but this is a business, after all, and that's how things work.
Maybe I'll stick around with Steph for a while and maybe I won't. It certainly can't hurt my career any, fucking the boss' daughter. Maybe I'll even cement myself a spot as a main-eventer again, get a nice, long title run, have some say in the storylines I get put in. Point is, I have nothing to lose by dumping Joanie for Stephanie. I know that sounds cold and heartless, but I don't give a shit. My own needs and wants have to come first. They always have and they always will.
She said all your women burn in your flame
And as it dies, they'll leave you and seek revenge
No matter what anyone else might say, I didn't set out to break Joanie's heart. I really didn't. I honestly do love her. She's just not what I need right now. Things may change somewhere down the road and I may need to return to the shelter of her forgiving heart, but I honestly don't see that happening. All I can do right now is focus on my career and Stephanie and hope that it takes just a little longer for Joanie to figure out what's really going on between us. I'd hate to leave one relationship without having another one already set up.
I said it before and I'll say it again. I'm insatiable. Stephanie is no different. I'm sure she'll continue to see whomever she wants on the side while we're together, and she won't give a shit if I do the same to her. Of course, I really don't see either of us needing to have other partners since we're already so well-matched, but I'm not ruling out the possibility, either. We'll just take it step by step and see what happens.
I just have to figure out a way to let Joanie down easy. She'll probably give me that same tired old line about how she can never love again, never trust a man again after I hurt her so badly. Fuckever. I don't need anyone's drama thrown in my face. If she can't handle the truth, too fucking bad. She'll have no choice but to deal with it however she feels she has to.
I wish that I could find her now
My love is soft, my love is warm
I'd take her to bed tenderly
Oh yes, I'd take her to bed tenderly
You know? I almost regret the pain I'm going to put her through once I finally end things between us. Almost. She really is a great kid with a good heart. She means well, at least. It's not entirely her fault that she can't be what I need her to be. And in all honesty, I wouldn't want her to change for me. She gave me a lot of what I needed at a time when I needed it most. She taught me that people really can love me for WHO I am, and not what they THINK I am. Most importantly, she taught me what true love is. And now that I have no more need for her, I feel like the worst kind of criminal for taking her love and using it and then turning my back on her.
But what the fuck else am I supposed to do? I'm in this for me, remember? Not anybody else. Just me.