(Sorry this took so long but ya know mental block and all…. Anyways I'd like to thank my friend Kitty for helping me with the production of this story and all that jazz.

Oh and also because recently it has been ignored, of course Beyblade does not belong to me so I don't own it…. At least that's what they think… heh heh heh)

Weak and Powerless

Chapter Four

Kai sighed and sat up closing his eyes in dull pain. He groaned softly and gazed out the window wanting so much more then his present surroundings. Turning to look to the door he swung his legs over the side of the bed and made sure no one was coming. Bracing his left hand against the head board of the hospital bunk, he forced himself to his feet cringing for his weakness. The cursed intravenous hung pathetically from his right arm. He looked at them lazily and then held back a laugh, an angst ridden laugh, one full of hatred for such confinement.

Kai watched the door, then the clock, both in anticipation. Rei was supposed to have been there an hour ago and instead he had left Kai for the time being. He smiled, he was glad to finally have some time alone, or at least that's what he told himself. Really he was anxious. Ever since the emergency he had been debating just what Rei was to him.

Rei loved him? Kai asked himself, how was that possible? Kai had never thought of anyone that way and... Rei was another guy. The blue haired boy sighed deeply and sat back down clutching his tired chest.

The last two weeks since awaking had been difficult for him. There had been endless tests, physical therapy and raw emotions that had kept Kai up long into the nights. He remembered how the raven haired boy had looked at him that night, tears running down his gentle smiling face. How he had held Kai's hand with endearment and protection and been there for him when he had awoken from his silent death. The words he had spoken to Kai had lit a fire within him. He had not known how to react, for he did not understand the conditions of love, and couldn't bring himself to lie to Rei on the subject. His thoughts were filled with Rei now, he could hardly go anytime at all without the amber eyed blader drifting into his mind, leaving him feeling a little queasy and unstable. When Rei smiled at him, he could feel his heart melt, almost as if it had been made of ice and was now thawing to allow him to learn new skills and experience emotions to their full potential.

"Oh Rei," he whispered breathlessly as the door opened, flooding the room with the artificial hall lights.

"Kai! You're awake." Rei grinned and motioned towards his dubbed chair.

"You're late." Kai replied swiftly brushing all ideas of Rei out of his mind, and turning away from the happy boy.

Rei replied by laughing, knowing in his heart Kai hadn't meant that and it was just a reflex. "Well hello to you to. If you would just look at me, I know you would find it in your lonely heart to forgive me, for I have a reason." Rei smiled again obviously excited about something.

The gray eyed patient sighed and shook his head. What the hell had Rei brought him now? He questioned briefly before sighing. At least Rei was wrong about one thing he wasn't lonely, at least not as lonely as he could be, and he did truly enjoy the fair skinned boy's loyal companionship. He only blinked in reply, which Rei took for a signal to carry on.

"I was thinking of ways to help you recover faster and it came to me." He paused and that's when Kai's eye was caught by an object Rei was clutching lovingly in his right hand, which he noticed Rei squeeze momentarily before continuing. "I know everything has been difficult to grasp so I thought I'd bring you something that would help you to focus you're mind a little better." Rei smiled briefly before holding out his gift in offering.

Kai choked back a gasp as he reached longingly for the object in Rei's hands.

"Dranzer." He whispered, removing the beyblade from Rei's palm, however both boys made eye contact as Kai only slowly moved his hand away, allowing his fingertips to brush Rei's as he held Dranzer lightly. The touch made the teammates smile, but the moment was quickly over as Kai realized what he was doing and retracted his hand to his chest. Pressing his loved blade to him, images flashed in his mind.

[Rei and Max back to back. Looks of fear, anger, stupidity from those who wished to hurt. Littered beyblades. A fight. Pain.] The illusions came one after another. [A knife. A wounded boy. Rei. Blood. Pain.]

Kai moaned, agonized by the thoughts. Rei was with him in a second, swiftly leaving his chair and sitting next to Kai with one hand resting on his sweating bare back. Again Kai groaned clenching his hands into fists with Dranzer close to him. His eyes shut fast and his expression showed suffering.

"Kai, Kai, KAI." Rei accidentally shouted out of fear. "Kai. What's wrong?" He asked in vain as the boy collapsed to the bed, nearly ripping out at the intravenous. Dranzer fell from his grip and landed with a soft noise on the floor a few feet away. Slowly Kai recovered until at last he opened his eyes lying on the bed with Rei kneeling carefully over him, both hands pressed to Kai's cold chest.

"Rei," Kai whispered again, "Rei why didn't you tell me?" Rei shook his head not understanding. The pained boy grimaced, an expression lay on his face that was unrecognizable.

