Disclaimer: I do not, in any way, own Lily, James, Sirius or anyone else you see here, except Laiuria Jassin, who I made up. The plot is also mine. J.K. Rowling owns everything else.
All those nights, that we kissed
Are the nights that I miss
Holding hands, I's your man
For sure...
We were young, but secure
What we had was so pure
Innocence, every since
We spoke...
Why do we fall in love, when love will only tear us apart?
Back then the world was ours, everything was so right...(but we were...)
[CHORUS:]
Kissing with our eyes closed so tight
So young, and feeling so right
Never thought that we could do wrong (ohh we were...)
Kissing with our eyes closed so tight
So young, and feeling so right
I can't believe that those days are gone
So much pride, as my girl
Thought I showed you the world
Memories, you and me
So real...
Gave my heart, and my soul
Made you sunshine from cold
All those days, far away
From here...
We danced so close, we held on tight
I never knew that love could feel so right
We danced so slow, we danced all night
Assuming that tomorrow would be bright
We kissed goodnight, you walked on by
The vision of your shadow caught my eye
My life stood still, you went inside
I never got to say my last goodbye...say goodbye..!
[CHORUS (2X)]"Eyes Closed So Tight" by Vi3
It was the next day, and it was extremely sunny and bright outside--the complete opposite of Lily's mood. Ever since Lily had woken up, she had been moping around the house, knowing it was almost time for James to move--or rather, basically leave her. Right now, Lily was sitting on the window seat in her bedroom, staring out of the window at James's house across the street. There was a rather large truck outside his house--Lily supposed it was one of those moving van things that you used to move your belongings to another place.
The front door to James's house opened, and Lily's heart leapt. She hoped that it would be James….but no, it was only his parents carrying a few boxes. James's parents put the boxes in the moving van, and walked back inside the house. After a few minutes, the door opened again, and James walked out this time, carrying a box with--wait, what was that written on the box? Something about--Lily squinted, trying to see the writing on the box. She finally made out the words, which read "Lily Things". Lily's heart leapt again at the sight of her adorable boyfriend and the sight of her name on the box….wait, he wasn't her boyfriend anymore. Lily sighed in exasperation. Why did she have to be so darn stupid last night when James told her that he was moving? She had completely freaked out and told James she never wanted to see him again--when really, she wanted to see him every moment of her life.
James put the box in the moving van and stood outside, staring across the street at Lily's house. For a minute Lily thought he might've seen her staring out her window at him, because he blinked rapidly (like as if he thought he was seeing things), and turned in the direction of Lily's bedroom window, staring at it. As Lily watched, he shrugged and stayed outside, as if he was waiting for something.
James's parents came out of the house, carrying a few more boxes. They put them in the moving van, and then James's dad walked back to the house, then closed and locked the door. Lily realized that they must be done loading their things into the moving truck and were about to leave. With a jolt Lily realized that this would be the last time she ever saw James…ever…
She jumped off of the window seat, ran out her bedroom, ran downstairs and into the living room, flung open the door and ran out of it just as the moving van drove off and James and his parents got into their car. Lily ran across the street just as the car started up and drove away.
"JAMES!" Lily screamed, waving. "WAIT!"
But the car kept on driving, its occupants clearly oblivious to the crying eleven year old girl standing in the middle of the street.
It was a sunny morning on September 1st, and Lily was quickly packing her things for Hogwarts when her mother yelled up to her.
"Lily, dear, it's almost time to leave, you must hurry!"
Lily looked at the clock on her bedside table and grimaced. It was 10:32--time to leave for King's Cross so that she could be on the Hogwarts Express by 11:00! She wasn't even near being finished packing.
"Er…what was that spell I read about in that magic cleaning book?" Lily muttered to herself. She pulled out her wand. "Erm…was it kind of like this?" She gave her wand a little upwards flick and the rest of her Hogwarts things flew into her trunk. Lily gave her wand another flick and her clothes folded themselves and the books stacked into neat little piles inside her trunk. Lily mentally congratulated herself for completing a spell with no prior magic training. (A/N: I know Hogwarts students under the age of seventeen aren't allowed to perform magic outside of school, but for the purpose of this story I'm writing it like that was a rule made after Lily and James left Hogwarts).
