Jinn did not care what he said about boy. He didn't want him before he met him and now he was wanted less for Qui-Gon thought Obi-Wan was an obnoxious brat.
" Jinn that is not the Jedi way to be so critical. You have only just met him."
"Remember this Mace I am a Jedi no longer. I can think and do anything I want. Right now I am going to head out of here and take the next transport home. Hopefully I will get there just before dark to feed the animals."
The boy looked incredulously at Master Jinn.
"You certainly never planned to take me to a farm in the country."
"I plan to take you no where."
Jinn grabbed the door knob and started to leave.
Mace prattled on as if Qui-Gon planned to take Obi and ignored his friend's rising anger.
Maybe you can have his last name changed to yours."
"I won't change my last name, the name of my mother to his, a stranger, someone just tells me is my father.."
That brought Jinn's wrath down on the child.
"I didn't and won't ask you too since you won't be with me. Now excuse me Mace."
Jinn started out the door again.
"Good because I would spit on the name Jinn. It is nothing to me. You chose to make me live in a world branded as an illegitimate by all my mother's family. She was alienated from them. It has always been her and I and now that I she is…. she is."
The child could not finish for tears that dripped down his cheeks but he hung his head not willing for this man he hated to see them.
Qui-Gon stopped and turned around when he heard how Kailin had been treated by her family. Jinn had never known of the child and was not sure what he would have done or could have done about it anyway. His life had been Jedi. Now though he still was unwilling to share his life except with his nephew, his brother's son Damien. There just was no place in his life for the child now.
Mace was angrier at Jinn as he could have ever believed himself capable of.
"Very well then Jinn you will need to take him to the Coruscant orphanage and sign his custody over. I have the papers stating you are his father and the DNA testing to prove it. They will need it at the office there at the orphanage. I'll call ahead and have them start the procedure. I hope you will be able to leave for home tonight."
"Can't you do it? I mean I can sign him over to you and…"
"Don't Jinn. How dare you talk that way in front of him. Don't' you see he is already upset?"
Obi-Wan took the sleeve of his shirt and wiped the tears away.
"I'm alright just take me there and let's get this over with. I never wanted to stay with him anyway."
Jinn roughly grabbed the boy's arm.
"Very well Mace I will take him home until I can make the arrangements to do something with him. I have Damien to care for now. He is my priority, my only priority."
"A former Jedi Master can't care for two little young ones?"
Jinn shook the boy he still held strongly with one hand.
"I have no intentions of dividing my time. Damien needs me and I promised him I would be there. I never promised him… this one anything."
"Maybe not but then again he wasn't the one careless enough to let a child be born and then refuse the responsibility of that child, you are my friend and it shames me to have witnessed what I have in this office."
Jinn dragged the boy out the door with him Obi's feet barely touched the floor as his father almost lifted him off of it. Mace stood in the door way and could only shake his head.
//I don't even know the Qui-Gon Jinn that stood in this office today. I plan to discuss this with Master Yoda. There has to be things going on Jinn was not willing to tell us. I almost feel bad for sending the boy home with his father, but where else was he to go?//
Jinn stowed Obi-Wan's meager belongings he carried in a small valise up under the seat. The child had not uttered a word to Qui-Gon since they left the office of Mace Windu. While he did not care for the temple he liked being around this overly large man even less. He knew it was fact that Jinn was his father because of the tests but he hated it, absolutely hated it.
A woman pushing a food cart came by while they sat on the transport and asked if either of them wanted something to eat.
Obi-Wan raised himself up from leaning back in his seat and started to pick things from the cart.
Jinn supposed he planned on him paying for it, but he had only a few credits and had to waste several of them paying for the boy's ticket back to where he lived. It was and unplanned expense.
Qui-Gon ripped the things from Obi-Wan's hand with one violent quick motion and laid them back on the food cart.
"We don't have far to travel and he ate before he left. But thank you anyway."
"So now I have to starve because you are too poor to feed me."
"I have heard all I want to from your mouth on this trip. Let's make a deal I wont speak to you and you don't have to say another word to me. Is that understood?"
Obi-Wan's face turned into a pout and he crossed his arms as he let out a…. "HUMPH"……………...
Jinn could not help but think he sounded like Yoda when he was perturbed about something.
"Little one the only thing actions like that will get you is over my knee with a sound paddle on your posterior. Do you understand me?"
The boy did not know this man well enough to push him further. He thought a swing with a paddle from a man the size of his father could produce a painful reaction on his part. He kept silent.
[]b###In the Jinn farm home###[/b]
Obi-Wan stood off in the corner as everyone voiced their opinions when Jinn had to tell Damien and his mother who Obi-Wan was. Jinn was not one to lie and he felt bad about the situation, but that was nothing compared to how his mother and even Damien took it.
Jealously flared in Damien and even as young as Obi-Wan was, he could see it.
Myra Jinn was livid. She blamed Obi-Wan's mother for the indiscretion of his unwanted birth. At least as far as any one in the Jinn household thought, it was unwanted.
"So now we have to keep her illegitimate child. This is absurd I tell you Qui-Gon. She should have let you know before now."
"Yes well I think she thought it would do no good, that I would feel as I do now. Let's not talk about this in front of the child. I think I may have said to much now."
"She was just not good for you Qui-Gon. I knew and then to pull the deceit…"
She could not finish for the child interrupted her.
"I won't have you say things about my mommy that wasn't true. She was good. She loved me and she never abandoned me like he did. I hate him." [Obi pointed to Qui-Gon]. I don't want to be here any more than you don't want me here. I hate you all."
Obi-Wan ran to the front door and had almost made his escape when a big hand gripped him, pulled him up in the even bigger arms, and carried him to the bedroom. Qui-Gon dumped the boy not too softly on the bed, walked back to the door, and almost tore it off the hinges when he slammed it.
Obi-Wan immediately silenced his protests. He didn't move a muscle for fear of being reprimanded for it.
This man, his father had eyes of blazing blue-silver steal that glared over at the child as Jinn sat down in a big recliner not far from the bed and continued to stare at the boy but not uttering a word to him. He remained motionless. He did not want the child to know he was meditating in Jedi tradition as he sat in that chair.
It was the first time since leaving the Jedi he had ever experienced since a loss of control.
