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A/N: This is my first baby (as for fic) so try to be sweethearts :) Thanks Kristen for beta-ing! Kisses, Ally.
Summary: Buffy Summers is young, beautiful, strong and... blind woman. She lost her eye light three years ago, now she lives with that what she has. One day she meets William 'Spike' Walthrop, only then Buffy starts to understand what she have and what she wants.
A/N: Ok, here's the chapter 20, BUT read closely the A/N in chappies end!
Chapter Twenty
"God, I'm tired." Buffy said to no one, but herself, as she entered her room. She slowly moved from the door to the bed and pressed the button on the answering machine on her way. As she started to undress the machine beeped and announced that she had two messages.
Buffy missed how she had to hear everything now instead of being able to just see the light on the answering machine. It was small things like that that got her down sometimes. But it had been a great night. Fred had loved all her gifts, the cake was very tasty and the most important thing was that Gunn had finally proposed her. It was nice and sweet but had been very long and now Buffy was extremely tired. She started to remove her pants as a cheery voice from the answering machine interrupted her thoughts.
"Hey, B! How ya doing? I feel like shit, thanks for asking. All this pregnancy stuff sucks. Got your mail and no, I don't think calling my baby Blond Wonder would be a good idea. Especially if neither of its parents are blond. Can you imagine Wesley's expression if the baby IS blond?!" Buffy let out a slight chuckle at that. It was a joke between the two of them from the day Faith found she's pregnant. Buffy met Faith shortly before she lost her eyesight. Faith lived in San Francisco with her fiancé, Wesley, and now she was pregnant with their first child. Buffy didn't get together with Faith often, but they called each other and e-mailed nearly every day. Faith was a great person and was one of the more honest people that Buffy knew. "Anyway. How are Fred and her pet? I wanted to come to her birthday party, but Wesley didn't want me to fly *in my condition*. Ha! He acts like I'm dying!" Faith let out an ironic laugh.
"Your pregnant Faith! You can not fly!" Called a man's voice in the background. "And tell Buffy I said 'hi'!"
"Right, right! Wesley says 'hi'. But who cares anyway?" There was some crashing noise in the background and Faith cursed into the phone. "Bastard! Can you believe the father of my child just threw a pillow at me. A pillow, for God's sake! B, I'm gonna marry an idiot." Buffy laugh at that. For now she already was fully changed into her pj's that was composed only of a black t-shirt and cotton panties. She slowly slid into her cold bed. *I need a warm man with me in this bed. A warm Spike. And soon!* Buffy thought to herself as Faith's message continued. "Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment. We'll finally know if the baby's a boy or a girl. At least then we can look at names. Don't tell anyone, but I'm a little excited."
"Faith, hon, she isn't even home. Please come to bed." Wesley's voice called.
"Right away!" Faith called back. "Ok, B, duty calls. God that sounded weird. Night, B. Call me or send an e-mail, k? And I want to know more about your new boy toy, got it?"
"Sweetie, bring the pillow with you, k?" Wesley called just before the message ended. Buffy smiled to herself. Faith and Wesley were really great friends. A bit weird, but great. Another beep sounded from the machine and a new message came on.
"Hey, pet!" Spike's melodic baritone said. Buffy smiled enormously. "So how was your friend's party? Hope you had a great time. True, I wanted to talk to you. I miss you. Shit. Does this machine have a button that deletes the phrases I didn't mean to say?" But that part Buffy didn't hear anymore. Her mind was stuck on Spike admitting that he missed her. He said it. How great was that? "Ok, I think the phone twists my words around. Is it possible? Guess not. Well, ok I do miss you, but... um... Buffy, what's going on with us? I mean we barely know each other, but I feel like I've known you all my life." Spike's voice softened even more. "And I don't know what I will do if after hearing all this you decide that you don't feel the same." Buffy could hear the fear in his voice. The thing was she *did* feel the same. She was just a bit shocked he was the one who admitted it first. She had always thought that guys knew nothing when it came to emotions. "So ok, I'll end this little monologue now, before I say something else to embarrass myself. I'll call you tomorrow night, I would love to do it sooner, but I have work. I really hate work. Ok, night luv." And with that the message ended.
"Night." Buffy whispered before closing her eyes. All night long a small smile was stuck on her face.
