Chapter Eleven ~ To Be or Not To Be
"I just can't believe I did that"
"Well you didn't mean too, and Darcy's a tough kid, he'll heal. Plus he did stick up for you after I stopped the fight"
"Right" *sigh*
William had been felling really guilty lately. As he hadn't spoken a single word to any up until three weeks ago, it made him feel even more like a monster. But having some friends was a good thing. If it hadn't have been for Rowena, he would have failed to hold himself together. There were times when he felt so ill at ease; at times when it seemed to be a loosing battle against himself.
"So let's talk some more, I think you need it" Rowena stated.
"Sure, Where should I begin?"
But William started to think of other things immediately. His mind was drifting back to last week's events and it seemed to be pulling him back to it, to understand it -.
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~ Flashback - One Week Earlier ~
"So buddy, what's up?" Darcy asked pacing the room.
He didn't expect an answer because for the longest time he never got a single peep.
"Oh nothing that would interest the likes of 'you' and I am not you buddy" William replied with a bitter tone.
Darcy turned back to William sharply, almost tripping over his feet. The fact that he had just been insulted didn't even register in his head, only that he had managed to get the older boy to talk.
"You don't know that" he said positively and poked William in the side.
That was a very bad more because he got a reaction that he didn't want. William jumped to his feet snarling.
"Go away before I rip your eyes out"
"Don't be such a sour puss" Darcy wasn't even paying attention now to how bad of a situation he was getting himself into. He was digging his own grave.
"I'll sour puss you!" William yelled, lunging at the boy full speed.
It was only then that Darcy realized how much trouble he was in. William's eyes were flickering gold and that meant that he was loosing control of the demon. But Darcy wasn't fast enough for the dhampire and with his sharp claws, William was able to slash four diagonal lines across his face.
Crying out in pain, Darcy tried to force a transformation into the wolf but found that William's powers were blocking it! He caught in a strong hold and then thrown to the other side of the room. He was sure he was a goner until he heard a familiar voice shout out a spell. William was thrown himself into the wall; the spell and the pain of having the breath knocked out of him had brought him back into full control of his body.
"I hate her, I hate her, I hate her" William started sobbing with sorrow, rage and pain.
Darcy lifted his head to stare at his friend - yes he still considered William his friend. The older boy had been holding back so mush grief, so much anger, it was all coming out now. Slowly he struggled to his feet to look his rescuer in the eye. Red hair, green eyes and a temper that scared adults away, Rowena was the only person who could drive him crazy by her very presence. But being Aunt Willow's daughter and a elemental witch kept him from even thinking of going wolf on her.
"You didn't have to do that" he said sadly, bitterness like William's had been seeping into his voice.
"I didn't did I? And let that monster kill you? I didn't think that you could really go crazy after just two years Darcy, but you've proved me wrong" Rowena snapped at him, anger was evident in her eyes.
"He is not a monster Rowena, he's my friend! I don't really see you trying to fight off a demon that's trying to take over your body now do I?"
The teenage girl that had saved his life glared daggers at him, the kind that could kill a man.
"What are you doing her anyway?" Darcy asked suspiciously, looking her over critically from any unknown flaws.
"I was looking for some called 'Lancaster', but instead I find you nearly getting eaten" she replied angrily.
"Well you just called him a monster"
"You mean 'that' him?"
Rowena turned back to where William was hunched up in the corner shaking, although he was no longer making a sound.
"Yes and why were you looking for him in the first place?" Darcy asked again.
"What is this, twenty questions? My mother told me that there was magical counseling job here with a depression victim and asked me if I would take it" Rowena snarled at Darcy, looking very flustered.
"And why didn't aunt Willow come herself?"
"Well she wanted to, but Kennedy was being a cow and demanded that she give her help with her Slaying duties"
"You don't like Kennedy do you?"
Darcy shook his head, it was a hate/hate relationship between the Slayer and the Witch's daughter. It was just something he would never understand.
"Oh I hate her with a passion. I'm so glade that mother had me magically, heck I'm even happy about my accident, because that meant she was never able to pollute my mind as a child"
"If either of you value your lives, I'd leave if I were you"
The two turned to look at William. He was on his feet, but it was as if all the live had been drained out of him. With a sigh he dropped down onto his bed and sat there gazing dazedly at the wall beside him.
"He needs a lot of help doesn't he?" Rowena whispered to Darcy and he nodded.
"Its not like I cant still hear you" William muttered under his breath.
Rowena then motioned Darcy to leave the room. He nodded again understanding what the young witch wanted and left the room.
