***Chapter 17***
Marie was right, morons were calling my cell-phone left and right, if it wasn't one person it was another…I had exactly 45 messages on my voice mail, when I checked it after 5 days, and when I didn't show up for Monday Night Raw, Paul called Marie…
The phone rang and Marie picked it up, "Hello?" she said inquisitively. Paul said, "Hey Marie, its Paul…Have you seen your sister anywhere?" Marie said, "No, did you look for her?" Paul said, "Yea, I left a bunch of messages on the voice mail to her cell-phone but haven't heard anything back…" Marie said, "Oh, she called a couple of days ago and said she was having a bad week…she also told me what happened with you and her and her and our dad…did you ever think that maybe she doesn't want to be found?" Paul said, "Why would you say that? And why would she tell you what happened between us?"
Marie said, "Paul, she's my big sister, I know by the sound of her voice when something is wrong…And the reason I said, she may not want to be found, is because she has pressures just like you do…pressures to make sure her relationship with you doesn't fail…pressures from our father to go back to Shane…and pressures of having people in her life who seem to come up missing, when something goes wrong like a marriage…If she doesn't want to be found, there are so many places she could be…she's got an place here in New York, she's even got one in Hawaii…and unless you're willing to get off your butt and get your head out of your ass and look for her, then you won't find her until she wants to be found."
She sighed and continued, "I mean honestly what the hell were you thinking when you told her to leave you alone…and then to add to the pain you told her to go away? Boy you should be even grateful you got as close to her as she let you…cause ever since we were little the only one who knows more about her then you and her is me…she doesn't always open up and let people inside of her much less walk around with her heart in their pockets…I think that was one of the reasons she got over Shane so fast…the love she has for you and the love she had for him can never be compared…cause there's no contest…you'd win every time…I knew she had found someone special when she would tell me what you were like, and now after hearing what you said to her, I'm disappointed…because you couldn't possibly be the guy she fell in love with 4 years ago."
Paul sat there listening to Marie, and finally said, "I do care and I do love her, I wouldn't be calling you if I didn't care. I know I was an ass that day it's just that the permanent thought of us being permanent enough to live together finally kicked in…I wasn't ready for her to move in…" Marie said, "Then why did you ask her?" Paul said, "Honestly, I didn't think she'd agree to it…and now that she's living here, it's hard to not think of us getting married, but I don't want to get married…not now at least…I mean she's been married, and the marriage was a bust, me and Shane did a lot of talking before I started dating her, and he told me a lot of useful things about her…"