Alex stood in the dimly lighted apartment in her usual form. She was
glaring at Victor who was sulking in the corner near the window. "You hit
me, Victor. You've only hit me once in my life, and it nearly killed you."
Her voice was full of rage as well as empathy.
"If only it did," he whispered.
"You asked me to save you," she answered softly, kindly. "I did just that and I thought we'd love each other for eternity. Now all you quest for is destruction."
Victor turned to her, "Where was she," he demanded suddenly. "She's back in this world and she is pregnant...with a boy. It is your bloodline, I'm sure of it. I know your blood holds the key to the end of this madness."
Alex knew exactly what he wanted to know, but she would never betray the truth to anyone, especially Victor. "I don't know what you are talking about Victor. You're losing your grip again, and I want you to leave."
Alex was on the platform nine and three quarters early the next year. She boarded the train before anyone else and found a compartment in the very back of the train, trying to be alone. She wanted to stick to her plan, but she worried for her sister. Catrina was in hiding from Victor and her baby was in danger. There was no way to help Cat, but Victor was volatile now, and would do anything to find a cure for immortality.
Other students began to board the train slowly, and moments later, she was welcomed by an unwelcome guest. Malfoy sauntered in alone, smirking, and closed the door behind him. "Blackbird," he said in greeting.
"Out Malfoy, before I force you out."
He sat next to her and took out his wand menacingly. "Don't threaten me, Blackbird. You don't want to test me."
Alex threw her head back and laughed. "Are you joking?"
He shook his head, "I don't joke often."
"Oh I guess not, you reserve that for your performance in class," she retorted and stood up. "Malfoy, you have no idea of the power you are playing with. I am in no mood to deal with you. I'm going to throw you out now, but I believe you will keep my secret for me, or I will embarrass you and your whole family. And I know you don't want that." She lifted her gaze to his face and suddenly he was flung out of the compartment and sprawled on the floor in the hall.
Severus was standing at the end of the hall, watching with an amused expression. He stepped over Malfoy and into the compartment with Alex. "Lucius," he said in greeting before he shut the door. He sat next to Alex and caught her in a surprise hug.
"I saw what he did to you when you got off the train last term," he said after letting her go. "I was an ass, and I didn't try to help you, and I wouldn't take matters into my own hands. I felt awful letting you go like that, you not knowing that I really do like you."
Alex laughed gently, "I was fine, Severus. And I did know how you felt. I told you before, I know you'll love me and I know you want to be with me now." She took his hand into hers and they spend the entire train ride together.
The pair passed up everyone as they approached the coaches to take them to the school. "Hmm," Alex mused, "Thestrals. How interesting that they would pull the students to school."
Severus stared at what he always thought was empty space. "Thestrals? So you have seen death?"
Alex laughed, "I have caused death, Severus." She hopped into the carriage and made room for him.
Severus seemed to know better than to ask what she meant and spent the rest of the ride to the school in silence, wondering if she might truly be like the Dark Lord.
"I'm not," she said answering his thoughts as they approached the castle. "He is beneath me, and beneath you. Or will be just as soon as you are able to see the truth behind it all." She stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek softly. "See you," and she strode off to take her seat in the Great Hall.
School was a little tenser than before, the growing unease in the wizarding world was becoming more prominent. The students' families were starting to pick sides, privately but the emotions were plain.
Alex paid it all no mind. She knew what was to come with little Harry Potter, and she knew the end. But it was all mostly insignificant...mostly. Voldemort was to change Severus' life for good, and she had to prepare him, without telling him what was to come. Her attention this year must be focused on Severus, although it would be Remus that would soon come to her aid.
Alex and Severus spent days on end together, seeing each other every waking minute they had between classes. He always danced around the subject of dating her. It made him crazy that she was so young, not to mention that he couldn't see her apart from Hogwarts.
Finally, Alex decided to take the initiative and pulled him into a dark corner, away from prying eyes, the students, ghosts and portraits. "Severus," she whispered, "don't fear what you can have with me. I have seen the beginning and the end, we will be together." She kissed him deeply.
He was shocked at first, but welcomed her kiss as it reached deep into his soul. He breathed in the scent of rose coming from her soft white curls. "This is amazing," he said as he buried his face in her shoulder.