"So where should we start first? I'm Rowena Hecate Rosenberg"
"Goody, I get Red's daughter as my shrink"
~ End of Flashback ~
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"No my life is an open book pet, everybody knows if their noisy enough to dig it up" William shook his head lightly.
"Well I'm no snoop, so you'll have to tell me yourself Catboy" Rowena chided.
"I'm the product of a vengeance wish, with out of control mage powers and a curse on the side"
"Ouch"
"Yep, I know - Do you have any idea why I turned into a cat instead of any other animal?" William suddenly asked her.
"Well when's you birthday?" she asked.
"The 23rd of July"
"In the Zodiac that would make you a Leo, the sign of the Lion. But since the 23rd is the cusp or begging of the sign, you have an overlapping from the end of Cancer, the sign of the Crab. So you have two signs, many Leo with traits of Cancer. I believe that you must have turned into one of the feline family because of your personality and your astrological figure"
"My personality? I was only four!"
"Leo's are known for being generous and warmhearted, creative and enthusiastic, broad-minded and expansive, faithful and loving. But there is also the darker side - pompous and patronizing, bossy and interfering, dogmatic and intolerant. When it comes to the side of Cancer its Emotional and loving, Intuitive and imaginative, Shrewd and cautious, Protective and sympathetic. With that one comes its darker side as well of changeable and moody, overemotional and touchy, clinging and unable to let go. So things will apply to you as you will be a mixture of both" Rowena smiled at him with caring eyes, it was so strange to him for someone outside his family to show they care so much.
"Oh - what about you? What's your life story? I remember you and Darcy taking about your family just after you blasted me"
"Sorry about that. Well first of all, I'm not natural. My mother Willow is a very powerful Wicca. Anyway she could never love anyone that could give her a child, so she used an ancient spell to conceive me. That was a risk she was willing to take. When I was born they found out that I possessed the elemental powers of Fire and Earth. That meant I would have to be watched constantly for the first year to be sure that I did not come into with the powers of Air, Water, Metal or Wood. Kennedy, that's my mother's girlfriend, ended up exposing me to the four other elements. That caused me to go through a harsh magical change; I aged from one year to six years in two minutes flat. Well that means I'm sixteen, but I should really be eleven"
"Just like me. I'm sixteen when I should really one hundred and fifty nine" William muttered.
"What was that?" Rowena asked puzzled.
"Nothing" he covered quickly, getting up to go fetch a history book for no reason.
"No you tell me" she demanded with a glare.
"Well pet - but that's not as good as mine. I should really be a hundred and fifty nine years old. I was born in 1956 in the Victorian era of England. Then twelve years ago 'dear old Angel' ended up having me turned into a toddler! Although he didn't mean to, it still was his fault it happened. It was clear that I would only possess memories of no more then my first four years; I was given a new life. But of course I don't get a happy ending like in fairy tales. Four weeks ago Angel let me go to the Restoration Department and get 'all' of my memories restored. Now I don't know who I am. Am I William, or the William that I before?" William finished sitting back to let the girl absorb what he had just told her.
"That's up to you and I will quote from Shakespeare's Hamlet, 'To be or not to be, that is the question'. Who you make yourself out to be is left for you to decide. Whither you want to be like you were before all depends on whither you want to be" she replied, then stopped to ponder what he had just told her.
"If you should really be 159, then that would have meant you were vampire before this!"
"Yes and then I got re-vamped - or technically re-half vamped, and now I live in a nightmare"
They sat there quietly together before they turned to each other and smiled. For both of them it was good to have another that understood most of what they had went through in life. They were kindred spirits. Having someone like that to talk with wasn't so bad. They were friends.
By then it was time for Rowena to leaving. William sighed, but he knew she would be back the same time tomorrow. He walked her out of his room and waved good bye, causing the elemental witch to blush crimson. Why was she blushing? It was a puzzle that William would have to figure out. She was pretty and it seemed to awaken some foreign emotion in him. What was it? And William knew he was going to find out.
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Okay that might have been a little too short and vague, but bare with me. I think that I may have gone a little overboard with the lengthy explanation parts. I hope that my spelling and grammar wasn't too atrocious - I did sort of rush to finish this chapter since my two final exams in English and Biology are only two/three days way and I need to study!
BeautifulAli ~ William never had to pass for human because he was kept only at W&H and in the magical community were there was no controversy over what he looked like. Oh and thank you very much for those tips.
Mimi Love Fox ~ Thank you for asking wither or not William was going to get a girlfriend. Rowena is the new character to fit that position because she has so much in common with the main character. At first there wasn't meant to be any pairing between the two, but I re-wrote it. Also William will not be evil and a social life if kinda hard for him.
Well thanx for reading, next chapter to come as soon as possible. *Later!
