Physical
By: Trephinia Cealyn
A/N: Am I trying to kill everyone? And the answer is a resounding no. Please read chapter 19 it has now been posted. I am not trying to kill everyone. Ron lives, hopefully if you are reading this chapter then you know that, and well Harry I think goes a little nutso. And of course I'd like to reassure you, my dear readers, that everything will work out fine and dandy--but the little people who live in my ear tell me that everything may not work out all right. So in my listening to them I'm forced to write this last chapter. I hope you've had fun, because I know I have, and I hope whenever I get around to writing a sequel there will be people to read it.
Ugh... I hate last chapters. Such a pain!
Chapter 20 | To Me
When Harry told Draco his plans Draco laughed in his face. Draco had regained his cool, indifferent, uncaring air and was very pleased to see that Ginny had in fact told Harry what she promised she would tell him. Draco was slightly surprised that Harry had actually listened and was now consdering joining the 'Dark Side.'
Harry wasn't in the mood to be laughed at and so he promptly punched Draco in the mouth. If asked later why he did it Harry would reply he had no idea, but at that moment in time Draco's laughing face looked very punchable and he just felt like doing it. If that isn't reason enough for you, I don't know what is. Harry would say.
"Ow," Draco complained putting his hand up to his bleeding lip, "Fuck Potter, why'd you go and hit me?"
Harry shrugged. He didn't really have an explanation, "Please tell me why you were laughing at me."
Draco glared at him and wiped the blood away from his mouth, "Well Potter if you were to go up to my father right now and say, 'Please Mr. Malfoy let me join you and be a Death Eater, I really do love your son and I want to be with him.'" Draco scoffed, "He would probably kill you before you could even say all that."
"But that's the truth." Harry protested.
Draco took Harry's face in his hands and held his jaw firmly looking Harry right in the eyes, "Not that I don't appreciate what you are trying to do Potter you are in way over your head. I love you Harry, as much as I hate to admit it but in all reality I think I can forget about it and just go back to hating you."
"Why are you doing this Draco?" Harry asked his eyes looking very sad. "Why are you hurting us?"
"Newsflash Potter there is no 'us,' and there isn't going to be anymore 'us.' Even if you go and join the Death Eaters and betray everyone whose ever loved you especially me, there won't be any us." Draco started to turn away.
"Isn't there any way we can make this work?" Harry knew he sounded desperate. He knew he sounded like a whining child but he didn't care.
Draco stopped midway and looked back at him his eyes unreadable, "Harry don't you think I've thought of everything. I've gone over every imaginable scenario and none of them work out happily ever after. They just end up with one or both of us dead. Or they end up with someone we both care about dead. Everything that has to do with us together ends up with one of us dead." Draco saw that he wasn't getting anywhere so he started to leave again.
"Draco!" Harry ran after him, "Please Draco can't we just be together until the end of Hogwarts. Please."
"Why Harry?" Draco asked. Although it sounded wonderful. Harry and him being together if only for a few more minutes. "Harry you are being selfish and you know it. This is what is best for us."
"No, no Draco I don't think it is." Harry replied defiantly. "I'm going to kill every Death Eater there is, starting with your father, and then we can be together."
Draco rolled his eyes, "Great Harry, that's a fucking great plan." Harry smiled, "I'm being sarcastic." Draco scoffed, "If you do that you will end up in prison! There won't be a together if you are in prison."
"In muggle prison's they have this thing where you can..." Harry looked dejected, "Oh nevermind."
"As previously stated I have thought of EVERY possible scenario. None of them will work. None of them." Draco sighed, "Look don't think for one second that I don't want this Harry Potter, don't think that every night I go to bed and I dream about us, don't think that I don't love the thought of you and me growing old together and still have wonderful sex. But it just won't work. It can't work. And I know that you know it can't. I've accepted it and now you have to."
"I don't want to." Harry flared up.
Draco felt like smacking him, so he did, then he rubbed the spot he had hit, "Harry please if for no other reason, please just forget about us. Forget about me, go back to hating me. Find some nice Gryffindor or Ravenclaw, or even some nice girl you can snog and move on."
Harry felt a tear slide down his cheek and he felt Draco wipe it away. "Draco..."
"Harry I can't do this. I can't watch you cry and be strong about this." Draco sounded like he was pleading with Harry.
"What can I say, or do, that will change your mind?"
"Nothing Harry." Draco started to walk away.
"One more thing." Harry begged grabbing his arm, "Stay with me tonight. One last time."
Draco turned back and he blinked away a few tears. He struggled with something, his jaw wouldn't work and then he blurted out, "I can't Harry. I'll never want to leave." Harry felt his world go numb and his knees give out and he heard the dull sound of Draco running off. Harry felt his head hit the floor, multiple times, and he felt his hands clawing at his hair.
None of it seemed real.
He heard himself screaming, and yelling, and crying for someone. He felt awfully alone. He wanted his mother, or anyone to hold him tight and lie to him and tell him it would all be alright. But he knew it wouldn't. He knew what he had to do to get Draco. And he would do it.
-YES THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL!! I've had about 4 people tell me they want it and so that's enough for me. Cuz you figure 4 reviews per chapter, a 20 chapter story, WHY DEAR GOD THAT'S A LOT OF reviews. And if there's more of you lurkers out there silently wishing for a review well then LUCKY YOU!
Love you guys. Can't wait to hear your reactions. I almost cried... REAL TEARS!
And remember, I'm only here to torture you. **shrugs** That's all a good writer can ever HOPE for. Torture, then you KNOW you are good.
KIDDING!
