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If I would have to live my life again
I'd stay in love with you the way I've been
Your love is something no one ever can replace
I can't imagine life with someone else
I promise, I will share my life with you
Forever may not be enough it's true
My heart is filled with so much love I feel for you
No words can say how much I love you so
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What is love? Do you know?
I don't.
All I know is that I love him. Him. DaoMingSi, my very own pighead.
I loathed DaoMingSi when I first met him. He was so arrogant, so rash, so prideful, so stupid, .... But he was also sweet.
I wasn't prepared for his advances, then. I thought he did it as a joke. I mean, come on! He just posted in the bulletin board that I was his girlfriend! Should I have been honored? He didn't even ask me!
With everything he did to impress me, I got more irritated with him and fell in love with his best friend, Lei. It was only when we actually got together that I realized that Lei and I could never be. Know why? Because my heart already belonged to him.
I didn't know that, though. All I knew is that being together with Lei hurt him, and somehow, that hurt me, too.
So time passed, and he still insisted on being my boyfriend. And still, I insisted that I didn't want to be his girlfriend. Why would I want to be? All he ever does is order me about and fight with his friends when he's angry. And what's with his frowns? Doesn't he know how to smile?
Nope.
He'd have to change first before I'd even think of being his girlfriend.
Hmp. I thought that was impossible.
But, oh... I couldn't have been more wrong. Because guess what? He did change.
He learned to smile, and even laugh. He still ordered me about when he wanted to go on dates, but it got a little better through time. And he learned how to control his anger. Well, maybe just a little bit. But that's okay. At least he's learning, right?
Right.
Okay... So, problem no.1 was solved. Here comes no. 2. DaoMingSi's mother doesn't really like me. Yeah right, the understatement of the century! Her name is Feng, DaoMingFeng, and she loathes me just because I'm poor.
What's with rich people hating poor people anyway? Urgh!
Just when I actually considered being DaoMingSi's girlfriend, she comes in and ruins my life. First, she bribes me with ten million dollars. When that didn't work, she used Qing He's company and Xiao You's father's job against me. When that still didn't work, she just settled on locking DaoMingSi on his room till he dies.
Now tell me? Is she really the mother of DaoMingSi? Cause I'm guessing...not.
Anyway, another thing about DaoMingSi is that he's stubborn. So, he plays with his mother and fights for our right to be with each other. He never gave up. That's so sweet, don't you think? He purposely even didn't eat just so his mom will find pity on him and me. Awww...
But that didn't work.
I had to stand all night on rain just to get his mom to leave.
So why do I love DaoMingSi again?
I honestly don't know.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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When we were finally together, I thought nothing can come between us anymore. We were actually living like a normal couple for once. We talked... fine, call it bickering... walked hand in hand with each other, went on dates, and there were also the stolen kisses once in a while.
I was happy.
And I know he was, too.
But our happiness was short lived because of one stupid vacation. We, DaoMingSi and I, went on a vacation in Barcelona. We went sight seeing together, enjoying our moments with each other. And it just came as a sudden blow to my heart, when one day, I just didn't see him anymore.
I looked for him everywhere. F3 even helped, and Jing, too.
But to no avail.
So I went home, back to Taiwan, and tried to move on.
I went back to school and to work, with F3 being my cheering squad. If not for them, I honestly don't know how I'd be today.
I made a new friend, Yesha, and the next thing I knew, she was the Budan princess and the woman engaged to my DaoMingSi, a man who was so stupid to crash into another car and get his mind wrecked up.
What could I do?
Cry.
And hope it was all a nightmare.
But with my luck?
It wasn't a nightmare.
What's even worse is that they asked for my blessing before they got married.
Big slap on the face, that was.
But, of course, I did give them my blessing.
Even though I wanted DaoMingSi for myself, I still loved him.
And I wanted him to be happy.
... ... ...
I didn't let him go, though, if that's what you're thinking. I just let him marry the woman he loved at the moment. I knew that somewhere in the future, he'll remember me, too, and then... that's when we'll be together for all eternity.