***
"No, Dawn. You hear me? I said no!" Buffy said doing some paperwork at the gallery the next day. Dawn was beside her and was nearly jumping up and down.
"Come on, Buffy. You won't even see it! Please, just say ok!" Dawn begged her sister.
"I will never ever say ok to that. You hear me, young lady? No, and that's all." Buffy said calmly not taking her hands off of the Brailed text on the desk.
"But... but..." Dawn tried again. "Why do you get to and not me?"
"Because it wouldn't look right." Buffy turned to face her sister. "Look, sweetie, I really want you to be happy and get that guy's... What was his name again?"
"A.J." Dawn reminded her.
"Right. As I said changing your haircolor will not change what he thinks about you." She tried to explain. "And, hun, blond isn't you. See, if you wanted to change it to red I might agree. But Dawnie, you just aren't the blond type."
"Dumb and with a boyfriend?" She asked sarcastically.
"Yes... No. Did you just call me dumb?" Buffy felt dizzy.
"All I want Buffy is a boyfriend like Spike. How can I get one like that?" Dawn asked desperately. All Buffy could do was stand up and hug her little sister.
"I have no idea, sweetie, but I'm sure you'll meet a guy like Spike." She said trying to cheer up her sister. "But you sure as hell can't have the real deal." Buffy added playfully.
"Well you've been together for what... three or four days? He still can change sisters." Dawn responded letting her sister go. Buffy smiled and sat back down at the table, slowly starting to go through the papers again. Then quietly adding.
"He said he misses me, so I think your chances are low, sis."
"He said he misses you?! How cool is that?" Dawn nearly jumped for joy. Even though she had met Spike just two times she liked him, a lot. Of course not enough to stop her from being jealous of Buffy, but enough to be happy for her. If there was one person who deserved to be happy, then it was her sister.
"Yeah, I know." Buffy said with smile on her lips.
"And how do you feel about all this?"
"I... I don't really know, Dawnie. I know I miss being with him, but I..." Buffy took a deep breath; she really didn't know how to say out loud what she felt.
"You don't wanna open your heart and get hurt again, is that it?" Dawn asked carefully.
"Yeah, that's it." Buffy admitted quietly and then turned her head towards Dawn. "And when did you become so smart anyway?" At that Dawn smiled.
"Soaps, sis. Only by watching those could I become psychic." She answered playfully.
"Soaps." Buffy repeated to her self and then again turned back to her work. "Ok, I need to finish this and you need to go back to school."
"Yeah, yeah. You up for Bronzing tonight?" Dawn asked picking up her bag that rested on the floor. Buffy thought for a minute, the last time at the Bronze she had met Spike, that definitely wasn't going to happen tonight. But she had been working herself hard lately and need a break.
"Sure, why not? When are we going?"
"Around six. Ok?"
"Ok. Now go or you'll be late!" Buffy pushed.
"I'm gone. Love you, sis." Dawn said as she pecked Buffy on cheek and walked out from gallery.
"Damn! Back to work." Buffy said to herself and started to work on her Braille paperwork.
***
Buffy entered The Bronze with Dawn. Loud music instantly hit Buffy's ears. She really hated being so sensitive. She had finished work an hour ago and after that had called Willow. The redhead had promised to meet Buffy at the club. All night with nineteen year olds wasn't her idea of fun.
"Hey, Dawnie!" Buffy heard a young man's voice say. She could feel her sister start to blush. So this must be A... A... A.Something. "Who's your friend?"
"Oh, s-sorry." Dawn managed to mumble. "T-this is Buffy, my sister. Buffy, this is A.J." She said. A.J. smiled and offered his hand to Buffy. She, of course, didn't see it. Dawn on the other hand saw and placed Buffy's hand into A.J.'s. First Buffy was confused by her action, but feeling smooth skin under her palm she smiled.
"Sorry, didn't see it." She said trying to concentrate her gaze towards A.J.'s face.
"Um... That's ok, I guess." He responded weakly. Obviously he didn't know Buffy was blind. "So, Dawnie, wanna dance?" A.J. asked turning to Dawn.
"Oh, um, sure." Dawn answered happily. This was good! "I'll find a table for Buffy and then we can go dance." She said as if it was the most normal thing to do: lead her twenty three year older sister to a table in a nightclub full of people.
"Cool, Dawnie, you make me sound like an invalid." Buffy said a bit angrily.
