The rain felt onto the darkened streets of San-Francisco. As Phoebe walked
down the street towards the manor no sound could be heard only that of the
convocation between herself and Jason, they had been walking around the
town for three hours now, the time flew by, as it always did when they were
together. Jason watched as the rain dripped of the end of her nose,
"Phoebe, what's up you seem upset?" Phoebe looked at him and thought for a
few seconds, 'god I can't get anything past you, you know me to well.'
"Nothing it's just that since grams left four months ago I have been in the
house alone, about three weeks ago my sisters came back from university and
they act like I don't exist, I thought that we would hang out since I
haven't seen them in so long, but God they haven't even talked to me. It
really hurts, I mean first of all they never called me when I was taking my
exams, they weren't around when I needed them, and now they act like I'm
not there." Jason could see just how hurt she was, she had told him how
much she wanted to see them, talk to them. He knew how much she loved her
sisters and this hurt him, "How about when you get in tonight go and find
your sisters and talk to them, you'll see that this isn't intentional,
trust me!" Phoebe smiled, she always loved how he made her feel better,
"I'll try." With this Jason put his arm around her shoulders and she rested
her head on his chest as they continued to walk, "So back to the Manor?"
Phoebe nodded and they both headed in that direction.
"Look Phoebe, how are you, with, you know..." "The drugs, you know I won't lie to you I have wanted to take them but I've stopped myself" she turned to him, "I promised not only myself but you, I'm clean. I knew that it would be hard but I'm fine, trust me!" Jason smiled he was pleased, "Phoebe, you can do it. Look one more promise, tell me the next time that you feel like taking them just, call me, and come to me. It doesn't matter if it's the middle of the night; just pick up the Phone Okay." Phoebe nodded her head, "You got it, and thanks you helped me through this, you are here when no one else is, and you don't ever give up on me." Jason hugged her tight, "I always will be Phoeebs." With this they turned and continued walking.
Half an hour later and they arrived at the Manor, Phoebe looked at her watch nine thirty, "Well they won't be home yet." She turned to Jason, "I'll speak to you tomorrow then." Jason nodded and pulled her close kissing her on the lips, "See you then. And you can call me whenever." Phoebe nodded and then started up to the Manor; she pushed open the door to once again find herself in the middle of an empty house, "Ah, well what's new." She said to herself before walking up the stairs to her room.
Up stairs Phoebe had changed out of the wet cloths and sat on her bed looking at a Photograph of her and her sisters, she remembered the day, it was three months ago the day before her sisters left to go to university they were sat in the park, the had spent the whole day together and there was one thing that Phoebe remembered was something Piper had said, "I'll call you every week, I'll visit when I can. Remember that I'm here for you no matter what. Just pick up the phone." Hah here for me, that is a lie, you haven't spoke to me since you left for uni. She thought to her self. She placed the photo back on the side and headed downstairs, as she did the clock chimed ten o'clock, she hated been so alone, especially when it was now she needed someone.
Phoebe sat down on the sofa and thought about everything, about her life; She thought about how when she needed her sisters more than anything she couldn't get hold of them, how they haven't even asked how her exams went and how they didn't know that she was on drugs and took an OD. How her life had been so messed up. As she sat in the room a further hour and a half had past before the front door was opened and the house was filled with the laughter of her older sisters. The walked through the foyer and into the kitchen without even so much as a hello, as they did this Phoebe felt her heart sink and be crushed, she could no longer take it she stood up from the couch and took her coat from the side, she walked into the kitchen to find her sisters making coffee, they were so court up in their convocation that they didn't notice Phoebe walk in and take keys from the side. Then she turned and walked out of the Manor.
She walked down the street and turned at the end walking down an ally way and into a small park that she had gone to on many occasions with her sisters, she walked over to a swing and sat there, the rain had stopped now and the air was calm all that could be hared was the distant noise of traffic. Phoebe sat there and quietly sobbed to herself, did her sisters no just how much that they were hurting her? Did they understand what she was going through? Did they care?
The time past by and it once again started to rain, Phoebe reluctantly stood up and headed to the manor. It was now around twelve when she once again walked through the Manor door. "Hay Phoeebs." The voice hit Phoebe as if a knife to the heart, god how things had changed, there was a point in her life not that long ago, when Phoebe loved the sound of her older sisters, the laughing, the love the security. But not now, now their voices hurt, mostly because it reminded her of what she lost months ago.
She forced herself to look up, "Hay." She responded barley audible, trying not to show Piper just how hurt she was, but the older sister could see the hurt look on Phoebe's face, "What's up Phoebe?" she asked, It hurt Phoebe that Piper had to ask what was wrong, she remembered the times when Piper new everything about her, what she felt, what she did, what she was going through but Piper didn't know her sister's life at all, "Nothing" Phoebe responded.