And wait, I did.
For a few decades...
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They say tomorrow seems so far away,
And now we see that everything can change
My love for you gets stronger as tomorrow comes
I know this love will stand
In the test of time
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DaoMingSi and Yesha married on December 23, 2005. Then, they lived happily ever after. How I wish I could have been Yesha.
They had three kids. JiHwan and JinSil and JenLyn. These three children are very close to my heart, more so than the children of Lei, Ximen, and MeiZhou. Don't get me wrong, I love their kids, they're cute, but JiHwan, JinSil and JenLyn are a part of DaoMingSi.
You're probably thinking that I'm weird or that I'm obsessed with DaoMingSi, but believe me I'm not. I just can't let go all the memories of pain and suffering that DaoMingSi and I had to go through together to be together... just for all of it to be thrown away in a snap.
Look at it this way. My relationship with him went from fighting, to beating, to having no place to stay, to being kidnapped, to being utterly miserable... a slight happy interval... and then back to being utterly miserable.
Let's look at Yesha's experience. DaoMingSi crashes into her, makes new memories, gets married and have children. Like I said, I wish I could have been Yesha.
Hmmm....
Oh yeah....
That and the fact that I believe I have DaoMingSi's everything. I have his soul, symbolized by the meteor necklace, I have his happiness, symbolized by the balloons, but most of all... I have his love. That one doesn't need to be symbolized. I can see it in his eyes.
Yes, he looks at Yesha with much love. I know that. And I'm jealous of it, but when he looks at me, I know I don't have to be because he's there. And that's all that matters.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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Once, DaoMingSi told me that if my love wasn't' enough, he'd double mine. This is what I'm telling him when he regains his memories: Your love wasn't enough so I tripled mine.
Hehehe...
Sweet?
I just wish I could live to see that day come because right now, my life is about to be cut off.
'Stupid Pighead,' I thought, 'Why couldn't he just let the police handle JoHun's case. I mean if they rushed off to every kidnapping sight, what's the use of police?'
He just had to butt in and act tough.
But a stupid pighead will always be a stupid pighead. The kidnapper already said he'd kill him and he didn't even try to evade a shot! Well, he didn't until I ran to cover him and get hit in the process. He tried evading a second time, but it didn't work. He got hit, too.
'PIGHEAD!' I screamed in my mind. 'I saved you for nothing. You're dying, too.'
That's when I saw it.
I saw his eyes.
His sparkling dark brown eyes stared at me and for a moment I couldn't move because right in front of me was my Pighead. No more was the arrogant AhSi, or the workaholic DaoMingSi, and most of all, no more AhXing. What was left was the stubborn boy who gave me his love when we were only teenagers.
His eyes held many things, including our memories together, regret, confusion, and love. Love.
Love.
And this love was finally directed at me.
"Stupid woman," He said, "Why did you do that?!"
I just smiled and cupped his head in my hands before reaching up to give him a much-awaited kiss on the lips. Well, at least it's my much-awaited kiss. And let me tell you, it was sweet.
"Pighead!" I said with a slight laugh, "Because I love you."
I saw tears pouring out of his eyes and I wanted so much to wipe it away, but I couldn't because my stomach hurts whenever I move.
"I'm really stupid, huh?" He asked, and I knew what the regret in his eyes I saw was for. He thought that our love was short-lived, but I knew better. Our love was eternal. Four/Five decades of wait proved that.
"I love you, DaoMingSi. It wasn't your fault." I said.
"But I was a coward, Shancai," He whispered softly to my ear.
"Shhh..." I said,putting a finger on his lips to silence him, "That's not important anymore."
"I love you," He cried, laying my head on my chest. It hurt my wound, but I didn't say anything. I'm happy as long as I'm in his arms.
"I know," I said, putting an arm around him. "I love you, too."
And that was it. Our life had ended, then.
But I'm pretty sure our love remained and never died out.
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For you, there's nothing I can't do
And never will I ever go
Forever's not enough to love you so
But if forever is one day
I promise you I'll stay to show you
That my love for you will never end...