Lily closed her trunk and whispered a spell to make her trunk float along in the air. "Locomotor Trunk." The trunk rose into the air and floated along behind Lily as she walked out of her room and down the stairs.
"Mum, I'm ready to go," Lily called as she ran down the stairs, her trunk still following her.
Lily's mother, Rosaline Evans, appeared at the foot of the stairs. "About time, honey! There's only fifteen minutes until it's time for you to be on the train, you're lucky we live so close to--" Mrs. Evans's voice broke off in amazement. "Lily, did you do that?" she asked in shock, pointing at the trunk.
Lily grinned from ear to ear. "Yeah, and I packed my trunk with a spell too!" she said excitedly.
Rosaline Evans gave Lily a big hug. "Oh, honey, I'm so proud of you," she said, smoothing Lily's deep red hair. Lily smiled and hugged her mother back.
"I can't wait, Mum. There's sure to be some awesome kids there and probably a lot of cute guys my age too!" Lily said excitedly. Mrs. Evans smiled sadly at her.
"What about James, Lily?" Mrs. Evans asked softly.
Lily shrugged offhandedly. "Dunno. We're over--he's moving, so I don't really care…I just can't wait to make a bunch of new friends at my new school!"
Rosaline frowned at her daughter's brushing off of James. She knew her daughter loved James probably more than she loved her own family; there was no way Lily could have gotten over him overnight. Mrs. Evans sighed and decided to forget about it. After all, it was Lily's life, which meant Lily had to make her own decisions for herself.
"Oh, well, come on, Lily, we have to go, otherwise you'll be late!" Mrs. Evans exclaimed, putting an arm around Lily's shoulder and hurrying her out the door.
Lily took one last glance at her house as they got in the car. She wouldn't see it for nine months, unless she came home on the Christmas and Easter holidays…which, if Lily made a lot of new friends at Hogwarts, she probably wouldn't want to come home. She sighed, and turned away as her mother called to her. Hopefully she would make new friends.
"Where is it, where is it," Lily muttered to herself as she frantically tried to find Platform 9 ¾. It was 10:55, she only had five minutes to find the platform and get onto the train!
"Oy, Lily!" a familiar voice called to her. Lily spun around and searched the crowd for whoever it was that had shouted to her. Finally she spotted the owner of the familiar voice.
Lily's face broke into a huge grin and she threw her arms around Sirius Black. "Oh my god, Sirius, it's so good to see you!" Sirius laughed and hugged her back.
"It's good to see you too, Lily…so what are you doing here? Going off to vacation somewhere?" Sirius asked.
Lily shook her head. "Erm…actually, I was wondering if you knew where platform nine and three-quarters is?" she asked quizically, tilting her head upwards to look up at Sirius, who seemed to have grown at least four inches, if not more, over the summer.
Sirius's face brightened. "Lily, are you going to Hogwarts too?" he asked excitedly.
Lily jumped up and down, practically shrieking. "Yes, oh my gosh, you are too?" she exclaimed.
"Yep…Remus is too," Sirius said, grinning. He put an arm around Lily's shoulder and they started walking toward a brick wall between platforms nine and ten, pushing their trolleys.
"What about James?" Lily asked quietly. "Do you have any idea if he has--magic powers, too?"
"I dunno," Sirius said, shrugging. "Er, I didn't want to ask him, in case he's not going to Hogwarts…Because if I did, then I would kind of have revealed the secret of the wizarding world to him…so I didn't think it was such a smart idea," he said, lying. James was, in fact, coming to Hogwarts, but he had told Sirius that if, by any chance, Lily was going to Hogwarts too, to not tell her that James was also going to be there.
"Oh." Lily was silent for a moment. "Well, er, we better get on the train then."
"Oh, right!" Sirius exclaimed. "Okay, well, it's gonna seem like it'll hurt, but it really doesn't. What you do is walk--or rather, run--towards that brick wall between platforms nine and then. Then you'll find yourself on the platform….If you want, I'll go first," Sirius suggested.
Lily shook her head. "No, that's okay, I'll go first." She took a deep breath and smiled. "Well, here goes." She started running and pushing her trolley at a fast pace, heading towards the barrier between the two platforms. Lily closed her eyes as she got closer and closer to the barrier…she was going to crash!
