***Chapter 25***
I was half way back to my dressing room when I stopped off to talk with Trish about the decision I had made… In the mean time, Shane went to go find out if Paul was getting ready for his match…Paul still standing in the same place I left him…Shane walked in and saw Paul and said, "What's wrong man, you look like you lost your best friend…"
Paul said, "I didn't lose my best friend, but I might, I know I just lost someone who loved me so much, before I could show her how much I loved her." Shane said, "Let me guess, Michelle was just here wasn't she?" Paul said, "Yea…and she pushed me around and yelled at me a little and then told me exactly how she felt…you know it's been a month since I broke things off clean with her…I still have all our pictures in the house, I can't seem to get rid of them…every time I try to throw them away, I feel like I'm trying to deny my heart ever felt anything for her."
Shane sat Paul down and said, "Do you love her? Do you really love her; I mean so much you ache for her…so much so you can't live without her for the rest of your life?" Paul said, "Yes, I do…but she's leaving the wrestling tour…after tonight she's quitting…" Shane's eyes almost popped out of their sockets and he said, "What? What do you mean she's leaving after tonight?" Paul said, "Yea, she said, she doesn't want to stay and put herself through the torture of seeing me every day, so she's going to give in and quit…"
He said, "Paul, I may have been the biggest asshole put on this earth for cheating on my wife…but don't be a fool…don't let her get away from you…if you love her as much as you know you do and as much as I know you do…then go after her…don't let her leave this arena without telling her how you really feel.." Paul said, "She'd never go for it…not in a millions years…" Shane said, "Yea, but are you willing to take that chance?"
Paul sat there in silence for a couple of minutes and said, "I've got to stop her…I've got to get her back…"
My dressing room was across the hall from Trish and Mark's…Mark said, "Be sure and keep in touch you brat…we'll miss you…" I said, "I will, when you're in New York come stay with me for the night…it would be more comfortable then sleeping in those lumpy hotel beds…" (By now Trish and Mark were married…happily). I gave both of them hugs…I said, "You got both my e-mails and my cell number…you know my ears are always open for business, when either of you need to talk…"
Trish said, "Yea…I have them…It's going to be so damn boring on the tour without you around…You have been my best friend, but more of a sister then anything, I wish you weren't leaving…" I said, "I know, but I think for right now…it's definitely for the best…I need some time to get over this, and to move on with my life…I can't pine away for the same man for years upon years…it doesn't work that way…I'll e-mail at least twice a week, and call once a week…" I gave both of them hugs, and I said, "Mark, take care of her heart, because I know she'll take care of yours." Mark nodded, and said, "Already done."
Trish had some lonely tears sliding down her cheeks, and I knew if I stayed any longer she'd have me in tears and I'd change my mind and stay and I didn't want to do that…I went back to my dressing room and got my stuff and went out to the parking garage, and yes of course it was still down pouring…I felt like I was stuck in a monsoon… I of course was soaking wet again, I forgot my jacket inside and ran back in to get it…then was on my way through the parking lot again…