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Just Like Me

Chapter 2 'Revelation'          

"Well that was unexpected."  Relena said as sat on the corner of their bed and undid the buttons of her suit jacket. 

            "What was?"  Heero asked from the bathroom his voice muffled slightly because of the toothbrush in his mouth.

            Relena repressed a giggle.  "Duo and Hilde.  I didn't think they'd have children so soon.  Last time I talked to her she seemed pretty distressed." 

            Relena heard him spit into the sink and turn on the faucet before he answered her again.  "You mean about their financial problems?" 

            "Yeah."  Relena raised her brows in surprise.  "Did he tell you?" 

            "No, Quatre did.  It seems Duo took a large loan from him recently.  Quatre said he was glad to do it, but Duo didn't want anyone else to know."  Heero walked out of the bathroom clad in only his boxers and ran a hand through his hair. 

            Relena looked at his chiseled chest, admiring it for a moment, before she turned back to l his face.  He was smirking at her.  So he had seen her traveling eyes, but she knew for a fact he couldn't keep his eyes off her, or his hands for that matter, they were even.  Taking that into account Relena continued to remove her suit.  She lifted the shirt over her head leaving her only in her bra and skirt.  She was about to take that off when she felt something grab her wrists and before she knew it she was pinned to the bed by a very handsome man, who happened to be her husband. 

            Heero was staring at her intensely his eyes taking in everything.  He loved her, everything about her.  Her skin her voice, her breath…  He let out a slight sigh and leaned down to capture her lips in his.  The kiss was only momentary but it held more meaning than any emotion they could verbally express.  "You know I like to do the undressing."  He told her his express all seriousness. 

            "Well you did yours without me, so I couldn't wait."  She replied impishly and tried to remove her wrist from his soft hold but he pressed them further into the mattress to stop her struggle. 

            "Not all of it."  He replied boldly and in one swift motion he released her hands and held them with only one over her head.  With his extra hand he ran it down her side tickling her skin and marveling at the smoothness of it.  All the while his eyes never left her smoldering gaze.  His fingers reached the zipper of her skirt, and he drew it down slowly and closed his eyes as he bent down for a kiss.  He continued to work the skirt down her thighs and off her slender legs all the while kissing her.  His lips eventually left her lips and he moved to splatter kisses down her neck, his hand still running over her thighs squeezing them gently. 

            "Oh Heero…" Relena half moaned as he kissed further down her chest and finally released his hold on her hand.  She immediately place one on his back and her other ran over his chest.  One of her legs wrapped around his at the knee pulling him closer to her.  His hand left her legs and went up to tangle in her hair as he moved up to kiss her again. 

            Heero was drowning in the feel of her.  The way her warmth wormed its way into his heart and claimed it brought it to life and set it free.  He was soaring and just as suddenly as he was on top of the world, he fell.  'Did you ever think about being a father?'  Out of no where Duo's words entered his mind like a bucket of cold water washing over him and dousing any sexual arousal from his body.  Suddenly he became very aware of what this led to.  Relena could very well end up pregnant and he would be a….  The word wouldn't even come clear in his mind as he dropped her lips and pulled himself off her.  He knew he was leaving her confused and probably hurt, but he couldn't do it.  He couldn't do it consciously knowing he might create a child, a child he wouldn't be able to take care of and possibly not love.  .  What if it was to grow up just like him? Relena was on birth control, but he knew it wasn't a hundred percent effective.

            "Just like me."  He whispered as he wiped the perspiration from his forehead.  Any excitement he'd felt was dying quickly, and when Relena finally recovered from his hasty retreat and wrapped her arms around his shoulders; kissing his ear it was gone. 

            "What's the matter?"  She asked her voice still low with arousal, but he couldn't bring himself to finish what he started, no matter how much he wanted to.

            "I don't want to do this."  He told her hastily and shrugged out of her hold. 

            Relena fell back on her heels and covered her chest with her arms.  "Why not?  What did I do?" 

            Heero hung his head.  He'd managed to do it again.  He'd hurt her again.  He'd denied her something he'd never done before and he could hear the hurt in her voice.  "Nothing.  You didn't do anything." 

            "Then what's the matter?"  Her voice was so soft and hurt. 

            He wanted to tell her, but suddenly saying 'I don't want to have your child' seemed too cruel to let escape his mouth.  He didn't know how to explain it so he kept silent.  "I'm tired."  He lied lamely and lay back down pulling the covers down with him and on top of his body. A while later he heard her crawl to her side of the bed and nestle under the covers.  There was nothing but a deafening silence between them. 