As she hit the wall, Lily found herself on a platform, facing a black train with the words 'Hogwarts Express' written on it. There were dozens of kids who looked like they were teenagers or maybe a little younger, on the platform with their parents saying their last goodbyes.
"Lily," Sirius said as he came up behind her, trying to catch his breath from running through the barrier.
"Yeah, hurry up and say whatever it is you have to say, Sirius, because in case you haven't noticed, we have to get onto the train," Lily said impatiently, tapping her foot as she looked at Sirius.
"Well, I was going to say that James is right over there, but I guess you don't care," Sirius said breezily, pointing at a dark, messy-haired boy who was saying goodbye to his parents. He grinned at Lily's look of disbelief and pushed past her onto the train.
Lily stared at James for a few seconds as he hugged his mother and then his father. Then she realized it was 10:58 and the Hogwarts train would be leaving soon, so she jumped on the train and took one last look at James and his parents before she went off to find a compartment.
The train compartment door opened and a blonde girl peeked in. "Hey, mind if I sit here?" the girl asked breezily. Without waiting for an answer, she walked in and sat down on the other side of Sirius.
"Hey," Sirius said, grinning. "And what's the name of this beautiful girl?"The blonde girl smiled flirtatiously at him. "I'm Laiuria Jassin. And you are…" her voice trailed off as she stuck a hand out for Sirius to shake. (A/N: Laiuria Jassin is pronounced li-OO-rEE-a jAA-sen…it's just a name I made up, I don't think "Laiuria" is a real name.)
Sirius shook her hand and said, "Sirius Black. Pleased to meet you."
"Well, I'm pleased to meet you too, Sirius. And what's your name?" Laiuria asked Lily, smiling at her.
"Lily Evans," Lily replied shortly. Laiuria raised an eyebrow at Sirius as if to ask what Lily's problem was.
Sirius shook his head amusedly. "Don't mind Lily; she's usually a really sweet girl. It's just that she saw her best friend for the first time in two months after they had a really painful goodbye in July…so she's a little upset," he said.
Lily glared at him. She didn't want him telling some random stranger hers and James's whole life story--especially not some blonde bimbo named Laiuria Jassin. What kind of a name was Laiuria Jassin, anyway?
Laiuria smiled politely. "Oh…well, I understand. I've had many boyfriends before that have just deserted me like that."
"But you're only eleven, right? How could you have had that many boyfriends before?" Sirius asked questioningly.
Laiuria laughed. "No, no, I'm sixteen. This is going to be my sixth year at Hogwarts. You guys are first years, am I right?"
"Yeah," Sirius said, a little disappointed. He had been hoping that this girl would be their age--around eleven or twelve, or even thirteen--so that maybe she would like him, and go out with him. But she was a little more than four years older than him--now he didn't even have a chance of going out with her. Laiuria probably already had a boyfriend…after all, she was sweet, funny, and gorgeous.
"Oh, well, don't worry, I can still make time for first years, even with my busy schedule. I have a date practically every night...guys bribe me with things just to go out with them," Laiuria said, laughing. "I even have geeky guys asking me out--but of course, I don't go out with them. I only go out with popular and hot guys," she said, looking slyly at Sirius. Sirius grinned nervously back at her.
"Speaking of hot, it's kind of hot in here," Laiuria said in a seductive tone of voice. She threw off her Hogwarts robes, revealing a white halter top and faded blue miniskirt. "Would you guys mind if I took off my shirt? I'm about to die of sweat," she said. Lily rolled her eyes.
"Yes, actually, we would mind," Lily said, annoyed. If the girl wanted to seduce Sirius, she could go do it somewhere else as long as Lily wasn't around to see it.
Laiuria glared at Lily. "Just because you're a little eleven year old prude that hasn't...how should I put it? Oh yes, matured...doesn't mean you have to spoil the fun for the rest of us," Laiuria said smugly.
"Yeah, well, at least I haven't matured too much--those must be implants by the looks of them," Lily shot back.
"At least I have something!" Laiuria replied, her voice icy.
"Well at least I--" Lily was cut off by Sirius.