"I didn't mean that." Dawn defended herself. "Come on." She said pushing Buffy toward a free table.
"Hey!" Came a cheery voice from beside Dawn and Buffy.
"Willow, hey!" Dawn smiled to the redhead. "Please take Buffy to a free table, would you?" She didn't even wait for an answer as she ran away, leaving her, now angry, sister and her confused best friend standing in the middle of the Bronze.
"What was that?" The redhead asked. Buffy just shrugged.
"A.Something." She answered as Willow took her hand and walked to a table.
Buffy was unaware that at that very moment her phone was ringing back home.
"Where are you Buffy?" Spike asked himself putting the phone down. He sat next to the window and watched the lights and cars in the city. He didn't like big cities; they never made him feel at home. The phone rang. Immediately Spike picked it up. "Buffy?" He asked into the receiver.
"No, but I really want to know who she is." Came the answer from the other end of the line. Spike instantly knew who this voice belonged to. The accent was unique.
"How are you?" He asked.
"I guess better than you, because I'm not considering that there could be only one person calling me. And even if I did, I don't think this persons name would be *Buffy*. What kinda name is that?"
"Hey, watch it!" Spike hissed.
"Hmm, so you have a thing for her. I definitely want to meet the girl."
"So why don't you come and meet her?" Spike asked not really thinking about what he was saying. His thoughts were concentrated on Buffy and the fact that he hadn't spoke to her all day.
"Actually that's the reason I'm calling. I don't think I can come to your birthday." That had Spike coming out of his daydream.
"Something wrong?" He asked a tad worried.
"Nothing special, just work. But I really have to finish it. You won't be mad at me?"
"Course not. But I'll miss you."
"I know. Sorry. I'll call you, ok?" She asked.
"Sure."
"Ok. Love you. Bye." With that the phone went dead.
"Love you too." Spike said as he closed the curtains.
***
A/N: As for now it looks like this story has only three readers, cos I had TWO reviews for it (and one was from my best friend!), I'm pretty much thinking I have lost my readers, so... I want reviews guys. You hafta understand that it's hard to write if you don't know that someone's reading. So: YOU don't feed me, I'M not working.
A/N: This is my first baby (as for fic) so try to be sweethearts :) Thanks Kristen for beta-ing! Kisses, Ally.
Summary: Buffy Summers is young, beautiful, strong and... blind woman. She lost her eye light three years ago, now she lives with that what she has. One day she meets William 'Spike' Walthrop, only then Buffy starts to understand what she have and what she wants.
A/N: Ok, here's the chapter 20, BUT read closely the A/N in chappies end!
Chapter Twenty
"God, I'm tired." Buffy said to no one, but herself, as she entered her room. She slowly moved from the door to the bed and pressed the button on the answering machine on her way. As she started to undress the machine beeped and announced that she had two messages.
Buffy missed how she had to hear everything now instead of being able to just see the light on the answering machine. It was small things like that that got her down sometimes. But it had been a great night. Fred had loved all her gifts, the cake was very tasty and the most important thing was that Gunn had finally proposed her. It was nice and sweet but had been very long and now Buffy was extremely tired. She started to remove her pants as a cheery voice from the answering machine interrupted her thoughts.
"Hey, B! How ya doing? I feel like shit, thanks for asking. All this pregnancy stuff sucks. Got your mail and no, I don't think calling my baby Blond Wonder would be a good idea. Especially if neither of its parents are blond. Can you imagine Wesley's expression if the baby IS blond?!" Buffy let out a slight chuckle at that. It was a joke between the two of them from the day Faith found she's pregnant. Buffy met Faith shortly before she lost her eyesight. Faith lived in San Francisco with her fiancé, Wesley, and now she was pregnant with their first child. Buffy didn't get together with Faith often, but they called each other and e-mailed nearly every day. Faith was a great person and was one of the more honest people that Buffy knew. "Anyway. How are Fred and her pet? I wanted to come to her birthday party, but Wesley didn't want me to fly *in my condition*. Ha! He acts like I'm dying!" Faith let out an ironic laugh.
"Your pregnant Faith! You can not fly!" Called a man's voice in the background. "And tell Buffy I said 'hi'!"
