I do believe this is going to be the last Duo POV chapter...but
I haven't made this decision final, so you never know. (Hint:
Read the AN at the end of the chapter) Since Duo seems to be
getting better, there really isn't a need for an insane
perspective, ne? ^_^;
Anywho, I apologize for lateness, for both this chapter and the
new chapter for 'Fatal', like I mentioned in the last ones, I've
been busy with summer work for school, and I've got a temporary
weekend/whenever job with a friend of my mom's. I'm helping her
redo the interior of the house she recently bought, which means
tearing out old flooring, carpeting, built-in shelves, and trim
and put in new tile and repainting. ^_^ DVG is getting money!
She will no longer be broke! *big grin* But yes, I'll try and
get out chapters as normally as usual. If that makes any sense.
*sweatdrop*
Anywho, reviews! ^_^
Nelia: *is glomped* Yeah, I liked having Trowa get a mean streak
and bitch at Heero. ^_^ I couldn't help my self with the pizza
scene, it was just too adorable to pass up, and who in their
right minds can resist the kawaii Duo-chan? ^__^ Though I would
call myself a -great- writer, I'd be glad to read your story and
tell you what I think. ^_~
Dark Ice: Lol, yes, Wufei was a bit slow, but you can't blame
him, ya know? Wouldn't you not think twice about something if it
got your best buddy to cheer up? See, Wufei had been, in his own
odd way, reassuring Duo that he would get out of the mental
institution no matter what, so he wasn't thinking about what he
said. *nod* But anywho, read and enjoy! ^_^
Satans Little Toy: Naturally, this is a 2x5. It's the best
pairing, in my opinion. *nod* Of course, I'm partial to anything
yaoi and yuri...so yeah. ^_^;; And as for a sequel to 'Blood
Lust'...I have to get my current stories out of the way first,
because if I do a sequel, it's going to end up being massive
like 'Blood Lust'. I've actually been toying with the idea,
because so many reviewers asked for a sequel, it's only getting
a feasible plot that won't turn ridiculous. I was thinking of
having a vengeful Noin bring in Dorothy, since I didn't use her
in 'Blood Lust', and have Dorothy bring back Relena, considering
how much I loathe writing heterosexual pairings, but I'm not too
sure about Zechs and Treize. Maybe, but I'm not sure. But I'm
glad you enjoy reading my stories! ^_^ I try my hardest, and a
story is nothing but words is there isn't depth and emotion
pouring out of every sentence. *nod* I love description, getting
into the characters' heads and bringing out different views of
their personalities and using those views to my advantage. ^_^
Wufei has been one of my best characters to toy with, and in
'Blood Lust' I think I did my best work with his depth. Cause
you know he's can't just be only about Justice. *winks* Anywho,
read and enjoy! ^_~
Sawdust Monster: There will be plenty more Wufei/Duo moments
where that came from. ^_^
LadyDragonWolfKnight: Glad you're enjoying! ^_^
LittleShadow: Well, I'm glad you think this story is good! I
don't know any Dutch, so I wouldn't be able to tell you the
English translation to 'meeslepend'. ^_^; But I do understand
what you mean about psychological disorders and authors who
don't know what they're talking about. I made sure to research
schizophrenia and manic depression extensively before even
beginning to write this fic. I also took Psychology in school,
so I had all my notes and discussion recordings to look into.
When I write about something as serious as mental disorders, I
make sure I know what I'm talking about. I have three friends
who are bipolar and ADHD, and one who really does suffer from
manic depression, so I also have personal experience to draw
from when I write. But yes, anyways, I'm glad you're enjoying
this story, and I'll try and get the next chapter out as fast as
I can. ^_~
KitsuneDewAddict: Sugoi, I've corrupted the masses! *cough* I
mean, I made you like 2x5? ^_^;;; I'm not quite sure about
Heero's reaction, but I do know it'll be a nice shock to his
system, that's for sure. *nod* But for now, here's a nice peek
into Duo's mind. ^_^
Sen: I do believe Trowa did the bashing for me. ^_^ But don't
worry, Wufei will have his say too, and Heero will get his full
comeuppance when he gets to see Duo. *nod*
That should be all of the reviews...So...On with the show, ne?
^___^
***
I've come to one conclusion.
I'm either crazier than I thought I was, or everyone else is
just as crazy as I am so I seem perfectly sane and normal.