"Tell you what Kai?" Rei asked desperately. The silver eyed boy replied by lifting his hand up near the golden eyes of his watcher and gently brushing the scar on his right cheek.

"That I did this to you."

Rei grabbed for his hand and shook his head.

"No you didn't, it was my fault." The smile had been replaced by a frown to Kai's disappointment. He wished he knew away to change that, but it seemed only Rei held such power to make someone else other then himself smile.

"Rei," Kai whispered and closed his eyes, exhausted by the memories.

Rei waited until he felt Kai had fallen asleep before he fell lightly on to his chest, allowing himself to rise and fall with Kai's breathing. Tears of desire fell from his amber sight. Kai had lost all memories of that night and Rei wished that it could have stayed that way however he should have known that the strong leader would somehow over come the barrier of loss. Rei still clutched Kai's hand in his, the other gloved hand was wrapped around Kai's chest. He held tight, but not too much so to wake the peacefully resting boy. He decided that if he didn't let go nothing would happen, at least that's what he wanted. This was the closest he had ever been to Kai, and in his opinion he never wished to leave this moment.

Kai could only feel Rei, he dared not disturb the boy, for fear after realizing Kai wasn't really asleep, he would withdraw his touch. Instead Kai only smiled and carefully, trying to make it seem it a subtle action, placed his left hand on Rei's back. Then sighing he did fall asleep.

~~

The rain had finally cleared up and now the late afternoon sunlight streamed through the clouds to glow gently on Kai's face as he awoke.

"Damn sun." He groaned and rolled over in the bed. Lying next to him peacefully was Rei. He looked so captivating. His raven hair tied loosely behind him had fallen over his shoulders and chest, and his expression was at ease, caring and thoughtful. His silent lips were smiling gently providing the perfect touch to the angelic boy. Kai couldn't help but smile. The moment was perfect and he longed to reach out closer to Rei and... that was as far as Kai's plan went. What could he do? Rei loved him yet Kai hardly knew just what love could mean, and then there was the looming fact that Kai had hurt Rei.

The scar was deep, or had been, he could tell that much. It was still healing but now beginning to turn white. It was the only flaw to Rei's perfect complexion.

Rei also felt the sunlight on his eyes, and slowly stretching, he opened his eyes to see a shocking sight. Kai lay right next to him, not more then a foot away. So close? Had Rei fallen asleep?

Kai had noticed the beautiful boy awaking and had quickly pretended to be asleep so as to not startle him.

How long had he been sleeping? Rei questioned and slowly and subtly made to rise from his sleeping position. He was just about to leave when he felt a touch on his right hand.

"Leaving so soon?" Kai asked modestly, remaining with a certain amount of depth in his voice so as to hide his emotion. Rei's shock changed to a smile as he turned to watch Kai.

"Not if you don't want me too."

"I'd actually like to talk."

Rei cringed knowing that he wouldn't be able to lie to Kai, and instead nodded. The room was silent save the machines that monitored their resentful patient. Rei moved up to the headboard and brought his knees to his chest watching Kai the whole time.

"What happened?"

"Well I went to get Dranzer and they told me they wouldn't be able to administrate him to me for it was part of your personal belongings and-"

"That night." Rei knew better then to have tried to advert Kai's attention from his question.

"You don't need to know." Rei's gaze dropped, knowing what he had said was wrong. He was only proved right as Kai sat up too quickly and triggered pain in his chest.

"I have a right." He replied coughing, then calmed himself down and rested back to face Rei.

"Max and I got ourselves into some trouble and you helped us out. That's all."

"And?"

"And what?"

"What happened to your face?"

"I got myself on the wrong end of a knife." Rei replied trying to make it sound as if it was casual.

"My knife?" Kai dared to ask.

"It was my fault-"

"No what did I do?"

"It was my fault." Rei tried to repeat.

"No." Kai had extensively leaped forward and harshly grabbed Rei's shoulders. The amber eyed boy replied with shock and sank backwards trying to escape Kai's brief anger.

"Stop lying to me to benefit you!" He managed to yell silently. " You're being selfish in the respect that you want to protect me from the truth. Again I ask you, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED THAT NIGHT!"

Rei was more then startled as he began to fight Kai off, but his passionate hate for lies held Rei pinned, until at last he sighed.

"I'll tell you," he hesitated, "but I still believe that it was my fault."

"I don't care who's fault it was." Kai replied calming down but not removing his hands from Rei's shoulders. "Only that I know what happened."

Rei told him most of the story explaining how if it hadn't been for Kai, neither of the two Bladebreakers would have escaped as successfully as they did. When he got to the part where he had heard Kai cry out in pain, his thoughts dwindled.