"I just can't believe I did that"
"Well you didn't mean too, and Darcy's a tough kid, he'll heal. Plus he did stick up for you after I stopped the fight"
"Right" *sigh*
William had been felling really guilty lately. As he hadn't spoken a single word to any up until three weeks ago, it made him feel even more like a monster. But having some friends was a good thing. If it hadn't have been for Rowena, he would have failed to hold himself together. There were times when he felt so ill at ease; at times when it seemed to be a loosing battle against himself.
"So let's talk some more, I think you need it" Rowena stated.
"Sure, Where should I begin?"
But William started to think of other things immediately. His mind was drifting back to last week's events and it seemed to be pulling him back to it, to understand it -.
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~ Flashback - One Week Earlier ~
"So buddy, what's up?" Darcy asked pacing the room.
He didn't expect an answer because for the longest time he never got a single peep.
"Oh nothing that would interest the likes of 'you' and I am not you buddy" William replied with a bitter tone.
Darcy turned back to William sharply, almost tripping over his feet. The fact that he had just been insulted didn't even register in his head, only that he had managed to get the older boy to talk.
"You don't know that" he said positively and poked William in the side.
That was a very bad more because he got a reaction that he didn't want. William jumped to his feet snarling.
"Go away before I rip your eyes out"
"Don't be such a sour puss" Darcy wasn't even paying attention now to how bad of a situation he was getting himself into. He was digging his own grave.
"I'll sour puss you!" William yelled, lunging at the boy full speed.
It was only then that Darcy realized how much trouble he was in. William's eyes were flickering gold and that meant that he was loosing control of the demon. But Darcy wasn't fast enough for the dhampire and with his sharp claws, William was able to slash four diagonal lines across his face.
Crying out in pain, Darcy tried to force a transformation into the wolf but found that William's powers were blocking it! He caught in a strong hold and then thrown to the other side of the room. He was sure he was a goner until he heard a familiar voice shout out a spell. William was thrown himself into the wall; the spell and the pain of having the breath knocked out of him had brought him back into full control of his body.
"I hate her, I hate her, I hate her" William started sobbing with sorrow, rage and pain.
Darcy lifted his head to stare at his friend - yes he still considered William his friend. The older boy had been holding back so mush grief, so much anger, it was all coming out now. Slowly he struggled to his feet to look his rescuer in the eye. Red hair, green eyes and a temper that scared adults away, Rowena was the only person who could drive him crazy by her very presence. But being Aunt Willow's daughter and a elemental witch kept him from even thinking of going wolf on her.
"You didn't have to do that" he said sadly, bitterness like William's had been seeping into his voice.
"I didn't did I? And let that monster kill you? I didn't think that you could really go crazy after just two years Darcy, but you've proved me wrong" Rowena snapped at him, anger was evident in her eyes.
"He is not a monster Rowena, he's my friend! I don't really see you trying to fight off a demon that's trying to take over your body now do I?"
The teenage girl that had saved his life glared daggers at him, the kind that could kill a man.
"What are you doing her anyway?" Darcy asked suspiciously, looking her over critically from any unknown flaws.
"I was looking for some called 'Lancaster', but instead I find you nearly getting eaten" she replied angrily.
"Well you just called him a monster"
"You mean 'that' him?"
Rowena turned back to where William was hunched up in the corner shaking, although he was no longer making a sound.
"Yes and why were you looking for him in the first place?" Darcy asked again.
"What is this, twenty questions? My mother told me that there was magical counseling job here with a depression victim and asked me if I would take it" Rowena snarled at Darcy, looking very flustered.
"And why didn't aunt Willow come herself?"
"Well she wanted to, but Kennedy was being a cow and demanded that she give her help with her Slaying duties"
"You don't like Kennedy do you?"
Darcy shook his head, it was a hate/hate relationship between the Slayer and the Witch's daughter. It was just something he would never understand.
"Oh I hate her with a passion. I'm so glade that mother had me magically, heck I'm even happy about my accident, because that meant she was never able to pollute my mind as a child"
"If either of you value your lives, I'd leave if I were you"
The two turned to look at William. He was on his feet, but it was as if all the live had been drained out of him. With a sigh he dropped down onto his bed and sat there gazing dazedly at the wall beside him.
"He needs a lot of help doesn't he?" Rowena whispered to Darcy and he nodded.
"Its not like I cant still hear you" William muttered under his breath.
Rowena then motioned Darcy to leave the room. He nodded again understanding what the young witch wanted and left the room.
