Despair
Morgause stood at the highest tower of Castle Tintagel, a solitary figure
in the night. Her faded auburn hair blew about her face, and the ocean
winds whipped at her, as if trying to pluck her up from where she stood.
Morgause peered down into the darkness below, at the violent waves that
crashed against the boulder-like rocks, surporting the castle. She took a
step forward and pressed herself against the solid stone wall that
separated her from the ocean. The waves below resounded against the rocks
and a fine mist of sea water chilled her to the bone.
Thrust into reality, Morgause closed her eyes and visualised throwing
herself from the tower onto the rocks below. Her striken face was seized
with unpertuable grief as her heart wrenched sickeningly in her chest. She
thought of her niece Morgaine and her face softened. Her lips hinted at the
shadow of a smile.
Morgause pressed her hands against her cheeks, desperately. The pain that
had grown incredibly over the years had intensified to agony. She opened
her eyes and they blazed, like torches in the darkness as she gazed around
her. Her world had fallen and so had her influence. Mordred was dead and
the Saxons had overrun Briton. Christianity shaped the new world into a
world for men. There was nothing for her.
Tentatively Morgause climbed onto the separating wall. She swayed as the
slightest breeze threatened to blow her into the violent waters below, but
she did not fall. As she peered into the far distance of the ocean she
thought she heard the cry of a whale. It seemed to beckon to her, in its
sad, haunting way. It seemed to say Jump my sweet, jump and be free of all
your woes and worries. Morgause held her arms limply at her sides and took
a shuddering breathe. A small smile, that had not been seen on her face for
many years, played across her mouth and truly lit up her brilliant eyes.
Her face no longer seemed full of grief, instead it seemed young and
beautiful as it once was. Then, without a parting glance, Morgause flung
herself from the tower into the darkness of the ocean below.