"Right, right! Wesley says 'hi'. But who cares anyway?" There was some crashing noise in the background and Faith cursed into the phone. "Bastard! Can you believe the father of my child just threw a pillow at me. A pillow, for God's sake! B, I'm gonna marry an idiot." Buffy laugh at that. For now she already was fully changed into her pj's that was composed only of a black t-shirt and cotton panties. She slowly slid into her cold bed. *I need a warm man with me in this bed. A warm Spike. And soon!* Buffy thought to herself as Faith's message continued. "Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment. We'll finally know if the baby's a boy or a girl. At least then we can look at names. Don't tell anyone, but I'm a little excited."
"Faith, hon, she isn't even home. Please come to bed." Wesley's voice called.
"Right away!" Faith called back. "Ok, B, duty calls. God that sounded weird. Night, B. Call me or send an e-mail, k? And I want to know more about your new boy toy, got it?"
"Sweetie, bring the pillow with you, k?" Wesley called just before the message ended. Buffy smiled to herself. Faith and Wesley were really great friends. A bit weird, but great. Another beep sounded from the machine and a new message came on.
"Hey, pet!" Spike's melodic baritone said. Buffy smiled enormously. "So how was your friend's party? Hope you had a great time. True, I wanted to talk to you. I miss you. Shit. Does this machine have a button that deletes the phrases I didn't mean to say?" But that part Buffy didn't hear anymore. Her mind was stuck on Spike admitting that he missed her. He said it. How great was that? "Ok, I think the phone twists my words around. Is it possible? Guess not. Well, ok I do miss you, but... um... Buffy, what's going on with us? I mean we barely know each other, but I feel like I've known you all my life." Spike's voice softened even more. "And I don't know what I will do if after hearing all this you decide that you don't feel the same." Buffy could hear the fear in his voice. The thing was she *did* feel the same. She was just a bit shocked he was the one who admitted it first. She had always thought that guys knew nothing when it came to emotions. "So ok, I'll end this little monologue now, before I say something else to embarrass myself. I'll call you tomorrow night, I would love to do it sooner, but I have work. I really hate work. Ok, night luv." And with that the message ended.
"Night." Buffy whispered before closing her eyes. All night long a small smile was stuck on her face.
***
"No, Dawn. You hear me? I said no!" Buffy said doing some paperwork at the gallery the next day. Dawn was beside her and was nearly jumping up and down.
"Come on, Buffy. You won't even see it! Please, just say ok!" Dawn begged her sister.
"I will never ever say ok to that. You hear me, young lady? No, and that's all." Buffy said calmly not taking her hands off of the Brailed text on the desk.
"But... but..." Dawn tried again. "Why do you get to and not me?"
"Because it wouldn't look right." Buffy turned to face her sister. "Look, sweetie, I really want you to be happy and get that guy's... What was his name again?"
"A.J." Dawn reminded her.
"Right. As I said changing your haircolor will not change what he thinks about you." She tried to explain. "And, hun, blond isn't you. See, if you wanted to change it to red I might agree. But Dawnie, you just aren't the blond type."
"Dumb and with a boyfriend?" She asked sarcastically.
"Yes... No. Did you just call me dumb?" Buffy felt dizzy.
"All I want Buffy is a boyfriend like Spike. How can I get one like that?" Dawn asked desperately. All Buffy could do was stand up and hug her little sister.
"I have no idea, sweetie, but I'm sure you'll meet a guy like Spike." She said trying to cheer up her sister. "But you sure as hell can't have the real deal." Buffy added playfully.
"Well you've been together for what... three or four days? He still can change sisters." Dawn responded letting her sister go. Buffy smiled and sat back down at the table, slowly starting to go through the papers again. Then quietly adding.
"He said he misses me, so I think your chances are low, sis."
"He said he misses you?! How cool is that?" Dawn nearly jumped for joy. Even though she had met Spike just two times she liked him, a lot. Of course not enough to stop her from being jealous of Buffy, but enough to be happy for her. If there was one person who deserved to be happy, then it was her sister.
"Yeah, I know." Buffy said with smile on her lips.
"And how do you feel about all this?"
"I... I don't really know, Dawnie. I know I miss being with him, but I..." Buffy took a deep breath; she really didn't know how to say out loud what she felt.
"You don't wanna open your heart and get hurt again, is that it?" Dawn asked carefully.
"Yeah, that's it." Buffy admitted quietly and then turned her head towards Dawn. "And when did you become so smart anyway?" At that Dawn smiled.