Today I felt more like myself then I have in a long, long time.
Maybe too long.
It was as if the past six months had never happened, we were all
just sitting around in a safe house during a lull in the battles
and being ourselves. Heedless to the fact that we were
surrounded by padded walls in a mental institution, of course.
Speaking of which, I've really got to thank Quatre for smuggling
in that pizza, I'd forgotten how hungry I was.
Yeah, that's right, I -forgot-. If there's one habit I've never
lost over the years, it's that when you're living out on the
streets, you've got to learn how to ignore the hunger that
continually aches in your stomach. You never know when you'll
get food out there. I'd love to see Solo's reaction to Quatre's
persuasion of ice cream if I got to sleep tonight, even if I
didn't, he's still going to bring it anyway. It's a good thing
to have friends like that, who'll take care of you when you need
it without thinking twice about it. Solo would have a heart
attack at the sight of me being spoiled rotten and loving every
minute of it.
The two of us worked so hard to make sure the younger kids got
something that we never took care of ourselves, though why he
had to die instead of me because that same noble selflessness
had left him vulnerable to the virus plague is beyond me. If I
had only run faster with the vaccine, I could have saved him...
...And if I hadn't let myself get taken in by the church with
other kids, I could have joined him.
Not that I have anything against Father Maxwell and Sister
Helen. They helped me save the rest of the orphans when I
couldn't handle it by myself anymore. Or rather, took us in
after I got desperate enough to try to raid the Alliance's food
stores and got caught. I would never in a million years dare
utter a bad word against them; despite my gratitude for them
being that I got them killed too.
What can you say to justify that? Death follows me everywhere,
why do you think I call myself Shinigami? Certainly not because
it sounds cool.
Because it's the truth.
Before descending to Earth in Deathscythe, I told G that being
the God of Death sounded a lot better than being the hero of a
massacre, but honestly, they're one and the same when you look
at it. I turned right around from killing the ones I cared about
to killing anonymous soldiers for 'peace'.
Sure, they were the enemy. My targets.
Not once did I ever wonder if they had a family, a wife or a
husband, some kids, parents.
Oh no, I had to remain focused on my mission.
Maybe that's why the voices came to torment me when the wars
were over. I didn't have anything left to destroy except for
myself. And I'll be damned before I ever tried to lay a finger
on any of the other Gundam pilots.
Funny, now that I think about it...
I've been reliving all these memories in my mind and the voices
haven't said a single thing the entire time. I was so afraid
that they would come back after the guys left to go back to
their hotel room and I was alone...
No, Wufei's still here by my bed. Why hasn't he left yet?
He's asleep! HA! Wufei fell asleep while waiting for me to!
I didn't realize that he'd actually -stay- when I asked him,
maybe sit there for a few minutes then go, but he's been there
in that chair the whole time I've been wandering off in my
thoughts!
Looks like he's finally gotten over the pizza too, his face
isn't the lovely shade of green like it was earlier...
I don't know how I'm ever gonna repay Wufei for being so good to
me. He didn't have to come here, and, by what Quatre said, argue
with the Doc about being able to visit with me. He didn't have
to stay and promise to be here until I get released, or be so
nice and so...un-Wufei-ish.
He didn't have to come here and make the voices go away.
I think I was truly more afraid of him and guys rejecting me for
all this mess than I was of even those stupid voices. We've gone
through so much together, especially the times like in the cell
block with Wufei when they cut off the air supply or when I
discovered Trowa with amnesia after Quatre had almost killed
him...It would've been the end of this Shinigami for sure if
they had wanted nothing to do with me. But everything they've
done so far has been the exact opposite of what I had feared,
and Wufei definitely not the least.
And when Heero comes tomorrow, it'll be exactly like the good
old days, just the five of us together by ourselves without a
care in the world... Well, except for maybe Quatre laying into
me if I don't get any sleep, and sleep sounds like a pretty nice
idea judging by the beautiful, peaceful expression on Wufei's
face...
I hope we don't get in trouble for him staying the night in
here...
***
Kawaii! ^__^ So now, how should I play Heero's first meeting
with Duo? Should I make him be the same as with the other guys
or shall our Duo-chan have a bad reaction to something he says
and reverts back to the crazy Duo? Decisions, decisions...