She ran her fingers through his hair. "I know. And it will only get better."
Severus was very light footed as he entered the dungeon common room. Malfoy was already sitting by the fire, studying out of an old book. He smirked as Snape walked in and sat down. "Have fun snogging? Was it good for you?"
"Jealous," he snapped back. "A girl that beautiful..."
"And young," he put in.
"And about fifty times smarter than you." He leaned in and whispered the last part, "And fifty times more powerful." He stood up and gathered his bag. "I'm off to bed."
Months passed that way, like they were mere seconds. He spent all of his free time with Alex, learning new things, learning how to do old things better. He was forced to go home for the holidays, hating his parents for every second he was away, knowing that the fabulous trio was at her side for two whole weeks, feeding her garbage about how him being evil and such. He would get them back for it. If he came back to her hating him, they would pay. And if that did make him evil, so be it.
Alexandra was spending time with the trio, but it wasn't to feed off the rumors of Severus. She would need them, and now was the time to seal that loyalty. They did hate Severus and Alex saw why both sides carried such hatred. The trio thought they were better than Severus, and Severus hated that. They badgered Alex about it, but it didn't get to her.
"I just get what you see in him," Black said lazily. The four of them were sitting outside around a small fire Alex had lit. "He's so greasy and slimy."
"He isn't," she retorted casually. "Not greasy at all. He smells quite nice actually and he's really smart."
"But he's in Slytherin. He's probably set to join up with all those others..."
"Like the Blacks," Alex said, touching a nerve.
James shook his head, "Sirius isn't like that, and you know it. Besides, he's in Gryffindor."
"And the house you belong to is what defines you?"
James and Sirius both nodded but Lupin stared at her thoughtfully. "I suppose not," he answered quietly. "I was nearly put into Ravenclaw, but in the end the hat chose Gryffindor."
James and Sirius looked at him sharply. It was clear that neither of them knew that. "Well," Alex said after a moment of letting Lupin's last remark set in, "the sorting hat asked me to pick between Ravenclaw and Slytherin. I had met Malfoy and my choice was pretty easy. But I like Severus." She rounded on James and looked him deep in the eye. "Someday James, you are going to owe him a very large debt. So tread lightly, because if he winds up hating you as deeply as I've seen, it could harm the chances of your son ever being happy."
Alex, having seen the future, knew it was detrimental for the warning to be given. She had seen two paths, and on one, Harry would never be happy. He would be an angry bitter adult and there would be no room in his world for love.
Alex found that it was time to take her leave of the group. She sauntered off in the snow towards the castle. James had said nothing to the two boys and from what she gathered, he didn't say much for the rest of the holiday.
Feeling bad, Alex decided to track him down the day before term was to start again. He was in the library catching up on homework, absentmindedly fingering the snitch he had nicked. She took a seat next to him and kept her voice at a low whisper.
"I didn't mean to unnerve you," she said solemnly.
"You know what's in my future, don't you?"
She nodded. "Normally I won't say anything to anyone, but I have seen two paths James, and in one, your son is a very bitter and angry person with no hope for love."
"You know, I'm only a kid. I don't plan on having a son for a very long time."
Alex laughed gently. "Yes, I know. But I also know that you are a good person at heart. I know that you are young, but it is your actions today that will affect your son tomorrow."
"Today?"
She smiled coyly, "Not today, but soon, while you are still a child."
"This has to do with Snivellius?"
Alex frowned, "You don't understand him, James. I don't ever expect you to try, but maybe someday you can try to understand."
Alex left the conversation at that. She knew James would rise to the occasion when Sirius tried to kill Severus. James would relent and Severus would walk away scarred emotionally but physically unscathed.
Term was approaching the end, and Alex would continue her search for her sister for the rest of the summer. The train ride to the station was agonizingly slow and she spent a fair amount of the ride alone. Malfoy insisted on taking Severus for a talk, suggesting that Alex go play with her "little mates" for a while.
She decided to hunker down in the trio's compartment, sitting near the window next to Remus. Alex was feeling a little uneasy, hating to be in Peter's company. He was already aching to gain some sort of power, and knowing what he would do in the near future made Alex sick to her stomach. She could easily kill him now and be done with it, but that wasn't her job, it wasn't her place. Instead, she kept her head on Remus' shoulder and watched the green scenery pass her by.