//When my brother was killed I was furious but I was in touch with the force more then, I was a Jedi. No..now I seem to have lost touch with everything I once believed in. Even if I don't want this child I should not have been so blatantly cruel about it in front of him. The little one must be terrified. Still I have no duty to him. The only person I have any obligation too is Damien. His father died at the hands of Sidious for a grudge he had for me. I could not save him but the least I can do is follow through with his dying wish that I leave the Jedi and care for his son. I am at peace with my decision to leave my life as I knew it. I have to be I have no choice. //
Many of Jinn's friends told him, his brother had asked too much of him, quite possibly blinded by the dying concern of a father for his son. They told Qui-Gon that he could see to the boy's welfare and still remain a Jedi. Jinn felt though his best place would be with the boy, until he was at the age of consent, twenty-one. Then was soon enough to go back to a Jedi.
Had the Jedi master realized how much he would miss his way of life? Friends like Yoda, Mace, and several others on the council did not think so. Now Qui-Gon paid for that hasty decision of renouncing the Jedi with a life that just got more and more miserable for him.
I can never become a Jedi again if I can't rein in my temper with one little boy, my son no less. Sometimes even I feel Amos asked too much of me, but I did promise…..
His thoughts trailed off as he looked back up at his son. The son that carried every sweet markings Kailin had. The eyes as blue and clear as the sky, ginger almost strawberry blonde hair, even his mannerisms and flighty nature was gotten from Kaylin. Jinn didn't see an ounce of him in the boy.
Qui-Gon chuckled softly to himself.
//Well maybe he did get a couple of things from me, my stubbornness and pig-headed attitude. He certainly doesn't hesitate to speak up to defend what he thinks is right. Of course he would defend his mother, he does not know what happened between us. He only knows her side and I doubt that she put herself if any "bad light" when retelling the story. [force rest your soul]. //
Although his words were directed at Obi-Wan, his son, his eyes were not. They were fixed on the toe of his boots, his right hand over his brow as he tried to rub away a forming headache.
"Let us get this perfectly clear Obi-Wan. Our paths were not meant to cross. At least in your mother's eyes, for she never breathed a word to me about you or I would have certainly not shirked my duties. I feel she forfeited the right to call on me by her refusal to even acknowledge that she had a son, my son. While I have sympathy for you and your plight, it is not my problem. Since you have no living relatives, except me, you are forced to stay with me until other arrangements can be made. Maybe the Agricorps will take you will without Jedi training since you are a force sensitive or the Healers section there on Bandomeer for your force powers."
Jinn glanced over once to see if Obi-Wan was listening to him, then continued.
"Until then you will have to stay with me here on this farm that you seem already to despise. Things are to be done my way, not a word of objection from you is to come from your lips. When I am not here, my mother will be in charge. Her word is gold. Remember that for I will not tolerate any bad mouthing of her. You are to do as she says understand?"
Qui-Gon was not sure he had handled that right. He had never had much dealings with a child under the age of a padawan and by then the crèche masters had them so well versed in the Jedi ways, they were just miniature adults and they were addressed that way by the knights and masters alike. Yes, he took care of Damien but he was a very mature fourteen-year old.
The child sat on the bed and let self pity take over all common sense he had right then, He so very much would have liked to have been back in his home with his mom right now.
//Oh but she had to get herself killed. I hate her. I hate everyone around me especially him over there. Already trying to find a way to rid himself of me.//
Obi-Wan, who was as stubborn as his father, did not answer.
A thundering voice that seem to shake the bedroom windows came from the big man.
"I didn't here you. I normally don't ask a question twice and I want an answer right now. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?"
Just a squeak of a voice could be heard from Obi-Wan as fear solicited his reply
"Yes sir."
Jinn got up and left the boy just sitting there with no instructions of what he should do and left the room. He went out to visit his horses in the barn stalls for a more tranquil and peaceful setting.
He would find no tranquility in his own home this night with his mother and Damien angry over Obi's insertion into their life and the boy who Jinn felt was going to be a little hellion, sulking in his father's bedroom.
//I might just sleep out here with the horses. Get more rest that way. Everyone has pulled me the way they want. I have no chance to make a decision of what I truly want in this life, my life…………………………….//
#########Two very hard and difficult weeks later.###########
Qui-Gon was out in the barn doing the one thing that seem to bring any happiness now. His life had literally been torn upside down since Obi-Wan, his son arrived. The words "his son", still sounded strange.
Well, when he used them, for he rarely called the child his son. Maybe once when he took him to enroll him in the little public country schoolhouse. It was not a large or well equipped school.
Damien on the other hand, went to the very exclusive boy's school, St.Ives nestled in the beautiful countryside, just below a large mountain. The school was sprawled out on fifty acres of what was once owned by the Jinns. The farm enriched land was once owned by the family Jinn before his father gave it to the school administrators with the assurance that his son, Amos could go there through completion of the years required to enter a Universtiy. Only the best for that son. Then of course there was no financial aid for Amos' son. Qui-Gon's father neglected to secure financial aid for the next generation, his grandson.
//No, I have to pay to see that the boy goes to school on our old home land and pay out my behind to do it.//
If Qui-Gon sounded bitter he was. At least their father how found a way to pay for Amos' expensive desire for only the best. Damien seemed to have inherited that desire for only the best but his father had not financially planned for it. He left his son penniless and the Jinns, his mother and himself, in debt up to their necks. Poor management on the money he had and at one time he had a lot led to Jinn battling everyday to keep Damien in the things, expensive things he demanded.
Jinn was drawn back from his thoughts to the stark reality of his miserable life when he heard his mother call him from the barn door.
"Over here mother. I am grooming Raven."
Raven was the name of Jinn's favorite horse, his mare, Raven. She was a beauty with thick black as coal shinning hair and a beautifully long black mane. Her eyes of coal matched her body coloring.
"You have spent so much time out here lately since that boy came."
"He has a name Mother, It is Obi-Wan, Obi-Wan Kenboi."
"Yes well he is not a Jinn then is he? She couldn't even find the graciousness in herself to name him Jinn, so he would not be branded a illegitimate all his life."
"Mother just let the hatred go of Kaylin, I have."
Jinn was not sure he had completely but it as not because he hadn't meditated on it lately and a lot since the Kenobi child came.
"Well I have two bits of news for you. You'll be spending your day at school, precisely both schools."
"Why has something happened to Damien?"
"Only about the worst thing that could."
Jinn was alarmed.
"Has he been injured?"
Jin held his breath to see what bad news his mother delivered to him.
"No Qui-Gon he is alright physically, but things may never be alright for him again."
