Theresa wipped away the tears that fell along her cheeks.
Stop this! You've cried far too many tears over him.
No matter what Theresa told herself, she couldn't stop crying. She would always try to deny it to others, but she couldn't lie to herself. She still loved Fox. After all these years, she still loved him as though nothing ever came between them.
He's probably has someone now, Theresa. Just stop these childish hopes and dreams.
Nicholas Foxworth Crane laid on his bed dreaming about the love of his life that night as he had done every other night since she left.
Where was she tonight?
What was she doing?
Was she thinking about him?
So many unanswered questions ran through his head; never knowing if they would ever be answered. Fox stared up at the ceiling, trying to fall asleep. Sleeping had become so hard for him. He couldn't sleep when he didn't know where she was. The moonlight struck through a crack between his cutrains and fell upon his face. He turned his head towards the window as though something was calling out to him. Being a believe of fate and destiny, he walked over and peaked out the window. He desperately searched, hoping that maybe for some reason Theresa would be there.
But with nothing in sight he sighed restlessly, "Oh Theresa, where are you tonight?"
At that very moment, Theresa was walking outside of the mansion. She looked at Fox's window and saw his shadow linger there for sometime.
Did he see me?...No. Even if he did, it doesn't matter. We can never be.
Hopelessly Theresa went back home. She didn't want anyone to know that she had come home just yet. Afterall, who knew what Rebecca would do or say when she finds out that Theresa is back. Theresa had made a deal never to return to Harmony as long as she got her son back. Ethan was her's now and she didn't want that to ever change. He was basically her only hope. He was the one person that kept her breathing. She needed him more than ever these last few years.
Please God....don't let her try to take my son away from me.
Theresa closed her eyes and fell asleep in her old bed. She dreamed of a special man that night. One who had soft, kind, brown eyes.
Fox returned to his bed, but not before questioning himself about a woman outside of the mansion.
"Could it be...?" He paused to think. "No...no it can't be her. This would be the last place on earth that she would ever come to."
Fox laid back in his bed and recalled when things were perfect for Theresa and him.
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
Fox tossed and turned around in his bed. Trying to find some kind of comfort.
That's impossible without her, here beside me.
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
thinking of me too
Fox smiled as he remembered how one night Theresa and himwished upon a star.
"Theresa, I love you so much." He told her for the first time.
Theresa turned around and faced him. Tears were now forming within her brown eyes.
"Fox, I love you too. I...I never want this to end." She paused, "Wait! Quick, Fox! Make a wish upon a star!"
Fox smiled and did as his lady wished.
I wish for this to never end.
I wish to never lose her.
Now that Fox thought back on it, the stars weren't of much help. But even so, Fox remembered to wish upon a star every night after that.
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Fox placed his hands behind his head and drew a picture of how Theresa must look tonight in his imagination.
Wonder if you ever see me and I
wonder if you know I'm there (am I there, am I?)
For a long time after Theresa left, Fox mistaken most women for Theresa. He would always go up to some woman, full of hope, and say "Theresa?" Everytime he was turned down. He had to go through therapy just to help him out, but even that didn't set him straight once again.
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
would you even care?
Oh Theresa! Do you still care?
I just wanna hold you close but so far
all I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day (wait for the day)
to take the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do
I love you
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Fox gazed over at a picture of Theresa, Little Ethan, and him.
Those were such good times.Back when I was hers and she was mine.
Corazon
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
Como te necesito
Mi amor, como te extrano
(translation:
Sweetheart
I can't stop thinking of you
How I need you
My love, how I miss you)
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
that you came up to me and said I love you
I love you too
I still can't believe that I broke her heart....And with Whitney
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow (till tomorrow) and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
than here in my room
Dreaming with you endlessly
(3x)
Fox continued to lay in his bed dreaming of her.
Only if I had been a bigger man...a better man, then maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have lost her.