"Girls, girls, enough!" Sirius interrupted. "If you want to have petty arguments sometime when I'm not around, then do so. But now isn't the time. Let's just all try to get along, alright? Otherwise I'm not gonna want to be around either of you," he said. Laiuria and Lily were silent, but continued glaring at each other. "Bloody girls...can never understand them," he muttered under his breath, shaking his head in disbelief.
"Well, I would be quiet if only Lily would stop insulting me!" Laiuria said, folding her arms against her chest.
"Laiuria, I meant what I said!" Sirius said firmly.
"Oh, alright...if only there were some cute guys around here to have some fun with," Lauiria sniffed, glaring at Sirius.
As if on cue, the compartment door opened again and this time, to Lily's astonishment, a messy-haired James Potter stepped through. Whoa, Lily thought. He looks so different from when I last saw him...I wonder if he still recognizes me?
"Hey, Sirius, hey Laiuria!" James exclaimed, grinning. "I heard you guys were in this compartment, so I decided to come and see you. It's been so long since I've seen you, Lai, what've you been up to?" He walked over to Laiuria, who stood up and exchanged a hug and a kiss on the cheek with James. James stepped back from Laiuria and looked quizically at Lily.
"And who's this? She looks awful familiar....but I can't seem to place a name to the face," James said wonderingly. So he doesn't recognize me, even though we've been friends since we were five, Lily thought bitterly. But of course somehow he knows that blonde bitch, Lauraia or whatever her name is.
"James, are you bloody mad?" Sirius exclaimed. "It's--" He was interrupted by Lily.
"Lily Evans, James! Or do you not remember? Has it been an awful long two months for you like it has for me? Have you spent hours in your room, crying because you'll never see me again...because you lost your bestest friend in the whole entire world, the person you loved more than life or the world or anything?" Lily stopped to take a deep breath. James, Laiuria, and Sirius were looking at her with surprised looks on their faces. "Do you know what it's like to actually feel something, James? Have you EVER loved someone that much? Have you, James? Have you?!"
James was silent for a moment. "Yes."
"Who, James? Was it some ditzy blonde girl?" Lily fumed, casting a glare at Laiuria.
"No, Lily, it was you."
"Me?" Lily asked with an astonished look on her face. "Why me?""Because you've been my best friend since I was five or so years old, and we made a promise when we were little that we would never stop loving each other," James prompted, almost eagerly.
Lily's expression faltered. "But why...why did you pick me to be your best friend, and not one of our other neighbors?"
James sighed, a small, content smile on his face. "Because I love you, Lilykins."
"I love you too, Jamesie." Lily smiled happily. Finally she was back together with James after two months of heartbreak.
James frowned. "As a friend only though, right?" he asked hesitantly.
"No....James, I love you as more than a friend. You're my bestest friend forever and I love you as a friend, but I also love you as more than a friend and I don't think I'll ever stop loving you."
"No, Lily, I never made a promise to you that I would love you like that forever," James said in a distant tone of voice, looking over at Laiuria as she blatantly flirted with Sirius, who was paying more attention to the conversation going on between Lily and James than he was Laiuria's heavily made-up face or tight white shirt.
Sirius and Lily turned to stare in disbelief at James. Sirius gave him an extremely angry look and mouthed wordlessly at James. James shrugged in return and turned to Laiuria. Laiuria immediately turned her attention onto James, who seemed much more interested with Laiuria's tight halter top than Sirius had been.
"James, you little prat--" Sirius started, but he was interrupted by Lily.
"So then in what way do you love me, James?" Lily said bitterly. She couldn't believe her ears. Her Jamesie didn't love her as more than a friend after only two months of not seeing her? Lily didn't see how it could be possible.
"As a friend, Lily. Haven't you ever heard of someone loving someone as a friend?" James said icily, tearing himself away from Lairuia for a split second.
Tears started pouring down Lily's face. "Jamesie, my Jamesie, how c-c-could y-y-you?"
"How could I what?" James said mockingly, raising an eyebrow.
Lily shook her head as if to say "What an idiot" and ran out of the compartment, still sobbing.
A/N: So....yeah. revised version of chapter 4. please, please review!!!!