"Mother I swear you talk in riddles as much as my former master does."
Jinn thought that would have brought his flustered mother a smile but the sternness in her face told of a serious matter, at least she thought so.
"You have to go to Damien's school. The end of this day will be his last day in class there."
Qui-Gon did not think he had heard right.
"What? How? Mother what do you mean?"
"Seems they can't have a boy in their prim and proper school with his guardian having fathered a child out of wedlock. That said child, Obi-Wan, I suppose is the talk of the town now. I know Hattie had her hand in this spreading gossip."
The former master did not care who spread the rumor. After all, it was not rumor, it was truth and he knew it would become common knowledge but he did not know it would bring so drastic result to Damien for it.
"Did anyone explain to them that Damien should not be held accountable for my indiscretions? "
"Doesn't matter. It puts a black mark on this family and in turn on Damien. He is to be placed in a public school. Qui-Gon why did you bring that little terror here? Amos would roll over in his grave if he knew of this."
"Mother I will go talk to them maybe I can change their mind and as far as calling Obi-Wan a terror, he hasn't caused too much trouble other than disrupting the household with a new member."
"Oh yeah, well I haven't finished with my message for you. Before you go to talk to Damien's principle at his school, you have to stop and pick up Obi-Wan at his."
Jinn froze in mid-stride for he was headed out the barn to clean up in his best, to talk to the administrator of Damien's school.
"What did he do?"
"He used that force of his. The school said he has broken an arm of another boy. Although older I think twelve, Obi-Wan force pushed him with such power he fell on his arm and broke it."
Jinn was in a rage at what his son had done. He hated to have anything Jedi, brought up to him and now the boy was using his powers.
//That imp is in so much trouble. When I am finished with him he won't be able to sit down for a week………………. //
Jinn entered the tiny little school. The tiles on the floor were occasionally missing. The paint flaked from the walls. Anyone who could afford too, sent their children to a private school. Most of them in that area were rich farmers or even richer horse breeders. Jinn was neither. He struggled to keep Damien in school at St, Ives, but now....even that would not help. The boy would have to come here, where classes where together two or three grades because of the of the money for instructors and its small size.
Qui-Gon cringed with the thought of Damien being put in a school such as this, however he remembered how easily and readily he placed his own son here.
He walked to the same office he had taken Obi-Wan too when he was enrolled. That had been the first time he had ever to step into the school and its condition horrified and angered the former Jedi master. The children less fortunate suffered the most from the poverty of their parents. Education was not that good here.
How will Damien ever get into a good University graduating from this school?
Qui-Gon was escorted to the principle's office. He noticed Obi-Wan as he stood in a corner of the office. Obi-Wan could not turn around and see his father, he didn't have too. He could feel his presence and when the secretary escorted his "Dad" to the principle's office, Obi-Wan could not penetrate his dad's shields to know exactly what he was feeling right then but he could through the force feel waves and waves of anger churning just beneath the surface of Jinn's exterior.
I bet he is going to kill me for this. Well not kill me but I will probably wish I were dead.
What Obi-Wan did not know was that Qui-Gon's anger for him was two-fold. Jinn blamed him for Damien's dismissal from his school; his chance for a future.
Mr. Allen extended his hand in greeting Mr. Jinn.
"Mr. Jinn I hate to call you away from your farm, but this has to be taken care of. I am aware you were a Jedi and possess the powers of the force. However I did not now that your son was blessed or in this case cursed with it also."
Jinn was a little offended.
"I did not know it was required of me to tell you of his force abilities."
"Maybe it would not have been if the child was courteous and taught or at least told not to use any of his abilities while at school, certainly not use them to bring harm to another. The Childers' boy, Mica had to be taken to the hospital for a broken arm because of your son and his freaky power."
Now the big master was in a rage, not for what the man said about Obi, for he was not even in his mind. To insult the Jedi or the force its self was atrocious Jinn taught.
"Being a Jedi or possessing the force is not freaky sir and I don't care for it to be called as such."
"Sorry Mr. Jinn if I have gotten your nose out of joint but that's what I call it when someone uses it to harm another and a child at that."
Mr. Allen would not relent on his stand no more than Jinn would stop defending the Jedi and their power. However the man did have a point.
"Very well, I will admit it is not the Jedi way to do harm with the use of the force."
"As I understand it the child was not trained in the way of the force or to be a Jedi."
"Yes but what does that have to do with anything."
"Because I can not have him here if he uses it against another in anger."
Jinn had to argree anger and force powers did not worked well together. It was called the dark side but he would not bother to explain that to this layman who surely knew nothing of the Jedi.
"What has to be done to insure he stays in school?"
"Yes well a education is promised to all although I will admit we are small. I am sending the boy home and he will stay there the next two days. Come Monday when school resumes he's welcome to come back if you are assured that he understand this must ever happen or I will not only be forced to put him out of school but I will have him prosecuted. I know there are ways to tame the force if it is to use a force inhibiter.
//So this one has done his homework on the force. Probably sat there on the computer before I came and looked it up. Does he know how painful and degrading it is too put a force block on anyone let alone a child. That will not happen to Obi-Wan, it can't. //
Not that Jinn was so in love or caring of the boy, he knew a force inhibitor was torture to any force sensitive forced to use one..
"Very well when I am finished with him he won't use it again."
"Good. I personally would have liked to have used a good sound paddle on him."
Jinn could see he had a couple of different sizes displayed on his wall. The principle noticed Jinn look at them.
"Oh they are only there for show. It has long since been banned to use corporal punishment on a child in school. Shame too, that's why the kids today are so unruly.
Qui-Gon got the sense that this man had used those paddles often and with much fierceness before spankings were banned.
"Well in my household there are no bans on using a good cane on ones' bottom.
Mr. Allen took a liking to Jinn just then.
He shook his hand while Qui-Gon started to leave.
"You and I might just think alike after all."
//I doubt it, but Obi-Wan will get a sound spanking for this when he gets home. Now I'll get him and I have to tell Damien he will have to come here to school. //
Jinn shook his head in disgust. He felt he was letting his nephew and his dead brother down all because the child had to come and interrupt, no destroy the Jinns' lives.
All three in the hover car that Jinn picked both boys up in remained silent. Obi could feel the raging anger and absolute hate felt for him right about now.