"Something the matter, love?" Remus asked after the food cart had passed and the compartment was full of tasty smells.
Alex picked at the pumpkin pasty she held in her hand, but she didn't eat it. "I just feel really alone right now."
"Why," Peter piped up for once, "you miss your Snivelly lap dog?" He looked around at the group for praise but he got nothing more than a faint smile from Sirius.
Remus threw an empty box of Berite Bott's Every Flavor Beans at him, and hit him in the head. "Do show some compassion, you twit. I wont permit anyone to talk to her like that." Peter flushed and looked down at his feet, saying nothing more.
"You all have no idea what lonely means," she said very softly, tears welling in her eyes. "There is only one person existing on this earth that could ever understand, and I've no way to find him. No doubt he's off with his new project, showing her the sights of the world, trying to get her to appreciate the subtle beauty of a cobblestone street. He'll never find the one he seeks," she added bitterly, not caring that the boys had no idea what she meant. "There is no born human that can understand just what I do, and none who can be made that will fully understand what we can become. I fear we are all lost." Alex was slipping into a black hole that existed within her mind, a place where she would sometimes go, filled with despair, and she would not reappear until something pulled her out. She would go on with life, with her plans, knowing she couldn't stay in the dark forever, that her life would go on forever. But she needed some compassion, some beauty that would show her that it was worth it not to slip into a dark underground and stay until the end of her eternity.
Remus feared for her, assuming it had to do with the man he saw hit her on the platform. He thought her nothing than a mortal girl, subject to mortal pain and fear. So he feared for her and feared she might try to end her life while she was cut off from the rest of the world during her lonely summer. He held her tight to him, hoping that he was reassuring her that she had something worth living for. He could love her, if only she would let him. If only she would not choose the abuse that Snape and his friends would no doubt subject her to if she stayed with them any longer.
Sure, he knew that on his own, Snape could be all Alex wanted him to be. But he was coupled with Malfoy and the other Slytherin cronies, and Alex couldn't stand a chance. Well, a mortal Alex couldn't stand a chance. But he would understand soon, and he would keep her secrets for her until his dying day. Remus would realize the beauty that life could someday lead to a dying day, and he would welcome it with open arms.
"If only it did," he whispered.
"You asked me to save you," she answered softly, kindly. "I did just that and I thought we'd love each other for eternity. Now all you quest for is destruction."
Victor turned to her, "Where was she," he demanded suddenly. "She's back in this world and she is pregnant...with a boy. It is your bloodline, I'm sure of it. I know your blood holds the key to the end of this madness."
Alex knew exactly what he wanted to know, but she would never betray the truth to anyone, especially Victor. "I don't know what you are talking about Victor. You're losing your grip again, and I want you to leave."
Alex was on the platform nine and three quarters early the next year. She boarded the train before anyone else and found a compartment in the very back of the train, trying to be alone. She wanted to stick to her plan, but she worried for her sister. Catrina was in hiding from Victor and her baby was in danger. There was no way to help Cat, but Victor was volatile now, and would do anything to find a cure for immortality.
Other students began to board the train slowly, and moments later, she was welcomed by an unwelcome guest. Malfoy sauntered in alone, smirking, and closed the door behind him. "Blackbird," he said in greeting.
"Out Malfoy, before I force you out."
He sat next to her and took out his wand menacingly. "Don't threaten me, Blackbird. You don't want to test me."
Alex threw her head back and laughed. "Are you joking?"
He shook his head, "I don't joke often."
"Oh I guess not, you reserve that for your performance in class," she retorted and stood up. "Malfoy, you have no idea of the power you are playing with. I am in no mood to deal with you. I'm going to throw you out now, but I believe you will keep my secret for me, or I will embarrass you and your whole family. And I know you don't want that." She lifted her gaze to his face and suddenly he was flung out of the compartment and sprawled on the floor in the hall.
Severus was standing at the end of the hall, watching with an amused expression. He stepped over Malfoy and into the compartment with Alex. "Lucius," he said in greeting before he shut the door. He sat next to Alex and caught her in a surprise hug.
"I saw what he did to you when you got off the train last term," he said after letting her go. "I was an ass, and I didn't try to help you, and I wouldn't take matters into my own hands. I felt awful letting you go like that, you not knowing that I really do like you."
