Disclaimer: No, sadly I do not own the pretty boy that is Riku. ;_; *Glomps him* Or any other KH-related characters…or KH itself. O_o;;
Strata's Note~ Well short little trip into Riku's mind ^-^ Do any of ya think it should be continued? I was thinking of keeping it one-shot because I'm afraid it'll get cliché ^^;;
"Requiem of a Weak Heart"
It's all my fault, really. I mean, I let them control me. I don't really know why, I guess it's because once you've had a taste of power, you can never get enough of it. Or maybe it's because I actually believed their lies. But how could I? Did I honestly believe that by turning against Sora and doing what Maleficent and the others wanted that they would actually help me get Kairi's heart back? And on that note, how did I let Maleficent trick me into believing Sora had actually forgotten Kairi and I, replaced us? I mean, we grew up together, were always by each other's side, and I believed that Sora could just forget us so easily? I know him well, I know he's not like that...But I believed Maleficent anyway.
.... You probably think I'm an idiot by now. Well, maybe that's true.
For some reason, I can't stop thinking about what Ansem had said, "Because this boy sought a way out of this world..." Was he saying it was because I didn't fear whatever may lie ahead in another world? The fact that I did not fear the darkness, the unknown, that made me easier to control? And sure, I could blame this on Kairi, the fact she arrived at our island made me think of the other worlds, how to get to them, but it's not her fault. She didn't have a choice, I'm sure. She only ended up on our island because her home world was destroyed, the same as our island. It's not like she came to Destiny Islands on purpose, or knowing that I would wonder later about the other worlds and then fall into darkness. Falling into darkness was my own fault...I did not fear it, so I did not fight it, therefore being controlled by it. Sora couldn't be controlled, because he rebelled against it when it tried to take him, because he was afraid of what would happen if he gave into it.
And Sora, what about him? Oh god, I hope he can forgive me. For giving up on him, for not believing in him, when he tried to make me see I was being controlled. I even stole the keyblade from him once, and used my own to strike at him another time. I had actually gone so far as to actually try to kill him...all because I couldn't see the truth. Because I was the blind one, and not him. I only regained my sense of control when Ansem was going to strike Kairi down, I claimed I wouldn't let him use me for that, but it was too late for Sora, by then...And was it because I was jealous? I could tell Kairi liked him, as in liked him. Was I jealous because it wasn't me she favored? After all, I didn't make that bet that whoever won the race got to share a Paopu fruit with Kairi for nothing, even though I said I hadn't meant it. And when I finally realized I couldn't have Kairi, that it was impossible because she loved Sora, I told him to take care of her. I know he will. He won't let anything happen to her as long as he lives. He'd do the same for me, for anyone he cares about, but now that I'm locked within Kingdom Hearts, fighting off the Heartless I once controlled so easily, I leave Sora to carry out my final wish of protecting Kairi. And like I said, I know he will. I see a familiar Heartless now...I made one like this before...it was Sora's shadow. Now it's my shadow instead, and I wonder how this happened. But now, all I see is my shadow, darkness all around. My greatest enemy is myself, and I wonder as I fall...Would things be different if I had resisted like Sora? Or is this my fate?