Damien held his tongue about Obi-Wan, because he had never witnessed his uncle exhibit such anger as he had with the councilor at the school. He didn't have to be a Jedi to know Qui-Gon Jinn was fuming. Damien hated to be put out of his school and he blamed Obi-Wan for it. The only thing that could be gleaned from this entire mess was that his Uncle Qui-Gon blamed Obi-Wan as much as he did.
//I will see that he gets paid back for what has been done with him. I will never get in the good universities if I have to graduate from that run down little school It is good enough for a "bastard" child but not for me. I must have the best, just like father. //
Obi-Wan knew he was in for it. No matter what his "dad" was angry over, what happened or supposed to have happened with Obi using a force push was a trumped up lie. Qui-Gon never bothered to confront Obi-Wan about it.
//He didn't even ask to here my side to see if I did what I was accused. He wouldn't believe me anyway.//
Jinn took the last curb too sharply and the wheels squealed. He rubbed his brow again because of a headache he was getting.
//That is all I have had since the boy came is one big headache. Now he has done it. For using the force he will feel a little pain of his own deposited soundly on his bottom as soon as we get home//
The thoughts were to reassure himself that he was going to punish Obi-Wan for using the force and not for the trouble he had caused Damien by getting him thrown out of school. Because of Jinn's indiscretions, the preppy school did not want a family with skeletons in their past.
''Obi-Wan Kenobi is my skeleton.//
He felt in some way he had let his dead brother and his nephew down.
Obi-Wan was to take full brunt of Jinn's anger and shoulder all the blame for being the unwanted child. The bad thing was Obi-Wan almost believed it was his fault and not the fault of the two who could not be careful or just abstain, his parents.
Jinn pulled the Hover car in the driveway and once up beside the house, he slammed on the brakes. Damien thought he would be thrown through the windshield by Jinn's slamming the brakes on so hard.
In a low calm tone Jinn spoke to his nephew.
"Damien go on in the house and ask Grandmother to make you a snack. I will be in later after Obi-Wan and I have a long "talk"."
Damien had never been to the barn for what Obi-Wan was going for, but his father used to tell him that is where Damien's grandfather would take Qui-Gon and Amos if they were to receive a spanking. Never was it done in their home.
Damien went on in with a little satisfaction, Obi-Wan was to get punished. He didn't even know the child had done something wrong at school, he honestly believed his uncle was punishing him for Damien's sake, for being there //for just existing.//
Qui-Gon got out of the hover car and waited for Obi-Wan, but the child just sat there. He was in no hurry to receive what his father was going to give him.
The Jedi jerked the door open to the back seat and pulled Obi-Wan out.
//I wish, right now he had a braid. I would have used that to jerk him out of the car. //
He literally dragged Obi-Wan to the barn and stood him in the middle of the it.
"Wait right there. I have to get something."
Obi-Wan did wait. Sweat formed on his forehead as he waited in anticipation of what was too come.
Jinn came back carrying a switch cut from a tree. Not a small one either.
Obi-Wan looked up to see him come in and the look on the big man's face told Obi-Wan just to take what his father would handout and keep his mouth shut. Qui-Gon Jinn was not in a mood to listen to excuses especially when they came from his son.
//He must truly hate me to do this.//
"If I suspect you use the force to ward off the severity of this punishment you will get it over do you understand?"
Obi-Wan only nodded and turned around. He would not give this horrible man who happened to be his father the satisfaction of seeing his tears fall as they were now.
Damien had walked out onto the porch and even heard the swing of the switch and then a small yelp from the boy. He walked closer just so he could hear the boy being punished and got a great deal satisfaction from it.
Obi-Wan after the first and only cry of pain remained quiet with a threat by his father that if he made another sound he would start all over again with the count. The cry that tore from his lips wasn't really from intense pain as it was the shock and humiliating feeling of it. Jinn had intended to swing that switch with power behind it but when the blow was landed it was softer more to shame than to inflict pain. One might say it was not to bring harm so much as it was to bring humiliation and it succeeded.
Ten slaps were aimed and executed on the boy's bottom except, when Qui-Gon inadvertently went a little lower to his back upper thighs.
When finished Jinn threw the switch down as if it had been the direct culprit of his anger and punishment on Obi-Wan and not him. He stood and looked at the boy who was clearly shaking from the tears he shed. Qui-Gon could hear little hitches in his voice for he feared to make a sound for fear his father would pick the switch back up and start over.
There they both remained for a few minutes in total silence.
In the mean time, Damien went back in, unnoticed from his little spying mission.
Finally Jinn broke the silence.
"Now find yourself a corner and stay there, until I come back for you. If you are really lucky I may let you have last-meal. Is that understood?"
Obi-Wan nodded.
"I expect a vocal answer from you, young man. Did you hear me?"
"Yes..ugh…sir."sniffle
Jinn knew then with certainty that the little boy was crying. At that time though he did not care. His entire life had been turned upside down by the boy and now Amos' son, Damien would have to pay for this little one's birth.
Obi-Wan stiffly and slowly walked over to a corner. He thought if he didn't bend his legs so much then the stinging in his upper thighs and behind wouldn't be so bad. While the punishment had not been severe it was something Obi-Wan had never been subjected to in his entire life while with his mom.
Jinn walked to the barn door to leave when he suddenly stopped and didn't know why . Later, when he got the answer to the next question, he would regret he didn't walk out of that barn door without hesitation.
"Well do you have anything to say before I go in?"
Obi-Wan sucked in one long breath and sniffed a couple of times and wiped his nose on his sleeve. Well that is what Jinn thought about as he waited for the boy to say something; his unsanitary habit of always using his sleeve to wipe his nose.
"I just want to ask you one thing ,my most precious beloved father?"
The words spoken might have indicated endearment, but for the venomous tone that belied their affection.
"Still your curt attitude or I can pick that switch back up. Continue if you can speak to me in a more respectful tone."
Obi-Wan adjusted the tone of his voice as best he could with the anger he felt.
"Was I punished because you thought, yes father, you assumed I used the force and punished me without hearing my side. Or was I punished because…"
Obi-Wan thought maybe he would be pushing this angry man too far by saying what he wanted. He had been told this cruel man was his father; yet he always believed a father would love his child. In his heart he had hoped that he would be loved and wanted, before he actually met Qui-Gon.
"Well I haven't got all day. I have to see to Damien and take care of him." Say what it is you wish too."
"O.K. Was I punished because you wrongly assumed I used the force or was I punished because I was born, and happened to have the misfortune of being fathered by you. Tell me "FATHER", was that my fault or yours??……………."
