Authors Note: Inuyasha does not belong to me.
I almost gave up on writing this fic because nobody reviewed it… then gatogirl1 came and stopped me. So I shall devote this author's note in answering her questions.
Ok, Inuyasha never said he hated Kagome in actuality, but she dreamt he had. Her mind is in such disarray after their fight that she's imagining things that didn't happen. Jyaki is the Japanese word for evil energy. It refers to the aura given off by daemons. I've taken a little bit of liberty in saying that there is good bad Jyaki, but that's ok by me. ^^
Um, no I'm not writing this after the Sango / Miroku episode because I don't feel like dealing with Hakudoushi, but I am keeping that episode in mind, just kind of pushing it a bit earlier in the series.
(For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, don't fret, it will all make sense once they dub some more Japanese episodes.)
Hehe, please don't kill me for this, but I really don't like Kouga. I actually started out writing this fic as a joke so I could have him commit suicide, and then I got attached to it and couldn't do something that stupid. So don't worry, no Kouga suicides. ^_^ (but I still hate him… always trying to steal Kagome from Inuyasha, what's he thinking??)
So… thanks to gatogirl1 for proving that people do read this; the same for SoraLoverKH2.
Thanks to Emeraldfire8 for all around rocking, because Dana is just that cool. ^_^
Hopefully I'll put out the next chapter sooner than this one, until then…
Please review!
Please!!!! *Begs*
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Chapter Five
A Girl's Broken Heart
"Do you remember what it was like when your husband died? Do you remember how you felt?" asked Grandpa tenderly.
No answer.
"Well, I remember. You were destroyed; you were in tears for weeks on end. That's the reason I moved back in, I had to take care of my daughter again. Now I want you to think about what you are doing to Kagome. She loves him; she's willing to go through the pain just to be with him, and you are taking him away from her, just like your husband was taken away from you…"
This last comment put Mrs. Higurashi in tears.
"You're" sob "right." sob "I've been a terr-" sob "-ible mother…" sob sob
"No you haven't, you were trying to do what you thought was best for her. Your aim was good, but sometimes a parent's judgments can simply be wrong. Now let's cheer up dear, all this being serious is strange for me."
Mrs. Higurashi smiled a bit, thinking about her father, the aged historian who thought he could battle daemons with his seals.
"You're right of course. I don't know what I've been doing…" Mrs. Higurashi wiped the tears from her eyes and continued, "I'm going to go talk to Kagome, if she will let me in… she's locked herself in her room all day. I'll tell her… that… she can keep going back to the feudal era."
***
"Kagome? Kagome dear… may I come in?"
"Why… what do you want? Have you come to take away something else?"
Mrs. Higurashi opened the door, which to her surprise had been unlocked, to find a tearstained Kagome sitting on her bed.
"Oh, Kagome, I'm so sorry… I didn't mean to hurt you like this. I really thought I was doing what was best for you… but I was wrong."
Mrs. Higurashi walked over and embraced Kagome.
"You can go back; I'm not stopping you anymore. But dear, I really want to know what else was wrong?"
"…Mom…" Kagome clutched at her mother tighter, and burst into fresh tears.
"What happened, dear?"
"Mom… I made him run away… He hates me now…"
"Why? What happened?" said Mrs. Higurashi, trying to show all the care and concern she possibly could.
Kagome proceeded to tell her the whole story of that morning, and how Inuyasha said he didn't care about her, and had run off.
"You love him very much don't you…" asked Mrs. Higurashi.
"…Ye… ye… yes… yes, I…"
Kagome struggled for the willpower to say how she felt.
"I love him!
She paused, and, slowly, her face fell, with new, fresh tears, coming to her eyes.
"But he doesn't see it."
"Oh, I think he sees it, otherwise he wouldn't have been so hurt by you ignoring him."
"…but… he said he didn't care…"
***
"So… We were left behind again…"
"Pyo!"
"Yeah, I know Miroku told us to stay behind and guard the village, but he really just didn't want us to come."
"Pyu…"
"I bet they are all out there having fun without us. Well, it's not like I need them anyway! Hmph, I'll show them all! Leaving me behind like this. The great Shippo, I am the only reason we ever get anything done after all. You want to help me get back at them, right, Kirara?"
"Pyo?"
"Oh, this will be fun! Hehehe."
***
"Ah, we're finally back!" shouted Miroku, obviously relieved. "I'm starving! You had to go so far away, Inuyasha…"
Nudging Miroku in the ribs, Sango retorted, "Well, if someone hadn't kept stopping to look at the sights…"
"Look at the sights? I have no idea what you mean," replied Miroku with a look of angelic innocence.
"She doesn't mean the landscape Miroku; she means you kept stopping to look at the wo-mmmph!" Miroku quickly covered Inuyasha's mouth, trying not to see the glowering look from Sango.
Inuyasha, you are so oblivious…
Suddenly Kagome came running, and grabbed Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha! Oh Inuyasha, I'm so sorry I did that to you. Can you ever forgive me?"
Completely taken aback by the sudden appearance of this
crying Kagome clinging to his chest, Inuyasha had no idea how to respond. "Um…
It's ok Kagome, please stop crying…
Um… I'm just glad you…" sniff… "are…" sniff… sniff…
"Shippo!!"
Thud!
With a poof, Shippo transformed back to normal and lay knocked out on the ground by the force of Inuyasha's punch.
***
Back in Kaede-baba's hut, Inuyasha and the others were eating a meal prepared by Kaede.