With this Phoebe walked into the kitchen, Piper followed, "Phoebe wait, there is something up? What is it?" Phoebe couldn't hold back the months of anger, hurt or pain she couldn't stop her self, once she began she let go. Turning to Piper she erupted, the anger and pain only to evident "Well Piper, do you know that I've spent more time on my own in the past six months than I have with somebody, and then you two came back from university and forgot that I was around. God you don't know me anymore, who I am or what I have been through, the day before you left for uni you said that you would call, you would visit, god Piper you promised me that you would still be there for me. Since you have been back you haven't spent anytime with me, you haven't talked to me for more than five minuets. And now you have no idea what next week is for me, do you?" Piper was hurt, and she soon realized she had no idea what Phoebe was on about, "Phoebe I..." Piper didn't realize that they were making Phoebe feel like this. Phoebe put her head in her hands, "God, I can't take this. I can't stand this." She had hit the edge, if not fell from it. She had snapped, she ran to the Phone and dialed a number.
Piper had never seen Phoebe like this before, she then realized Phoebe was telling the truth she couldn't remember the last time that she had talked with Phoebe, and now her sister was upset, and she herself had done this. She tried to calm Phoebe down but couldn't. Phoebe gripped the Phone shaking, eventually there was a voice on the other end, "Jason, help me. I need you, I have lost it, I need a fix Jas, I need something or I am going to lose it, what do I do?" Jason was shocked, he hadn't seen her like this in ages, "Phoebe look wait and I'll be there in a few minuets, hold it together okay, just remember all you have done, you can't give up now." Phoebe was been ripped apart inside, "Jason hurry." With this he Put down the Phone and headed to the Halliwell Manor, he wondered what had happened to send Phoebe over the edge."
Phoebe put the phone on the side her hand was shaking uncontrollably and her head was spinning everything was becoming to much, she walked into the living room and sat on the sofa, she rested her head in her hands and brought her knees up to her chest mumbling to her self. She really had lost it, she was clammy and the shaking continued she didn't know how long she could hold on for. Piper walked over to the youngest to only have her pull away, "Phoebe, what's up?" All Phoebe done was shake her head, "Not now Piper." Piper was shocked at her sisters reaction she stood up from the sofa and called to the oldest sister, "PRUE, get down here now." She screamed, hearing the concern in Piper's voice it didn't take long for her to come running down the steps, "What is it?" she asked now concerned, "It's Phoebe; I don't know what's wrong." Prue looked at a shaking Phoebe, "What's happened?" she questioned, Phoebe looked up, "What before or after you forgot that I was alive." Was the remark she received back, in a tone that was no doubt filled with anger and pain. "What's going on? What's wrong with you?" Prue asked sternly, "What's wrong with me? You have, know idea..." Phoebe couldn't continue, that was it she lost it, she needed a fix now, and was going to get it. As Phoebe walked in the direction of the draw at the far end of the living room there was a loud knock on the door, Piper walked in the direction leaving Phoebe and Prue in the living room.
Piper pulled open the large Victorian style door, reveling Jason stood on the door step, his hear and cloths wet from the rain with a concerned look slapped on his face. "Is Phoebe there?" he asked, showing his concern. Piper who was still in shock just moved out the way of the door allowing Jason to walk through. He did this and when he rounded into the living room, he didn't see anyone else around him he only concentrated on Phoebe; he saw that she had snapped. Piper and Prue stood back, they knew only Jason could calm Phoebe down.
He walked forward and opened his arms pulling the broken Phoebe close to him, she hadn't made it to the cupboard Jason got her just in time. She fell into him, dropping to her knees letting him comfort her, "It's okay Phoebe I'm here. You'll be okay." with this Phoebe cried into his chest, she knew she was safe, that Jason would look after her. Minuets had past and they stayed like this, all that Piper and Prue could do was stand back and watch as he comforted her. They were both overcome with guilt, the realization that they hadn't been spending much time with Phoebe and that they rarely called. Jason rocked her back and forth and she slowly started to calm, the shaking and mumbling was becoming less, Phoebe looked up into Jason's tear filled eyes, "I thought that was it, it was over." She told him, Jason pulled her closer, "Not when I'm around." He smiled and she knew that he would help her through, "Why?" she asked, "Why what?" he asked her not fully understanding, "Why do you always stand by me, when I need you, you are always there. Why?" Jason looked at her, "Because I love you and I made a promise didn't I." Tears once again began to fall from her eyes and roll silently down her face, "I was so close to snapping, I still am. I'm scared." "Well I'm not going to let that happen to you Phoeebs. Come on you have been clean for so long, you fought so hard. Do you think that I'm just going to give up on you?" "Will you stay with me tonight?" Phoebe asked, "Sure I will, try and stop me." Was his reply, with that Phoebe just closed her eyes trying to control the cravings. It wasn't until then she realized how tiered that she allowed it to engulf her as the comfort of lying in Jason's arms reassured her he would look out for her, she drifted off, leaving Jason sitting in the same spot that he found her in when her entered the manor.