PEACE ewen
" Jinn that is not the Jedi way to be so critical. You have only just met him."
"Remember this Mace I am a Jedi no longer. I can think and do anything I want. Right now I am going to head out of here and take the next transport home. Hopefully I will get there just before dark to feed the animals."
The boy looked incredulously at Master Jinn.
"You certainly never planned to take me to a farm in the country."
"I plan to take you no where."
Jinn grabbed the door knob and started to leave.
Mace prattled on as if Qui-Gon planned to take Obi and ignored his friend's rising anger.
Maybe you can have his last name changed to yours."
"I won't change my last name, the name of my mother to his, a stranger, someone just tells me is my father.."
That brought Jinn's wrath down on the child.
"I didn't and won't ask you too since you won't be with me. Now excuse me Mace."
Jinn started out the door again.
"Good because I would spit on the name Jinn. It is nothing to me. You chose to make me live in a world branded as an illegitimate by all my mother's family. She was alienated from them. It has always been her and I and now that I she is…. she is."
The child could not finish for tears that dripped down his cheeks but he hung his head not willing for this man he hated to see them.
Qui-Gon stopped and turned around when he heard how Kailin had been treated by her family. Jinn had never known of the child and was not sure what he would have done or could have done about it anyway. His life had been Jedi. Now though he still was unwilling to share his life except with his nephew, his brother's son Damien. There just was no place in his life for the child now.
Mace was angrier at Jinn as he could have ever believed himself capable of.
"Very well then Jinn you will need to take him to the Coruscant orphanage and sign his custody over. I have the papers stating you are his father and the DNA testing to prove it. They will need it at the office there at the orphanage. I'll call ahead and have them start the procedure. I hope you will be able to leave for home tonight."
"Can't you do it? I mean I can sign him over to you and…"
"Don't Jinn. How dare you talk that way in front of him. Don't' you see he is already upset?"
Obi-Wan took the sleeve of his shirt and wiped the tears away.
"I'm alright just take me there and let's get this over with. I never wanted to stay with him anyway."
Jinn roughly grabbed the boy's arm.
"Very well Mace I will take him home until I can make the arrangements to do something with him. I have Damien to care for now. He is my priority, my only priority."
"A former Jedi Master can't care for two little young ones?"
Jinn shook the boy he still held strongly with one hand.
"I have no intentions of dividing my time. Damien needs me and I promised him I would be there. I never promised him… this one anything."
"Maybe not but then again he wasn't the one careless enough to let a child be born and then refuse the responsibility of that child, you are my friend and it shames me to have witnessed what I have in this office."
Jinn dragged the boy out the door with him Obi's feet barely touched the floor as his father almost lifted him off of it. Mace stood in the door way and could only shake his head.
//I don't even know the Qui-Gon Jinn that stood in this office today. I plan to discuss this with Master Yoda. There has to be things going on Jinn was not willing to tell us. I almost feel bad for sending the boy home with his father, but where else was he to go?//
Jinn stowed Obi-Wan's meager belongings he carried in a small valise up under the seat. The child had not uttered a word to Qui-Gon since they left the office of Mace Windu. While he did not care for the temple he liked being around this overly large man even less. He knew it was fact that Jinn was his father because of the tests but he hated it, absolutely hated it.
A woman pushing a food cart came by while they sat on the transport and asked if either of them wanted something to eat.
Obi-Wan raised himself up from leaning back in his seat and started to pick things from the cart.
Jinn supposed he planned on him paying for it, but he had only a few credits and had to waste several of them paying for the boy's ticket back to where he lived. It was and unplanned expense.
Qui-Gon ripped the things from Obi-Wan's hand with one violent quick motion and laid them back on the food cart.
"We don't have far to travel and he ate before he left. But thank you anyway."
"So now I have to starve because you are too poor to feed me."
"I have heard all I want to from your mouth on this trip. Let's make a deal I wont speak to you and you don't have to say another word to me. Is that understood?"
Obi-Wan's face turned into a pout and he crossed his arms as he let out a…. "HUMPH"……………...
Jinn could not help but think he sounded like Yoda when he was perturbed about something.
"Little one the only thing actions like that will get you is over my knee with a sound paddle on your posterior. Do you understand me?"
The boy did not know this man well enough to push him further. He thought a swing with a paddle from a man the size of his father could produce a painful reaction on his part. He kept silent.
[]b###In the Jinn farm home###[/b]
Obi-Wan stood off in the corner as everyone voiced their opinions when Jinn had to tell Damien and his mother who Obi-Wan was. Jinn was not one to lie and he felt bad about the situation, but that was nothing compared to how his mother and even Damien took it.
Jealously flared in Damien and even as young as Obi-Wan was, he could see it.
Myra Jinn was livid. She blamed Obi-Wan's mother for the indiscretion of his unwanted birth. At least as far as any one in the Jinn household thought, it was unwanted.
"So now we have to keep her illegitimate child. This is absurd I tell you Qui-Gon. She should have let you know before now."
"Yes well I think she thought it would do no good, that I would feel as I do now. Let's not talk about this in front of the child. I think I may have said to much now."
"She was just not good for you Qui-Gon. I knew and then to pull the deceit…"
She could not finish for the child interrupted her.
"I won't have you say things about my mommy that wasn't true. She was good. She loved me and she never abandoned me like he did. I hate him." [Obi pointed to Qui-Gon]. I don't want to be here any more than you don't want me here. I hate you all."
Obi-Wan ran to the front door and had almost made his escape when a big hand gripped him, pulled him up in the even bigger arms, and carried him to the bedroom. Qui-Gon dumped the boy not too softly on the bed, walked back to the door, and almost tore it off the hinges when he slammed it.
Obi-Wan immediately silenced his protests. He didn't move a muscle for fear of being reprimanded for it.
This man, his father had eyes of blazing blue-silver steal that glared over at the child as Jinn sat down in a big recliner not far from the bed and continued to stare at the boy but not uttering a word to him. He remained motionless. He did not want the child to know he was meditating in Jedi tradition as he sat in that chair.
It was the first time since leaving the Jedi he had ever experienced since a loss of control.