"I reached for your shoulder with full intentions on helping. I know in all my years of training, never take a fighter off of his or her guard however... my... my desire..." Rei looked down again.

"Your desire?" Kai was left to search the obsidian haired boy's expression with confused desperation for the truth and to learn of how he had hurt his companion. Rei nodded in response.

"My desire to help you, to reach for you and keep you safe. You protected me and I wished only to help, not to cause you harm." He sighed sadly, the room held still, full of remorse. "I was selfish, you were confused by my action obviously, for you turned around and caught me with your knife."

The room held almost no noise at all as Kai let his hold on Rei slip, looking down to the bed sheets he shuddered. Knowing the story had helped his mind to form clear memories of the night. He remembered the blood and pain, and finally he remembered watching as Rei fell to his knees, and Kai had been consumed by the swarm on angry nobodies.

~~

[Rei shut the door quietly after glancing at Kai one last time. The two shared a room, they always had in hotels during the tournaments. Rei was the only person who had ever understood Kai's silence and therefore Kai accepted him.

Kai opened his eyes, the spell of his silence obviously broken as he sat up and easily walked to the window, trying mildly not to listen to the happy voices of his team mates.

He was taught to be alone. To be alone was power. The minute you tied yourself up, you became influenced and weak. Kai never wanted to be weak or powerless. He was strong full of determination and still held it in his heart to be dominator to anything he ever came across. He refused to be like the others, naive and carefree to the wrongs around them.

Kai knew evil. He knew it's first name and spent much of his life taking orders from it, and here was a perfect example of those who lived life too freely.

He didn't need 'friends' as Tyson put it. Nor 'teammates' as Max would say, and he most certainly didn't need 'help' even if it was from Rei.

So it brought him to that window to watch out for that so called team. The laughed happily together as they headed for the park. Kai surveyed the area watching Rei closest. The others had moved on ahead, but Rei held back walking deliberately with patient ease across the grass. At one point he turned to gaze at the hotel and Kai had to move from the window so as to not be seen. He was too far away to read Rei's expression but he was almost positive it would be a lonely one.

Rei had always sought out Kai for help. Kai knew that well and seemed to almost take pride in it, though he rarely responded with what his companion searched for. The determined boy refused to be weak.

Kai liked Rei. Rei understood him, knew when he wanted to be alone and when he wanted someone to follow, even if Kai wouldn't admit his insecurities. Rei knew just how to comfort Kai without comforting him at all, and how to push the right buttons to manipulate his strength.

Kai hated Rei. Rei was the only person that understood him, and could use that against him, though the amber eyed boy never would. Rei knew just who Kai was and that scared Kai to think he had accidentally let someone get to know him.

Some activity deeper into the park caught Kai's attention. It was some sort of party for the New York sort. He was about to turn away and ignore it when he noticed Rei branch off from the group, with Max in tow. They were headed straight for the event.

This angered Kai, at least he thought it had. Really it worried him to think Rei was headed towards certain danger. Quickly he turned to the door and followed in the direction of the others.

He held back not wanting to alert Rei in case he was wrong and instead he just watched. When they had encountered the older boys he had the feeling that the beybattle would solve the problem. Kai had faith in the Bladebreakers, this would be an easy match even against the numbers.

It was then that the two boys had been surrounded and Kai had taken action. He launched Dranzer to lead their attention away.

The fight had begun.]

~~

Kai remembered. He had hurt Rei, it had been his fault he had left it too long. He had hoped that Rei would be all right and in turn waited to long to take action.

A knock came at the door and both boys looked up to see Rose smiling.

"Mister Hiwatari? We will be taking away the intravenous now." She moved to the other side of the bed and began to disable the wires. Rei watched entranced as the woman gave Kai back his freedom. Kai remained emotionless, numb from the pain that was falling on him all at once.

"There." She smiled again and turned to leave before turning back to Rei. "I'm sorry son but Kai has some final tests tonight and I would prefer if you didn't spend the night. However I know it will be hard so I expect you back first thing tomorrow morning." She winked at him and left.

"I'm sorry Kai." Rei spoke turning his attention back to Kai. The slate haired boy had taken to gazing out the window again, clutching his now unrestrained arm. He turned to Rei and shook his head.

"I want to be left alone now Rei." He replied, not exactly with anger however not with much lightness either. Rei understood and nodded knowing it was getting late anywise. He tried to smile one last time at Kai, but Kai had returned to gazing out the window. He shook his head sadly and quietly let himself out.

~~

The next morning Rei went to the hospital and Kai wasn't there.