He looked up at the two older sisters'; Prue was the first to speak "I think that we need to talk." "Yeah I think we do." Jason replied angrily, but in a hushed tone so not to wake Phoebe. Slowly he lifted her up in his arms and brought her over to the sofa, where he lay her down, placing a kiss on her for head he stood up and headed for the kitchen, Followed by Piper and Prue.
"Look Phoebe, how are you, with, you know..." "The drugs, you know I won't lie to you I have wanted to take them but I've stopped myself" she turned to him, "I promised not only myself but you, I'm clean. I knew that it would be hard but I'm fine, trust me!" Jason smiled he was pleased, "Phoebe, you can do it. Look one more promise, tell me the next time that you feel like taking them just, call me, and come to me. It doesn't matter if it's the middle of the night; just pick up the Phone Okay." Phoebe nodded her head, "You got it, and thanks you helped me through this, you are here when no one else is, and you don't ever give up on me." Jason hugged her tight, "I always will be Phoeebs." With this they turned and continued walking.
Half an hour later and they arrived at the Manor, Phoebe looked at her watch nine thirty, "Well they won't be home yet." She turned to Jason, "I'll speak to you tomorrow then." Jason nodded and pulled her close kissing her on the lips, "See you then. And you can call me whenever." Phoebe nodded and then started up to the Manor; she pushed open the door to once again find herself in the middle of an empty house, "Ah, well what's new." She said to herself before walking up the stairs to her room.
Up stairs Phoebe had changed out of the wet cloths and sat on her bed looking at a Photograph of her and her sisters, she remembered the day, it was three months ago the day before her sisters left to go to university they were sat in the park, the had spent the whole day together and there was one thing that Phoebe remembered was something Piper had said, "I'll call you every week, I'll visit when I can. Remember that I'm here for you no matter what. Just pick up the phone." Hah here for me, that is a lie, you haven't spoke to me since you left for uni. She thought to her self. She placed the photo back on the side and headed downstairs, as she did the clock chimed ten o'clock, she hated been so alone, especially when it was now she needed someone.
Phoebe sat down on the sofa and thought about everything, about her life; She thought about how when she needed her sisters more than anything she couldn't get hold of them, how they haven't even asked how her exams went and how they didn't know that she was on drugs and took an OD. How her life had been so messed up. As she sat in the room a further hour and a half had past before the front door was opened and the house was filled with the laughter of her older sisters. The walked through the foyer and into the kitchen without even so much as a hello, as they did this Phoebe felt her heart sink and be crushed, she could no longer take it she stood up from the couch and took her coat from the side, she walked into the kitchen to find her sisters making coffee, they were so court up in their convocation that they didn't notice Phoebe walk in and take keys from the side. Then she turned and walked out of the Manor.
She walked down the street and turned at the end walking down an ally way and into a small park that she had gone to on many occasions with her sisters, she walked over to a swing and sat there, the rain had stopped now and the air was calm all that could be hared was the distant noise of traffic. Phoebe sat there and quietly sobbed to herself, did her sisters no just how much that they were hurting her? Did they understand what she was going through? Did they care?
The time past by and it once again started to rain, Phoebe reluctantly stood up and headed to the manor. It was now around twelve when she once again walked through the Manor door. "Hay Phoeebs." The voice hit Phoebe as if a knife to the heart, god how things had changed, there was a point in her life not that long ago, when Phoebe loved the sound of her older sisters, the laughing, the love the security. But not now, now their voices hurt, mostly because it reminded her of what she lost months ago.
She forced herself to look up, "Hay." She responded barley audible, trying not to show Piper just how hurt she was, but the older sister could see the hurt look on Phoebe's face, "What's up Phoebe?" she asked, It hurt Phoebe that Piper had to ask what was wrong, she remembered the times when Piper new everything about her, what she felt, what she did, what she was going through but Piper didn't know her sister's life at all, "Nothing" Phoebe responded.
With this Phoebe walked into the kitchen, Piper followed, "Phoebe wait, there is something up? What is it?" Phoebe couldn't hold back the months of anger, hurt or pain she couldn't stop her self, once she began she let go. Turning to Piper she erupted, the anger and pain only to evident "Well Piper, do you know that I've spent more time on my own in the past six months than I have with somebody, and then you two came back from university and forgot that I was around. God you don't know me anymore, who I am or what I have been through, the day before you left for uni you said that you would call, you would visit, god Piper you promised me that you would still be there for me. Since you have been back you haven't spent anytime with me, you haven't talked to me for more than five minuets. And now you have no idea what next week is for me, do you?" Piper was hurt, and she soon realized she had no idea what Phoebe was on about, "Phoebe I..." Piper didn't realize that they were making Phoebe feel like this. Phoebe put her head in her hands, "God, I can't take this. I can't stand this." She had hit the edge, if not fell from it. She had snapped, she ran to the Phone and dialed a number.