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15 years later...
"Why that stupid woman!" JoHun growled at his friends, "Who does she think she is?! She's ugly..."
"Hohoho..." an old voice was heard from behind him.
Surprised, JoHun stood up and bowed before his grand-uncle.
"Uncle Lei!" JoHun greeted, "You surprised me."
"Hey Lei!" Two other voices laughed from behind Lei, "Haven't you outgrown that habit of surprising everyone? You better not do that to us, now, we'll die because of you!"
"Grandpa!" Nari shouted, "Don't joke about things like that!"
"Okay! Okay!" Ximen laughed, "I was just kidding. Geez!"
"Now," MeiZhou teased, "What's this about a girl, JoHun?"
"It's a girl from school, Grandpa," HyunSeon said, "...she punched JoHun right in front of everyone in class and he's pissed about it."
Simultaneously, the three old men looked at each other and laughed.
The teens were confused, but decided that they were just being old. So Nari continued HyunSeon's story.
"The girl is new at the school. She came from PS101, you know, one of those public schools?" Nari explained, "Her name is MuYu Eun-mi...."
Realizing the name of the girl as Shancai's great niece, F3 once again howled. Of course, this time, JoHun was irritated.
"What are you laughing at?!" He shouted, "It's not funny! That stupid woman called me and my friends 'pighead!" Such a stupid woman if you ask me! ..."
"Yare, yare!" MeiZhou said to F2, "Stop laughing now. Let JoHun be. We need to go anyway."
Ximen looked at the time and said, "Oh yeah. Come on, Lei!"
The three exited the room, but just before they closed the room, Lei turned back to JoHun and said, "Oh and JoHun?"
"Yes Uncle?" JoHun asked.
"Congratulations!!!"
JoHun, Nari, and HyunSeon only blinked. Huh?
"Eun-mi is your girlfriend, right?" Ximen asked.
And the three left laughing, happy for AhSi's grandson and Shancai's grand- niece.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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If I would have to live my life again
I'd stay in love with you the way I've been
Your love is something no one ever can replace
I can't imagine life with someone else
I promise, I will share my life with you
Forever may not be enough it's true
My heart is filled with so much love I feel for you
No words can say how much I love you so
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What is love? Do you know?
I don't.
All I know is that I love him. Him. DaoMingSi, my very own pighead.
I loathed DaoMingSi when I first met him. He was so arrogant, so rash, so prideful, so stupid, .... But he was also sweet.
I wasn't prepared for his advances, then. I thought he did it as a joke. I mean, come on! He just posted in the bulletin board that I was his girlfriend! Should I have been honored? He didn't even ask me!
With everything he did to impress me, I got more irritated with him and fell in love with his best friend, Lei. It was only when we actually got together that I realized that Lei and I could never be. Know why? Because my heart already belonged to him.
I didn't know that, though. All I knew is that being together with Lei hurt him, and somehow, that hurt me, too.
So time passed, and he still insisted on being my boyfriend. And still, I insisted that I didn't want to be his girlfriend. Why would I want to be? All he ever does is order me about and fight with his friends when he's angry. And what's with his frowns? Doesn't he know how to smile?
Nope.
He'd have to change first before I'd even think of being his girlfriend.
Hmp. I thought that was impossible.
But, oh... I couldn't have been more wrong. Because guess what? He did change.
He learned to smile, and even laugh. He still ordered me about when he wanted to go on dates, but it got a little better through time. And he learned how to control his anger. Well, maybe just a little bit. But that's okay. At least he's learning, right?
Right.
Okay... So, problem no.1 was solved. Here comes no. 2. DaoMingSi's mother doesn't really like me. Yeah right, the understatement of the century! Her name is Feng, DaoMingFeng, and she loathes me just because I'm poor.
What's with rich people hating poor people anyway? Urgh!
Just when I actually considered being DaoMingSi's girlfriend, she comes in and ruins my life. First, she bribes me with ten million dollars. When that didn't work, she used Qing He's company and Xiao You's father's job against me. When that still didn't work, she just settled on locking DaoMingSi on his room till he dies.