Fox remembered that later that night he was to bring Little Ethan by Sheridan's cottage so he could see Theresa. Fox didn't mind helping Theresa out like that. He knew Theresa was a very good mother and she and Little Ethan didn't deserve to be kept apart. Fox still had an hour to go before meeting Theresa, so he thought it would be a great time to get something to surprise Theresa with. Fox called Whitney up to see if she could help him out.
"I want to do something for her, Whit, it's just I don't know exactly what to do," he told her.
"I understand. Well give me a few minutes and I'll meet you at Sheridan's cottage. I think I know just what will surprise her." She said as she hung up.
This is great! Theresa will be in for the surprise of her life.
Fox sure was right when he said that. Whitney met him at Sheridan's cottage within 15 minutes. Whitney was wearing a coat. It came as a surprise to Fox. It was April and it was beautiful out.
"Are you cold?" He asked her.
"A little," she said.
"Her come inside and warm up then."
Whitney had a huge smile on her face as she came in. Fox closed the door and turned around to see the shock of his life. Whitney had dropped her coat to the floor, revealing that she was naked underneath that coat. Fox was speechless. He didn't know what to say.
"Whit, you better..."
"Shh!" She said as she put her finger on his lips, trying to be seductive. "Don't say a word."
Fox may have loved Theresa, but right now he needed his needs met. And seeing as how Whitney was willing to, he was too.
Whitney kissed him on his lips (stiffly) as Fox's hands roamed over her body. (Sorry, but I have to stop here. I will not write any foney love scenes.)
As Whitney was top on Fox, they heard a familar voice.
"You son of a bitch!"
Fox and Whitney cover themseleves up and stopped what they were doing. Fox turned to face Theresa shamefully. He couldn't even look her in the eyes. He was too afraid to see the pain in her eyes.
"I thought you loved me, Fox. What am I a game to every man? Do they think that I am some [i]whore[/i] that they can use over and over again and not give a damn about? Huh? Tell me Fox! Tell me!" Theresa shouted angerly.
Then like that, Theresa was gone. It was the last time he would ever see her again.
"Move, Whitney!" He said trying to get up and chase after her.
"No!" She said pushing Fox back down. "Let her be alone. She doesn't want you like I do."
At that moment, Fox saw Whitney's true colors.
"You're nothing, but a whore, Whitney. How could you do this to your best friend?" He asked with disgust.
"And how could you do that to the woman you supposedly loved!?" She fired back.
Fox pushed Whitney onto the floor and dressed himself as fast as he could. He got into his car and headed to Theresa's house. He didn't find anyone there. It seemed that Theresa had left. Fox found the note that she left addressed to her family. He was tempted to open it, but he didn't want to. It would violate his trust, which was already blown.
Fox headed to a few places around town to see if anyone had seen them, but no one had. He even tried the airport, but she wasn't there. The only things he could conclude were that she flew someone to get away or that she drove off. Fox figured that she would be back since Little Ethan was still at the Crane mansion, but he didn't know until he got home that he was now with Theresa.
"What!? Where did she go?" He asked Julian.
"I don't know, nor do I really care."
"That chalupa is out of our lives and that's all that matters," she smiled, pleased with her deal.
Fox went to his room and stayed there for a long time just trying to find her. He needed to explain to her what really happened. Fox hired a detective to find her, but no one could find her. Fox tried emailing her, since her email address still worked, but it was no use. He never got any kind of reply.
She must delete them.
Fox knew that the only way he would ever speak to her again would be if she returned to Harmony. From what Theresa told her family in that note, it didn't seem like she was ever going to return. Each day that passed Fox grew a little less hopeful that she would return. But now since Whitney's death, he had a little more hope that she would return.
[i]In the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit, Amen. God, I know I that I don't really pray much, but I need your help. Yes, I know Fox Crane needs your help. Sounds strange doesn't it? Over the past 5 years, I've realized that money doesn't buy happiness, most of all it doesn't buy you love. I lost Theresa because I was stupid. Please just let her come back so I can explain. I need to tell her what happened. She deserves to know the truth. Please let me get a chance to explain. In the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit, Amen."
~Mandi~