"And for you Inuyasha, I have some ramen noodles, just like the ones Kagome always makes you."
Inuyasha reached over and grabbed the bowl of ramen out of Kaede's hands while she was still speaking, and promptly began to shovel it down.
"Inuyasha! You pig!" yelled Sango in disgust.
"Dog! Get it right, bitch," snorted Inuyasha through mouthfuls of ramen.
"Hmmph, and he wonders why Kagome doesn't like him," Sango retorted.
"What? What did I do?" asked Inuyasha in an honest voice that seemed unfit for him. "Why doesn't she like me?"
"Like I'd tell you now…"
I'll let his little mind stew for a while; this is too much fun, thought Sango to herself
Inuyasha got up and walked over to Sango with a confused look on his face, "What did I do?"
"Not telling" said Sango as she tried to repress a chuckle. I can't believe how simple manners are such a mystery to him.
"Say, Shippo. Want to bet on how long before Inuyasha storms out?" asked Miroku, making Shippo burst out laughing.
"What kind of monk are you, Houshi-sama??" asked Sango mockingly. "Betting on a poor little doggy. That's awful."
By this point most everyone in the hut was laughing, except Inuyasha, who had just realized that they were making fun of him.
"Oh I get it, that's just hilarious!" Inuyasha said angrily.
He considered leaving but didn't want to prove them right. So instead, he went back to his spot, sat down, and to everyone's surprise thanked Kaede for the ramen.
Ha! They weren't expecting that!
After a few minutes of everybody eating, Inuyasha broke the silence again.
"So where is Kagome?"
"She… went back home after you ran away."
"But that was yesterday morning! She should be back by now."
"Well duh, Inuyasha," said Shippo, always one to voice the obvious. "She's
clearly still mad at you. If you weren't
such a jerk..."
"I am not a jerk!"
"Oh lay off Shippo, Inuyasha's been through a lot too lately," said Miroku in a consoling tone. "It's not like this is entirely his fault."
"Thanks a lot, Miroku." came the sarcastic reply from Inuyasha. "That makes me feel so much better. I think I'm going to… go for a walk."
"We all know you're going to see her, Inuyasha!" yelled Shippo after Inuyasha's retreating form.
The only reply was silence, and then a rock that left Shippo with a large lump on his head.
"Well, you sure earned that one, Shippo."
Everyone in the hut laughed as Shippo rubbed his head.
***
"Goodnight mom… and… thank you. I'm sorry for earlier. I love you."
"I love you too Kagome. I'll always be here for you."
"Thanks mom, that really means a lot to me. I think I'm gonna go to sleep, and I'll head back tomorrow."
"Ok, I hope you sleep well tonight."
With that Mrs. Higurashi left Kagome's room and closed the door.
Kagome, feeling drained from all the events of the past two days, promptly got in bed and fell asleep.
***
"Damnit…" The lone curse came from a tree branch outside Kagome's window. Inuyasha was sitting out there on a limb. Not feeling ok with coming inside with Kagome's mom in there, he had waited for almost an hour on the tree.
Her mom finally leaves and then she falls asleep. Well, I'm not going back now that I'm here. I might as well go in.
A smile spread across Inuyasha's face as he convinced himself to go inside Kagome's room.
She looks even better while she's sleeping.
Inuyasha opened the window and climbed inside the room.
Ah, this room is so full of Kagome's smell. I don't think I'll ever leave.
Forgetting to close the window, Inuyasha went over to Kagome. He just stood there for a while, breathing in Kagome's scent.
Oh man… she smells so good… and… now that I'm this close to her…Wow, she's really pretty. I think I could stand here forever.
After a while Inuyasha realized what would happen to him if she woke up, or her mom came him, with him staring at her, almost naked, sleeping on her bed.
Hmm, maybe I should go back after all. There's no reason for me to stay here… But… I don't want to leave.
Deciding the results would be worth it, Inuyasha continued watching her.
Hmm, it's really cold in here, and she's not wearing much more than a shirt. She must be really cold…
Inuyasha got closer, and saw that Kagome was in fact shivering quite a lot.
Damnit… Why didn't I notice this earlier? Oh! I'm an idiot, I left the window open.
Inuyasha ran over and closed the window, but Kagome didn't stop shivering.
Ugg… What should I do?
He knew what he would like to do, but he wasn't sure if he'd survive the "sits" if he lay down with her.
Looking around the room, Inuyasha found a blanket, and decided it was wiser, or at least safer for himself, to put that over her.
I guess I'll just go to sleep, and talk to her in the morning. Nothing's going to happen here.
After convincing himself that it was ok to sleep, Inuyasha sat on the floor, rested his head against Kagome's bed, and fell asleep.
***
Inuyasha?
"Inuyasha, I'm sorry! I didn't really mean it!"
"I hate you…"
"Wha… what?"
"Go home! Never come back!"
"No..."
"I hate you Kagome!"
"No! This isn't true! This didn't happen!!!! You aren't Inuyasha! You're a dream!! I… I love Inuyasha! And… and… He loves me too!"
***
Kagome woke from her nightmare to find Inuyasha sleeping on the floor.
Stopping herself from screaming, she looked around the room, still regaining composure.
It was a dream… It was a dream… Then… What is this? Inuyasha wasn't here… Well, If this is a dream…
Kagome got off her bed and wrapped herself around Inuyasha.
If this is a dream… then it is a good one.