Now tell me? Is she really the mother of DaoMingSi? Cause I'm guessing...not.
Anyway, another thing about DaoMingSi is that he's stubborn. So, he plays with his mother and fights for our right to be with each other. He never gave up. That's so sweet, don't you think? He purposely even didn't eat just so his mom will find pity on him and me. Awww...
But that didn't work.
I had to stand all night on rain just to get his mom to leave.
So why do I love DaoMingSi again?
I honestly don't know.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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When we were finally together, I thought nothing can come between us anymore. We were actually living like a normal couple for once. We talked... fine, call it bickering... walked hand in hand with each other, went on dates, and there were also the stolen kisses once in a while.
I was happy.
And I know he was, too.
But our happiness was short lived because of one stupid vacation. We, DaoMingSi and I, went on a vacation in Barcelona. We went sight seeing together, enjoying our moments with each other. And it just came as a sudden blow to my heart, when one day, I just didn't see him anymore.
I looked for him everywhere. F3 even helped, and Jing, too.
But to no avail.
So I went home, back to Taiwan, and tried to move on.
I went back to school and to work, with F3 being my cheering squad. If not for them, I honestly don't know how I'd be today.
I made a new friend, Yesha, and the next thing I knew, she was the Budan princess and the woman engaged to my DaoMingSi, a man who was so stupid to crash into another car and get his mind wrecked up.
What could I do?
Cry.
And hope it was all a nightmare.
But with my luck?
It wasn't a nightmare.
What's even worse is that they asked for my blessing before they got married.
Big slap on the face, that was.
But, of course, I did give them my blessing.
Even though I wanted DaoMingSi for myself, I still loved him.
And I wanted him to be happy.
... ... ...
I didn't let him go, though, if that's what you're thinking. I just let him marry the woman he loved at the moment. I knew that somewhere in the future, he'll remember me, too, and then... that's when we'll be together for all eternity.
And wait, I did.
For a few decades...
------
They say tomorrow seems so far away,
And now we see that everything can change
My love for you gets stronger as tomorrow comes
I know this love will stand
In the test of time
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DaoMingSi and Yesha married on December 23, 2005. Then, they lived happily ever after. How I wish I could have been Yesha.
They had three kids. JiHwan and JinSil and JenLyn. These three children are very close to my heart, more so than the children of Lei, Ximen, and MeiZhou. Don't get me wrong, I love their kids, they're cute, but JiHwan, JinSil and JenLyn are a part of DaoMingSi.
You're probably thinking that I'm weird or that I'm obsessed with DaoMingSi, but believe me I'm not. I just can't let go all the memories of pain and suffering that DaoMingSi and I had to go through together to be together... just for all of it to be thrown away in a snap.
Look at it this way. My relationship with him went from fighting, to beating, to having no place to stay, to being kidnapped, to being utterly miserable... a slight happy interval... and then back to being utterly miserable.
Let's look at Yesha's experience. DaoMingSi crashes into her, makes new memories, gets married and have children. Like I said, I wish I could have been Yesha.
Hmmm....
Oh yeah....
That and the fact that I believe I have DaoMingSi's everything. I have his soul, symbolized by the meteor necklace, I have his happiness, symbolized by the balloons, but most of all... I have his love. That one doesn't need to be symbolized. I can see it in his eyes.
Yes, he looks at Yesha with much love. I know that. And I'm jealous of it, but when he looks at me, I know I don't have to be because he's there. And that's all that matters.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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Once, DaoMingSi told me that if my love wasn't' enough, he'd double mine. This is what I'm telling him when he regains his memories: Your love wasn't enough so I tripled mine.
Hehehe...
Sweet?
I just wish I could live to see that day come because right now, my life is about to be cut off.
'Stupid Pighead,' I thought, 'Why couldn't he just let the police handle JoHun's case. I mean if they rushed off to every kidnapping sight, what's the use of police?'
He just had to butt in and act tough.