            Heero felt cold without her next to him.  She always slept tucked in his arms keeping his demons at bay and the nightmares away.  Should he even try to pull her to him?  In the cold darkness he heard a sniffle.  Rolling over he heard it immediately quiet and he wrapped his arms around her warm body and pulled it to his chest.  Almost instantly he felt better.  Pressing a chaste kiss onto her head he whispered.  "I love you Relena." 

            It took a moment of silence, but an equally heartfelt reply reached his ears.  "I love you too."  With that said she latched onto one of the arms looped around her and grasped his fingers.  Bringing them to her lips she kissed them lightly and snuggled against him.  "Goodnight." 

            "Goodnight."  Heero whispered back and eventually fell asleep.  Just having her near made him feel better, perhaps when he understood his fear more fully he'd tell her what was bothering him.       

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            Relena woke the next morning to find Heero already gone.  Her side was still warm from having him so near, but it could all just be in memory.  His actions the night before still baffled her.  He had seemed to very willing and then in an instant he didn't want anything to do with her.  It was odd and had made her ache with hurt, but he'd rolled over pulling her to him, whispering the words she'd waited for so long to come out of his mouth.  What had happened?  What was making him behave so strangely? 

            Letting out a sigh, Relena stretched and threw the covers away from her body.  She didn't feel so bad this morning and fact she felt really good.  That was unusual.  She did have a big meeting today and it seemed her stomach would do its worst when that happened.  As if on queue her stomach suddenly lurched.  "Oh no," Relena bit out before she dashed for the bathroom to once again throwup.

            After her third dry heave Relena flushed the toilet and slunk wearily to the sink to brush her teeth.  This had to be something more than nerves, or stress.  Though, she had to admit that after she emptied the contents of her stomach she felt much better.  There were no other symptoms expect for her weariness.  Sighing, she looked in the mirror at her paled complexion.  Though her thoughts were somewhat dwelling on herself she couldn't help but fall back on Heero and wonder if he was ever going to talk to her like she wanted him to.  They'd known each other for so long.  He was her best friend, she told him everything, but it didn't seem as if Heero felt the same way.  Relena shook her head.  She was being ridiculous.  Heero loved her.  He told her every night.  Slowly a thought wormed its way into her mind, 'maybe love isn't enough'.  Relena frowned at her reflection and turned away from the mirror to take her shower. 

            As the healing spray of warm water cascaded down her back she didn't think about anything.  Closing her eyes she leaned against the shower wall.  The soap from her hair rinsed down the drain in heavy suds.  She was about to pull back up when something hit her.  Her stomach seized suddenly and her world was blackening before her eyes.  There where black spots on everything as if someone had cut holes in her reality.  Falling to her knees Relena grasped the soap dish trying to balance herself but it slipped from under her wet fingers and she fell to the shower floor unable to escape the pain.  One hand on her stomach and the other on the floor she gasped until the spots faded and the pain receded. 

