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Chapter 12


The sun peaked through the branches of the trees surrounding to slumbering couple.

Kagome cracked an eye open, purple robes blocking her view of the world. She sighed and nestled closer to Miroku's body, noticing his arm was draped lazily over her waist. She raised an eyebrow.

Do you think I would have groped you in your sleep Kagome-sama? My, my, my, why is it you think so little of me? he exclaimed in a mocking voice, sensing her unsaid question. She giggled and sucker punched him in the shoulder.

Hey! Shut-up! When have you not' taken the change to grope me? Miroku tilted his head back and laughed, she gave him a silly grin. They lapsed back into a comfortable silence. She proped her chin on the backs of her hands.

Hey...Miroku?

Yes?

How long do you think it will take Inuyasha to realize we're missing and jump to the impossible conclusion of us having one wild night of passion?

I'd say about...5 minutes.

Ah.

Miroku...maybe you'd better get a head start in running. He's gonna smell you all over me sense we slept so close together. she let her sentance trail off. Miroku holding the silly grin all the while.

Kagome-sama, his voice dropped so she had to lean in closer to hear him. Let Inuyasha think what he wants, just promise me you'll sit him if he gets too out of hand. the amusment sparkling in his eyes.

She looked up at the sky. There was a heavy silence. He was looking at her like he wanted something. He continued to watch her with both eyes, almost staring into her soul. Trying to read her like a book. Was her life painted on her face?

How can I _do_this Miroku? I'm not stong enough...I can't do it all again. the last part was breathed out. She felt tears fill her eyes. How come she was so weak? She_had_to be strong...for Inuyasha, for his happiness. She sucked in a sharp breath of air. Gods did it hurt though. It was a constantly twisting knife in her chest.

He reached over to grasp her chin. Looking into her eyes...they were different. Wiser, stronger, sadder...

Kagome-sama, you don't have to be strong all the time. It is human to be weak.

...When I was Kikyo...being weak got Inuyasha...and her...me killed. I can not afford to be weak. You know, she broke off into soft peals of broken laughter. It's worth all the pain...just to see him smile at me...even just once.

She sighed, sitting up. Tucking her chin in her knees'. She let her eye's drift back to Miroku, he was looking at her with such a broken hearted expression.

It must be hard for you too...with Sango, I mean...

Don't say such things at the moment, my dear Kagome, we're talking about you. You never open up to us anymore.

She hid her eyes behind her hair, watching him degectedly through the soft raven locks. Her body felt cold. She didn't like to talk about what she was feeling. At the same time, it was like a ever-pressing weight on her chest, begging to be relised.

When-- she cleared her throat. When I was about 6 of maybe 7 years old. I went to stay with my uncle for the summer...I loved him so much. He was tall and dark...kinda like a shadow. He would pick me up in his arms and swing me around. Even if I insted I was much to old for such games. she gave a crooked smile. He would sing me to bed. He would sing to me all the time. He called me his little Bumble-bee. she looked back at the tree's, the look on her face, it was as if she expected the man, her Uncle, to come running through the trees and pick her up again.

One night...I heard a thump from downstairs...so...I went to go look. My--my Uncle was laying on the ground...there were men. They were kicking him...and kicking him, they kept on asking about the money. One of them spotted me on the stairs. Before I could move, he was on me...I still remember the colour of that mans eyes, the silver chain he was wearing...the smell of his colone. He dragged me down the rest of the way by my hair. she took a breath.

He was yelling at my Uncle, saying So, Kenji! You say you don't have the money? Well, well, well then! Thats okay! We'll just take it out of this little angel's hide, now won't we?' I re-remeber, my Uncle started screaming and fighting to get up. If you touch her so help me God I'll rip you limb by limb with my bear hands.' The man holding me. He...licked up the side of my face. I bit his hand. The next thing I knew, the man held me against the wall by the neck. He punched me in the face, again, again, again, and again. I remember tasting the blood in my mouth.The men were laughing and my Uncle was screaming. The man was cutting off my air. I couldn't breath and he was laughing. she pressed a hand to her mouth.

He asked me if I'd let him fuck me. I kept on shaking my head. My nose and mouth were bleeding and I felt light headed. He said everthing would be better if I let him and his friends sleep with me. I tried to get away from him, from his touch. He just laugh, let me drop to the ground, turned around and shot my Uncle in the head. This was done...I remember, in one fluid motion. Laugh. Drop. Shoot. He kissed me, then they were gone. I threw up where I was sitting. And I sat with my Uncle's head on my lap until the police arrived. Miroku looked pale. He was reaching over to put a hand on her shoulder. She drew back. Didn't he understand?

She knitted her eyebrows. Don't you see, Miroku? It's my fault! If I'd just been brave, and said yes to the men...If I hadn't been so weak, my Uncle would still be calling me Bumble-bee.

Miroku's face had gone almost blank. There was a look of horror so fleeting, she almost missed it. There. He finally understood. She was not a shining star. She was a tarnished, broken sword. Before she could blink, she was wrapped tightly within his embrace. She wiggled...all in vain. He only hugged her harder.

No! Kagome!...no she if at a loss for words he settled for just petting her hair. Murmering sweet nothings. Didn't he see? Why was he doing this? She was a murderer. She killed her Uncle. Her fault. And her only salvation was to make Inuyasha happy. If Inuyasha was happy, she was happy. She loved Inuyasha.

That was how the object of her thoughts found them. Wrapped in each others arms.











SO! HOW WAS THAT!?!?


Thanks to my reviewers...

Dragon Pearl1- *Inuyasha runs away* Heh heh... ^^;

Dark Eyed Mermaid- Yeah, Kagome is just a puddle of self-doubt right now. Inuyasha's all, Oh! Oh, no! *hand to forehead* I belong to Kikyo and I am being a door-knob! Hehe...the was mean of me. Well! Don't be scared! Inuyasha/Kagome all the way!

Pinayazngrl- It's a Inu/Kag fic! Don't worry!

inuyasha-girly-2007- Yeah! An Inuyasha/Kagome!!! As for the other chara...I dunno. I mean I wanna keep this pretty true to the Anime/Manga as posible...which is not very true but...I dunno about another character right now.

lightmiko- Yeah! I know...It did scare some people..heh heh

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