Alex laughed gently, "I was fine, Severus. And I did know how you felt. I told you before, I know you'll love me and I know you want to be with me now." She took his hand into hers and they spend the entire train ride together.
The pair passed up everyone as they approached the coaches to take them to the school. "Hmm," Alex mused, "Thestrals. How interesting that they would pull the students to school."
Severus stared at what he always thought was empty space. "Thestrals? So you have seen death?"
Alex laughed, "I have caused death, Severus." She hopped into the carriage and made room for him.
Severus seemed to know better than to ask what she meant and spent the rest of the ride to the school in silence, wondering if she might truly be like the Dark Lord.
"I'm not," she said answering his thoughts as they approached the castle. "He is beneath me, and beneath you. Or will be just as soon as you are able to see the truth behind it all." She stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek softly. "See you," and she strode off to take her seat in the Great Hall.
School was a little tenser than before, the growing unease in the wizarding world was becoming more prominent. The students' families were starting to pick sides, privately but the emotions were plain.
Alex paid it all no mind. She knew what was to come with little Harry Potter, and she knew the end. But it was all mostly insignificant...mostly. Voldemort was to change Severus' life for good, and she had to prepare him, without telling him what was to come. Her attention this year must be focused on Severus, although it would be Remus that would soon come to her aid.
Alex and Severus spent days on end together, seeing each other every waking minute they had between classes. He always danced around the subject of dating her. It made him crazy that she was so young, not to mention that he couldn't see her apart from Hogwarts.
Finally, Alex decided to take the initiative and pulled him into a dark corner, away from prying eyes, the students, ghosts and portraits. "Severus," she whispered, "don't fear what you can have with me. I have seen the beginning and the end, we will be together." She kissed him deeply.
He was shocked at first, but welcomed her kiss as it reached deep into his soul. He breathed in the scent of rose coming from her soft white curls. "This is amazing," he said as he buried his face in her shoulder.
She ran her fingers through his hair. "I know. And it will only get better."
Severus was very light footed as he entered the dungeon common room. Malfoy was already sitting by the fire, studying out of an old book. He smirked as Snape walked in and sat down. "Have fun snogging? Was it good for you?"
"Jealous," he snapped back. "A girl that beautiful..."
"And young," he put in.
"And about fifty times smarter than you." He leaned in and whispered the last part, "And fifty times more powerful." He stood up and gathered his bag. "I'm off to bed."
Months passed that way, like they were mere seconds. He spent all of his free time with Alex, learning new things, learning how to do old things better. He was forced to go home for the holidays, hating his parents for every second he was away, knowing that the fabulous trio was at her side for two whole weeks, feeding her garbage about how him being evil and such. He would get them back for it. If he came back to her hating him, they would pay. And if that did make him evil, so be it.
Alexandra was spending time with the trio, but it wasn't to feed off the rumors of Severus. She would need them, and now was the time to seal that loyalty. They did hate Severus and Alex saw why both sides carried such hatred. The trio thought they were better than Severus, and Severus hated that. They badgered Alex about it, but it didn't get to her.
"I just get what you see in him," Black said lazily. The four of them were sitting outside around a small fire Alex had lit. "He's so greasy and slimy."
"He isn't," she retorted casually. "Not greasy at all. He smells quite nice actually and he's really smart."
"But he's in Slytherin. He's probably set to join up with all those others..."
"Like the Blacks," Alex said, touching a nerve.
James shook his head, "Sirius isn't like that, and you know it. Besides, he's in Gryffindor."
"And the house you belong to is what defines you?"
James and Sirius both nodded but Lupin stared at her thoughtfully. "I suppose not," he answered quietly. "I was nearly put into Ravenclaw, but in the end the hat chose Gryffindor."
James and Sirius looked at him sharply. It was clear that neither of them knew that. "Well," Alex said after a moment of letting Lupin's last remark set in, "the sorting hat asked me to pick between Ravenclaw and Slytherin. I had met Malfoy and my choice was pretty easy. But I like Severus." She rounded on James and looked him deep in the eye. "Someday James, you are going to owe him a very large debt. So tread lightly, because if he winds up hating you as deeply as I've seen, it could harm the chances of your son ever being happy."