//When my brother was killed I was furious but I was in touch with the force more then, I was a Jedi. No..now I seem to have lost touch with everything I once believed in. Even if I don't want this child I should not have been so blatantly cruel about it in front of him. The little one must be terrified. Still I have no duty to him. The only person I have any obligation too is Damien. His father died at the hands of Sidious for a grudge he had for me. I could not save him but the least I can do is follow through with his dying wish that I leave the Jedi and care for his son. I am at peace with my decision to leave my life as I knew it. I have to be I have no choice. //
Many of Jinn's friends told him, his brother had asked too much of him, quite possibly blinded by the dying concern of a father for his son. They told Qui-Gon that he could see to the boy's welfare and still remain a Jedi. Jinn felt though his best place would be with the boy, until he was at the age of consent, twenty-one. Then was soon enough to go back to a Jedi.
Had the Jedi master realized how much he would miss his way of life? Friends like Yoda, Mace, and several others on the council did not think so. Now Qui-Gon paid for that hasty decision of renouncing the Jedi with a life that just got more and more miserable for him.
I can never become a Jedi again if I can't rein in my temper with one little boy, my son no less. Sometimes even I feel Amos asked too much of me, but I did promise…..
His thoughts trailed off as he looked back up at his son. The son that carried every sweet markings Kailin had. The eyes as blue and clear as the sky, ginger almost strawberry blonde hair, even his mannerisms and flighty nature was gotten from Kaylin. Jinn didn't see an ounce of him in the boy.
Qui-Gon chuckled softly to himself.
//Well maybe he did get a couple of things from me, my stubbornness and pig-headed attitude. He certainly doesn't hesitate to speak up to defend what he thinks is right. Of course he would defend his mother, he does not know what happened between us. He only knows her side and I doubt that she put herself if any "bad light" when retelling the story. [force rest your soul]. //
Although his words were directed at Obi-Wan, his son, his eyes were not. They were fixed on the toe of his boots, his right hand over his brow as he tried to rub away a forming headache.
"Let us get this perfectly clear Obi-Wan. Our paths were not meant to cross. At least in your mother's eyes, for she never breathed a word to me about you or I would have certainly not shirked my duties. I feel she forfeited the right to call on me by her refusal to even acknowledge that she had a son, my son. While I have sympathy for you and your plight, it is not my problem. Since you have no living relatives, except me, you are forced to stay with me until other arrangements can be made. Maybe the Agricorps will take you will without Jedi training since you are a force sensitive or the Healers section there on Bandomeer for your force powers."
Jinn glanced over once to see if Obi-Wan was listening to him, then continued.
"Until then you will have to stay with me here on this farm that you seem already to despise. Things are to be done my way, not a word of objection from you is to come from your lips. When I am not here, my mother will be in charge. Her word is gold. Remember that for I will not tolerate any bad mouthing of her. You are to do as she says understand?"
Qui-Gon was not sure he had handled that right. He had never had much dealings with a child under the age of a padawan and by then the crèche masters had them so well versed in the Jedi ways, they were just miniature adults and they were addressed that way by the knights and masters alike. Yes, he took care of Damien but he was a very mature fourteen-year old.
The child sat on the bed and let self pity take over all common sense he had right then, He so very much would have liked to have been back in his home with his mom right now.
//Oh but she had to get herself killed. I hate her. I hate everyone around me especially him over there. Already trying to find a way to rid himself of me.//
Obi-Wan, who was as stubborn as his father, did not answer.
A thundering voice that seem to shake the bedroom windows came from the big man.
"I didn't here you. I normally don't ask a question twice and I want an answer right now. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?"
Just a squeak of a voice could be heard from Obi-Wan as fear solicited his reply
"Yes sir."
Jinn got up and left the boy just sitting there with no instructions of what he should do and left the room. He went out to visit his horses in the barn stalls for a more tranquil and peaceful setting.
He would find no tranquility in his own home this night with his mother and Damien angry over Obi's insertion into their life and the boy who Jinn felt was going to be a little hellion, sulking in his father's bedroom.
//I might just sleep out here with the horses. Get more rest that way. Everyone has pulled me the way they want. I have no chance to make a decision of what I truly want in this life, my life…………………………….//
#########Two very hard and difficult weeks later.###########
Qui-Gon was out in the barn doing the one thing that seem to bring any happiness now. His life had literally been torn upside down since Obi-Wan, his son arrived. The words "his son", still sounded strange.
Well, when he used them, for he rarely called the child his son. Maybe once when he took him to enroll him in the little public country schoolhouse. It was not a large or well equipped school.
Damien on the other hand, went to the very exclusive boy's school, St.Ives nestled in the beautiful countryside, just below a large mountain. The school was sprawled out on fifty acres of what was once owned by the Jinns. The farm enriched land was once owned by the family Jinn before his father gave it to the school administrators with the assurance that his son, Amos could go there through completion of the years required to enter a Universtiy. Only the best for that son. Then of course there was no financial aid for Amos' son. Qui-Gon's father neglected to secure financial aid for the next generation, his grandson.
//No, I have to pay to see that the boy goes to school on our old home land and pay out my behind to do it.//
If Qui-Gon sounded bitter he was. At least their father how found a way to pay for Amos' expensive desire for only the best. Damien seemed to have inherited that desire for only the best but his father had not financially planned for it. He left his son penniless and the Jinns, his mother and himself, in debt up to their necks. Poor management on the money he had and at one time he had a lot led to Jinn battling everyday to keep Damien in the things, expensive things he demanded.
Jinn was drawn back from his thoughts to the stark reality of his miserable life when he heard his mother call him from the barn door.
"Over here mother. I am grooming Raven."
Raven was the name of Jinn's favorite horse, his mare, Raven. She was a beauty with thick black as coal shinning hair and a beautifully long black mane. Her eyes of coal matched her body coloring.
"You have spent so much time out here lately since that boy came."
"He has a name Mother, It is Obi-Wan, Obi-Wan Kenboi."
"Yes well he is not a Jinn then is he? She couldn't even find the graciousness in herself to name him Jinn, so he would not be branded a illegitimate all his life."
"Mother just let the hatred go of Kaylin, I have."
Jinn was not sure he had completely but it as not because he hadn't meditated on it lately and a lot since the Kenobi child came.
"Well I have two bits of news for you. You'll be spending your day at school, precisely both schools."
"Why has something happened to Damien?"
"Only about the worst thing that could."
Jinn was alarmed.
"Has he been injured?"
Jin held his breath to see what bad news his mother delivered to him.
"No Qui-Gon he is alright physically, but things may never be alright for him again."
"Mother I swear you talk in riddles as much as my former master does."