            Blinking back tears Relena rose to her feet and turned off the shower.  The pain was only a dull ache but she was scared to death.  What if something was really wrong?  Instantly she wanted Heero with her, but one thought of his behavior last night pushed the notion away.  He had enough problems and this was probably nothing.  Shivering with a sudden cold she stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her body.  Dripping water on the floor she made her way to the mirror and picked up her hairbrush.  Running it though her damp locks she knew she'd go and see Sally as soon as she got to the base.

~~~~~~~~~~~ 2 hrs later

            Relena let her legs curl underneath her body as she waited for Sally to come back.  Her hospital gown did nothing to stop her chills and she was scared.  They had given her so many tests.  Sally came in talking to some nurses using words she didn't quite grasp and poking her with needles.  She didn't know how much more her body could take, or her mind for that matter.  Sally had asked her repeatedly if she wanted her to contact Heero and each time, though hard, she had declined.  Relena rubbed her arms absently and was about to pull on her sweatshirt over her gown when Sally came into the room shutting the door behind her. 

            "Sorry to keep you waiting so long Relena, but I wanted to check everything and it seems the last test I took explains everything."  There was a smile on Sally's youngish face as she glanced lazily at the chart she was holding.  "I think after you hear the news you'll want to call Heero." 

            "What's wrong?"  Relena asked not quite sure if the smile was true relief or just a way to soften the blow of bad news. 

            "Nothing Relena.  You just happen to be pregnant."  Sally pulled the chart to her chest and smiled, she looked about to burst. 

            "Pregnant?"  Relena repeated in disbelief.  "How…I mean I must be about…" 

            "About two and a half months along."  Sally said in a sing song voice.  "The pain was just your body's way of telling you to slow down Relena and to eat more.  You have to remember from now on that you're taking care of not only yourself but your child too." 

            "I had….that's why I was getting sick?"  Relena asked almost stated as she watched Sally's head bob in agreement.  Suddenly a smile light her face when she thought about it.  "I can't believe it."  She giggled.  "I wonder what Heero will say."

            "I have no idea, but I imagine you'll want to have a video camera present to catch the shocked look on his face."  Sally pretended to be zooming in on Relena's face with a camera and began speaking.  "Heero, I was at the doctor's today and I found out I'm pregnant." 

            Relena let her eyes go wide and fact amusement and then let them roll back in her head and she pretended to pass out on her table.  Soon giggles escaped her throat and she smiled.  "Don't call him Sally.  I'll tell him tonight okay."  Suddenly the day seemed a lot brighter to Relena. 

            "Sure."  Sally waved her hand.  "No problem.  I can keep a secret." 

            "Is that all?"  Relena asked as she reached for the jeans she had thrown on in her haste to get to the office.  She didn't even think of the meeting she would have to attend later that day.  She was going to have to go home and change. 

            "Yeah, except I want you to take these vitamins Relena, for both you and the baby.  I know that you're not going to give up your job, but these will help with the fatigue and try to keep the stress level low.  She handed Relena a prescription, which she very willingly took and turned to leave a brief smile in parting.   

            "I will."  Relena replied happily and began to wonder about the little being that was growing in her stomach.  The child she and Heero had created together.  Her heart swelled with joy and she knew she already loved whatever it was.  "I hope you look just like Heero."  She said absently and undid her gown to pull on her sweatshirt. 

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            Heero shifted in his seat and looked at the clock and then back at the room of delegates.  Relena was late.  No she was more than late.  Maybe he shouldn't have left so early this morning, but for some reason he hadn't wanted face her and possibly more questions.  What if something had gone wrong?  Heero lowered his head and glanced at all the impatient delegates and sighed.  Most likely none of them cared about her well being at all. 

            "Where's Relena?"  Quatre asked him suddenly as he leaned over his shoulder and whispered in his friend's ear. 

            Heero shrugged his shoulders in response feeling guilty for not knowing the well being of his wife.  "I don't know.  I left the house early.  Maybe I need too…"  Before he could finish Relena stepped into the room a briefcase in her hand and an apologetic smile on her face. 

            "I'm sorry I'm late gentlemen, but I had an appointment I couldn't miss and it ran longer than expected."  With that she sat in her seat at the head of the table and the discussion began quickly.

            Heero didn't have much say in any of the proceedings.  They hardly looked at the head of military security anyway.  He was there in case their negotiations went wrong, but Quatre involved himself readily.  Heero was left with much of the time to dwell on Relena and whether or not he should tell her about his doubts.  He didn't like keeping things from her.  Not since the fight that had almost cost them each other.  He didn't want to loose her and last time he'd confided in her he'd felt better, yes he was going to tell her as soon as he could.  The rest of the time he spent thinking of how he was going to say it while sparing her feelings at the same time.  He didn't want her to feel as if he were rejecting her.  Before Heero realized it the meeting was adjourned and everyone was filing out of the conference room.  Heero sat in his seat a moment longer watching Relena pack her papers into her briefcase before he stood.

            Relena looked up when Heero approached and smiled at him warmly.  "Well I think that went rather well despite the fact that I was late."  She said as she stacked a few papers and pushed them into a folder. 

            "I'm sorry."  Heero said quickly before she could say anything else and he could chicken out.  "For last night and for leaving so early this morning." 

            Relena stopped stacking and glanced over at him meeting his apologetic eyes.  "It's all right Heero, but you'll talk to me about it later won't you."  Heero nodded briefly and picked up some of her paper and helped her pack them away. 

            "Tonight."  He said hastily when the last paper was away.  "We'll talk tonight all right." 

            Relena nodded a strange look crossing her face.  "Yeah, I have something to tell you too." 

            Heero nodded.  He didn't know what it was but hopefully there wasn't a problem.  As he was about to leave he turned back to look at her.  "Where were you?" 

            Relena glanced up and smiled.  "I'll tell you when we get home okay." 

            Before Heero could say anything else a file of people pushed their way into the office and surrounded Relena.  They shouted questions and flashed pictures that she smiled happily for them.  Heero watched her moment longer before ducking into the hallway and back to work.  They didn't meet each other the rest of the day.

Oh dear…who do you think will spill first and what will the other say????