But a stupid pighead will always be a stupid pighead. The kidnapper already said he'd kill him and he didn't even try to evade a shot! Well, he didn't until I ran to cover him and get hit in the process. He tried evading a second time, but it didn't work. He got hit, too.
'PIGHEAD!' I screamed in my mind. 'I saved you for nothing. You're dying, too.'
That's when I saw it.
I saw his eyes.
His sparkling dark brown eyes stared at me and for a moment I couldn't move because right in front of me was my Pighead. No more was the arrogant AhSi, or the workaholic DaoMingSi, and most of all, no more AhXing. What was left was the stubborn boy who gave me his love when we were only teenagers.
His eyes held many things, including our memories together, regret, confusion, and love. Love.
Love.
And this love was finally directed at me.
"Stupid woman," He said, "Why did you do that?!"
I just smiled and cupped his head in my hands before reaching up to give him a much-awaited kiss on the lips. Well, at least it's my much-awaited kiss. And let me tell you, it was sweet.
"Pighead!" I said with a slight laugh, "Because I love you."
I saw tears pouring out of his eyes and I wanted so much to wipe it away, but I couldn't because my stomach hurts whenever I move.
"I'm really stupid, huh?" He asked, and I knew what the regret in his eyes I saw was for. He thought that our love was short-lived, but I knew better. Our love was eternal. Four/Five decades of wait proved that.
"I love you, DaoMingSi. It wasn't your fault." I said.
"But I was a coward, Shancai," He whispered softly to my ear.
"Shhh..." I said,putting a finger on his lips to silence him, "That's not important anymore."
"I love you," He cried, laying my head on my chest. It hurt my wound, but I didn't say anything. I'm happy as long as I'm in his arms.
"I know," I said, putting an arm around him. "I love you, too."
And that was it. Our life had ended, then.
But I'm pretty sure our love remained and never died out.
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For you, there's nothing I can't do
And never will I ever go
Forever's not enough to love you so
But if forever is one day
I promise you I'll stay to show you
That my love for you will never end...
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15 years later...
"Why that stupid woman!" JoHun growled at his friends, "Who does she think she is?! She's ugly..."
"Hohoho..." an old voice was heard from behind him.
Surprised, JoHun stood up and bowed before his grand-uncle.
"Uncle Lei!" JoHun greeted, "You surprised me."
"Hey Lei!" Two other voices laughed from behind Lei, "Haven't you outgrown that habit of surprising everyone? You better not do that to us, now, we'll die because of you!"
"Grandpa!" Nari shouted, "Don't joke about things like that!"
"Okay! Okay!" Ximen laughed, "I was just kidding. Geez!"
"Now," MeiZhou teased, "What's this about a girl, JoHun?"
"It's a girl from school, Grandpa," HyunSeon said, "...she punched JoHun right in front of everyone in class and he's pissed about it."
Simultaneously, the three old men looked at each other and laughed.
The teens were confused, but decided that they were just being old. So Nari continued HyunSeon's story.
"The girl is new at the school. She came from PS101, you know, one of those public schools?" Nari explained, "Her name is MuYu Eun-mi...."
Realizing the name of the girl as Shancai's great niece, F3 once again howled. Of course, this time, JoHun was irritated.
"What are you laughing at?!" He shouted, "It's not funny! That stupid woman called me and my friends 'pighead!" Such a stupid woman if you ask me! ..."
"Yare, yare!" MeiZhou said to F2, "Stop laughing now. Let JoHun be. We need to go anyway."
Ximen looked at the time and said, "Oh yeah. Come on, Lei!"
The three exited the room, but just before they closed the room, Lei turned back to JoHun and said, "Oh and JoHun?"
"Yes Uncle?" JoHun asked.
"Congratulations!!!"
JoHun, Nari, and HyunSeon only blinked. Huh?
"Eun-mi is your girlfriend, right?" Ximen asked.
And the three left laughing, happy for AhSi's grandson and Shancai's grand- niece.
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And if forever's not enough for me to love you
I'd spend another lifetime baby,
If you ask me to
There's nothing I won't do
Forever's not enough to love you so
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