Click! Review! Flame! Whichever suits...
I haven't made this decision final, so you never know. (Hint:
Read the AN at the end of the chapter) Since Duo seems to be
getting better, there really isn't a need for an insane
perspective, ne? ^_^;
Anywho, I apologize for lateness, for both this chapter and the
new chapter for 'Fatal', like I mentioned in the last ones, I've
been busy with summer work for school, and I've got a temporary
weekend/whenever job with a friend of my mom's. I'm helping her
redo the interior of the house she recently bought, which means
tearing out old flooring, carpeting, built-in shelves, and trim
and put in new tile and repainting. ^_^ DVG is getting money!
She will no longer be broke! *big grin* But yes, I'll try and
get out chapters as normally as usual. If that makes any sense.
*sweatdrop*
Anywho, reviews! ^_^
Nelia: *is glomped* Yeah, I liked having Trowa get a mean streak
and bitch at Heero. ^_^ I couldn't help my self with the pizza
scene, it was just too adorable to pass up, and who in their
right minds can resist the kawaii Duo-chan? ^__^ Though I would
call myself a -great- writer, I'd be glad to read your story and
tell you what I think. ^_~
Dark Ice: Lol, yes, Wufei was a bit slow, but you can't blame
him, ya know? Wouldn't you not think twice about something if it
got your best buddy to cheer up? See, Wufei had been, in his own
odd way, reassuring Duo that he would get out of the mental
institution no matter what, so he wasn't thinking about what he
said. *nod* But anywho, read and enjoy! ^_^
Satans Little Toy: Naturally, this is a 2x5. It's the best
pairing, in my opinion. *nod* Of course, I'm partial to anything
yaoi and yuri...so yeah. ^_^;; And as for a sequel to 'Blood
Lust'...I have to get my current stories out of the way first,
because if I do a sequel, it's going to end up being massive
like 'Blood Lust'. I've actually been toying with the idea,
because so many reviewers asked for a sequel, it's only getting
a feasible plot that won't turn ridiculous. I was thinking of
having a vengeful Noin bring in Dorothy, since I didn't use her
in 'Blood Lust', and have Dorothy bring back Relena, considering
how much I loathe writing heterosexual pairings, but I'm not too
sure about Zechs and Treize. Maybe, but I'm not sure. But I'm
glad you enjoy reading my stories! ^_^ I try my hardest, and a
story is nothing but words is there isn't depth and emotion
pouring out of every sentence. *nod* I love description, getting
into the characters' heads and bringing out different views of
their personalities and using those views to my advantage. ^_^
Wufei has been one of my best characters to toy with, and in
'Blood Lust' I think I did my best work with his depth. Cause
you know he's can't just be only about Justice. *winks* Anywho,
read and enjoy! ^_~
Sawdust Monster: There will be plenty more Wufei/Duo moments
where that came from. ^_^
LadyDragonWolfKnight: Glad you're enjoying! ^_^
LittleShadow: Well, I'm glad you think this story is good! I
don't know any Dutch, so I wouldn't be able to tell you the
English translation to 'meeslepend'. ^_^; But I do understand
what you mean about psychological disorders and authors who
don't know what they're talking about. I made sure to research
schizophrenia and manic depression extensively before even
beginning to write this fic. I also took Psychology in school,
so I had all my notes and discussion recordings to look into.
When I write about something as serious as mental disorders, I
make sure I know what I'm talking about. I have three friends
who are bipolar and ADHD, and one who really does suffer from
manic depression, so I also have personal experience to draw
from when I write. But yes, anyways, I'm glad you're enjoying
this story, and I'll try and get the next chapter out as fast as
I can. ^_~
KitsuneDewAddict: Sugoi, I've corrupted the masses! *cough* I
mean, I made you like 2x5? ^_^;;; I'm not quite sure about
Heero's reaction, but I do know it'll be a nice shock to his
system, that's for sure. *nod* But for now, here's a nice peek
into Duo's mind. ^_^
Sen: I do believe Trowa did the bashing for me. ^_^ But don't
worry, Wufei will have his say too, and Heero will get his full
comeuppance when he gets to see Duo. *nod*
That should be all of the reviews...So...On with the show, ne?
^___^
***
I've come to one conclusion.
I'm either crazier than I thought I was, or everyone else is
just as crazy as I am so I seem perfectly sane and normal.