Jinn thought that would have brought his flustered mother a smile but the sternness in her face told of a serious matter, at least she thought so.
"You have to go to Damien's school. The end of this day will be his last day in class there."
Qui-Gon did not think he had heard right.
"What? How? Mother what do you mean?"
"Seems they can't have a boy in their prim and proper school with his guardian having fathered a child out of wedlock. That said child, Obi-Wan, I suppose is the talk of the town now. I know Hattie had her hand in this spreading gossip."
The former master did not care who spread the rumor. After all, it was not rumor, it was truth and he knew it would become common knowledge but he did not know it would bring so drastic result to Damien for it.
"Did anyone explain to them that Damien should not be held accountable for my indiscretions? "
"Doesn't matter. It puts a black mark on this family and in turn on Damien. He is to be placed in a public school. Qui-Gon why did you bring that little terror here? Amos would roll over in his grave if he knew of this."
"Mother I will go talk to them maybe I can change their mind and as far as calling Obi-Wan a terror, he hasn't caused too much trouble other than disrupting the household with a new member."
"Oh yeah, well I haven't finished with my message for you. Before you go to talk to Damien's principle at his school, you have to stop and pick up Obi-Wan at his."
Jinn froze in mid-stride for he was headed out the barn to clean up in his best, to talk to the administrator of Damien's school.
"What did he do?"
"He used that force of his. The school said he has broken an arm of another boy. Although older I think twelve, Obi-Wan force pushed him with such power he fell on his arm and broke it."
Jinn was in a rage at what his son had done. He hated to have anything Jedi, brought up to him and now the boy was using his powers.
//That imp is in so much trouble. When I am finished with him he won't be able to sit down for a week………………. //
Jinn entered the tiny little school. The tiles on the floor were occasionally missing. The paint flaked from the walls. Anyone who could afford too, sent their children to a private school. Most of them in that area were rich farmers or even richer horse breeders. Jinn was neither. He struggled to keep Damien in school at St, Ives, but now....even that would not help. The boy would have to come here, where classes where together two or three grades because of the of the money for instructors and its small size.
Qui-Gon cringed with the thought of Damien being put in a school such as this, however he remembered how easily and readily he placed his own son here.
He walked to the same office he had taken Obi-Wan too when he was enrolled. That had been the first time he had ever to step into the school and its condition horrified and angered the former Jedi master. The children less fortunate suffered the most from the poverty of their parents. Education was not that good here.
How will Damien ever get into a good University graduating from this school?
Qui-Gon was escorted to the principle's office. He noticed Obi-Wan as he stood in a corner of the office. Obi-Wan could not turn around and see his father, he didn't have too. He could feel his presence and when the secretary escorted his "Dad" to the principle's office, Obi-Wan could not penetrate his dad's shields to know exactly what he was feeling right then but he could through the force feel waves and waves of anger churning just beneath the surface of Jinn's exterior.
I bet he is going to kill me for this. Well not kill me but I will probably wish I were dead.
What Obi-Wan did not know was that Qui-Gon's anger for him was two-fold. Jinn blamed him for Damien's dismissal from his school; his chance for a future.
Mr. Allen extended his hand in greeting Mr. Jinn.
"Mr. Jinn I hate to call you away from your farm, but this has to be taken care of. I am aware you were a Jedi and possess the powers of the force. However I did not now that your son was blessed or in this case cursed with it also."
Jinn was a little offended.
"I did not know it was required of me to tell you of his force abilities."
"Maybe it would not have been if the child was courteous and taught or at least told not to use any of his abilities while at school, certainly not use them to bring harm to another. The Childers' boy, Mica had to be taken to the hospital for a broken arm because of your son and his freaky power."
Now the big master was in a rage, not for what the man said about Obi, for he was not even in his mind. To insult the Jedi or the force its self was atrocious Jinn taught.
"Being a Jedi or possessing the force is not freaky sir and I don't care for it to be called as such."
"Sorry Mr. Jinn if I have gotten your nose out of joint but that's what I call it when someone uses it to harm another and a child at that."
Mr. Allen would not relent on his stand no more than Jinn would stop defending the Jedi and their power. However the man did have a point.
"Very well, I will admit it is not the Jedi way to do harm with the use of the force."
"As I understand it the child was not trained in the way of the force or to be a Jedi."
"Yes but what does that have to do with anything."
"Because I can not have him here if he uses it against another in anger."
Jinn had to argree anger and force powers did not worked well together. It was called the dark side but he would not bother to explain that to this layman who surely knew nothing of the Jedi.
"What has to be done to insure he stays in school?"
"Yes well a education is promised to all although I will admit we are small. I am sending the boy home and he will stay there the next two days. Come Monday when school resumes he's welcome to come back if you are assured that he understand this must ever happen or I will not only be forced to put him out of school but I will have him prosecuted. I know there are ways to tame the force if it is to use a force inhibiter.
//So this one has done his homework on the force. Probably sat there on the computer before I came and looked it up. Does he know how painful and degrading it is too put a force block on anyone let alone a child. That will not happen to Obi-Wan, it can't. //
Not that Jinn was so in love or caring of the boy, he knew a force inhibitor was torture to any force sensitive forced to use one..
"Very well when I am finished with him he won't use it again."
"Good. I personally would have liked to have used a good sound paddle on him."
Jinn could see he had a couple of different sizes displayed on his wall. The principle noticed Jinn look at them.
"Oh they are only there for show. It has long since been banned to use corporal punishment on a child in school. Shame too, that's why the kids today are so unruly.
Qui-Gon got the sense that this man had used those paddles often and with much fierceness before spankings were banned.
"Well in my household there are no bans on using a good cane on ones' bottom.
Mr. Allen took a liking to Jinn just then.
He shook his hand while Qui-Gon started to leave.
"You and I might just think alike after all."
//I doubt it, but Obi-Wan will get a sound spanking for this when he gets home. Now I'll get him and I have to tell Damien he will have to come here to school. //
Jinn shook his head in disgust. He felt he was letting his nephew and his dead brother down all because the child had to come and interrupt, no destroy the Jinns' lives.
All three in the hover car that Jinn picked both boys up in remained silent. Obi could feel the raging anger and absolute hate felt for him right about now.
Damien held his tongue about Obi-Wan, because he had never witnessed his uncle exhibit such anger as he had with the councilor at the school. He didn't have to be a Jedi to know Qui-Gon Jinn was fuming. Damien hated to be put out of his school and he blamed Obi-Wan for it. The only thing that could be gleaned from this entire mess was that his Uncle Qui-Gon blamed Obi-Wan as much as he did.