By: Trephinia Cealyn
A/N: Am I trying to kill everyone? And the answer is a resounding no. Please read chapter 19 it has now been posted. I am not trying to kill everyone. Ron lives, hopefully if you are reading this chapter then you know that, and well Harry I think goes a little nutso. And of course I'd like to reassure you, my dear readers, that everything will work out fine and dandy--but the little people who live in my ear tell me that everything may not work out all right. So in my listening to them I'm forced to write this last chapter. I hope you've had fun, because I know I have, and I hope whenever I get around to writing a sequel there will be people to read it.
Ugh... I hate last chapters. Such a pain!
Chapter 20 | To Me
When Harry told Draco his plans Draco laughed in his face. Draco had regained his cool, indifferent, uncaring air and was very pleased to see that Ginny had in fact told Harry what she promised she would tell him. Draco was slightly surprised that Harry had actually listened and was now consdering joining the 'Dark Side.'
Harry wasn't in the mood to be laughed at and so he promptly punched Draco in the mouth. If asked later why he did it Harry would reply he had no idea, but at that moment in time Draco's laughing face looked very punchable and he just felt like doing it. If that isn't reason enough for you, I don't know what is. Harry would say.
"Ow," Draco complained putting his hand up to his bleeding lip, "Fuck Potter, why'd you go and hit me?"
Harry shrugged. He didn't really have an explanation, "Please tell me why you were laughing at me."
Draco glared at him and wiped the blood away from his mouth, "Well Potter if you were to go up to my father right now and say, 'Please Mr. Malfoy let me join you and be a Death Eater, I really do love your son and I want to be with him.'" Draco scoffed, "He would probably kill you before you could even say all that."
"But that's the truth." Harry protested.
Draco took Harry's face in his hands and held his jaw firmly looking Harry right in the eyes, "Not that I don't appreciate what you are trying to do Potter you are in way over your head. I love you Harry, as much as I hate to admit it but in all reality I think I can forget about it and just go back to hating you."
"Why are you doing this Draco?" Harry asked his eyes looking very sad. "Why are you hurting us?"
"Newsflash Potter there is no 'us,' and there isn't going to be anymore 'us.' Even if you go and join the Death Eaters and betray everyone whose ever loved you especially me, there won't be any us." Draco started to turn away.
"Isn't there any way we can make this work?" Harry knew he sounded desperate. He knew he sounded like a whining child but he didn't care.
Draco stopped midway and looked back at him his eyes unreadable, "Harry don't you think I've thought of everything. I've gone over every imaginable scenario and none of them work out happily ever after. They just end up with one or both of us dead. Or they end up with someone we both care about dead. Everything that has to do with us together ends up with one of us dead." Draco saw that he wasn't getting anywhere so he started to leave again.
"Draco!" Harry ran after him, "Please Draco can't we just be together until the end of Hogwarts. Please."
"Why Harry?" Draco asked. Although it sounded wonderful. Harry and him being together if only for a few more minutes. "Harry you are being selfish and you know it. This is what is best for us."
"No, no Draco I don't think it is." Harry replied defiantly. "I'm going to kill every Death Eater there is, starting with your father, and then we can be together."
Draco rolled his eyes, "Great Harry, that's a fucking great plan." Harry smiled, "I'm being sarcastic." Draco scoffed, "If you do that you will end up in prison! There won't be a together if you are in prison."
"In muggle prison's they have this thing where you can..." Harry looked dejected, "Oh nevermind."
"As previously stated I have thought of EVERY possible scenario. None of them will work. None of them." Draco sighed, "Look don't think for one second that I don't want this Harry Potter, don't think that every night I go to bed and I dream about us, don't think that I don't love the thought of you and me growing old together and still have wonderful sex. But it just won't work. It can't work. And I know that you know it can't. I've accepted it and now you have to."
"I don't want to." Harry flared up.
Draco felt like smacking him, so he did, then he rubbed the spot he had hit, "Harry please if for no other reason, please just forget about us. Forget about me, go back to hating me. Find some nice Gryffindor or Ravenclaw, or even some nice girl you can snog and move on."
Harry felt a tear slide down his cheek and he felt Draco wipe it away. "Draco..."
"Harry I can't do this. I can't watch you cry and be strong about this." Draco sounded like he was pleading with Harry.
"What can I say, or do, that will change your mind?"
"Nothing Harry." Draco started to walk away.
"One more thing." Harry begged grabbing his arm, "Stay with me tonight. One last time."
Draco turned back and he blinked away a few tears. He struggled with something, his jaw wouldn't work and then he blurted out, "I can't Harry. I'll never want to leave." Harry felt his world go numb and his knees give out and he heard the dull sound of Draco running off. Harry felt his head hit the floor, multiple times, and he felt his hands clawing at his hair.
None of it seemed real.
He heard himself screaming, and yelling, and crying for someone. He felt awfully alone. He wanted his mother, or anyone to hold him tight and lie to him and tell him it would all be alright. But he knew it wouldn't. He knew what he had to do to get Draco. And he would do it.
-YES THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL!! I've had about 4 people tell me they want it and so that's enough for me. Cuz you figure 4 reviews per chapter, a 20 chapter story, WHY DEAR GOD THAT'S A LOT OF reviews. And if there's more of you lurkers out there silently wishing for a review well then LUCKY YOU!
Love you guys. Can't wait to hear your reactions. I almost cried... REAL TEARS!
And remember, I'm only here to torture you. **shrugs** That's all a good writer can ever HOPE for. Torture, then you KNOW you are good.
KIDDING!