Thanks to Alyssa

Chapter 8

Buffy's POV

Dear Diary,

This is something new I'm doing, Angel says it is a normal thing in the Reservation. I've learned so much from him! Today is our two-week anniversary—something I learned also from him. A couple is not very well seen here so this is really something new. Willow doesn't even know about this, she thinks I'm sleeping with different guys every night. I can't tell her the truth, at least for now. I first have to figure out what I'm feeling and what I'm doing. Angel has also been reading beautiful things to me. I don't understand them, but I still enjoy them. He has also showed me about love. I never knew it before. I still don't understand what it is, but I think its what I'm feeling. The most incredible thing about us is that we haven't actually had sex yet. Of course I want to, I mean, he is gorgeous, not only in the outside, but also on the inside. He makes me feel things I've never felt before. It's scary and at the same time it's wonderful. I am so lucky I met him. Riley still hasn't done anything against Angel and it seems Angel won't need conditioning after all. I lied a bit and said Angel is now acting as a normal citizen, which is not a complete lie. I'm showing him how things work here, and when he goes outside – which is not very often – he acts "normal". I told him about the dangers of being himself outside. But when we're alone, together, its just perfect…

"Buffy?" I heard him say. "Can I come in?"

"Sure," I shouted. It's strange how he still can't come into my room without me inviting him. I left my diary in the desk and kissed him.

"I missed you," I said.

"It's only been 20 minutes," he teased.

I smiled and sat on his lap while playing with his shirt. Then I smiled and teased him back. "I felt lonely, you shouldn't shower so often." Did I just say that? He laughed; I love to hear him laugh. He doesn't do it very often. He started to share his past with me. His mother, his horrible childhood, but I still know there are more things. He broods a lot, but I tend to make him smile.

"Buffy?" He suddenly asked, breaking our comfortable silence. I looked up and he continued, "I have something for you."

I suddenly gave him my brightest smile. "Present?" I said as if I was a little girl. He then went to the other room and returned. He approached me.

"I'm not sure if you'll like it. I did it the day we met, in the Reservation." He gave me a portrait of myself. I just stared at it. It was so perfect. He obviously took a long time in making it. He then continued talking. "I fell in love with you the moment I saw you. I thought I'd never see you again," he said sadly. "So I did this."

He then sat beside me. A single tear escaped from me. I had never cried in my life, but no one had ever cared so much about her. No one had ever given me something like this. Now I was sure. I did love him, I finally understood what love was. I then kissed him passionately. "I love you, I know that know" I thought this was it, we were going to make love. We started kissing again when someone knocked the door. I'm going to kill someone. A now shirtless Angel and I went to the door. I opened and it was Willow.

"Hi," she said sweetly. She saw the state we were in and said. "Oh, don't worry. Just continue; imagine I'm not here."

Angel stared at her strangely and although I wouldn't normally mind Willow looking, which she actually did a lot, I knew Angel was special.

"Willow, can I help you?" I said sounding happy although I wasn't.

Willow looked at Angel. "Maybe we could hang out later," she said seductively. No way I'm letting her near Angel. She is my friend but I'm not sharing. "Anyway," she continued. "Your twin is here, he told me to tell you… after some hours of hot …" She blushed. Wait, Willow never blushes.

Angel blinked. "I don't have a twin. He… he died when we were born," he said in a sad tone. I then caressed his hand and kissed it.

Willow didn't seem to notice this and continued. "Believe me when I say he is pretty much alive." She said blushing again, "He also told me to tell you to beware. He is after you, he hates you and he doesn't want you happy… Wait… Oh, I actually didn't have to say that… Oh Ford, do you think he'll do something? He did seem rather violent and … savage last night," She said again blushing furiously. "Well, I have to go… you know, meet Xander or someone. Right?... I … bye"

Before she could leave I asked, "Did you have caffeine?" She nodded. "What did I tell you about caffeine?" We both laughed and then she left saying, "I'll call you later."

I then looked at Angel who was now sitting and looking very pale. "He's alive," he said in awe, staring at his hands. "He's been alive all this time," he said while his eyes turned watery. "My mother lied… and now he hates me." He finally looked at me and I felt my eyes turn watery too. He looked like a lost little child. Broken, shattered. "He hates me," he said as his tears finally came. I then hugged him and supported him. It was the only thing I could do.

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