Piper had never seen Phoebe like this before, she then realized Phoebe was telling the truth she couldn't remember the last time that she had talked with Phoebe, and now her sister was upset, and she herself had done this. She tried to calm Phoebe down but couldn't. Phoebe gripped the Phone shaking, eventually there was a voice on the other end, "Jason, help me. I need you, I have lost it, I need a fix Jas, I need something or I am going to lose it, what do I do?" Jason was shocked, he hadn't seen her like this in ages, "Phoebe look wait and I'll be there in a few minuets, hold it together okay, just remember all you have done, you can't give up now." Phoebe was been ripped apart inside, "Jason hurry." With this he Put down the Phone and headed to the Halliwell Manor, he wondered what had happened to send Phoebe over the edge."
Phoebe put the phone on the side her hand was shaking uncontrollably and her head was spinning everything was becoming to much, she walked into the living room and sat on the sofa, she rested her head in her hands and brought her knees up to her chest mumbling to her self. She really had lost it, she was clammy and the shaking continued she didn't know how long she could hold on for. Piper walked over to the youngest to only have her pull away, "Phoebe, what's up?" All Phoebe done was shake her head, "Not now Piper." Piper was shocked at her sisters reaction she stood up from the sofa and called to the oldest sister, "PRUE, get down here now." She screamed, hearing the concern in Piper's voice it didn't take long for her to come running down the steps, "What is it?" she asked now concerned, "It's Phoebe; I don't know what's wrong." Prue looked at a shaking Phoebe, "What's happened?" she questioned, Phoebe looked up, "What before or after you forgot that I was alive." Was the remark she received back, in a tone that was no doubt filled with anger and pain. "What's going on? What's wrong with you?" Prue asked sternly, "What's wrong with me? You have, know idea..." Phoebe couldn't continue, that was it she lost it, she needed a fix now, and was going to get it. As Phoebe walked in the direction of the draw at the far end of the living room there was a loud knock on the door, Piper walked in the direction leaving Phoebe and Prue in the living room.
Piper pulled open the large Victorian style door, reveling Jason stood on the door step, his hear and cloths wet from the rain with a concerned look slapped on his face. "Is Phoebe there?" he asked, showing his concern. Piper who was still in shock just moved out the way of the door allowing Jason to walk through. He did this and when he rounded into the living room, he didn't see anyone else around him he only concentrated on Phoebe; he saw that she had snapped. Piper and Prue stood back, they knew only Jason could calm Phoebe down.
He walked forward and opened his arms pulling the broken Phoebe close to him, she hadn't made it to the cupboard Jason got her just in time. She fell into him, dropping to her knees letting him comfort her, "It's okay Phoebe I'm here. You'll be okay." with this Phoebe cried into his chest, she knew she was safe, that Jason would look after her. Minuets had past and they stayed like this, all that Piper and Prue could do was stand back and watch as he comforted her. They were both overcome with guilt, the realization that they hadn't been spending much time with Phoebe and that they rarely called. Jason rocked her back and forth and she slowly started to calm, the shaking and mumbling was becoming less, Phoebe looked up into Jason's tear filled eyes, "I thought that was it, it was over." She told him, Jason pulled her closer, "Not when I'm around." He smiled and she knew that he would help her through, "Why?" she asked, "Why what?" he asked her not fully understanding, "Why do you always stand by me, when I need you, you are always there. Why?" Jason looked at her, "Because I love you and I made a promise didn't I." Tears once again began to fall from her eyes and roll silently down her face, "I was so close to snapping, I still am. I'm scared." "Well I'm not going to let that happen to you Phoeebs. Come on you have been clean for so long, you fought so hard. Do you think that I'm just going to give up on you?" "Will you stay with me tonight?" Phoebe asked, "Sure I will, try and stop me." Was his reply, with that Phoebe just closed her eyes trying to control the cravings. It wasn't until then she realized how tiered that she allowed it to engulf her as the comfort of lying in Jason's arms reassured her he would look out for her, she drifted off, leaving Jason sitting in the same spot that he found her in when her entered the manor.
He looked up at the two older sisters'; Prue was the first to speak "I think that we need to talk." "Yeah I think we do." Jason replied angrily, but in a hushed tone so not to wake Phoebe. Slowly he lifted her up in his arms and brought her over to the sofa, where he lay her down, placing a kiss on her for head he stood up and headed for the kitchen, Followed by Piper and Prue.