Catherine Willows

She lay in bed. She was alone. Lindsey was at school and Eddie was dead. A tear rolls down her face and into her hair.

It still hurt so much. Years of separation had not softened the blow. She was still in love with him. She couldn't help the way she felt. And now he was gone.

She still remembers the day she met him. He had come into the club she was working. He was dating one of the other girls and she had bought him back stage to meet her friends. They minute they lay eyes on each other it was...... electric. Sure that sounds like an old cliché but it was true. They knew right then and there.

They were inseparable. Partying every night. Drinking, snorting, fucking. And then Lindsey. Finding out she was pregnant was the wake up call they needed.

They got married at a chapel on the strip. Tacky but what they both wanted at the time. She also stopped dancing. For some reason guys didn't like to see pregnant women strip. As far as Cath was concerned she had never looked better.

She also decided to go back to school. She had always liked talking to the cops that came to the club. Asking what cases they were working on, finding out how they caught someone. And that was what she decided to do. Crime Scene Investigation.

Eddie agreed to support her while she went back to school. Lindsey had been born and she couldn't have wished for a more doting father. He loved his little angel.

However, all those years of studying were starting to take their toll on her marriage. Eddie started drinking again and taking off at night after Catherine came home from school. When she finally confronted him, he had hit her. That was the first time but sadly not the last. Every time it happened he would break down, say how sorry he was, how he couldn't live without her and Lindsey. She could smell the rum on his breath and see the glazed eyes from the Coke. She stayed with him.

When school was finished she applied for a job at the LVPD and was given and entry level position on the graveyard shift with the crime lab. Her dreams were finally coming true. But now it was time to take one last major step. One day after work, while Eddie was out working, she packed up her and Lindsey and left. She never went back. Not that she didn't think about it. He begged and pleaded, even coming to the lab and making a scene there. But she never gave in. That was something Cath had always prided herself on. Her ability to make a decision and stick to it. Some people call that stubbornness, she called it determination.

And now, he was gone. She tried not to cry in front of Lindsey. After all it has been over a year now. But tears still came on days like this. Days when sleep just wouldn't come.; She looked at her bedside clock. Time to go and pick up Lindsey.

Oh well, what was another day without sleep. She had so many of them.