//I will see that he gets paid back for what has been done with him. I will never get in the good universities if I have to graduate from that run down little school It is good enough for a "bastard" child but not for me. I must have the best, just like father. //
Obi-Wan knew he was in for it. No matter what his "dad" was angry over, what happened or supposed to have happened with Obi using a force push was a trumped up lie. Qui-Gon never bothered to confront Obi-Wan about it.
//He didn't even ask to here my side to see if I did what I was accused. He wouldn't believe me anyway.//
Jinn took the last curb too sharply and the wheels squealed. He rubbed his brow again because of a headache he was getting.
//That is all I have had since the boy came is one big headache. Now he has done it. For using the force he will feel a little pain of his own deposited soundly on his bottom as soon as we get home//
The thoughts were to reassure himself that he was going to punish Obi-Wan for using the force and not for the trouble he had caused Damien by getting him thrown out of school. Because of Jinn's indiscretions, the preppy school did not want a family with skeletons in their past.
''Obi-Wan Kenobi is my skeleton.//
He felt in some way he had let his dead brother and his nephew down.
Obi-Wan was to take full brunt of Jinn's anger and shoulder all the blame for being the unwanted child. The bad thing was Obi-Wan almost believed it was his fault and not the fault of the two who could not be careful or just abstain, his parents.
Jinn pulled the Hover car in the driveway and once up beside the house, he slammed on the brakes. Damien thought he would be thrown through the windshield by Jinn's slamming the brakes on so hard.
In a low calm tone Jinn spoke to his nephew.
"Damien go on in the house and ask Grandmother to make you a snack. I will be in later after Obi-Wan and I have a long "talk"."
Damien had never been to the barn for what Obi-Wan was going for, but his father used to tell him that is where Damien's grandfather would take Qui-Gon and Amos if they were to receive a spanking. Never was it done in their home.
Damien went on in with a little satisfaction, Obi-Wan was to get punished. He didn't even know the child had done something wrong at school, he honestly believed his uncle was punishing him for Damien's sake, for being there //for just existing.//
Qui-Gon got out of the hover car and waited for Obi-Wan, but the child just sat there. He was in no hurry to receive what his father was going to give him.
The Jedi jerked the door open to the back seat and pulled Obi-Wan out.
//I wish, right now he had a braid. I would have used that to jerk him out of the car. //
He literally dragged Obi-Wan to the barn and stood him in the middle of the it.
"Wait right there. I have to get something."
Obi-Wan did wait. Sweat formed on his forehead as he waited in anticipation of what was too come.
Jinn came back carrying a switch cut from a tree. Not a small one either.
Obi-Wan looked up to see him come in and the look on the big man's face told Obi-Wan just to take what his father would handout and keep his mouth shut. Qui-Gon Jinn was not in a mood to listen to excuses especially when they came from his son.
//He must truly hate me to do this.//
"If I suspect you use the force to ward off the severity of this punishment you will get it over do you understand?"
Obi-Wan only nodded and turned around. He would not give this horrible man who happened to be his father the satisfaction of seeing his tears fall as they were now.
Damien had walked out onto the porch and even heard the swing of the switch and then a small yelp from the boy. He walked closer just so he could hear the boy being punished and got a great deal satisfaction from it.
Obi-Wan after the first and only cry of pain remained quiet with a threat by his father that if he made another sound he would start all over again with the count. The cry that tore from his lips wasn't really from intense pain as it was the shock and humiliating feeling of it. Jinn had intended to swing that switch with power behind it but when the blow was landed it was softer more to shame than to inflict pain. One might say it was not to bring harm so much as it was to bring humiliation and it succeeded.
Ten slaps were aimed and executed on the boy's bottom except, when Qui-Gon inadvertently went a little lower to his back upper thighs.
When finished Jinn threw the switch down as if it had been the direct culprit of his anger and punishment on Obi-Wan and not him. He stood and looked at the boy who was clearly shaking from the tears he shed. Qui-Gon could hear little hitches in his voice for he feared to make a sound for fear his father would pick the switch back up and start over.
There they both remained for a few minutes in total silence.
In the mean time, Damien went back in, unnoticed from his little spying mission.
Finally Jinn broke the silence.
"Now find yourself a corner and stay there, until I come back for you. If you are really lucky I may let you have last-meal. Is that understood?"
Obi-Wan nodded.
"I expect a vocal answer from you, young man. Did you hear me?"
"Yes..ugh…sir."sniffle
Jinn knew then with certainty that the little boy was crying. At that time though he did not care. His entire life had been turned upside down by the boy and now Amos' son, Damien would have to pay for this little one's birth.
Obi-Wan stiffly and slowly walked over to a corner. He thought if he didn't bend his legs so much then the stinging in his upper thighs and behind wouldn't be so bad. While the punishment had not been severe it was something Obi-Wan had never been subjected to in his entire life while with his mom.
Jinn walked to the barn door to leave when he suddenly stopped and didn't know why . Later, when he got the answer to the next question, he would regret he didn't walk out of that barn door without hesitation.
"Well do you have anything to say before I go in?"
Obi-Wan sucked in one long breath and sniffed a couple of times and wiped his nose on his sleeve. Well that is what Jinn thought about as he waited for the boy to say something; his unsanitary habit of always using his sleeve to wipe his nose.
"I just want to ask you one thing ,my most precious beloved father?"
The words spoken might have indicated endearment, but for the venomous tone that belied their affection.
"Still your curt attitude or I can pick that switch back up. Continue if you can speak to me in a more respectful tone."
Obi-Wan adjusted the tone of his voice as best he could with the anger he felt.
"Was I punished because you thought, yes father, you assumed I used the force and punished me without hearing my side. Or was I punished because…"
Obi-Wan thought maybe he would be pushing this angry man too far by saying what he wanted. He had been told this cruel man was his father; yet he always believed a father would love his child. In his heart he had hoped that he would be loved and wanted, before he actually met Qui-Gon.
"Well I haven't got all day. I have to see to Damien and take care of him." Say what it is you wish too."
"O.K. Was I punished because you wrongly assumed I used the force or was I punished because I was born, and happened to have the misfortune of being fathered by you. Tell me "FATHER", was that my fault or yours??……………."
PEACE ewen