"Soaps, sis. Only by watching those could I become psychic." She answered playfully.
"Soaps." Buffy repeated to her self and then again turned back to her work. "Ok, I need to finish this and you need to go back to school."
"Yeah, yeah. You up for Bronzing tonight?" Dawn asked picking up her bag that rested on the floor. Buffy thought for a minute, the last time at the Bronze she had met Spike, that definitely wasn't going to happen tonight. But she had been working herself hard lately and need a break.
"Sure, why not? When are we going?"
"Around six. Ok?"
"Ok. Now go or you'll be late!" Buffy pushed.
"I'm gone. Love you, sis." Dawn said as she pecked Buffy on cheek and walked out from gallery.
"Damn! Back to work." Buffy said to herself and started to work on her Braille paperwork.
***
Buffy entered The Bronze with Dawn. Loud music instantly hit Buffy's ears. She really hated being so sensitive. She had finished work an hour ago and after that had called Willow. The redhead had promised to meet Buffy at the club. All night with nineteen year olds wasn't her idea of fun.
"Hey, Dawnie!" Buffy heard a young man's voice say. She could feel her sister start to blush. So this must be A... A... A.Something. "Who's your friend?"
"Oh, s-sorry." Dawn managed to mumble. "T-this is Buffy, my sister. Buffy, this is A.J." She said. A.J. smiled and offered his hand to Buffy. She, of course, didn't see it. Dawn on the other hand saw and placed Buffy's hand into A.J.'s. First Buffy was confused by her action, but feeling smooth skin under her palm she smiled.
"Sorry, didn't see it." She said trying to concentrate her gaze towards A.J.'s face.
"Um... That's ok, I guess." He responded weakly. Obviously he didn't know Buffy was blind. "So, Dawnie, wanna dance?" A.J. asked turning to Dawn.
"Oh, um, sure." Dawn answered happily. This was good! "I'll find a table for Buffy and then we can go dance." She said as if it was the most normal thing to do: lead her twenty three year older sister to a table in a nightclub full of people.
"Cool, Dawnie, you make me sound like an invalid." Buffy said a bit angrily.
"I didn't mean that." Dawn defended herself. "Come on." She said pushing Buffy toward a free table.
"Hey!" Came a cheery voice from beside Dawn and Buffy.
"Willow, hey!" Dawn smiled to the redhead. "Please take Buffy to a free table, would you?" She didn't even wait for an answer as she ran away, leaving her, now angry, sister and her confused best friend standing in the middle of the Bronze.
"What was that?" The redhead asked. Buffy just shrugged.
"A.Something." She answered as Willow took her hand and walked to a table.
Buffy was unaware that at that very moment her phone was ringing back home.
"Where are you Buffy?" Spike asked himself putting the phone down. He sat next to the window and watched the lights and cars in the city. He didn't like big cities; they never made him feel at home. The phone rang. Immediately Spike picked it up. "Buffy?" He asked into the receiver.
"No, but I really want to know who she is." Came the answer from the other end of the line. Spike instantly knew who this voice belonged to. The accent was unique.
"How are you?" He asked.
"I guess better than you, because I'm not considering that there could be only one person calling me. And even if I did, I don't think this persons name would be *Buffy*. What kinda name is that?"
"Hey, watch it!" Spike hissed.
"Hmm, so you have a thing for her. I definitely want to meet the girl."
"So why don't you come and meet her?" Spike asked not really thinking about what he was saying. His thoughts were concentrated on Buffy and the fact that he hadn't spoke to her all day.
"Actually that's the reason I'm calling. I don't think I can come to your birthday." That had Spike coming out of his daydream.
"Something wrong?" He asked a tad worried.
"Nothing special, just work. But I really have to finish it. You won't be mad at me?"
"Course not. But I'll miss you."
"I know. Sorry. I'll call you, ok?" She asked.
"Sure."
"Ok. Love you. Bye." With that the phone went dead.
"Love you too." Spike said as he closed the curtains.
***
A/N: As for now it looks like this story has only three readers, cos I had TWO reviews for it (and one was from my best friend!), I'm pretty much thinking I have lost my readers, so... I want reviews guys. You hafta understand that it's hard to write if you don't know that someone's reading. So: YOU don't feed me, I'M not working.