Alex, having seen the future, knew it was detrimental for the warning to be given. She had seen two paths, and on one, Harry would never be happy. He would be an angry bitter adult and there would be no room in his world for love.
Alex found that it was time to take her leave of the group. She sauntered off in the snow towards the castle. James had said nothing to the two boys and from what she gathered, he didn't say much for the rest of the holiday.
Feeling bad, Alex decided to track him down the day before term was to start again. He was in the library catching up on homework, absentmindedly fingering the snitch he had nicked. She took a seat next to him and kept her voice at a low whisper.
"I didn't mean to unnerve you," she said solemnly.
"You know what's in my future, don't you?"
She nodded. "Normally I won't say anything to anyone, but I have seen two paths James, and in one, your son is a very bitter and angry person with no hope for love."
"You know, I'm only a kid. I don't plan on having a son for a very long time."
Alex laughed gently. "Yes, I know. But I also know that you are a good person at heart. I know that you are young, but it is your actions today that will affect your son tomorrow."
"Today?"
She smiled coyly, "Not today, but soon, while you are still a child."
"This has to do with Snivellius?"
Alex frowned, "You don't understand him, James. I don't ever expect you to try, but maybe someday you can try to understand."
Alex left the conversation at that. She knew James would rise to the occasion when Sirius tried to kill Severus. James would relent and Severus would walk away scarred emotionally but physically unscathed.
Term was approaching the end, and Alex would continue her search for her sister for the rest of the summer. The train ride to the station was agonizingly slow and she spent a fair amount of the ride alone. Malfoy insisted on taking Severus for a talk, suggesting that Alex go play with her "little mates" for a while.
She decided to hunker down in the trio's compartment, sitting near the window next to Remus. Alex was feeling a little uneasy, hating to be in Peter's company. He was already aching to gain some sort of power, and knowing what he would do in the near future made Alex sick to her stomach. She could easily kill him now and be done with it, but that wasn't her job, it wasn't her place. Instead, she kept her head on Remus' shoulder and watched the green scenery pass her by.
"Something the matter, love?" Remus asked after the food cart had passed and the compartment was full of tasty smells.
Alex picked at the pumpkin pasty she held in her hand, but she didn't eat it. "I just feel really alone right now."
"Why," Peter piped up for once, "you miss your Snivelly lap dog?" He looked around at the group for praise but he got nothing more than a faint smile from Sirius.
Remus threw an empty box of Berite Bott's Every Flavor Beans at him, and hit him in the head. "Do show some compassion, you twit. I wont permit anyone to talk to her like that." Peter flushed and looked down at his feet, saying nothing more.
"You all have no idea what lonely means," she said very softly, tears welling in her eyes. "There is only one person existing on this earth that could ever understand, and I've no way to find him. No doubt he's off with his new project, showing her the sights of the world, trying to get her to appreciate the subtle beauty of a cobblestone street. He'll never find the one he seeks," she added bitterly, not caring that the boys had no idea what she meant. "There is no born human that can understand just what I do, and none who can be made that will fully understand what we can become. I fear we are all lost." Alex was slipping into a black hole that existed within her mind, a place where she would sometimes go, filled with despair, and she would not reappear until something pulled her out. She would go on with life, with her plans, knowing she couldn't stay in the dark forever, that her life would go on forever. But she needed some compassion, some beauty that would show her that it was worth it not to slip into a dark underground and stay until the end of her eternity.
Remus feared for her, assuming it had to do with the man he saw hit her on the platform. He thought her nothing than a mortal girl, subject to mortal pain and fear. So he feared for her and feared she might try to end her life while she was cut off from the rest of the world during her lonely summer. He held her tight to him, hoping that he was reassuring her that she had something worth living for. He could love her, if only she would let him. If only she would not choose the abuse that Snape and his friends would no doubt subject her to if she stayed with them any longer.
Sure, he knew that on his own, Snape could be all Alex wanted him to be. But he was coupled with Malfoy and the other Slytherin cronies, and Alex couldn't stand a chance. Well, a mortal Alex couldn't stand a chance. But he would understand soon, and he would keep her secrets for her until his dying day. Remus would realize the beauty that life could someday lead to a dying day, and he would welcome it with open arms.