"So where should we start first? I'm Rowena Hecate Rosenberg"
"Goody, I get Red's daughter as my shrink"
~ End of Flashback ~
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"No my life is an open book pet, everybody knows if their noisy enough to dig it up" William shook his head lightly.
"Well I'm no snoop, so you'll have to tell me yourself Catboy" Rowena chided.
"I'm the product of a vengeance wish, with out of control mage powers and a curse on the side"
"Ouch"
"Yep, I know - Do you have any idea why I turned into a cat instead of any other animal?" William suddenly asked her.
"Well when's you birthday?" she asked.
"The 23rd of July"
"In the Zodiac that would make you a Leo, the sign of the Lion. But since the 23rd is the cusp or begging of the sign, you have an overlapping from the end of Cancer, the sign of the Crab. So you have two signs, many Leo with traits of Cancer. I believe that you must have turned into one of the feline family because of your personality and your astrological figure"
"My personality? I was only four!"
"Leo's are known for being generous and warmhearted, creative and enthusiastic, broad-minded and expansive, faithful and loving. But there is also the darker side - pompous and patronizing, bossy and interfering, dogmatic and intolerant. When it comes to the side of Cancer its Emotional and loving, Intuitive and imaginative, Shrewd and cautious, Protective and sympathetic. With that one comes its darker side as well of changeable and moody, overemotional and touchy, clinging and unable to let go. So things will apply to you as you will be a mixture of both" Rowena smiled at him with caring eyes, it was so strange to him for someone outside his family to show they care so much.
"Oh - what about you? What's your life story? I remember you and Darcy taking about your family just after you blasted me"
"Sorry about that. Well first of all, I'm not natural. My mother Willow is a very powerful Wicca. Anyway she could never love anyone that could give her a child, so she used an ancient spell to conceive me. That was a risk she was willing to take. When I was born they found out that I possessed the elemental powers of Fire and Earth. That meant I would have to be watched constantly for the first year to be sure that I did not come into with the powers of Air, Water, Metal or Wood. Kennedy, that's my mother's girlfriend, ended up exposing me to the four other elements. That caused me to go through a harsh magical change; I aged from one year to six years in two minutes flat. Well that means I'm sixteen, but I should really be eleven"
"Just like me. I'm sixteen when I should really one hundred and fifty nine" William muttered.
"What was that?" Rowena asked puzzled.
"Nothing" he covered quickly, getting up to go fetch a history book for no reason.
"No you tell me" she demanded with a glare.
"Well pet - but that's not as good as mine. I should really be a hundred and fifty nine years old. I was born in 1956 in the Victorian era of England. Then twelve years ago 'dear old Angel' ended up having me turned into a toddler! Although he didn't mean to, it still was his fault it happened. It was clear that I would only possess memories of no more then my first four years; I was given a new life. But of course I don't get a happy ending like in fairy tales. Four weeks ago Angel let me go to the Restoration Department and get 'all' of my memories restored. Now I don't know who I am. Am I William, or the William that I before?" William finished sitting back to let the girl absorb what he had just told her.
"That's up to you and I will quote from Shakespeare's Hamlet, 'To be or not to be, that is the question'. Who you make yourself out to be is left for you to decide. Whither you want to be like you were before all depends on whither you want to be" she replied, then stopped to ponder what he had just told her.
"If you should really be 159, then that would have meant you were vampire before this!"
"Yes and then I got re-vamped - or technically re-half vamped, and now I live in a nightmare"
They sat there quietly together before they turned to each other and smiled. For both of them it was good to have another that understood most of what they had went through in life. They were kindred spirits. Having someone like that to talk with wasn't so bad. They were friends.
By then it was time for Rowena to leaving. William sighed, but he knew she would be back the same time tomorrow. He walked her out of his room and waved good bye, causing the elemental witch to blush crimson. Why was she blushing? It was a puzzle that William would have to figure out. She was pretty and it seemed to awaken some foreign emotion in him. What was it? And William knew he was going to find out.
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Okay that might have been a little too short and vague, but bare with me. I think that I may have gone a little overboard with the lengthy explanation parts. I hope that my spelling and grammar wasn't too atrocious - I did sort of rush to finish this chapter since my two final exams in English and Biology are only two/three days way and I need to study!
BeautifulAli ~ William never had to pass for human because he was kept only at W&H and in the magical community were there was no controversy over what he looked like. Oh and thank you very much for those tips.
Mimi Love Fox ~ Thank you for asking wither or not William was going to get a girlfriend. Rowena is the new character to fit that position because she has so much in common with the main character. At first there wasn't meant to be any pairing between the two, but I re-wrote it. Also William will not be evil and a social life if kinda hard for him.
Well thanx for reading, next chapter to come as soon as possible. *Later!