Today I felt more like myself then I have in a long, long time.
Maybe too long.
It was as if the past six months had never happened, we were all
just sitting around in a safe house during a lull in the battles
and being ourselves. Heedless to the fact that we were
surrounded by padded walls in a mental institution, of course.
Speaking of which, I've really got to thank Quatre for smuggling
in that pizza, I'd forgotten how hungry I was.
Yeah, that's right, I -forgot-. If there's one habit I've never
lost over the years, it's that when you're living out on the
streets, you've got to learn how to ignore the hunger that
continually aches in your stomach. You never know when you'll
get food out there. I'd love to see Solo's reaction to Quatre's
persuasion of ice cream if I got to sleep tonight, even if I
didn't, he's still going to bring it anyway. It's a good thing
to have friends like that, who'll take care of you when you need
it without thinking twice about it. Solo would have a heart
attack at the sight of me being spoiled rotten and loving every
minute of it.
The two of us worked so hard to make sure the younger kids got
something that we never took care of ourselves, though why he
had to die instead of me because that same noble selflessness
had left him vulnerable to the virus plague is beyond me. If I
had only run faster with the vaccine, I could have saved him...
...And if I hadn't let myself get taken in by the church with
other kids, I could have joined him.
Not that I have anything against Father Maxwell and Sister
Helen. They helped me save the rest of the orphans when I
couldn't handle it by myself anymore. Or rather, took us in
after I got desperate enough to try to raid the Alliance's food
stores and got caught. I would never in a million years dare
utter a bad word against them; despite my gratitude for them
being that I got them killed too.
What can you say to justify that? Death follows me everywhere,
why do you think I call myself Shinigami? Certainly not because
it sounds cool.
Because it's the truth.
Before descending to Earth in Deathscythe, I told G that being
the God of Death sounded a lot better than being the hero of a
massacre, but honestly, they're one and the same when you look
at it. I turned right around from killing the ones I cared about
to killing anonymous soldiers for 'peace'.
Sure, they were the enemy. My targets.
Not once did I ever wonder if they had a family, a wife or a
husband, some kids, parents.
Oh no, I had to remain focused on my mission.
Maybe that's why the voices came to torment me when the wars
were over. I didn't have anything left to destroy except for
myself. And I'll be damned before I ever tried to lay a finger
on any of the other Gundam pilots.
Funny, now that I think about it...
I've been reliving all these memories in my mind and the voices
haven't said a single thing the entire time. I was so afraid
that they would come back after the guys left to go back to
their hotel room and I was alone...
No, Wufei's still here by my bed. Why hasn't he left yet?
He's asleep! HA! Wufei fell asleep while waiting for me to!
I didn't realize that he'd actually -stay- when I asked him,
maybe sit there for a few minutes then go, but he's been there
in that chair the whole time I've been wandering off in my
thoughts!
Looks like he's finally gotten over the pizza too, his face
isn't the lovely shade of green like it was earlier...
I don't know how I'm ever gonna repay Wufei for being so good to
me. He didn't have to come here, and, by what Quatre said, argue
with the Doc about being able to visit with me. He didn't have
to stay and promise to be here until I get released, or be so
nice and so...un-Wufei-ish.
He didn't have to come here and make the voices go away.
I think I was truly more afraid of him and guys rejecting me for
all this mess than I was of even those stupid voices. We've gone
through so much together, especially the times like in the cell
block with Wufei when they cut off the air supply or when I
discovered Trowa with amnesia after Quatre had almost killed
him...It would've been the end of this Shinigami for sure if
they had wanted nothing to do with me. But everything they've
done so far has been the exact opposite of what I had feared,
and Wufei definitely not the least.
And when Heero comes tomorrow, it'll be exactly like the good
old days, just the five of us together by ourselves without a
care in the world... Well, except for maybe Quatre laying into
me if I don't get any sleep, and sleep sounds like a pretty nice
idea judging by the beautiful, peaceful expression on Wufei's
face...
I hope we don't get in trouble for him staying the night in
here...
***
Kawaii! ^__^ So now, how should I play Heero's first meeting
with Duo? Should I make him be the same as with the other guys
or shall our Duo-chan have a bad reaction to something he says
and reverts back to the crazy Duo? Decisions, decisions...
Click! Review! Flame! Whichever suits...