I'm Gonna Fly

Summary: Lily has led a not so pretty life and now she can only think of one way out and that way is to Fly.

Rating: R for mature themes and language.

Warning: This has suicide and cutting as a very prominent theme. If that offends you, I am warning you now. And unless your in a really freaked up situation that I don't even want to know about, some one is not holding a gun to your head forcing you to read my story. And if so I am flattered that the gunman is forcing you to read my story instead of another.

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter. J.K. Rowlings does. And I don't own I'm Gonna Fly, Sydney Forest does. But if you feel like suing go ahead I will laugh my head off and see if there are any hotties in the court room. Ha I own Meg. Or Meg owns Meg…One of the two.

Chapter Thirteen

So I'm Gonna Fly.

The girls stopped just short of Lily, a startled look on her features. It was clear she wasn't expecting anyone. Lily stood a little shakily, her body reminding her that it was trying to function with less blood than usual. She took a step back and tried to lean her weight against the stove without looking to out of the ordinary and not make the girl suspicious.
Lily forced her tired brain to try to come up with the girl's name. She felt she should know it. The girl was in her house, in her year, in her dorm. But Lily had never ever been social and none of them had really gone out of their way to get to know her. But she was spared the impending mental exhaustion when the girl spoke up.

"Oh…hi, sorry I wasn't expecting to see anyone here. I just left my book and—" Realization suddenly seemed to dawn on the girls face. "What are you doing in here?"

Lily desperately tried to think of a solid reason, a decent excuse. Yet after almost 48 hours with little sleep, her mind wasn't as sharp as normal. Instead she went on defensive. "I could ask you the same question."

"Well, in that case, I asked you first. And besides, I mean," said the girl with a small laugh, "how personal can it be?"

"I didn't say it was personal, did I?" Lily responded. Maybe it wouldn't be too obvious that she was stalling for time. She needed to avoid the truth at virtually all cost. She already had managed to get the Marauders on her case, she didn't need her dorm-mates on her too.

The nameless fourth year's eyebrow went up in response. "If it's not personal, then why are you avoiding telling me?"

Cornered Lily tried the only thing she had left. "Look, as much fun as I'm having standing here playing twenty questions with you, I've got to get going. I have to get a shower before class and get breakfast and I forgot to look at the schedule this morning so I have no idea what class I have first."

"Defense Against the Dark Arts with Slytherin," the girl responded instantly. "We all do." But it didn't sound snobbish like most of her classmates said it. It came out as if she was genuinely trying to be helpful to a girl she didn't know.

"Uh. Thank you." This was a new sensation for Lily. She usually didn't talk to people and if she did they treated her like dirt in return. "I'm sorry. I know we share a dorm but I can't remember your name."

The girl look thrown off by the sudden attitude adjustment she had just witnessed. "It's Meg. Or at least that's what I go by. And your ah—"

"Lily."

The dark haired girl smiled as she pushed her hair behind her ear. "Knew it started with an L. Anyway, since I have my book and you are going to take a shower, wanna walk back with me?"

It was a simple little invitation and since she had a cover story to keep, she reluctantly nodded. "Ok."

Lily pushed herself away from the counter and her head swam from trying to function with the blood loss she had suffered. The girl seemed to notice. She paused, obviously unsure of what to do. "Are you feeling alright?"

"Yeah," replied Lily with a slight quiver in her voice, making it sound like it was anything but alright. She took a few steps and a wave of nausea overtook her. Bile rose in her constricting throat and she almost choked on it. She fought it back, swallowing hard. She weakly nodded.

Meg eyes were wide as she watched Lily fight to keep herself from being sick. "No, you're not ok. You should go to the infirmary."

At the mention of the place Lily had escaped from less than ten hours ago, she shook her head vehemently. She didn't dare talk afraid of what her body might do if she opened her mouth. She slumped back down against the counter and pulled herself a few feet to the right so that she was leaning over the sink. Her short hair fell limply around her face framing her vision. She swallowed hard a few times before daring to speak. "No, I'm ok. Just give me a minute."

Lily didn't even need to turn around. She could feel Meg scowling at her back. A dubious voice split the air. "Alright," she stated, sounding as if it wasn't. "It's your life." Meg's words unwittingly brought her own continued exhistance, back to the forefront of her mind.

She didn't need to kill herself yet. She could bide her time, wait out the week. But one thing was for sure. No matter what she was going to fly.

I'm sorry it took so long for me to update. I really am. But I was bored during english today so made an outline for this story. And so now that I know where I'm taking it I can do something with it. Am I right? Ya know I am! So thanx to the following people for reviewing.

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