Author: Jaycee
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Sam stared at Josie, taking in her wonderful blue eyes, her soft silky hair, her luscious lips… memorizing her face carefully, knowing that it would be a really long time before he'll see her again.
Hell! He wasn't even sure if he'll ever see her again.
She never looked beautiful to him than she does now, and that made his heart constrict painfully. "You have something to tell me too right? What is it?" He asked, trying to stall time. Josie shook her head, smiling. "No honey. That can wait. Tell me what you have to say first."
Sam shivered at the word honey. He loves it whenever Josie calls him that, and he's going to miss it. Actually, he's going to miss all of her so much, but he knew that he has to do what he's about to do. He took a deep breath and plunged right through it.
"Josie… it's… its over." He whispered. Josie leaned forward. "What? I can't hear you Sam." "Its over Josie. Its over." He repeated. Louder this time. Sam felt his heart fall painfully to the floor as he watched Josie's face contort in pain.
"Oh." She whispered as she stood up, a hand on her stomach. Josie took a deep breath, as blinding pain filled each and every one of her senses. Different emotions bombarded her from various directions.
Sadness, hurt, apprehension, anger, nausea…
The floor started to tilt beneath her and if she weren't holding on the kitchen table, she would have fallen down. She felt Sam on her side immediately and he placed his hands on her shoulders, which she shrugged off.
"Stay… stay away from me." She said in a clear voice as she moved away from him. She sat on the couch and placed her head on her hands. Sam closed his eyes to stop his tears from falling down. "Josie, please understand."
"What? What should I understand?" She asked bitterly. "Lara found out about us. She already had the divorce papers all laid out and said that she'd be getting full custody of Rosalind. And you know how important my daughter is to me. I can't bear to lose her Josie. Lara said that she'll forget all about the divorce if I break things off with you and move with her back to New York." He explained.
"When are you moving to New York?" Josie asked, bracing herself for his answer, hoping that it would be next week, next month... a time so far away so that she'd be able to spend more time with Sam and for him to know that she's pregnant with his child.
"Tonight. We're moving there tonight. Our flight is tonight." He said softly, his words jumbling together.
Maybe… not.
Josie stood up. "Okay, let me get this straight. After two weeks of not showing your face to me… you waltz in here, tell me that it's all over, and then say that you're moving tonight to New York. Am I right so far?" Sam barely nodded before Josie continued.
"Why didn't you give me a week's notice so that I'll have the chance to prepare myself for all of this?" Josie bit out, trying to hold back the tears. "I… I'm sorry Josie." He said lamely, trying to make her look in his eyes so that she can see that he's not happy with all of this either.
"Sorry? Wow! You're sorry. That changes everything Sam! You made me understand everything!" Josie said mockingly. Sam shivered at the different tone in her voice. He's never heard her talk to him that way before. "I don't have any other choice Josie. I can't afford to lose my daughter, you know how much I love her." He saw Josie place a hand on her stomach. "Are you sick?" He asked.
Josie stared at him. "What?" "You keep on placing your hand on your stomach. Are you sick?" He asked again, his protective instincts rising up again. To his surprise, Josie laughed sarcastically. "No, I'm not."
A thick silence surrounded them. Josie sat back down, and looked into him, the light gone from her eyes. "You have no other choice. Yup. That's right. Anyway, what am I to you right? I'm just you're mistress, right?" "Come on Jos. You know better than that. I love you." "Ha! I'm finding that hard to believe right now." Josie retorted.
Sam rubbed his face and kneeled in front of her. "Josie… I do love you." He whispered staring into her eyes, and placed a hand behind her neck, pulling her head closer, as he placed a kiss on her lips. Even for the last time, he wants to feel her lips against his.
Caught in the moment, Josie responded for a while, until her brain screamed everything that he just said. She pushed him away so forcefully, making him fall hard on the floor. She stood up and went to the door.
"How dare you tell me that you love me, kiss me, and then leave me again? Are you purposely hurting me? Is this some sadistic pleasure of yours? Or are you just that selfish? How can you do this to me again? Now that I have fallen so much in love with you again?" She asked, her voice breaking.
She forcefully opened the door. "Get out of my house and get out of my life! You said it, its over and I never ever want to see you again!" She said in a low controlled voice. Sam stood up and went out. He turned around and looked at her. "I love you Josie. I'm sorry for everything." Josie just shook her head. "I don't care what you say anymore. Anyway, it's got to end sometime right? Goodbye Sam." She whispered as she shut the door right on his face.
* * * Anita opened Josie's front door frantically. Josie called her earlier, sobbing so hard that she can't understand a word that she said. All she did make out was that she needs to see her right away. Something about Sam, the baby, and New York.
"Josie! Josie!" She called out. The name died from her lips when she saw her friend on the couch, lying face down, her hands clutching the covers. "Honey… stop crying." Anita cooed as she wrapped her arms around her friend and slowly helped her sit up.
"Anita… he's gone… he left me…" Josie cried, sobbing on to her friend's shoulder. "What? He did?" Anita exclaimed, as she pulled away from Josie and looked in to her eyes. "Yeah… Lara found out and made him choose between his daughter and me. Obviously, he chose his daughter. That was expected right?" Josie said as she started to cry again.
"Does he know about you being pregnant?" Anita asked. "No… I didn't have the strength to tell him… I was just too surprised and too angry…" Josie trailed off. Anita nodded. "Okay… so where is he now?" "He's on his way back to New York. He's leaving me again Anita. I should have never agreed to be with him right from the beginning." Josie wailed, as she clutched her stomach.
"Jos? What is it? Is your stomach hurting you?" Anita asked worriedly. "No… I'm just… oh God Nita. I'm so scared. What am I going to do? Having this child with Sam with me makes it easier… but having this child without him… oh God… what am I going to do? I'll be giving birth to a child with no father… My parents are going to kill me…"
"Honey… don't worry about that. I know for a fact that once your parents learn all about this, they will support you. They won't kill you. Who cares if you're pregnant without a husband? We're all here to help and support you. We love you Josie." Anita said soothingly.
Josie stared at her friend. "I know that you love me… but I'm not sure about the others… Anita, I need Sam. I want my baby have her or his father with him when he or she gets born. I… I can't do this alone." Josie groaned. Suddenly, she stood up. "What? What is it?" Anita asked worriedly.
"I'm going to the airport and tell Sam that I'm pregnant. That he can't leave me!" She said forcefully. She grabbed a jacket and her keys from the coffee table. "Josie! No! You can't!" Anita shouted after her friend. But she was too late. By the time Anita got outside, Josie was already in the car, speeding away.